ThothHermes:
Depression is a spirit.
I want to you to download and listen to any three Joshua Selman messages. You will not want to kill yourself again.

Unfortunately I am Atheist.
Such messages don't move me.

Mamayam:

Unfortunately I am Atheist.
Such messages don't move me.

Atheism is also sponsored by the spirit of deception.
Humor me. Just do what I said. What have you to lose?

OP, I had wanted to mention that you should not be afraid to mix antidepressants if you need to. I was at one time on both venla-faxin and mirta-zirpine. I quit as using mirth a couple of weeks later because I was sick of the change in eating habit and the loopy dreams that resulted.

ThothHermes:
Atheism is also sponsored by the spirit of deception.
Humor me. Just do what I said. What have you to lose?

Stop encouraging that dude. It's a scam.