We all know how frustrating it is, being a music artist with literally no support - starting completely from scratch! Man, I'm a witness because I'm an artist and I feel so down mostly because I'm broke and trying to get my message out to the world.

I work in a bakery, no work today and I was fine at first until these negative thoughts went straight into my head and I lost it, also losing to PMO. Hmm, anyway I'm still down, thinking and thinking.

I've been through hell, blablabla and this time, I'ma focus on building myself - I'm gonna go hard like always but harder! I'm gonna shun negativity both here on nairaland and any other place.

The hate comments, the anxiety, the thoughts of how I make different music strange to most people here in naija, focus on making more international friends, make more music, you know - develop spiritual, mentally and physically..

Work hard to stop working in this bakery and you know... So this is a diary, trying to grow.. I will be plain and avoid the negativity here... Let's go..

Right now, I'm tryna go fill this drum with water, clean the house etc..

I'ma try my best to keep this updated!!!
I hope for the best in six months in Jesus name, Amen.

Keep working hard

Teddy96:
Keep working hard

Thanks, that's why I wanna put down everything here and also give people a choice to comment (reason it's not on the diary section).

By God's grace, in 180 days - I hope for a change in all aspects of my life because the world is on my shoulders and it's gonna be a miracle. Why?

I work in a bakery and I hope to see a positive response in my music, getting my own apartment, getting to see my mom, getting to work with different artists round the world, getting a strong US or hip hop fa(n)m base.

When I'm paid less than 10 dollars a week, so it's gonna be a freaking miracle!

I wanna inspire people, just like whenever I'm down - I go straight to people who inspires me like dax; down to his first post on his social media handles.

Peace..

ThatsONYI:




Thanks, that's why I wanna put down everything here and also give people a choice to comment (reason it's not on the diary section).

By God's grace, in 180 days - I hope for a change in all aspects of my life because the world is on my shoulders and it's gonna be a miracle. Why?

I work in a bakery and I hope to see a positive response in my music, getting my own apartment, getting to see my mom, getting to work with different artists round the world, getting a strong US or hip hop fa(n)m base.

When I'm paid less than 10 dollars a week, so it's gonna be a freaking miracle!

I wanna inspire people, just like whenever I'm down - I go straight to people who inspires me like dax; down to his first post on his social media handles.

Peace..

I believe in your courage. . More grease to ur elbow. . . Its just matter of time and how well. . You miqht neeed people's help too. . . I wish you successful journey to ur goals

Honestly speaking u have something.. U just need a little brush up.. u were actually going off key there tho but u have it in u. Keep grinding. You are one of the few NL artists I have heard and actually impressed by what I heard

Teddy96:



I believe in your courage. . More grease to ur elbow. . . Its just matter of time and how well. . You miqht neeed people's help too. . . I wish you successful journey to ur goals

Thanks man, I appreciate.

killmods:
Honestly speaking u have something.. U just need a little brush up.. u were actually going off key there tho but u have it in u. Keep grinding. You are one of the few NL artists I have heard and actually impressed by what I heard

Thanks brotha, I appreciate.
Have you seen the new release (mixed with vibes and sound very different and emotional)?


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvDu1eSabvA

You will do this. May the forces be with you. Never blink from this, my boy.

SlayQueenSlayer:
You will do this. May the forces be with you. Never blink from this, my boy.

Appreciate you sir.

As long as you keep masturbating, you will remain stagnant for a long time

ThatsONYI:




Thanks brotha, I appreciate.
Have you seen the new release (mixed with vibes and sound very different and emotional)?


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvDu1eSabvA

This guy u good oo.. U have this attitude with ur rap that shows ur into it. Where are u based?

killmods:

This guy u good oo.. U have this attitude with ur rap that shows ur into it. Where are u based?

Thanks alot sir.

Currently in Nigeria capital, Abuja..

Melovar:
As long as you keep masturbating, you will remain stagnant for a long time

I won't (masturbate)!

Day 1


It's a beautiful day and I'm at the bakery, we're yet to get into the work of the day. I pray for a wonderful day and blessings.

I'm also thinking of dropping a remix to one of 2pac's songs and many other things, I believe and know I can do this.

Just checking in!!!

Day 2

Lying down, thinking...

I keep seeing old hack Harlow's songs on YouTube, like wtf? Dude's been making music since he was like 14 and he been fire! People been underrating him till he made it!

Man, saw a song - he made with kalman (people say kalman stopped making music since 2017 and deleted his songs), he even commented on the old song...

His old songs being blowing up lately on YouTube, good marketing there! Proving he ain't no industry plant and being around for a long time. Man, Idc how long it takes but u ain't never giving up in this dream - I swear!

Also, got to FaceTime with my new friend (Eric) - dude exposed alot to me! He's Chinese + German... And our neighbor back in nas, I love and respect that woman so much... Chai!

Man, lotta things on my mind... Typing fast.. confused.. what's the next move? Lord help me.. anyway I'm a few dollars richer, got paid yesterday... Thank God, let's keep moving closer to our dreams and graves.

Checking out!!!!

Day 3..

My new friend Eric aka VM makes me happy...

And I'ma try my best to make a post everyday on my Facebook page... Let's see the magic..

2pac remix on the way...


When I die, I wanna know I lived for a reason.

It's day 6, thank you Lord for everything..

Still thinking of what to do, now my big cousin is making plans for his marriage.

Someone stole my S.D card containing all my stuff and thank heavens, the animal didn't take my phone. People stealing from fellow hustlers..

No trust for these humans, I swear. I'm too tired to start cursing but let's see how 16GB S.D card can change his/her miserable life.

We move...

I've to get my beats back, 2pac remix on the way... I lose motivation but can't lose hope now..

ThatsONYI:



It's day 6, thank you Lord for everything..

Still thinking of what to do, now my big cousin is making plans for his marriage.

Someone stole my S.D card containing all my stuff and thank heavens, the animal didn't take my phone. People stealing from fellow hustlers..

No trust for these humans, I swear. I'm too tired to start cursing but let's see how 16GB S.D card can change his/her miserable life.

We move...

I've to get my beats back, 2pac remix on the way... I lose motivation but can't lose hope now..

keep it up! U surely going places, am not a seer or spiritualist, am human, and I got instincts. Don't ever relent

Psady:
keep it up! U surely going places, am not a seer or spiritualist, am human, and I got instincts. Don't ever relent

Thank you so much.

@thatsonyi
I really need to see you at the top
Stay strong and safe too.



Always tag me when you upload a new track.
❤️

Savagr:
@thatsonyi
I really need to see you at the top
Stay strong and safe too.



Always tag me when you upload a new track.
❤️

Appreciate you bro. Thank you

It's day 11..

Hmm, I went to see my sis and her daughter at the hospital for our daughter's surgery and thank God, it was successful! That angel is so strong just like her momma and grandma, damn! So precious!

Thank God, I got paid on Sunday.... The work is so stressful, I became depressed plus my mind was racing far.. working overnight ain't easy, man!

My cousin was criticizing for going to see my sis with no gift, doing it in such a way so I'mma feel bad. I told him, I got his message and I know I forgot to 'cause my sis isn't bothered about that and matter of fact she even had to give me transport fare. I couldn't say no, I told her, I wasn't expecting that and that I had enough.

She even wanted me to wait for her baby daddy, I know if we meet - he gon' wanna give me something so I declined. I stayed with her for more than 6 hours and spent more time with our daughter. Truth is, cousin tryna say I'm "stingy" indirectly... Like wtf? Me stingy? Anyway, it's all good. I learned my lesson..

Next time, I ain't never gonna forget to give a gift to my loved ones no matter how small (isn't it?). That nwaboi apprenticeship program done did me bad big time!

God, I gotta keep grinding.. it ain't easy. So prouda myself, they told me I wasn't shit and I ain't finna survive on the street now by God's grace - we gonna put 'em to shame! Amen!

Man, I done seen the Joyner Lucas contest but bruh - a nigga broke! Sorry, I can't afford $10 a month without hurting my bank account.. Hopefully everything will be ok.

Can't stop, gotta get to do something easier than this stress of a work.. I thank GOD for everything, thank you Lord - I don't have but I'm grateful for everything.. thank you...

I love God ♥️. (Man, at home.. work by evening.. don't know if I should go to my cousin's shop...)

2pac remix coming... (God my fb page has over 3k followers but dead.. I opened it back when me and my friends were doing shitty comedy... Never posted it.. since 2017 or so... Came outta that nwaboi apprenticeship to see 3k followers like how??)

Man, it won't be easy when I start staying at the company's house... Gotta respect myself.. my bro's getting married in less than a month... So you know..

Can't afford to rent a house so I'mma have to adjust..

Day 28

(Under pressure)

ThatsONYI:


Man, it won't be easy when I start staying at the company's house... Gotta respect myself.. my bro's getting married in less than a month... So you know..

Can't afford to rent a house so I'mma have to adjust..

I've been staying in the company's house for close to a month now, man it's not easy but I thank GOD.

I've been so busy, tried to go see my cousin some weeks ago in his shop but didn't get to see him (his shop was locked).

I ain't seen him since then but we still chat.

Man, I've lost track - I tried to keep up but a lot has been going on. Right now, I'm sick and suffered a set back because I had to withdraw over 5k to treat myself.

I've been trying to save up, so I could get a desktop computer and other needed things, invest a little more and quit this hell of a bakery work.

Man, it ain't easy.. I'm tired..