Am 18 and will be 19 next tomorrow. But am not proud of myself.
I don't have any skill at all, no specialties and no motivation.
I've been filled with hatred that I want to kill each and every one that made me feel bad.
My mother and the rest of the family said alot of things to me for not being able to bring money like my elder brother. Am in HND 2 Currently, Computer engineering..... I have a Good GPA of 3.45 (nearly distinction).
But I still hate it, cause even if I got 4.0 no one is there to be proud of me.

Do other children feel the same? If yes then why can't I endure and be like them? I want to work long ago but I was stoped saying am to finish school first.
My father don't provide at all. And every morning the insults begins with me.
What should I do? I've thought of suicide countless times but I couldn't do it. I don't know why..... Maybe am born not to succeed in anything.

Anyone I try to talk to only tell me not to give up. And that's all.
What should I not give up on? Life? School? Suffering? Depression? Anxiety? Or Being a failure?

Naofumi:
Am 18 and will be 19 next tomorrow. But am not proud of myself.
I don't have any skill at all, no specialties and no motivation.
I've been filled with hatred that I want to kill each and every one that made me feel bad.
My mother and the rest of the family said alot of things to me for not being able to bring money like my elder brother. Am in HND 2 Currently, Computer engineering..... I have a Good GPA of 3.45 (nearly distinction).
But I still hate it, cause even if I got 4.0 no one is there to be proud of me.

Do other children feel the same? If yes then why can't I endure and be like them? I want to work long ago but I was stoped saying am to finish school first.
My father don't provide at all. And every morning the insults begins with me.
What should I do? I've thought of suicide countless times but I couldn't do it. I don't know why..... Maybe am born not to succeed in anything.

You will not kive with your family forever... Once you graduate and leave for NYSC, you can start carbingyour life

Make out time and visit a mortuary, be asking the mortician anything you notice on any corpse, the mortician may on his own be you telling more and even how wealthy or famous some of the corpses were when they were alive. You will view the world differently after the visit.

You were born to very irresponsible parents who are already expecting money from an 18 yeat old. How many 18 year olds are earning good money?


Don't let anyone make you feel bad about yourself because you are doing well already. You just need more time.

If you end up doing negative things or becoming a negative person then you will indeed have failed.

Naofumi:
Anyone I try to talk to only tell me not to give up. And that's all.
What should I not give up on? Life? School? Suffering? Depression? Anxiety? Or Being a failure?

If you call yourself a failure at 19 I wonder what you want those at 50s who don't have anything tangible to point to with all their existence on earth.

My advice, take life easy. Feed your mind on good things. Most importantly, be closer to your God. Don't die of depression neither join bad gang because you want to be fast in life. Each with their destiny. Stop competing with others who seem to be ahead of you.

Kee yourself nigger you're already a shame to us that are failures.


I bet you can't do it .

Naofumi:
Am 18 and will be 19 next tomorrow. But am not proud of myself.
I don't have any skill at all, no specialties and no motivation.
I've been filled with hatred that I want to kill each and every one that made me feel bad.
My mother and the rest of the family said alot of things to me for not being able to bring money like my elder brother. Am in HND 2 Currently, Computer engineering..... I have a Good GPA of 3.45 (nearly distinction).
But I still hate it, cause even if I got 4.0 no one is there to be proud of me.

Do other children feel the same? If yes then why can't I endure and be like them? I want to work long ago but I was stoped saying am to finish school first.
My father don't provide at all. And every morning the insults begins with me.
What should I do? I've thought of suicide countless times but I couldn't do it. I don't know why..... Maybe am born not to succeed in anything.

listen carefully youngster...Don't let anyone define you.. You have to always engage yourself in positive talk. Always.. Affirmation works..it might not work instantly but with repetition over time,it works. Also,at your age,you still have your life way ahead of you. All you need to do is start writing down all the things you are good at and you enjoy doing.. Write all of them down. After that,narrow it down to the 3 most passionate. Then if skill is required to master those things,then by all means acquire the skills before monetizing. This is how to find your purpose in life... You are not in competition with anyone but yourself.. Grow at your pace.. Don't join cult..Kill that urge to belong...Run far away from it. Select your friends,don't let them select you.

dawnomike:
You will not kive with your family forever... Once you graduate and leave for NYSC, you can start carbingyour life

It's the day am waiting for. As if it'll never come

Nwodosis:
Make out time and visit a mortuary, be asking the mortician anything you notice in any corpse, the mortician may on his own be telling more and even how wealthy and famous some corpses were when were alive. You will view the world differently after the visit.

Sorry, I don't think I understood you.

yomi007k:
You were born to very irresponsible parents who are already expecting money from an 18 yeat old. How many 18 year olds are earning good money?


Don't let anyone make you feel bad about yourself because you are doing well already. You just need more time.

If you end up doing negative things or becoming a negative person then you will indeed have failed.

I tried not to be negative. But if it's the only way I'll earn..... Am afraid I'll have to accept it.

Oloki:


If you call yourself a failure at 19 I wonder what you want those at 50s who don't have anything tangible to point to with all their existence on earth.

My advice, take life easy. Feed your mind on good things. Most importantly, be closer to your God. Don't die of depression neither join bad gang because you want to be fast in life. Each with their destiny. Stop competing with others who seem to be ahead of you.

I don't know how they feel. But it's hard for me to feel Ok knowing that I couldn't be good. Before I have dreams but now..... It's all gone.

Failure2019:
Kee yourself nigger you're already a shame to us that are failures.


I bet you can't do it .

I tried too, I couldn't carry it out. I guess am more of a failure than anyone.

Naofumi:


I tried not to be negative. But if it's the only way I'll earn..... Am afraid I'll have to accept it.

Who said you will earn by being negative? Even if you do then you will lose your soul.


You can give it a try. I just pity that you may never recover from it.

We have been down that road and realized that the best thing in life is being one with God.

God be with you.

lymelyte:
listen carefully youngster...Don't let anyone define you.. You have to always engage yourself in positive talk. Always.. Affirmation works..it might not work instantly but with repetition over time,it works. Also,at your age,you still have your life way ahead of you. All you need to do is start writing down all the things you are good at and your enjoy doing.. Write all of them down. After that,narrow it down to the 3 most passionate. Then if skill is required to master those things,then by all means acquire the skills before monetizing. This is how to find your purpose in life... You are not in competition with anyone but yourself.. Grow at your pace.. Don't join cult..Kill that urge to belong...Run far away from it. Select your friends,don't let them select you.

Thank you for this..... Although I don't even have friends. I had them but since I started being compared to them I got jealous and cut them off my life.
at least I won't be bother of not being good like them

yomi007k:


Who said you will earn by being negative? Even if you do then you will lose your soul.


You can give it a try. I just pity that you may never recover from it.

We have been down that road and realized that the best thing in life is being one with God.

God be with you.

I don't know if I have a soul anymore. Even If I do no one, not even the devil will want it..... That's what I think. But maybe someday I'll find a cleanser (if I will ever get any)

You are 18 and already in HND 2. To me, that's an achievement in itself. Your mates in the U.S. are just finishing with their high school education.

Since you are in Nigeria, I'll recommend you plead with your parents to help pay for you to learn a skill you are passionate about and which is financially viable. With this skillset, you can earn money on the side, and with that, you will start earning the respect you deserve.

You mentioned that your father doesn't provide at all. Who's the one that pays for your tertiary education?

Neverlookback:
You are 18 and already in HND 2. To me, that's an achievement in itself. Your mates in the U.S. are just finishing with their high school education.

Since you are in Nigeria, I'll recommend you plead with your parents to help pay for you to learn a skill you are passionate about and which is financially viable. With this skillset, you can earn money on the side, and with that, you will start earning the respect you deserve.

You mentioned that your father doesn't provide at all. Who's the one that pays for your tertiary education?

My mother and Sisters..... Although when my mother complain about me she says my brother money is also involved. Although my father sometimes sent money but I can't even call him my father.... Man has been away for 6 years already. And the last he sent a dime was 4 months ago.

Naofumi:

Sorry, I don't think I understood you.

Go through that my comment again

I see. You have an absentee father. That's not fair to you and your siblings.

This may also be the reason for the financial pressure on your mom and siblings, hence the utterances. I hope you can see things from their viewpoint. Things are really hard everywhere, moreso in Nigeria.

I still recommend for you to undertake a craftmanship training, specifically in a tech-related area. Speak to your father first to help pay for it before reaching out to other family members. I understand he has not always been there for you, but it's still his money and your father, so ask with
humility. For the sake of your self respect, don't squander the opportunity if and when you get it.

Naofumi:


My mother and Sisters..... Although when my mother complain about me she says my brother money is also involved. Although my father sometimes sent money but I can't even call him my father.... Man has been away for 6 years already. And the last he sent a dime was 4 months ago.

Naofumi:

It's the day am waiting for. As if it'll never come

Just be patient... I really understand you on this

Op, you need motivation from people before you will have sense?

In Nigeria, you motivate yourself or you prevent whatever insult that gets to you.

You either speak up or you endure while making plans for your future!

Nobody will be pampering you before you will have sense!

Failure2019:
Kee yourself nigger you're already a shame to us that are failures.


I bet you can't do it .

Baboon

Negative energies destroyed lives. Immediately you finish your programme. Try get a job and start saving to rent your own house. To breathe free.

Naofumi:

I tried too, I couldn't carry it out. I guess I'm more of a failure than anyone.

You aren't. Don't listen to that guy, he's mentally ill. You aren't a failure, you just need to work on yourself. Let me tell you something, the best motivation you can get is from you. Las las you'll be fine. I'm rooting for you.

You said your father doesn't provide. Who's sponsoring you in school? Are you the one sponsoring yourself?

Now, let me tell you. if you think it's rosy out there with everyone your age, then you're deceiving yourself.
Dont let what you see around deceive you unless you want to join bad gangs.

Stay put like you have been advised and finish your school. Then you can talk of getting a job.
However if you feel getting a job will relieve you of whatever pressure being mounted on you, then go look for a legit job that you will be doing codedly so you can have pocket money for yourself.

I no say na lack of money dey make you feel depressed.

Naofumi:

I tried too, I couldn't carry it out. I guess am more of a failure than anyone.

STFU and try harder



You can't even do a simple task .

Nia69:
Baboon

STFU fat fok .

Failure2019:


STFU fat fok .

Wasn't talking, was typing. 😂Now you're calling me fat, retard.

Failure2019:



STFU and try harder



You can't even do a simple task .

If it's so simple why didn't you do it then?

Nia69:
Wasn't talking, was typing. 😂Now you're calling me fat, retard.

No, you're flitty .

Gerra here , go and help ya momma in the kit .

Failure2019:



No, you're flitty .

Gerra here , go and help ya momma in the kit .

Retard.