It's going to be an intermediate-long read but please endeavor to read through.

It happened that I went to buy petrol at the filling station in my area and because of this present fuel scarcity, the queue was quite long as vehicles, motorcycles, and people with Jerry cans are being attended to by a single pump.

I had waited more than an hour without it being my turn and after some time, a guy just arrived and went straight to the pump to buy the fuel but the attendant didn't attend to him and he was asked to join the queue so he waited. But he happened to know the boy whose keg was directly in front of mine and he waited by him. I suspected that he was going to give the keg to him to buy on his behalf and that's exactly what he did when he was the only one left to buy petrol before me. I was angry, i raised alarm at the injustice and how what he did was terrible. I complained bitterly about how I've been standing for hours and how he can't just collect someone's keg and put it right in front. They issue was so chaotic that the boy before me threatened (and almost) slapped me. The other people on the que were all begging me not to answer them any longer and they all sided me. So I kept quiet and they were all attended to.

Not up to 5 minutes later was when someone i know who I hold in high esteem because of several things he has done for me and he's also like a big bro to me, came to me buy petrol for him. He gave me the keg and the money and I was right on the queue. Deep in my mind, I didn't want to collect it but i didn't want him to feel disrespected so I shamelessly collected it. After that, a guy who was about 6 position behind me shouted that "That's why Nigeria can never be better again!" I wouldn't have felt this bad but i made the matter worse by shamelessly trying to defend myself even when I was obviously wrong. Not long after was when this guy took his keg out of the queue and went straight to the pump to buy. Nobody was bold enough to stop him, even i was just bending my head and looking for how to cover my head in shame.

I later went back to the person who gave me the keg and I told me i can't buy for him again. He later collected his keg and was even later able to buy before I did.

I just bought my petrol and went straight home feeling very sad. I can't believe I became who i was criticizing within a split of a second. It happened so fast I couldn't get the chance to think of the right decision. I'm fighting the urge to believe that I'm that bad, corruptible person.

I feel terrible bad and I will henceforth seek to never find myself in such scenario again. Please if you have books or anything that can help, I'm really open to learn and move forward in life. I don't want to be a bad person regardless of whichever situation I find myself.
I'm depressed. Really depressed.

Lalasticlala

Sorry for not reading ur story


i barely read long story


so quote me. . In a nutshell, what was ur story all about?

YomiFaruk:
It's going to be an intermediate-long read but please endeavor to read through.

It happened that I went to buy petrol at the filling station in my area and because of this present fuel scarcity, the queue was quite long as vehicles, motorcycles, and people with Jerry cans are being attended to by a single pump.

I had waited more than an hour without it being my turn and after some time, a guy just arrived and went straight to the pump to buy the fuel but the attendant didn't attend to him and he was asked to join the queue so he waited. But he happened to know the boy whose keg was directly in front of mine and he waited by him. I suspected that he was going to give the keg to him to buy on his behalf and that's exactly what he did when he was the only one left to buy petrol before me. I was angry, i raised alarm at the injustice and how what he did was terrible. I complained bitterly about how I've been standing for hours and how he can't just collect someone's keg and put it right in front. They issue was so chaotic that the boy before me threatened (and almost) slapped me. The other people on the que were all begging me not to answer them any longer and they all sided me. So I kept quiet and they were all attended to.

Not up to 5 minutes later was when someone i know who I hold in high esteem because of several things he has done for me and he's also like a big bro to me, came to me buy petrol for him. He gave me the keg and the money and I was right on the queue. Deep in my mind, I didn't want to collect it but i didn't want him to feel disrespected so I shamelessly collected it. After that, a guy who was about 6 position behind me shouted that "That's why Nigeria can never be better again!" I wouldn't have felt this bad but i made the matter worse by shamelessly trying to defend myself even when I was obviously wrong. Not long after was when this guy took his keg out of the queue and went straight to the pump to buy. Nobody was bold enough to stop him, even i was just bending my head and looking for how to cover my head in shame.

I later went back to the person who gave me the keg and I told me i can't buy for him again. He later collected his keg and was even later able to buy before I did.

I just bought my petrol and went straight home feeling very sad. I can't believe I became who i was criticizing within a split of a second. It happened so fast I couldn't get the chance to think of the right decision. I'm fighting the urge to believe that I'm that bad, corruptible person.

I feel terrible bad and I will henceforth seek to never find myself in such scenario again. Please if you have books or anything that can help, I'm really open to learn and move forward in life. I don't want to be a bad person regardless of whichever situation I find myself.
I'm depressed. Really depressed.


Lalasticlala

dude Relax we all make mistakes you allowed ur emotion act for you okey, go out and make friends life is too short to let all this way you down

Its in the DNA guy.

Everynigerian I mean every last one is a big hypocrite.

Everybody just dey package.

Franzinni:
Its in the DNA guy.

Everynigerian I mean every last one is a big hypocrite.

Everybody just dey package.

Speak for yourself zinni

Franzinni:
Its in the DNA guy.

Everynigerian I mean every last one is a big hypocrite.

Everybody just dey package.

No I'm not.

YomiFaruk:



No I'm not.

haha and you colected the kerg from your bros on autopilot.. be deceiving your keyboard there...yimu

Eyahhhhh,op dey feel guilty.. Simply because he became the culprit of the same thing he condemned not too long ago....

Well,this kind thing don happen to everybody...Even in the ATM stand self,we dey rock am for there......Even during the NIN registration wahala, people still dey wey rock am wellar........ everything about NIGERIA has always been all about man-know-man right from the beginning.....

Las las,we are all hypocrites

Candidlady:



Speak for yourself zinni

madam.... it is true.. let me ask you this question,

Hypothetically, you are called to recieve 400million naira from loot a politician stole from the government as reward for you providing advice sometimes ago, a service that you know is not more than 100k.... I already know the answer sha ...

but will you take the money or form SU and reject it on moral grounds?

Mind you there is no repacaution for taking the money legal or otherwise

Tell me you wont deziani the cash... blow lie.

Franzinni:
madam.... it is true.. let me ask you this question,

Hypothetically, you are called to recieve 400million naira from loot a politician stole from the government as reward for you providing advice sometimes ago, a service that you know is not more than 100k.... I already know the answer sha ...

but will you take the money or form SU and reject it on moral grounds?

Mind you there is no repacaution for taking the money legal or otherwise

Tell me you wont deziani the cash... blow lie.

Since you expect me to BLOW lie... How can you believe my PUNCHED truth when isay state it?

Won't that be a waste of time... ?

Candidlady:


Since you expect me to BLOW lie... How can you believe my PUNCHED truth when isay state it?

Won't that be a waste of time... ?

typical.

The lesson here is to not judge yourself and others harshly. If you are gentle with others when they error then you could be gentle on yourself when you make the same mistakes.

But if you're critical of others then you'll be critical of yourself and this will lead to anxiety and depression. Just be kinder, patient, and more forgiving.

When you lack then you'll meet people who are kind and patient with you. We're human and that means we're capable of good and bad, positive and negative. That's what being human is.

Forgive yourself right now and treat yourself to something nice. Let go and move on with your new found understanding. It's a blessing in disguise

We lack discipline and we too dey lick ass.

Double0h7:
The lesson here is to not judge yourself and others harshly. If you are gentle with others when they error then you could be gentle on yourself when you make the same mistakes.

But if you're critical of others then you'll be critical of yourself and this will lead to anxiety and depression. Just be kinder, patient, and more forgiving.

When you lack then you'll meet people who are kind and patient with you. We're human and that means we're capable of good and bad, positive and negative. That's what being human is.

Forgive yourself right now and treat yourself to something nice. Let go and move on with your new found understanding. It's a blessing in disguise

Thank you so much.

If I’m on a que and Sm1 asks nicely I won’t be offended and will understand. It’s only a problem when they are many trying to jump the que.

@Op, ironically, this is how politics plays out. He who comes to equity must come with clean hands, but this, most times don't apply in politics. When you unapologetically condemn people in power, it's cos you haven't gotten close to it before, hence, the criticism. There are situations you would find yourself doing what you wouldn't have done under normal circumstances, but unfortunately, circumstances just have a way of shaping our acts. That's why as human, we shouldn't be quick to judge or condemn others cos we know not what they must have gone through or what actually influenced their decisions.

All the same, you don't have to be hard on yourself, shit happen, we aren't all perfect, and don't think you can be the Messiah in an already messed up and corrupted country. Just do your do in the way you felt is right. It ain't changing any moment, we can only hope it does.

Mtcheeeewwwwwwwwww.

The only thing i blamed u for was that u overreacted. Mind u, this is Nigerian. Na who know man nai him be the Koko. E.g If i am in charge of employment in Chevron, and i saw the C.V of someone related to me or someone i like, do u expect me not to help the person? No. Even if he is not qualified, i will help him.

teddybarz:
Sorry for not reading ur story


i barely read long story


so quote me. . In a nutshell, what was ur story all about?

Lol
Wahala be like bicycle

So it's fuel station banter that is making you depressed

TBH we Nigerians are part of the
problems facing Nigeria.. we can criticize others but when we get the chance to make a change, we do exactly like those we love to criticize.

@OP Go easy on yourself and try to ammend your ways.. noone is perfect afterall.

Lalasticlala

flokii:
So it's fuel station banter that is making you depressed

TBH we Nigerians are part of the
problems facing Nigeria.. we can criticize others but when we get the chance to make a change, we do exactly like those we love to criticize.

@OP Go easy on yourself and try to ammend your ways.. noone is perfect afterall.

Me I no dey criticize those kind thing again cos laslas if it my turn meself go do am. That is naija for you my bro. Everything Na man know man

To hell with you and the story

I understand how you feel but it's part of learning. We are humans and makes mistakes. Just put it behind and forge ahead. Beside you are a good person.