delkuf:
I was once like you. I thought I could not get back to God. What you need is not to spent few crying and asking for forgiveness from God. What you need is to surround yourself with the word of God. I started attend church regularly. There is a program we do in our church, it is called convenant hour of prayer. I started attending every morning. I stop following my friends especially those that will pull me into sin. The most important thing right now is get connected to the word of God. It is not easy but more keep getting closer to the word of God the further you get away from sin and the less depress you become.

Did you become an atheist and blasphemed God?

Jackanda1:
Did you become an atheist and blasphemed God?

No I didn't become an atheist. I backslided

delkuf:
No I didn't become an atheist. I backslided

you're lucky. For me, i went all the way, now i can't repent. Though i wander why God keeps delivering me from demonic torments.

Jackanda1:
you're lucky. For me, i went all the way, now i can't repent. Though i wander why God keeps delivering me from demonic torments.

it is all your decision. It is what you decide. No matter how deep you went, if you are ready to repent and come back to God, the bible says he by no means cast you away. Paul did more than you. You didn't kill people when oppose God. Paul killed people and God still change him and use. The grace of God will be extended to you today and God will find you. Just decide within you. And always pray that God should change and use you.

delkuf:
it is all your decision. It is what you decide. No matter how deep you went, if you are ready to repent and come back to God, the bible says he by no means cast you away. Paul did more than you. You didn't kill people when oppose God. Paul killed people and God still change him and use. The grace of God will be extended to you today and God will find you. Just decide within you. And always pray that God should change and use you.

If i could, i would've done that two years ago, but repentance is a gift from the holy ghost not something you produce on your own.

Thanks for the encouragement anyway.

Jackanda1:
If i could, i would've done that two years ago, but repentance is a gift from the holy ghost not something you produce on your own.

Thanks for the encouragement anyway.

Am not trying to force you, but repentance is not a gift of the Holy Spirit. Repentance start from you. The Lord Jesus Christ has already done the work of repentance on the cross, it is when you decide to accept it genuinely, then the grace and power to repent will come. Don't make the mistake that it is the gift of the Holy Spirit

Blue86:
Actually those who are guilty of blaspheming the Holy Ghost are those who really were intimate with Him, knew Him experientially, and then turned and went to vilify Him.

In your case, you aren't guilty.

Just return to God, and He will your backsliding.

Be patient, and He will heal you

How would you describe been intimate with God?

Wilddove:
I thought i was the only one going through this shit. I have tried all my possible best to convince myself that God exist but to no avail. I don't just know what else to do, i tried listening to sermons but the spirit is not there any longer. I'm totally a changed person.

How are you doing?