I am old enough to watch porn no doubt, but unlike my mates i only get off to "Rape Porn". I love that feeling of forceful penetration or the fact that a young lady is being taken advantage of, i love to see, this is not because of my hatred for the feminine beings No. This is just what i turned out to be after so many years, i love that feeling of someone being taken advantage of, so while my mates would love to see johnny sins or mia khalifa, i would be busy typing the words "Raped", "Forced" and the others in the search box of the Xvideos site.

I'm also dealing with the chronic urge of Masturbati0n, i have a very high libido, don't get me wrong, i mean in the abnormal way. Although i would say jerking off have saved me from a lot biittches out there(You know what i mean) But i honestly never feel good about myself everytime i climax on my bed with my phone on the right hand, rape porn still on play...
It all started when i was only nine years old.

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Accept you’re messed up. This explains your anger toward women.

There’s light to be seen, Bro! Put off the masturbation and porn habit and find it.

Women are not our enemies. Granted, they might be pests, yes still, a woman, almost any woman in fact, has the innate power to convert 10 to 10,000,000. They make good employees, partners in business

This is definitely not going to be easy letting out but, i have to.

I used to be taken advantage of by a househelp we once had, every night, she would call me off my siblings who would be sleeping, bring me to her room and start touching me in places i never even knew had importance.

I was only nine and in pry 2 then i think, i knew absolutely nothing and she would take advantage of my tenderless to sexually satisfy herself, this happened so many times i started to like the idea. I became the normal routine for me to wake up in the middle of the night and head for her room so she can UnCloth me, tickle my little penniis until it starts ticking up. Then she gets on top of me, pin my hands to the bed and then bounce on my tiny waist till she's done!

My whole life i viewed s£x as what i experienced back then and i began to grow and mature, i realise that only situations like that could get me hard again.

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Wow, you've really been through a lot.

You think i hate women? But apparently its beginning to look like my life was programmed to hate that gender. I just shared a terrible part of my life here, now alongside the kind of mother i have and then the results of my past relationships, do you think your females are good

Her name is "Promise", i called her Aunty, where is she now? I don't know but i do know that its been a lot of years, she would have gotten married by now and maybe even had kids, living a normal married life. And she would have forgotten the little boy she took advantage of years ago!

I was exposed to s£x early, not just that though, i was exposed in the roughest way possible. She left so many marks on me, ones i will have to live with for the rest of my life.
She tinted my lifestyle, i easily get hard on seeing any girl, i literally mean any girl and anywhere. Little touches on my skin could trigger my pennis, i want to fvvck everytime but i can't rape any girl because that the kind of sex that works for me.

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I would call that my strength, because like a hungry beast i want to feed on flesh but i won't because it would affect the life of another. I'm a victim, a traumatized one and i would love to share the pain with the same gender that did this to me but i somehow found a way to cage myself in even with all this anger and resentment.

I want to pin down girls in corners and forcefully penetrate them from the back, till they bleed! That fantasy is so good to me i'm actually getting hard now that i'm typing this shiit!
I'm the most powerful of my being, there might be alternate timelines where i didn't go through all this but i'm pretty sure my otherselves wish they were as strong as me.

Your strength does not lay in your physical embodiments neither does your physical pain mean much, i would heal.
Your biggest strengths lays in your emotions and psychology as it is emotional and psychological pains that could last for a lifetime...

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Following...try to subdue the urge bro,and do see a therapist too.The REDPILL Squad are behind you

I have seen multiple views on RAPE, many women and stupid men inclusive just blindly conclude that males can't be sexually molested. Some even go as far as saying that we enjoy it and that the female molestor is just doing the male a favour with free s£x!

You see thats the thing, over the years we have defined RAPE as forcefully sexual intercourse and this definition can only apply to men!
Nobody wants to take the Rape story of a boy serious because everybody would just conclude that he enjoyed it, absolute balderdash!
What about the boys who turn out like me? Do you think its okay for people like us to walk freely on the streets at any hour? For crying out loud, i contain myself so i don't have to maybe drug a random girl, tear her clothes and forcefully thrust her till she bleeds! Thats what i feel like doing everyday you ignorantly blind bastardds!!

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TheGidRedpiller:
I am old enough to watch porn no doubt, but unlike my mates i only get off to "Rape Porn". I love that feeling of forceful penetration or the fact that a young lady is being taken advantage of, i love to see, this is not because of my hatred for the feminine beings No. This is just what i turned out to be after so many years, i love that feeling of someone being taken advantage of, so while my mates would love to see johnny sins or mia khalifa, i would be busy typing the words "Raped", "Forced" and the others in the search box of the Xvideos site.

I'm also dealing with the chronic urge of Masturbati0n, i have a very high libido, don't get me wrong, i mean in the abnormal way. Although i would say jerking off have saved me from a lot biittches out there(You know what i mean) But i honestly never feel good about myself everytime i climax on my bed with my phone on the right hand, rape porn still on play...
It all started when i was only nine years old.

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Bro,

One's mother and sisters are cool to him, does not mean that they are cool to outsiders.

That's why they (women) hardly become friends with themselves. They know themselves.

Even if they are friends, their friendship does not stand the test of time as that of guys.

Only the redpill can liberate women from wicked tendencies.

Actually, men allow their excesses, however men can as well tame the excesses.

Women have what it takes to make life more better for everyone, but they don't know.

The redpill will help men to help them.

I'm pretty sure 80% of all true Rape cases against men started like this.
You see i always deduced the fact that nobody turns out a monster for no reason, no man in his right senses would just wake up one morning and start thinking of the girl he's going to make his next Rape victim because i have lived it!
Something was triggered somewhere, you just have to dig it out!

I swear i wish i could have s£x the normal way, me and her face to face on the bed while i go in with her lips against mine but i can't. I would love to see her in pain instead because that would portray me taking advantage of her, i have to take advantage of her and she can't act it.

I'm just feeling sorry for that little lad who is being taken advantage of right now somewhere.
If i could reach him i would have motivated him to speak up and keep none of this hidden because he might be enjoying the beginning but later he could turn into something unexpected by even him.

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may God help and have mercy on you

Iyaebe:
may God help and have mercy on you

Keep the prayer's for your self,you need it most....

My definition for RAPE: It is the scandalous of act of taking advantage of the opposite s£x in conjunction with your exceeding power over them.
That is the fact that you want to sexually satisfy yourself with someone of lesser abilities or lesser exhibitions of your power e.g physical strength, knowledge, or prowess as the case maybe.

The male is taking advantage of the girl/lady with his physical strength, while the female could be taking advantage of boy with her knowledge and possibly physical strength as the case maybe!
LET THAT SINK! Because thats exactly how it should be defined.

Now you know a dark personality of the famous GidRedpiller on nairaland.
Me? i just accomplished a mission, and that is to enlighten men even more about what they might not know yet or might know but don't very much insight on.
I'm working on myself, i will stop being like this, i will follow a masturbation curbing thread and go into action.
PROTECT YOUR MALE CHILD!!

TRP IS GOLDEN!!

I feel for you and the psychological damage you have passed through over the years to become what you are now. Help is always at the corner and you can find it. It’s sad that male sexual abuse is under reported and always ignored and overlooked. The focus has always been on the female gender. This disparity has left alot of sexually abused men damaged.

Your story is an example of how such an abuse can ruin a naive boy taken advantage of by an adult. I pray you get needed help because rape will ruin your life. Find help, find peace.

Haakeem:

Keep the prayer's for your self,you need it most....

Why do you think I need it most?

And some stupid men on another thread were supporting pedophilia.

Haven't you ever thought of seeing a therapist

Maybe you can go into BDSM, with girls who are willing. Maybe it will help.

Iyaebe:
Why do you think I need it most?

Get out of this thread.

Every redpiller has got one or two bitter experiences and decided to that route and hating on women as well.No redpiller will truly and boldy say it out that he joined the redpill without any bitter experience like the op

siofra:
And some stupid men on another thread were supporting pedophilia.

Haven't you ever thought of seeing a therapist

Maybe you can go into BDSM, with girls who are willing. Maybe it will help.

Are you trying to put me in a fifty shades of grey situation? Because you are very stupid for that.

TheGidRedpiller:
Get out of this thread.

I'm not going out but here to console you and tell you that things will be alright, just be positive and try to see a therapist. I've read your other threads and I can say behind this harsh attitude you portray lies a good heart only if you can see a therapist who will work with you.Only if we are in the same location I'd love to meet you

Iyaebe:
Every redpiller has got one or two bitter experiences and decided to that route and hating on women as well.No redpiller will truly and boldy say it out that he joined the redpill without any bitter experience like the op

Yes many redpillers come out of bitter experiences, but are you telling me that they are wrong to Like i said earlier, get out of this thread, i put a lot of emotional strength to create it and its not for your likes.

TheGidRedpiller:
Yes many redpillers come out of bitter experiences, but are you telling me that they are wrong to Like i said earlier, get out of this thread, i put a lot of emotional strength to create it and its not for your likes.

Tone it down boyyy,I'm the last person that'll pick a fight with you.Try to be positive, let your good side shine and overshadow your dark past.Start by forgiving and letting go of so many things that brings hurt to your heart.

TheGidRedpiller:
Are you trying to put me in a fifty shades of grey situation? Because you are very stupid for that.

What's wrong with having a kink or fetish that is perfectly legal, though yours was forcefully induced at a young age. Sorry for that. I only suggested what might help.

Most of us were raped and molested at a young age. But what matters is the way we handle it. I understand that this may be your way of coping (hating on women) but you need to let go of all this bitterness. It's never easy. But at a young age I tried with all my heart. I tried to let go. It worked because of my nature. I don't know if it will work for you. You're tooooo bitter.

Lastly see a therapist. Go for therapy. It will help. But it will be a long process. And kinda expensive too.

TheGidRedpiller:
Are you trying to put me in a fifty shades of grey situation? Because you are very stupid for that.

Don't follow that advise, it will only worsen the situation, every healing you'll ever get starts from your mindset

iamadonis22:
Accept you’re messed up. This explains your anger toward women.

There’s light to be seen, Bro! Put off the masturbation and porn habit and find it.

Women are not our enemies. Granted, they might be pests, yes still, a woman, almost any woman in fact, has the innate power to convert 10 to 10,000,000. They make good employees, partners in business

You had to be my first commenter?

COOL10:
Wow, you've really been through a lot.

What exactly is your main shock here?

I was molested and raped too by my aunt's househelp, she was 10 years older than me, i was just 12 then.It affected me alot to the point of me hating women.

I think mine was worse because she was actually dating me, like Real love affair, when i see her coming, i will be shaking and very scared, it took years for me to overcome it, i still hate her till date.

Rape and child molestation is very bad, irrespective of the gender involved.

#Men gets raped too, and its no fun, infact if we are to do the survey, you will find out that guys are equally molested as girls , but we hate speaking out and even when we do, nobody cares to listen.

blanquito:
I was molested and raped too by my aunt's househelp, she was 10 years older than me, i was just 12 then.It affected me alot to the point of me hating women.

I think mine was worse because she was actually dating me, like Real love affair, when i see her coming, i will be shaking and very scared, it took years for me to overcome it, i still hate her till date.

Rape and child molestation is very bad, irrespective of the gender involved.

#Men gets raped too, and its no fun, infact if we are to do the survey, you will find out that guys are equally molested as girls , but we hate speaking out and even when we do, nobody cares to listen.

NOBODY!

gfon:
Following...try to subdue the urge bro,and do see a therapist too.The REDPILL Squad are behind you

Believe me i'm doing my best!

May this thread be useful for men out there.

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