Episode 1


“Oh God what is wrong with this woman!” I said in frustration.

“Why can’t she understand me for once?” I said as I paced around the room.

“What’s the meaning of all these? Why can’t she understand? I can’t take this anymore! I can’t!” I screamed as my tears poured out in frustration.

“Am I the only one that she’s so busy wrecking my life? Oh! Just because I’m so loyal, she’s taking advantage of me. I’ve been such an idiot!”

I had given my life to Christ under the powerful ministration of Mrs Juliet Thompson. She’s a firey and passionate minister of the gospel. She’s well known all over the country.

I had been having this spiritual attack for a long time. Before I went to that revival meeting or should I say was carried there, my case had gotten worse.

Whenever the attack came on me. I became super human. I mean, I became so strong that ten men cannot hold me down. I could break anything that stood in my way.

I became so violent that my family had to lock me up in chains. I had to keep this from my younger sister. She had no clue of what was going on in my life. But my secret could not last long.

Anyway, that’s a long story I would not venture into.

Mrs Juliet Thompson was not the one invited but her mentor, Mrs Toyin Abayomi. But she wasn’t disposed, so she sent her mentee to represent her.

While Juliet was ministering, the power of God hit me in the congregation and I began to manifest.

She had to confront the personality in me in that meeting. At last, I was set free and surrendered to Jesus.

After my conversion, I had a dream two weeks later and decided to see the man of God to share it with him.

What did I see?

I saw thousands of people holding my dress, pleading with me with tears in their eyes.

“Give us the bread! We are dying of starvation!” They cried out.

“What bread?” I asked.

“The bread! The bread! You have the bread! Don’t keep us in hunger! Give us the bread!” They kept repeating those words.

I was confused. I had just given my life to Christ a few weeks ago. So what could this bread possibly mean?

I was still in my confused state, when Mrs Thompson walked up to meet me and tapped me on the shoulder from behind.

I jerked and turned to see who was standing behind me. Recognition set in immediately and I smiled.

“Mummy! I don’t know what’s going on here! They are asking me to give them bread. I’m the C.E.O. of my late father’s company. I don’t sell bread. I don’t know why they are demanding bread from me.

And ma, why do they keep calling it the bread?” I asked.

He smiled and looked at me.

“Daughter! The bread is the word of God. They are asking you to feed them with the word of God. They are hungry for God’s word and you are to feed them with it.

This is your calling my dear. You are called to be a minister of God’s word. You are to teach his words to his people and guide them through the word”.

I looked at her. The fear of the work assigned to me was seriously overwhelming. I was scared, seeing I did not have much knowledge on the word of God. I was completely scared of what laid ahead of me.

“Mummy! I don’t know what to do! Please help me! Teach me all I need to know. I’m just a baby in the Lord. I was born two weeks ago. I don’t know my left from my right.

Please Mummy! Teach me more about God!”

That was how the dream ended.

I had to look for Mrs Thompson and tell her all I had seen.

She listened with rapt attention, nodding at everything I said.

When I was done saying what I had to say, she explained everything to me. She made me understand what the dream meant and what I needed to do.

Then I knelt down and begged her to mentor me, just like I did in the dream.

Reluctantly, she agreed after my incessant pleas.

So, I began my mentorship program under Mrs Juliet Thompson. Well it wasn’t much of a class actually. She kept checking up on me and asking on how my quiet time went. Then sometimes she would teach me something in the Bible, something completely new to me.

She would explain the Bible and say things that made me marvel.

I was gradually becoming a lover of God’s word. I studied the Bible everyday and reported back to her the revelations I received during my Bible study.

By the way, my name is Cristina, but I changed it to Christiana. Christiana Kolapo.


To be continued………..

Young lady! Young man! What is your destiny?

Who are you created to be?
Have you discovered your purpose?

Do you think all you were created to do was to get married and have children?

Has the one who created you spoken or revealed to you what he designed you to become?

If he has, what steps are you making towards preparing yourself for that assignment you were destined for.

MY BABY HUSBAND is going to be a journey you wouldn’t love to miss.

Get ready to journey into the life of Christiana.

A lady with the calling of God upon her life.

To Be Continued

Episode 2


A month after Mrs Thompson and I bonded very well in mentorship, she invited me over for a little heart to heart discussion.

She asked about my spiritual life and the progress i was experiencing.

I gave her all the answers she needed, until she got to a spot I never wanted her to get to.

As a Christian, I knew lying was completely wrong. Worst of it would be lying to a woman of God, my mentor. So I forced myself into replying her.

“Tell me about your relationship life? She asked.

I didn’t know where to start, so I gave her a stare of confusion.

“I mean, tell me if you’re in a relationship or if you’ve been in one before, how it went?” She clarified me.

Of course, I knew that was where she was heading. But the thing was, I wasn’t ready to allow my mentor into my relationship life. It could be the end of it. How did I know?

I don’t know how, but I know! I know what I know. Something kept telling me the day I related my relationship life with my mentor would be the end of it. So I decided to hide it.

So here I was, stuck between telling the truth or a lie. I decided to tell the truth and see what I would face for choosing to do so.

“Mum! I’m in love with a guy!” I began.

I looked at her facial expressions to know if I was permitted to go ahead. She nodded her head and my confidence was stirred up.

“His name is Christopher Nwachukwu. He’s a multi millionaire and owns one of the best fabric producing companies in Nigeria.

We met in a conference I attended 2 years ago and we just couldn’t be separated since then.


Two weeks after we got to know each other, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I accepted. So we started dating since then.

Our relationship has lasted for two years”.

My mentor said nothing for a while, which fuelled my tension.

When she finally broke the silence, she hit the nail on the head.

“Is he born again?” She asked.

“Ma!” I called her attention, even though I heard what she said.

“You said the relationship started two years ago. If my calculations are correct, you gave your life to Christ three months ago. So is he also born again like you?” She asked.

I exhaled, and lowered my head. I knew what was coming and didn’t know how to handle it.

When I first gave my life to Christ, due to my financial class, I was almost ashamed of letting my friends know who I am. I knew how they would make mockery of me. I was this kind of person that cannot condone insults.

I react fast to any form of disrespect thrown in my face. So giving my friends an opportunity to persecute me was something I wouldn’t willingly opt for.

So I still attended our normal weekend parties, just to make them feel I still belonged. I forced myself into dancing those crazy immoral songs, what some of you would call worldly songs, just to quench their suspicions.

And soon, I found myself lying to hide my identity. Ashamed of the man who was not ashamed of a mentally retarded lady. Cured me of my mental health and broke the chains that held me bound.

I was living in depression for days, until I had the dream that changed my life. That was when Mrs Juliet took over my every now and then.

When she found out I still attended night parties, she stopped me immediately. She also stopped me from taking part in gossips and idle chattering with my friends.

Soon I was spotted out. Yes, the light I was covering with a blanket had prevailed. The light of Jesus in me I had kept under my office table was drawing attention underneath my table.

I could not hide anymore. My friends started asking questions.
Why have I been missing parties?

Why have I been keeping to myself?
Why have I been acting weird lately?

I didn’t give them an answer. My strategy was to promise them I would change, which of course would never happen.

Not too long, I was spotted driving into a church, that was all the information they needed.


The next day, hmmmm, na God help me ooooo. Remain small make I regret why I gave my life to Christ. I kept reminding myself about my former life and thanked Jesus in my heart. That was what kept me from breaking down in tears and crying in front of my friends.

Before I gave my life to Christ, I usually retired for the night once it is 9pm. I had a personal bodyguard whose duty was to ensure I never missed that appointment.

He would take me to a special room in my estate and lock me up in chains. The room was sound proofed. Because once it was 9pm, I would become insane and violent.

My strength was out of this world. It took the effort of 20 bodyguards to hold me down. In my insane state, I would scream so much that my voice was like that of a man. Tear into pieces anything insight, whether man or property.

Like I said earlier, I hid this from my younger sister. My friends took me to a herbalist who tried to help but he couldn’t. He said the forces that held me were too powerful to engage in a combat with.

He was the one who helped me and my friends detect the time the seizures happen and when it stopped. He told us that it always started by 9pm and ended by 12am.

So he gave us the idea of locking me up in chains once it is 9pm. That was how life treated me, until I met Jesus, the problem solver.

So if he could do something that huge for me, I would be ungrateful to deny him before my friends. This was what I held on to in my heart while the mockeries rained down on me.

They tried to talk me out of my new found faith, but I had always been an adamant girl right from childhood. I guess God placed everything we have in us for a good purpose. I never knew my being adamant and stubborn would be of any use to God. Well here it was, my stubbornness served God’s purpose.

I just couldn’t betray God. I’m this sort of person who knows how to repay someone’s good deed. I don’t love living with the guilt of treating someone who helped you in the past badly. It could throw me into depression if I was not careful, which was something I hated so much.

“Christy!” My mentor called me out of my drifting thoughts.

“You are now a new creation. Old things are passed away. Yes, it’s all in the past and so is Mr Nwachukwu!”

My heart almost stopped beating for a few seconds. I looked at her and saw how straight her face was.

“Am I understood?” She asked.

“Yes ma, but!”

“What’s the but about it? What does darkness has to do with light? What are you looking for in the devil’s shoprite? You are a Christian, Christiana. And as a Christian, you cannot have a relationship with someone who is not a Christian, period!”

Silence followed for a brief period.

“Mummy! But he’s so nice. I mean I…….. I love him so much!”

“That was the old you! You are now a new man. You must let go of him and focus on your destiny. He’s not a part of your life”.

“But ma! How can I let go? I love him!” I said almost crying.

“You will let go by telling him it’s over between the two you”.

“Ha! Mummy!”

“What’s wrong with this girl? This guy is not born again for crying out loud! Aren’t you hearing what I’ve been saying since morning?”

“Mummy! It’s hard oooo!” I said, my eyes were getting blurry already.

“Chris! I don’t want to hear another word about it. It’s either you let him go, or you let God go! Choose between the two. I bet you won’t make the wrong choice!”

My tears dropped as I knew, I had come to the crossroads I had always avoided.

To be continued……….

Can someone please talk some sense into this girl’s head?

What’s wrong with her?

Luke 14:25 – 27.
And there went great multitudes with him: and he turned, and said unto them.

If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.

And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.

Brethren, we all need to understand that following Jesus would cost us everything and we must be willing to give him everything.

Withholding nothing.

Episode 3


Christopher sat down on the sofa, running his hands through his hair.

“Explain what you have just said!” He said with a harsh tone, showing his annoyance.

It has taken me lots of guts to stand up to the task. I had deliberated and pondered for weeks. My mentor didn’t allow me waste time.

Whenever we spoke on the phone that was what she always wanted to find out.

“Have you ended that relationship?”

“Ma, I’m working on it!”

“Working on what? What is there to work on? End this thing and let’s move on with your next level! Why are you so adamant in surrendering to God? Do you want to enter the belly of a whale like Jonah before you learn your lesson?”

“No ma! It’s just that, it’s so hard to call it quit. We’ve been through alot together. He’s been the perfect man for me. The man of my dreams”.

“Look here young lady! You were not sent into this world to dream about men. You were sent to fulfill purpose and destiny. And destiny comes with a price.

Mary Slessor sacrificed her marriage to fulfill her destiny. She let go of the man she loved so much for the call of God upon her life. She left everything behind and came to Africa to preach the gospel. You don’t have any excuse.

You cannot marry this man and fulfil your purpose. You cannot be unequally yoked with an unbeliever. Cris, I’ve told you several times. Chose God or this man”.

I was in a serious confusion. No body told me giving my life to Christ would be so demanding. All I wanted was an easy life where I was completely in charge. Yeah! I’m used to being incharge of everything happening around me.

I gave orders and they were followed. I yelled at sloppy workers and congratulated those who did well. I did everything the way I liked and no one dared challenge me.

How did I get stuck with Jesus? Looks like he’s changing everything in my life and he doesn’t care how I feel about the changes he was making.

Sometimes, I rebuked myself for entertaining the thought that I made a mistake in becoming a Christian.

There was my mentor, exercising authority over my life. On the other hand was Jesus, changing protocols and making difficult demands.

I was so used being a boss life. This life of being bossed around by a lady I call mentor and an invisible being I call God. I hate the way I’m sounding right now, but I can’t help it. Why is everything so difficult? Why can’t God allow me have my way? Why is he invading my private? Turning things upside down in my life.

Everything was perfect before he stepped in. Now he’s taking away my happiness. The man of my dreams. And he’s doing it without caring about how it would make me feel.

But was everything really perfect before I met Jesus? I don’t think so! I was a wealthy C.E.O. but a mentally retarded lady. I had a routine of being locked up in chains every night. Was that truly a perfect life?

The Jesus who fixed my broken life deserves my all. I was stuck. I didn’t know what to do anymore. I was gradually slipping into depression. All because God was demanding for my boyfriend and I was too stubborn to let go.

I decided to take the bold step and tell him I was breaking up.

Here we are, trying to understand one another.

“Cris! You mean after two years? When we are so close to settling down? Cris, tell me what got into you?” He asked frowning.

Of course, no boyfriend who had invested so much in a relationship would smile at a break up like this.

By the way, my real name is Cristina, but I changed it to Christiana after my conversion. So don’t be surprised if you see my boyfriend calling me Cris.

“Cris! I’m waiting for you! He said when I had not said anything for over 5 minutes.

I was almost sweating. What did I have to tell him? Everything in me wanted to marry him, just my new found faith stood in our path. I loved my man so much. We’ve bonded inseparably over the years.

He was the first and only man I gave my body. And since then, our love for each other got stronger.

When I got born again and found out I couldn’t give him my body as a Christian, I told him. He agreed with my abstinence decision. Since that time, we had never been intimate.

He never made any advances towards me since then. He respected me so much and loved me. Oh God! He doesn’t deserve all this.

“God please let me marry him!” I wept within me, but I knew that was not possible.

That scripture kept repeating itself in my head.
“Joshua 24:15. And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD”.

Does it look evil for you to serve God? Feel free to chose. No one is forcing you. If you feel you are better off without Jesus in your marriage, go ahead and chose the man of your dreams.

I almost broke into tears. I knew I couldn’t continue with this conversation or I would end up changing my mind and returning back to him.

I stood up and made to leave, but he grabbed my hand.

“Cris! Who’s he? Who stole you from me?” He asked in a choked up voice.

My insides melted and my tears dropped. He stood up and drew me into a hug.

Stroking my hair in a gentle and lovingly manner, he spoke in whispers.

“Cris! I feel like my world is gone! I don’t know if I’ll ever survive without you. I’ve never loved a woman the way I do for you. Please, don’t break my heart”.

I wept like a baby in his arms and felt in heaven as he continued stroking my hair.

“Chris! I’m sorry! I’m sorry! We cannot be together anymore”. I said and pulled myself out of his arms.

I made to leave but he held me by the wrist.

“Please let me go!” I pleaded.

“Not until you tell me why I don’t deserve you. Why are you leaving me? He asked.

I tried to pull free but his grip was firm and his voice so tender and sweet. I just couldn’t resist him. I just couldn’t.

What answer do I give him by the way? Do I tell him my Christian faith stood against our union? No! He never rejected me when I told him I had become a Christian. He told me he was happy for me. Telling him I was rejecting him because I was a Christian would seriously hurt him.

Do I tell him it was my mentor who insisted on the break up? No! That would make him angry with her and seek revenge her.

So what should be my reasonable answer? Chris could do the unbelievable whenever he gets angry. He could go after Mrs Juliet Thompson and her family, just to get rid of anything that stood in his way.

I would not give him something to deal with. I better think of a better option between the two, before the wrong information slips out of my mouth.

“Cris! I won’t let you go until you tell me!” He said with those pleading eyes I couldn’t resist.

“Chris! I’m truly sorry! But as a Christian, I can’t marry someone who’s not a Christian!” I said and looked away.

“Is that it?” He asked.

I turned to look at him and nodes in affirmation.

“Then say goodbye to their religious nonsense. Anything that stands in our way must be thrown away!” He said with disdain.

I shook my head and sighed deeply.

“I can’t leave Jesus! He saved me! I can’t turn my back on him!” I said.

“Cris! What’s wrong with that head of yours? Can’t you see Jesus doesn’t want you to be happy. He healed you so he can be in charge of your life. Kick out whoever he feels like kicking out and turning tables upside down.

This miracle you are always referring to that Jesus performed might just be a magic trick!” He replied.

Shocked, I turned sharply and glared at him.

“Cris! Try and understand me. I’ve always known you to be a hard headed girl. Someone you can’t easily deceive. You use your brain to evaluate properly and I respect you for that.

But ever since this miracle stuff happened to you. You lost your sense of reasoning and became insane!”

That was it! That was all I needed to hear.

“What!” I yelled at him.

“I’m sorry dear! That was a mistake!”

I quickly took my purse and strapped it across my shoulder.

“You know what! I guess you are right”.

“No Cris! That came out wrong and unintentional”, he pleaded.

I knew him too well to say what he doesn’t mean whenever he got angry, but I needed something to help strengthen my weak heart and he provided one.

“Why marry an insane lady? Why Chris!” I said and rushed out rushed for the door.

He ran after me and grabbed me. Wrapping his arms around me, he kept apologizing while I fought to break free.

Despite my kicking and everything, he held to me like I was his life.

My will power melted and my resistance went down. I started weeping like a baby and he consoled me.

One thing led to another and I found myself waking up on his bed. My clothes were on the floor.

Actually, it was the sound of my phone that woke me up. I sat up and looked at him. He was sleeping soundly.

I picked up the phone and checked the caller’s ID.

It was my mentor.

To be continued………

Brethren, whenever God asks you to drop something and you delay, it’s really dangerous.

Delaying to obey God’s instructions can result into making alot of mistakes with your life.

What we are to do as believers is to cry to God for the grace to let go and take the step immediately.

Genesis 22:2 – 3. And he said, Take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of.

And Abraham rose up early in the morning, and saddled his ass, and took two of his young men with him, and Isaac his son, and clave the wood for the burnt offering, and rose up, and went unto the place of which God had told him.

Take not of the first words in verse 3. And Abraham rose early in the morning……

Delay is dangerous.

Episode 4


“Cris look at what you have done to yourself! Just take a good look at yourself!” I said in regret.

The phone kept ringing but I didn’t have the courage to pick it up. I kept pouring out my tears, unable to answer my mentor.

I was still crying when Christopher roused himself up from the bed and tried to console me.

I didn’t allow him touch me. I fought him like he was a deadly plague. I didn’t allow his fingers touch me at all. I quickly dressed up as fast as I could and rushed out of the room immediately.

I was glad he didn’t come after me. Would I have fallen for him again? I don’t think so.
Not after the big mess I just got into.

I entered my car and asked the driver to start the car immediately and take me home. I wept all through the ride home.

“Lord I’m so sorry!” I kept saying over and over, like no amount of pleas could make him hear me out.

“I have failed you! I disobeyed you and this is the consequences of my actions”. I said as I went down on my knees.

“Lord! I’m ready to do all you ask of me”, I said admist tears.

“How I wish I had listened to you in the first place!”

I continued my confession till I slept off and my maid woke me up. It was 6pm already.

“Someone is here to see you”, she said and left immediately.

I guess I was still feeling sleepy because if I had knew who it was I wouldn’t have bothered to come out.

I came downstairs and who I saw was the last person I wanted to see.

Christopher went down on his knees.

“What do you want?” I ask frowning.

To be honest, a part of me was excited to see him, but I bottled up properly.

“Please stay away from me. I don’t want to ever see you again”, I said, wishing I could feel those arms around me again.

God why am I this weak? I turned and made to leave but then he said something that shocked me and sent my head spinning.

“I’ll become a Christian”.

I turned to look at him and gave him a look that spelt I needed him to repeat himself.

“Yes! I want to become a Christian!” He reaffirmed.

I felt like jumping into his arms and giving him a hug. I had just won a soul for Jesus. This was something worth celebrating.

Yeah! I could scream out loud for the whole world to hear. Christiana has won a soul for Jesus. This is awesome.

But how did I win this soul? After a hot sermon on the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ? Probably after I shared my experience of how Jesus saved a mentally retarded lady like me.

How on earth did I win this soul for Jesus? Please can someone explain to me the evangelistic outreach method I applied to win him?

I slept with my boyfriend and got him born again. What a record. When did fornication become a tool for soul winning. Obviously, he wanted my body and not my Jesus.

I was so ashamed of myself, but happy at the same time.

“Cris! If Christianity is the only thing that stops us from being together, then I am ready to become a Christian.

I cannot lose you. I’m ready to serve Jesus and become his follower. As long as he allows me marry you.

You are the one I want. The one I deserve. I’m ready to become a Christian so we can get married immediately”.

I didn’t know how I ran into his arms to embrace him. God is so good. He has given me my heart desire, even when it seems I don’t deserve it.

He’s still in control of everything. Now my Christopher and I can be together forever. Problem solved. This is amazing.

On realizing myself, I quickly pulled out of the hug and moved a few steps back.

“Congratulations Chris! I’m so happy for you”, I said beaming.

“Thanks alot dear! I feel like a hero. I’m born again! I’m saved!”

“Yes you are! And God has given you new life in Christ Jesus our Lord”, I said smiling.

I hugged him again and the hug seemed to last longer this time. We were still in our innocent hug when my maid interrupted us with my ringing phone.

“What is it?”

“Sorry ma! Mummy has been calling and calling. I knew she really wants to talk to you!” She said with apologetic eyes.

All my workers knew my mentor very well. She was a friendly person by the way. Apart from that, I introduced her to everyone in the house as mummy.

I was still bubbling with excitement. My Chris and I are going to get married soon. There was nothing more holding us back. We were both believers and children of God.

I quickly answered the call and gave the goodnews.

“Mummy, I have goodnews for you!” I said excitedly.

“Cris, I don’t understand you ooo. So you cannot pick my calls anymore abi. I’ve been calling you all day and you deliberately ignored me. Has it gotten to that level?”

“I’m so sorry ma! Please forgive me for that! Anyway, I have goodnews for you. I’m sure by the time you hear about it, you would forgive me”, I said confidently.

“Really? What’s the goodnews all about?” She asked in a calm voice this time.

I grinned as I realized the effects of what I said to her.

“Mummy, my handsome Chris is now born again!” I said and squealed, expecting her to join me.

She was quiet for a while before she finally spoke up.

“You mean he said the sinner’s prayer?”

“Yes ma! I mean no ma! Actually, he’s about to do so”, I answered.

“You mean he has not asked Jesus to come into his life as his Lord and savior?” She enquired.

“Yes ma!”

“Then what made you say he was born again when he wasn’t?” She asked.

What’s the difference? He’s born again and he’s about to is still the same thing na. Is it not your call that interrupted him from saying the sinner’s prayer? If I hadn’t picked your call, he would have said the prayers by now.

“Are you sure you were both going to say the sinner’s prayer, or you would have been in your bedroom for another thing entirely?” A thought came over me.

I quickly remembered I was hugging him so affectionately when my mentor’s call saved me.

Chai! This is unbelievable! I was slipping away the second time. Just in one day, I was almost going to crash twice. God have mercy on me.

“I’m sorry ma! I’ll make sure he does that as soon as possible”

“Wait a second? Did you preach to him?” She asked.

“No!”

“So what happened that made him decide to become a follower of Jesus?”

I was struck dumb on the spot. Do I tell my mentor that it was out of his desire to marry me that made him decide to follow Jesus. That would ruin everything.

She would insist on the break up and warn me to stay clear. Or if I told her of the sin that took place hours ago? That would be our undoing.

I have to be smart with the information I give to her. I can’t allow her ruin my happiness. Cris, you have to think about something to do very fast so you don’t lose.

“Actually ma”, I began.

“Last night, he had an encounter with God. He was in the dream when a scripture appeared in front of him, revealing John 3:16.

He kept reading and reading it over again, until he heard a loud voice.

Son, when would you surrender your life to me?

Then he woke up. That’s how he came to me this evening and we have just finished talking about it when your call came”.

“Wow! That’s wonderful news. I’m so happy for you Cris! Congratulations darling!” Came her excited response.

I smiled on getting the positive result I expected. A string of guilt sounded within me, but I quickly shook it off. I was only trying to act smart. This woman can ruin everything for me if I am not careful with the information I give to her.

She’s powerless. She only works with the information I give her. So I’m still the boss of my life as long as I manage the information I give her.

“Cris! Remember how you knelt down to beg this woman for mentorship. Remember how reluctant she was at first telling you she had many people she mentors and wishes their numbers decrease and not increase.

Why are you throwing her labour on you into the trash can?” A thought came subconsciously.

“I know what I am doing. I’m just trying to help myself. I will confess to her later, she’s not willing to reason with me. I guess in time she would understand and come into agreement with me”.

“If you could mentor yourself, you shouldn’t have asked her to help you with that in the first place”, came the response.

“Please! This is no time to feel guilty. The wedding is going to happen and nobody is stopping it”, I said in dismissal and the thoughts stopped coming.

“Cris!” My mentor’s voice sounded from the phone.

“I have a question for you?” Her tone sounded serious which made my heart skip.

“Had the Holy Spirit revealed to her that I lied?”

To be continued……..

Sin begets sin.
It’s power to hold someone down lies in secrecy.

As long as you want to keep a sin a secret, get ready to be enslaved to sin.

I’m not saying you should mismanage information and tell everyone the secrets you did.

But you must have someone you are accountable to. Someone that can call you to order whenever the temptation to go back into sin comes.

Honestly, when you sin and keep it secret. The next time the temptation comes, it becomes easy to go back to sin, because you’re not accountable to anyone.

Sometimes when temptation comes and you remember the confession you have to make if you happen to fall into it, you wouldn’t want to touch it.

Above all, have the fear of God in you. Don’t replace God with your mentor or pastor. Though your mentor is limited by information except God reveals. But God is not limited. He sees the secrets you do and knows what you’re thinking as well.

Episode 5


I drove out of my company as soon as I was through with my tight schedule. My mentor had ended up telling me what she wanted to discuss with me cannot be discussed on phone. She arranged for me to meet with her by 12 noon. So I was driving out of the company.

Oga Silas, my company gateman, quickly opened the gate for me.

“Madam, are you the one driving?” He asked.

He’s so good with English. I’m not too pompous anyway as to make friends with insignificant workers. I always greeted him whenever I drove in everyday.
I greet all my cleaners, company drivers, security men and engineers.

Greeting my gateman had made us compulsory friends.

“Yeah! I feel like driving myself today. How are you doing?”

“I’m fine! Thanks alot ma’am!”

“You’re welcome!” I grinned.

For your information, Oga Silas is a born again child of God. That was one of the reasons why I related freely with him. He’s a young man in his early thirties and he’s a guitarist. Though he’s not that talented.

Sometimes I wondered why God left him to serve as a gateman in my company. I believe he had a special assignment, because on several occasions, I have met him preaching to his colleagues.

“Alright oga Silas! I’m still waiting for the day you will take me out ooo!” I teased.

“Ha! You’re the one to take me out na!” That was his usual reply.

I laughed as I drove out. Sometimes, having Christians around me gives me joy.

Somehow my heart began to pump faster as I arrived my mentor’s compound.

I parked my car and exhaled as I stepped out. Her 10 year old daughter, Tina ran to hug me. Followed was her elder son, Joseph who was 14 years old.

They were friendly people by nature, so we had bonded very well over the months.

She came out to join us and I greeted her immediately I saw her. She gave me a side hug and we all went inside.

Though the kids kept me company while she prepared the meal, I was more eager to hear what she had to say. So I wasn’t in the mood to play with Tina.

She noticed it and asked me what was wrong. I gave her something to take her curiousity of me and sent her to play elsewhere.

“Do I confess to my mentor or maintain my story?” They were the nagging thoughts I dealt with while I waited for her.

As soon as she joined me, I wore a fake smile to cover up and she returned the smile.

“Cris, this woman trusts you and here you are, betraying her trust!” Came the inner whisper.

“She doesn’t want to reason with me. I have to help myself”, I replied within me.

“Cris! How did it happen? Explain everything!” Mrs Thompson said.

I thought for a while to confess to her, but ignored and began my made up story. I even added that he called me this morning and said he observed his quiet time.

“Wow! That’s wonderful! Glory be to God!” She said all smiles and I smiled back.

“Cris! While I was on the phone with you yesterday”, she began with a serious tone.

“The Holy Spirit whispered in my ears that Chris is not ready for marriage”.

I was like, come again please!

The guy is born again for crying out loud. Why is this woman bent on making herself my enemy of progress?

Anger boiled within me. I was shaking violently. Only God knew how I managed to stay calm.

“I was asking the Holy Spirit why?” She continued.

“Then he told me that he’s still a baby in the Lord. That as a baby in the Lord, he’s not prepared to be the spiritual head of the home.

Being a husband is not just the gender responsibilities. Marriage can be so demanding on the faith of young believers that their faith crumbles. You don’t rush into marriage, you prepare for it. And as far as I’m concerned, he’s a baby husband. Spiritually, he’s a baby and doesn’t understand the things of the Spirit.

He doesn’t know the word of God yet, he doesn’t have a consistent quiet time or prayer life. He doesn’t know how to hear God’s voice in decision making.

Finally, God said that he’s not the one he made for you”.

That was it. She had ruined everything. I think it’s time I stop this mentorship programme. She’s completely bent on destroying my happiness.

Which one is baby husband again? Where is that written in the Bible. I doubt if this woman has the Holy Spirit in her. She’s teaching a false doctrine. Where do we find baby husband in the Bible? What’s the meaning of all these?

She doesn’t have the Holy Spirit in her. I was decieved all these while.

“So you that fornicated, lied and decieved your mentor is the one carrying full dimensions of the Holy Spirit, right?” Came the gentle whisper.

Guilt engulfed me, but I struggled my way out.

“I may not be perfect, but I know the word of God”

“Wow!”

“Stop that!

“Stop what? You claimed you know the bible. I was only trying to applaud a Bible scholar”, came the gentle whisper.

“Cris stop this guilty feeling. Even the bible says our righteousness is like a filthy rag before God. No one is righteous. Not even this enemy of progress that calls herself my mentor”.

“So should we continue in sin so that grace may abound?” Came the scripture.

“Where is all these coming from?” I said thoughtfully.

Soon the voice faded and I snapped out of the war with my conscience.

“Cris, are you with me?” She asked.

“Yes ma!” I answered like an obedient little girl.

My plans were clearly mapped out in my heart. Once I’m out of this house, I’m out of her life for good.

No one is stopping me from getting married to the person I love. I have loved Chris and I cannot love another person.

She didn’t hear God well. Let her go back and ask God again.

I know my bible very well. That was how Isaiah went and told Hezekiah to prepare himself for death. Later he came back to tell him that God added fifteen years to his life.

The word of God is my standard.

To be continued……

Sometimes, our pride just reveals how stupid we are.

Can you imagine this baby in Christ claiming she knows more than she does.

1 Corinthians 8:2-3.
And if any man think that he knoweth any thing, he knoweth nothing yet as he ought to know.
But if any man love God, the same is known of him.

Episode 6


“Now tell me, why do you want to marry her?” Pastor Kunle asked.

Chris smiled and rocked back and forth on the chair.

It was time to see the pastor of the church I attended. Was my mentor aware we had moved on? Of course not. I was going to surprise her with our wedding invitation. She would have no power to stop me anymore.

Christopher was completely unaware of the disagreement between my mentor and I. We are moving on with our plans and no one is going to stop us.

“Sir she is beautiful!” He began, taking a look at me.

I smiled and he returned the smile.

“I mean she is so beautiful and has a very smooth skin. Her voice is like music to hear it. Whenever I call her and hear her voice on the phone. I feel some butterflies in my stomach. When she walks, she moves with such grace and elegance that I cannot look away.

A shock appeared on my face and that of the pastor. What was this guy saying? What are all these details for? I can’t work this hard to get us here, only for Chris to ruin everything with his babyish behavior.

With the expression on the pastor’s face, I knew an upper case N.O. awaited us.

“She is the goddess of my life”, the idiot continued.

“My angel and the beauty queen that stole my heart from Jesus.”

“Yeh! I did what?” I screamed inwardly.

The pastor’s eye brows raised at that statement.

By the time he was done speaking, the pastor shook his head in more pity than amusement. I was waiting for when I would leave this place to scream my anger on Chris.

“Is that all?”

“Yes sir”, he answered grinning.

“But you didn’t answer the question,” the pastor said.

“I asked why do you want to marry her? I never asked If she
was beautiful.”

There was a few minutes of silence as the young man didn’t know the right answers to give.

“Sir I want to marry her because I love her”, he answered.

“That’s still not the answer. I mean what are your convictions?” He asked, almost pissed off with my boyfriend’s childish attitude.

“Oh! I want to marry her because she’s God’s choice for me”. He answered.

For the first time since the conversation started, this was the only thing he said that made sense.

“How?” The pastor asked.

“How? God did!” He said grinning.

“I mean how did God convince you that she’s the one?” He asked.

“Oh you mean that?” He chuckled.

“I just saw her and knew she was the one. My instincts told me that my entire life would be miserable without her in my life”.

“Your instincts?”

“Yes!”

“What about the Holy Spirit?”

“The Holy Spirit?” He asked, completely lost.

I was told the usual questions we would face during the interview. So I lectured Chris on what to say and what not to say. I never knew the questions were coming in a tricky way.

“Yes, the Holy Spirit!”

“I don’t understand? Are you asking if I am baptized in the Holy Ghost, because I am”, he replied.

“Beautiful! Does the Holy Spirit speak to you?” He asked.

“Yes, I can speak in tongues. Robobobokakakatataya”,

“Thank you my son!” The pastor quickly cut in.

“I didn’t ask you to speak in tongues, I only asked if the Holy Spirit speaks to you”.

“How?” He asked.

“How? Aren’t you a child of God?” The pastor asked.

“Of course I am”.

“So what’s going on here?”

“You tell me! I answered all your questions except for the fact that you are bent on getting me confused and sending me away”, he replied frowning.

“Ha! What had gotten into Chris?” I screamed within me.

I quickly reached for his hand and gave him a gentle squeeze. He looked at me and calmed down.

The pastor sighed and looked at him.

“Young man, if I were to slap you, I would give you a slap you will never forget in your life. So you want to marry a woman because of her smile? I can’t believe this height of foolishness still exists in the body of Christ.

It is completely glaring you are not ready for marriage yet. You still have the brain of a child. You need to know God the more and deal with every character deficiency in your life.

First thing you are not paying attention to in your life is your relationship with God. What is the capacity of your spiritual life? How is your relationship with God?”

Chris looked at me. It was obvious he had no idea of what the pastor was talking about.

“Cris! Please tell your boyfriend to excuse us!” He ordered.

“And what do you mean by that?” Chris said angrily.

“Chris, please!” I pleaded.

Grimacing, he stood up and walked out angrily.

I turned to face the pastor and saw his expression of displeasure.

“Cris what are you doing here? What baby factory did you fetch this baby husband from?”

Hearing the word baby husband from the pastor’s mouth got me angry on the spot. Had Mrs Thompson informed him I was bringing a baby husband for interview?

“This spiritual kid is not ready for anything yet. He’s not filled with the Holy Spirit. He doesn’t know the word of God. He’s not a praying person. I could smell it all over him.

And you intend on making him your spiritual head? Ha! Cris! I can’t believe your mentor is in full support of this. No way! Mrs Thompson would never approve of this. I want to believe you are doing this against her advice”.

He stood up and rolled up his sleeves and showed me a scar on his left arm. The cut was so old and the wound deep.

“I got this scar while trying to separate my parents from a bloody fight. This is a matchet wound. My parents got so infuriated that they used weapons on each other”, he said.

My heart skipped. I felt sorry for him and at the same time afraid.

Chris may have anger issues, but he’s such a gentleman. I don’t believe he could go to this length of picking up a weapon to harm me.

“Cris, a baby Christian cannot tame anger. A baby Christian is still growing up and just as expected, he will fall several times while learning how to walk. So as a baby Christian, Chris is going to stumble and fall into sin several times.

I’m not giving a negative prophecy. It’s natural for a newly born again Christian to stumble at the beginning of his walk with the Lord. But the most important thing is that each time he falls he gets up and continue his walk with the Lord.

Cris, you need to understand that you cannot make this baby your spiritual head. It’s like putting a bag of rice on the head of a toddler. He’ll not survive under the weight of responsibilities.

Why do you prepare for marriage? Especially Christian marriage.
You prepare for marriage because it’s warfare. Satan fights Christian couples because he knows godly union produces godly children.

He fights them so that he can push them into sin and keep them slaves to it. It may be bitterness, anger, unforgiveness, unfaithfulness, lies or whatever. Once he achieves this, the children in that union becomes easy prey.

He’ll come for the children because the number on duty of every Christian parent is to intercede for their children. Believe me. A prayerless parent should get ready to raise godless children.

And sin keeps one from praying. Even Samuel said in 1 Samuel 12:23 Moreover as for me, God forbid that I should sin against the LORD in ceasing to pray for you.

Refusing to pray, skipping quiet time, not interceding for loved ones forbidden. The Prophet Samuel saw prayerlessness as a sin. But today we have a lot of genuine excuses why we don’t keep our quiet time.

So alot of Christian couples do not have a consistent prayer life. And every holiday you take in the spirit realm is enough for the enemy to sow a seed, because the Bible says, while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat and went his way.

Jesus said, men ought always to pray and not to faint. That’s why godly parents find the seed of rebellion sprouting out of their children today.

A parent who has a burning altar, will sense the day the devil visited the family and stand to confront him. Today many Christian children are disvirgined on their parents bed. And their parents return from work and sleep on the same bed.

They don’t have the spiritual nostrils to smell the sin that took place on their matrimonial bed. All they know how to do is go to work and come back tired. The devil destroying their homes and the destiny of their children is not bordered whether they are tired to pray or not.

The Christian father is the priest of the home. The spiritual head and the God ordained leader. It’s not because the man is superior to the woman. Sometimes the woman may be more of a leader than the man. But God is a God of order and he places authority in every location in the world.

He is the orchestrator of marriage and it has pleased him to make the man the leader, the same way we chose who we want to be our president. And he’s not going to change that order.

As a priest, the Christian husband is the one to stand in the gap for the entire family……

To be continued…….

Can imagine this kind of conviction?

I want to marry her because she is the goddess of my life.

Somebody should tell to hear word ooooooo

Please who is doing that for us 🖐️

By the way, the lecture continues tomorrow. Grab your pen and your jotter as we learn together.

Who is the Christian husband and why is it important to prepare and grow Spiritually before entering into marriage.

The next episode is going to bless you richly…..

Episode 7

“Who is the Christian husband?” The pastor asked.

I quickly took out my phone and began to track what he was saying.

“The Christian husband is the spiritual head of the home and physically the God ordained leader of the family.

That’s why it is important for you to get married to first God’s choice and secondly, purpose partner.

In every organization, the leaders are the ones who permit what ever the group will do. So if you are not married to someone who understands your divine calling. He may appear like an enemy to you. Whenever you disregard authority, you are in to face God’s anger.

The Christian husband is also the priest of the family. And what is duty of the priest? The priest stands in the gap for the entire household. The priest consults with God even when the entire family is asleep, he still with God.
The priest atones, pleads, and stands to make decrees.

So as a leader, his relationship with God is the most important thing to him. He must not be a lukewarm, baby or an unbeliever. He must be a person that knows how to consult with God whenever a challenge arises.

I remember years ago when my mum gave birth to my younger sister. It was in the middle of the night when my mum started screaming for help. I was observing my quiet time, praying on my knees.

The Holy Spirit told me to remain in my position, so I turned deaf ears to my mother’s screams.

My mum woke my dad up telling him that the baby’s eyes were turning white.

Right where I was the Holy Spirit told me it was an evil spirit sent by a jealous relative to terminate the life of the child.

“Daddy what should we do!” My mum wailed.

“What do you want me to do? Call pastor na!”

“I’m trying his number but he’s not picking. God oooooo! Don’t allow my baby to die!” My mum cried.

“If she dies we will born another one na. She’s only two weeks old”, my dad replied.

His statement angered me and I was surprised my mum said nothing about it.

“God why? Any child we give birth to after our first son, dies as an infant. God please, let this baby live!” Was the trash that came out of my mother’s mouth.

Hmmm, when the head of the home is a baby.

No wonder the bible says in
Ecclesiastes 10:16.
Woe to thee, O land, when thy king is a child, and thy princes eat in the morning!
Blessed art thou, O land, when thy king is the son of nobles, and thy princes eat in due season, for strength, and not for drunkenness!

With the go ahead from the Holy Spirit, I stood up and marched into my parents bedroom. Took the child from my mother’s arms and laid my hands on the child.

“Come out! In the name of Jesus!” That was all.

I returned the child to my mum and went back to continue my prayers. I didn’t even wait to confirm if the child was actually okay or not. I just gave the command and left immediately.

I didn’t hear a sound from my parents room till the next morning. The baby was sound and alive. She’s in the university today as we speak.

But can you see the trash my Dad was saying due to the level of his spirituality?

He had already surrendered to the enemy before the battle started. All my parents could do was to call their church pastor, who was sound asleep.

You can’t marry a man that doesn’t know how to consult God in the face of challenges. He’ll keep recommending the doctor, the hospital and cast blames on whoever is available to take the blame.

Why do you prepare for marriage? Marriage is a lifetime commitment that has the string of responsibilities attached to it.

When responsibilities start coming. Going to work, taking care of the kids, taking care of your spouse and lots more. You become more and more tempted to abandon your prayer altar and see it as something less important.

That’s the first realm of attack. The bible says if the foundation be destroyed, what can the righteous do? That means, living a righteous life cannot easily take care of the damage that a prayerless couple can orchestrate.

So many people who struggled to maintain their prayer lives as singles, entered into a relationship and that was the end of their prayer life. That’s why your singlehood is a great period of preparation.

You build your quiet time and your intimacy with God. That’s the first step. So in marriage, your prayer life cannot be choked up by the cares of this life, what Apostle Paul called trouble in the flesh. Because you moved from the realm of learning how to pray into the realm of mastery.

So even when your body looks stressed out by the activities of the day, your body is so used to praying that it just can’t skip it. That’s the first thing to build because marriage is not freedom to break my abstinence.

Marriage is warfare. Marriage is not honey, darling, sweetie pie, bread of my heart. Marriage is war.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not telling you there’s no pleasure there, but you need to understand that there are two categories of Christians on this planet. Number one is the civilian Christian, number two is the Christian soldier.

So when I say marriage is war, I mean getting married is as good as stepping into the battle field. And as I said earlier, woe to the civilian that runs into the battlefield without adequate training.

Remember, you don’t learn how to use the gun in the battlefield, you learn how to shoot before you enter the battlefield.

The civilian Christian is the Christian that most of us call the bread and butter Christian. They are the ones that are first captured whenever war breaks out. The spiritual children cannot withstand the enemies in Spiritual combat, so they are easy target for the enemy.

Thirty minutes quiet time, one bible verse per day. No fasting life, no alnights. Chats on social media for 6 hours daily. Dozes off within 2 minutes of midnight prayer.

Watches season films for 3 hours. But pours saliva on his bible during personal bible study, due to heavy sleep.

Doesn’t know the word of God, but knows the eleven best players of Chelsea football club. Cannot quote the name of the twelve Apostles correctly, but knows the names of the twelve best Nollywood actors.

Cris, with all I have said so far. Are you sure you want to go ahead and marry this baby husband?”

I looked up at the pastor, shocked by the revelation I had received.

To be continued…….

Brethren, the singlehood period is not a period of daydreaming and fantasy. It’s a time to focus on two most important things

One, building your relationship with God.

Two, finding your purpose and getting busy with it.

Those are the most important things to you right now. You don’t need to allow Satan help you waste your time in Spiritual sluggishness.

Many young Christians today are still relaxing in their comfort zone. Taking things gently, wasting precious time.

They are still joking with their preparation time. Get busy with discovering purpose and building a consistent prayer life.

Rise up!
Rise up!
We’re not in a playground. 5 minutes prayer 15 minutes bible study. Rushed prayers and quiet time because of waking late

Indisciplined lifestyle. You cannot go on like this. It’s time to get up and come up higher.

Hebrews 5:12-14.
For when for the time ye ought to be teachers, ye have need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat. For every one that useth milk is unskilful in the word of righteousness: for he is a babe. But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil.

Episode 8

As I came out of the pastor’s office, I met Chris sitting down.

He stood up without a word, taken by my sad facial expression.

“Are you okay?” He asked, but I didn’t answer.

He made to come close up I held up my hand in restraint. Pausing in his tracks, he asked the same question and this time I knew I had to answer sooner than later.

“Chris, I don’t think we can…….”

“Shush! Shhhhh”, he interrupted.

“Let’s go! This is no place to talk, we’ll talk in the car”, he said and turned around without looking at me.

Was he finally ready to say goodbye? Pastor Kunle had just given me the biggest warning of my life. God loved me this much to go after me despite my stubbornness. It’s time to take the right decision.

I sighed and looked at the door I had just closed behind me.

“Thank you!” I said in a whisper.

Each step I took reminded me of all the times I had spent with Chris. The days we hanged out and had fun together. It was finally time to settle down and raise a family and here were the obstacles. Actually, not obstacles really. God was showing me the future and he wasn’t part of it.

All I had to do was to let go. God had plans for me and I must follow it. But why is it that my heart is so set on loving a man that God doesn’t want for me? Why can’t I close my eyes and walk away. This was a heavy burden on my back and it’s a pity that I wasn’t willing to hand it over to Jesus for help.

Sharon my younger sister is 23. She got married last year. I’m 32 and heading for 33 in 4 months time. I’m losing time here. When is God going to settle me maritally? My little sister is already miles away with the man of her dreams. Here I am struggling with getting married to the man I love.

Why was God disturbing my plans? My little sister got born again a few months before I did and was allowed to get married. I mean God allowed her to marry the man she fell in love with. She was already crushing on him before her conversion. Yet God allowed it. Someone she loved before she knew Jesus. Isn’t God supposed to wipe away her old life completely and start a new one for her?

But God allowed everything and smiled at their wedding photo. I was there also wishing when my Chris and I would be joined together. He never objected at first. But now, he’s acting like an enemy. He’s fighting me from doing what I want to do with my life.

Wait, aren’t we humans free moral agents? Aren’t to make decisions anymore? So why’s God trying to boss my life? It’s my life and I can do it the way I want.

“Are you sure it’s your life? Did you ask for it? Wait, did you tell God you wanted to become a human being and so your wish was granted? Wasn’t it God who had a plan in mind and needed a human being to achieve it, so he created Cris and sent her to this world? How come she arrived the earth and starts fighting what she came to do on earth? How come she arrived and started claiming it’s her life? How come she arrived the earth and started claiming she’s the owner of the breath of life she only received from God?

Who is really the one messing things up? Who is really scattering plans? Who is the one making demands here? God or you?” Came the gentle whisper within me.

I paused in my tracks and tried to digest those words. I felt frustrated. I felt stuck, with nowhere to run to. Why me?why all these? Why can’t I live my normal life again?

“Normal life? Cris can you hear yourself? You call the life of the mentally retarded lady a normal life? You called on God and he showed up. But it appears you only loved his miracles, you don’t love him. It’s just like a lady who is dating a guy because of his money and not because she actually loves him. She only wants what he can give. That’s what you’re doing to your God”.

“Stop it! I know I love God. I know in my heart that I truly love him”.

“How?”

“Don’t ask me that question. I know I love God!”

“If you love me, keep my commandments! That explains how much you love him right?”

“I love him. It’s just that, that, that……”

“That what? You fornicated and covered it with the blanket of lies. You tell lies without feeling guilty. You tricked your pastor to believe that Chris is actually born again when you know he’s not a genuine child of God. So much display of how you love God.

Matthew 15:8. This people draweth nigh unto me with their mouth, and honoureth me with their lips; but their heart is far from me.”

I almost screamed in frustration. What is wrong with me? Why am I too adamant.

“If this was what Christianity was all about, I wouldn’t have opted for it at all? I would have gladly remained a mentally retarded lady. That was a better life than this one I’m struggling to live”, I said in a whisper.

“Wow! I’ve heard that before. You’re not the first person to say that. That was exactly what the children of Israel told me after they left Egypt. When they suffered the bondage of the Egyptians, they cried to me for help.

I looked down upon them in mercy and sent Moses to them. What did I not do for those people? I fought against the most powerful army in Earth. Egypt was like the U.S. Army in those days. Deadly and never knew defeat. I singlehandedly fought for them promising them that till they die their eyes will never see what an Egyptian looks like.

Not a single Israelite drew out a sword in that battle. All I told them was to be spectators of the destruction of Pharaoh’s Army and entertain themselves. They were grateful to me for the deliverance, just as you are. But when the rigors of life in the wilderness showed up, they said they were going back to Egypt.

They looked me in the eye and told me that when they were whipped by Egyptian taskmasters, suffering like animals, building cities for Pharaoh was better than the deliverance I offered them. Daring me, they were bold enough to pick up stones and stone my servant Moses, just to have their way.

Cris, I’m not here to force you to do my will. Feel free to choose, I’m only trying to protect you from the consequences of what this path you’re about to take would bring you. But if you’re feeling what I am doing to you is evil, tell me to leave you alone and painfully,I will grant you your desire”.

I knelt down and broke into tears. How could God love me this much to allow me have my way?

“Lord please don’t leave me! Part of me wants to do your will but the other part wants something different. I’m struggling between two personalities. I need you Lord! If you leave me where would I go? I can’t survive one day without you. Please don’t leave me for the devil to destroy.

“Then are you ready to obey me?” Came the gentle whisper.

“Yes!” I said.

“Then here’s the first step. Go out there and enter your car. Drive home straight. Then in the comfort of your house, give Chris a call and tell him it’s over between the two of you”.

With zeal surging through my body, I got up and opened my purse to pull out my car keys. I really understood the message. The last time I tried breaking up with Chris was a disaster. And that was because I tried doing it face to face with him. The best way to avoid getting weak was to do it on phone. It that way, my emotions won’t overpower me.

As soon as I stepped out of the building, Chris opened his car door and stood up.

“What took you so long?” He asked.

“I’m sorry!” I apologized.

“Okay! So get into the car so we can talk”.

“Give me a few minutes”, I said as I went for my car.

He nodded in agreement and sat back in his car, leaving the door opened.

As soon as I got into my car, I turned on the ignition and turned around.

Chris noticed and stepped out of his car to be sure what was going on.

I headed for the streets without wasting time.

“Cris! What’s going on?” He shouted, but I wasn’t ready to listen.

I drove as fast and as safely as I could. My phone was ringing non stop all through the drive home.

As soon as I parked my car in my compound, I picked up my phone and answered Chris.

“Hey! I don’t understand what is going on here. Please help me understand! What was the meaning of the drama you just pulled out?” Chris ranted.

“Chris! Hear me clearly! It’s over between us. We can’t be together anymore. It’s good bye forever Chris. I do hope you find another woman better than me in the future”, I said and ended the call.

I quickly called my driver and told him not to allow Chris into the compound anymore.

He agreed and returned to his post.

I took out my phones and switched them off immediately.

“Lord! Help me to release him completely! I don’t want to throw him away and minute, I’m looking for him”, I whisper.

To be continued…….

Sometimes when we read about the children of Israel and their attitude towards God, we are like, what’s wrong with this people?

That’s the problem. It’s like a girl dating a rich guy because of his money.

They only loved the miracles God gave them. They never loved the God who gave the miracles

Can we take our time and whisper to God.

“Lord please help me never to exploit you. May I never find myself taking advantage of my relationship with you.

Deuteronomy 30:6. And the LORD thy God will circumcise thine heart, and the heart of thy seed, to love the LORD thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, that thou mayest live.

Can we make this scripture a prayer point

Oh Lord circumcise my heart.

Go ahead and pray!

Episode 9

I had to block Chris from calling me. His calls were incessant. Whenever I switch on my phone, it would start ringing. My gateman had come to inform me that my boyfriend was waiting outside my gate.

I told him to tell him to leave, but the man kept telling me he said he was not leaving.

“Go and meet him!”
“No don’t do that yet”. Came the two instructions.

My heart yearned to see Chris so I decided to go out and meet him, at least tell him in an open place where nothing can happen.

“Cris! You’re not ready yet! Tell your gateman to ignore him. Your heart is still hurting over the break up. You are not likely to survive standing before him for now. Though it’s an open place, the enemy knows how weak you are towards this man and sow a seed of compromise in you through your conversation with him”, came the gentle whisper.

“That’s probably my mind playing tricks on me”, I replied the inner voice.

“I don’t know why I would be talking to myself as if someone is talking to me? It’s so awkward”, I said as I followed the gateman to meet him outside.

As soon as I saw him, I knew I shouldn’t have come out to meet him. He was looking so devastated and I felt guilty to be the reason why he was in that state.

He stood up as soon as he saw me. His eyes were red from crying. He went down on his knees.

I felt like running back into the house. I stood, completely confused. My heart was sounding loud in my chest. My entire being shook so badly in desire to be in his arms.

“Cris! This is your life. This is your destiny! This is the man you once professed love to. Tell me you don’t love me. Tell me you don’t ever want to see me again. Tell me that all those times we spent together were just you pretending or playing the role of a girl in love. Tell me I was the wrong man. Cris, why have you decided to kill me?” He asked and broke into tears.

I couldn’t withstand it anymore. I took him in my arms and wept with him.

“I’m so sorry Chris! It’s not me. On my own I would love to live the rest of my life with you. Waking every morning with you beside me. Have children together with you. Grow old with you as my lover. But my mentor had already told me you are not the one for me.

Left to myself, I would marry you. But I cannot disobey her. Please try and understand. I love you! I love you with all my heart!” I said admist tears.

Hold on a second! What was I saying? Did I just tell Chris my mentor was responsible for our break up? That was stupid of me. Oh no! What did I do? Now he’ll label her an evil person. I wish I had known I would have followed my instincts when it told me to stay indoors.

Why am I this stupid?

Chris looked at me and said nothing. He pulled out of my arms and stood up.

“Cris, why are you this vulnerable? You are supposed to be the boss of your life, not one mentor out there giving out commands. Cris, she’s happily married, with her husband and her kids. But she doesn’t want you to get married. She wants you to be her puppet. She wants to control your life and destiny. Cris, you are better than this. Please, stand up again and go for what you want”.

Like my instincts had told me earlier, I knew these were seeds of compromise. And the soil of my heart had just received every single one of them. Now it was left for Satan to continue from where my boyfriend stopped and water them. I was such an idiot.

“Cris! I’m not going to force you, but I can assure you one thing. I can’t live without you”. He wiped his tears and opened his car door.

“Get ready to attend my burial!” He said and turned on the ignition.

My heart skipped at that last statement. I almost ran after him. I was too emotional to make any move. As soon as his car was out of sight, I almost ran after him. Was he truly going to commit suicide? If he did, that means I would be termed a murderer. I murdered an innocent man, all in the name of what? That he’s a baby husband. Is that what I was going to tell the press? Was that what I would tell the whole world?

How would I face the world and tell them I broke up with my boyfriend because he was a baby husband? This is ridiculous. I need to snap out of this drama. Chris life is in danger and I had the keys that would save him. Would God allow me see someone dying and allow him die? I Know God would want me to save that person. So this was my new line if action.

I got into my estate and took up my phone. I had missed calls. I was still scrolling through them when my mentor’s call came. I quickly swiped the green bar.

“Hello mum!” I greeted.

“Hi Cris! How are you doing?”

“I am fine ma!”

“Are you sure? Your voice sounds like someone crying. Are you sure you are fine?”

If I should tell you I was fine, I would be a liar. I was burning with anger all over. Here was the woman who ruined my life and she was acting as though she loved me. She was acting like she cared about me. I was only restraining myself from lashing out at her. But with the way our conversation was going, I might lose my restraint.

“Come on Cris, you can always talk to me. What’s going on. Is that guy still trying to turn your head upside down? Is he trying to drink acid, telling you if you don’t come and collect the bottle from his hand he would drink it”, she said and started laughing.

What was funny? How was an attempted suicide a joke? That was it friends, that was how I lost my restraint.

“Mummy! I don’t know if I should call you that. You came into my life and all you ever did was to ruin my life. You destroyed everything. You took my friends away from me. You took my boyfriend away from me and stopped us from getting married.

My life was perfect without you and it’s just about to get more perfect. I think it’s time we go our separate ways. Maybe we can still be friends, but this mother and daughter relationship is over. I don’t need you anymore. Away with your destructive mentorship. Get lost crazy woman!” I screamed and ended the call.

Just as I expected, she started calling, but I put the phone on silent and threw it on my bed.

What did I just do? What’s happening to me? Some hours ago I was telling God I was ready to obey him, now I had just ruined everything. I called my mentor a crazy woman! Who does that? I had bitten the fingers that fed me. This is the end for me. I remember how I knelt down to beg this woman that I needed her to mentor me. To teach me the word of God and help me fulfill my destiny.

All she had done was to help and teach me. And what did I do to her in return? I called her a crazy woman. A well known woman of God. A pastor for that matter. This is too much for me to bear. Even if I told God I was sorry, how do I go back to her and tell her to mentor me? Infact, she wouldn’t want to ever set her eyes on me in her compound. Cris what is your problem?

I threw myself on the bed and wept bitterly.

“God I’m so sorry!”

“Really!” Came the response.

“Yes I am! I’m such a disappointment. I’m a horrible person. I’m such a…..”

“Cris, how many times are you going to keep repenting?Proverbs 28:13. He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.

You’re confessing your sin, that’s a good thing. But you’re not forsaking them. You’re still holding on to your sins”.

“Do you mean I have to confess to her? Tell her about the day I fell into sin? Tell her the lies I told her about Chris conversion?”

“Yes!”

“Ha!” That’s impossible!” I said

“With God nothing is impossible. It’s time you come out of your secrecy. It’s time you break free from all these impulsive sin. And opening up to your mentor is the best way to earn your freedom.

Confess first, and then forsake your sins. Don’t worry about how she would react. She won’t kill you for telling her the truth. Rather heaven will rejoice a sinner has returned home”.

It took me an hour, before I finally made up my mind. Finally, I stood up, took up my phone and my purse. Suddenly my phone started ringing in my hands.

I checked the caller’s ID. It was not a saved contact.

“Don’t pick that call!” Came that gentle whisper.

Sometimes I wondered who was this? Was this me talking to myself or something else.

I ignored and swiped the green bar.

“Hello!” Who’s this?”

“Is this Cristina Kolapo?” The caller asked.

“Actually, call me Christiana. I don’t go by the name Cristina anymore……”

“Cris!” The man cut me off.
“I think something has happened to your boyfriend”.

That was it. The news I dreaded most. Suicide! Oh my God! I’ll never forgive my mentor for this. If he dies I’ll make sure she pays for it.

Wait a second! Wasn’t I about to meet her to apologize to her?

What’s wrong with me? Why am I living a double life?

“Cris!” The caller brought me back.

“We don’t have much time. Right now, we’re taking him to the hospital. We found him lying on the floor unconscious. We’re on our way to Dr Melvin’s hospital. We hope we’ll meet you there”.

I ended the call and rushed out of the house. I knew in my panic stricken state it wasn’t safe to drive. So I called my driver.

I urged him to drive as fast as he could, which he did carefully. Though we almost bumped into two vehicles on the way, we managed to arrive safely.

I got into Chris ward and met him laying on the bed unconscious.

I still have so much to tell but I’ll be handing over to my mentor, Mrs Juliet Robert Thompson.

She’ll be the one telling the story from the next episode.

To be continued……

Whenever a sinner plans to repent, there is always a battle from hell to keep that soul a sinner.

It takes the mercy of God to deliver such person from the grip of the devil.

You guys should be praying for Cris oooo. There’s serious contention going on here.

Satan knows what he stands to lose if he allows this glorious destiny to manifest.

Cris would have stayed out of a lot of trouble if only she had been obeying the instructions of the Holy Spirit.

Imagine her calling the voice of the Holy Ghost, “MY INSTINCTS”!

Episode 10

MRS JULIET THOMPSON POV

I was shocked by what had just happened. Cris called me a crazy woman and banged the phone on me. I’ve been calling her and she’s not picking up my calls.

What’s wrong with her? I remembered how she came on her own telling me she needed a mentor. Is this how she was going to repay me? I can’t believe a child I fed will ever turn around and give me such deadly bite.

I was so angry that I couldn’t control my tears anymore. It was really painful to watch the children you love so much, hurt you.

“Mum! Why are you crying?” Tina asked.

I quickly wiped my tears and put on a smile.

“Don’t worry about me Tina. I’ll be fine”, I replied.


She left immediately and ran to get her elder brother.

They both came to meet me in where I was in my study room.

“Mummy is crying. I want us to pray for her!” She said.

“Tina, you have started your drama again!” Joseph said frowning.

“Mummy is not feeling fine!” She said, using the back of her hand to feel my body temperature.

“I’ll go get Daddy!” She said and before I could stop her, she ran off.

“Mum! What’s going on?” Joseph asked.

“Don’t worry darling! It’s nothing serious!” I replied smiling.

He sat down on my table and took my hands.

“Tina is just a little kid. I’m 16. I’m more of an adult than Tina is. So you can always discuss whatever borders you with me”, he said, looking into my eyes worriedly.

Sometimes my kids were more caring than expected. I’m so happy for them. Well, I guess sooner or later I would have to tell them.

Soon, Tina came back.
“Daddy sent me to call you. He said I man is requesting to see you”.

“A man?”

“Yes ma!”

“What man?”

“I don’t know! But he said I should call you”.

I stood up and followed her to the sitting room. Even my son followed us.

I got to the sitting room and met a young man in his thirties, sitting down. Immediately I saw him, the spirit of God told me this was my mentee’s boyfriend. What had Cris done again? This is too much! Had she reported me to her boyfriend that I was the enemy of progress that stood against their wedding? This girl has really paid me in her own coin. So much for mentorship. I’m done with her.

“So you’re my girlfriend’s mentor?” He began without introducing himself.

“Please, I don’t understand what is going on here. You should at least introduce yourself so I can know you better!” I said, trying to start a conversation with him.

“Dmn you!” He screamed and stood up.

“Damn that stupid introduction! What did I do to you? Tell me! Have I offended you in the past? Tell me so I would ask for your forgiveness!” He said on top of his voice.

I quickly signalled my kids to go to their room and leave us. They did that in a jiffy.

“Pastor! Please tell your wife to leave my girlfriend alone. I don’t know what I did to her that she keeps telling her not to marry me. She keeps telling her that I am an evil person. That if she married me, she would spend the rest of her life in regret. Please tell her to stop it. When you wanted to marry your wife, nobody told your wife you were an evil person. So I don’t know why she’s treating me like this!” He said and stormed out of the house, banging the door loudly.

My husband and I stood in shock and embarrassment. I threw myself on the sofa and began to cry. My husband didn’t say anything apart from telling me to stop crying that it was going to be alright.

I was so bitter and angry. Just take a look at what Cris did to me. Anyway, I was a fool! I was the fool who went to mentor a lady old enough to mentor herself. She was so matured as a spiritual giant that she could tell me that I was a crazy woman. So much for mentorship.

“Juliana! My husband called me.

“It’s alright! Please stop crying” he said trying to console me.

“Don’t worry about me! I’m fine! In all my years of mentoring young converts, I have never been this humiliated. I have never been disgraced like this. I have never been……”

“Shush Julie angel!” My husband said placing a finger on my lips.

“Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you”, he said.

“Roberto! This is different! This girl backstabbed me! She destroyed my reputation in the secret and insulted me publicly. She disrespected me and…..”

“Julie angel!” My husband interrupted me.

“On Palm Sunday, Jesus rode into Jerusalem on a donkey. The crowd shouted Hosanna in the highest! Blessed is he that comes in the name of the Lord.

On Friday that same week, the same crowd shouted, ‘Crucify him!’ Is there any difference? Is there anything new under the sun?” He asked.

“Roberto, you don’t understand! She betrayed me!”

“Just as the people betrayed Jesus”.

I sighed as I realized I had given in to the spirit of bitterness.

“But what did Jesus do about them? Father forgive them, for they know not what they do!”

Silence took over for almost 60 seconds.

“Juliana, you need to understand that as a Christian, you’re going to enjoy honour, favour, wealth, prosperity and suffering. It’s part of what you must go through as a Christian. So don’t allow Satan tell you nonsense. We don’t have room for him in our hearts. If he’s looking for someone to fill with bitterness, he won’t find my Julie baby!” He said and tickled me.

I giggled and move away swiftly.

“Stop that! We’re in a serious conversation here!” I said trying to maintain a straight face.

“Who are you bonning face for? Is it for me or the devil that came to steal your joy?” He said coming after me.

I quickly stood up and made to run, but he grabbed me and I squealed, laughing.

“Daddy! Is mummy okay!” Tina said from the doorway.

“Yes she’s fine!” He said and held my face up and pointed at my teeth.

“Can’t you see her happy smile?” He said and I couldn’t help but burst into laughter.

“Okay! So who was that man?” She said and moved forward, Joseph following behind her.

“He’s a good man. He was so upset today that he couldn’t control himself. Don’t think anything bad about him okay!”

“I don’t understand! I heard him screaming at mummy. Why would you defend such kind of person?” Joseph asked.

I was shocked by my Roberto’s attitude.

“Yes why would you defend him?” Tina asked.

“Because I have forgiven him and I don’t want bitterness to take a root in me. Remember what we studied in church today. Give no room for the Devil”.

“Daddy! Why must we forgive a man who did not ask for our forgiveness in the first place? It sounds stupid and looks like an act of weakness. For me, I use to forgive ooo, but at least you would tell me I’m sorry so I can forgive you, abi?” Joseph asked.

“Yes! You need to ask me to forgive you first, before I will forgive you. That’s how forgiveness ought to look like”, Tina concurred.

My kids were right. At least you need to tell me you are sorry before I forgive you. Even the bible says, ask and ye shall receive. How can you forgive someone who is not sorry for what he or she has done? You don’t give the children’s bread to the dogs. You only forgive those who are sorry for what they have done and apologize about it. No apology, no forgiveness.

My husband beckoned on the kids to sit down. Tina took her spot on daddy’s laps, while my boy sat beside me.

“Remember the story of the prodigal son. How he suffered in his sins till he decided it was time to go home?
The bible said, while he was yet to reach the mansion of his father. The father saw him, ran to meet him and embraced him even in his dirty rags, because he had compassion on him. The boy was yet to apologize, but his father had already forgiven him before he did”, my husband said.

“I don’t agree with that! He was going to ask his father to forgive him in the first place”, Joseph said.

“Yes! The father only did it before he asked. Everyone knew he was there to ask for his father’s forgiveness. Daddy! I’m talking about people who hurt you and are not sorry about it. Some of them even want you to retaliate, give them a fist battle. Do you forgive the undeserving?” Tina asked.

“Even God does not forgive a sinner untill they ask for his forgiveness. For me, if you offend me. I will stop talking to you, I will punish you with my attitude towards you so that you come back begging me, when you cannot bear the way I’m treating you. I cannot fight you, but I have ways to retaliate and torture you untill you come and beg me”, Joseph said.

“Joseph, who is our role model in the Bible?” My husband asked.

“Jesus!” He answered.

“What did Jesus do to the people who nailed him to the cross?”

That was it! That was the right answer to give at a time like this. I was wowed by the well of spiritual wisdom my husband carried.

“Did they ask Jesus to forgive them for nailing him to the cross before he forgave them?” He asked.

I was the one who answered.

“No!”

“Good! What about the disciples who abandoned Jesus when he was arrested? What about Peter who denied him three times? Did he say, until Peter comes and begs me, I don’t want to ever see him again. Peter did not only betray him. He went back to the fishing business that Jesus called him from.

And when Jesus met him at the place where he was fishing, he forgave him. He performed a miracle that made Peter catch a lot of fish, when Peter had not said, Lord forgive me.

Kids, you don’t need anyone to ask, before you forgive. You forgive because that was the pattern Jesus showed us. Jesus did not snub Peter or gave him silence treatment. Jesus didn’t tell Peter to come and apologize to him for going back to fishing. He forgave, he was a master of compassion.
He had compassion on those that nailed him to the cross”.

“Hmmm! That’s because he’s God and not a man. Jesus was not a complete human being. He was God in human form. There’s no human being who can do what Jesus did to those people that nailed him to the cross”, Tina said.

Whoa! This was true. Jesus was God in human form. If it were to be a real man, I’m sure he won’t be able to control his temper or something.

My husband chuckled.

“Then ask Stephen! Ask Stephen if he was a God in human form when he forgave those people who stoned him to death”.

Both my kids and I were speechless.

To be continued…….

Who loves this kind of spiritual husband? 🖐️🖐️🖐️🖐️

This is what spiritual family leadership is all about.

Can you imagine Chris went to confront Mrs Thompson?

It’s true brethren. As a Christian, you must not wait for apology before you forgive. All those attitude, snubbing and silence treatment is not what Jesus taught us.

So what should I do as a Christian when someone offends me? Since Jesus doesn’t want us to snub or treat the person badly just to tell them we are not happy with them?

Episode 11

“Stephen was a man like you and I. There was no difference between that man and each of us. I’m not going to dispute the fact that forgiveness is a piece of cake, cheap and easy to do. But there has been a problem in the body of Christ that has not been addressed.

The Bible says that by the arm of flesh, shall no man prevail. We believers have forgotten that this Christian race is not a race we run with our physical strength. So whenever you mention forgiveness, which is according to the human strength, impossible. He quickly screams, impossible! Forgetting that it is not by power, nor by might but by my Holy Spirit, says the Lord of hosts”.

There was a brief silence in the sitting room, before Joseph said.

“Hmmmmm! It’s hard oooo!”

“Matthew 19:26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible”.

Looks like my husband is armed with scriptures to silence every negative thoughts in our heads tonight.

“So Daddy, now tell me, what can we do in order to obey this difficult command?” Tina asked.

“That’s a good question! Who’s our role model in the Bible?” He asked.

I don’t know why my Roberto loved asking this question. I believe he’s trying to always make us look unto Jesus as our example.

“Jesus!” We all chorused.

“Beautiful! Now did God give Jesus a difficult command? Yes he did. Infact, he sent Moses and Elijah to him on a mountain to tell him he was going to be sacrificed for the sins of mankind. He was going to be disgraced, spat on, whipped, chained like a criminal, nailed to a cross, stripped naked in front of a crowd and bleed till he died.

It was a death loaded with pain. Anyone can die a quick death. A bullet, just one shot, you can just close your eyes and open them in eternity. But a painful slow death? It’s so scary. Jesus was so afraid and sad. His disciples noticed it because he told them.

My spirit is sorrowful even unto death. And he went to the place of prayer and even asked God to permit him to disobey his command. Can you imagine?”

Nobody said anything. All eyes were focused on my hubby.

“Jesus showed us the perfect example. Whenever obeying God is too difficult for you to do, go to the place of prayer and seek his face for strength.

Because while the prayers were going on in the book of Luke 22:43. AND there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him.

Strength came from God to enable him carry out the command that was given to him. Because the bible made us to understand in the book of Philippians 2:13. For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do his good pleasure.

Joseph, that desire to forgive was God’s doing. But it is incomplete with that desire being fulfilled. Joseph, God placed it in your heart to forgive. So your job is to go and meet the God who place that desire in you, and ask him for strength to fulfill it.

Listen to me all of you, stop trying to please God with your human strength. You will fail and continue to fail. You will sin and continue to sin until you learn to kneel down before God and say, give me strength.

Give us strength! There are powers of immorality out there, I need strength to stay pure. There are powers of bitterness out there, I need strength to stay pure. Lord we need you! That’s why a Christian that is not serious with his quiet time is in for serious trouble.

Satan knows that a prayerless Christian is a powerless Christian. So he’ll do everything in his power to keep you from praying. John 1:12. But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name.

God actually gave us power to become like him. To live a righteous life like him. To forgive the way he forgives. To love our enemies the way he did when he was on earth. To pray for those who persecute us the way he commanded us. But why is it as if we don’t have this power?

Ye have not, because ye ask not. And where is the place where you meet with God to ask him for strength? In your quiet time.

That’s why Satan is ready to make sure you don’t keep your quiet time. He’s ready to make you so busy and allow you see 21 reasons why you don’t have time for prayers and studying God’s word.

So when unforgiveness comes, you’re powerless. When fornication comes, you’re powerless. When anger comes, you can’t control it. When bitterness comes, you cannot tame it and send it packing.

Pray! You don’t have time. Anyway, Satan has your time and he’s working overtime to keep you struggling to grow.

Pray! You said you’re tired. Well the enemies won’t come and find you tired and leave you. They won’t say, he was tired that’s why he couldn’t fight us. We would come back another day. They will so reck your life that you won’t believe you were born again in the first place.

Can we go down on our knees right now and ask God for strength!” My husband said as he stood up with Tina and knelt down.

My son and I quickly joined them.

“Let’s ask God for strength! Strength to do his good pleasure! Strength to love our enemies! Oh! Do you think it’s easy to love those who persecute you? Go ahead and try in your human strength. I wish you good luck on that.

Go ahead and cry to God. On my own! On my own! I can’t make it! I can’t make it!”

My kids and I began to burst into prayers.

“Please pray like Jesus taught us to pray. Jesus is our perfect example on how to pray. The Bible says, Jesus was dripping out sweat as he was kabashing. All these gentle man prayer is how the Rabbi, Pharisees and Sadducees pray.

Pray fervently! Pray with energy! Let God know you mean business! You don’t pray a gentleman prayer and sweat heavily.

The Bible says in Luke 22:43. At once an angel from heaven was at his side, strengthening him.
44 He prayed on all the harder. Sweat, wrung from him like drops of blood, poured off his face.

Jesus was a man of fervent prayers. Even the bible says a fervent prayer of a righteous man is so powerful and availeth much than all these gentleman prayer!”

With that, my kids changed into a fervent praying mode. Everyone was blasting in tongues and in no time, we are all dripping sweat like Jesus.

“Lord! Fill us with power! It is your spirit that quickeneth. The flesh profiteth nothing! Oh my God!

Angels are here! Angels just arrived to give strength. Who’s ready to recieve!” My hubby announced.

The prayers become hotter. I threw myself on the floor and began to groan in unknown tongues. Mt stomach tightened as I prayed.

“Lord! Cris has offended me. I’m so bitter! I cannot make heaven with such a bitter heart! Please wash me! Strengthen me! Help me to forgive her. On my own I can’t forgive her. What she did is so painful! But Lord, I still love you and I’m ready to show how much I love you by keeping your command.

But you’ve just made me understand that I can’t do it on my own. So please help me! Help me forgive her!”

“DAUGHTER! WHY IS FORGIVENESS SO IMPORTANT?” Came the inner voice.

I was still speaking in tongues, but this voice was engaging me in a conversation. Prayer is a dialogue, not a monologue. It’s a discussion and it’s done between you and God.

“HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED WHY IT’S IMPORTANT TO FORGIVE?”

“No sir!” I replied.

“FORGIVE US OUR TRESPASSES, AS WE FORGIVE THOSE WHO TRESPASS AGAINST US”.

“Yes Lord!”

“DAUGHTER! UNTIL YOU FORGIVE CRIS! I AM FORCED TO DENY YOU FORGIVENESS! I CANNOT GO AGAINST MY WORD! I LOVE YOU AND I’M READY TO FORGIVE YOU, BUT I CANNOT BREAK MY WORD. YOU HAVE TO FORGIVE CRIS SO I CAN ALSO FORGIVE YOU!”

“Lord! I’m ready to let go!” I replied.

“BLESSED ARE THE MERCIFUL FOR THEY SHALL OBTAIN MERCY! AS YOU HAVE SHOWN MERCY, THEREFORE, I HAVE SHOWN YOU MERCY! JULIET MY DAUGHTER, I FORGIVE YOU!”

It was as if a heavy load was taken off my chest. Immediately, I felt my joy restored, I felt peace of mind. I was still speaking in tongues, but I was now smiling.

“Lord! Cris was the one who sinned against me. Why were you confronting me that I was a sinner?”

“YOU SINNED!”

“What was my sin?” I asked.

“BITTERNESS! HOLDING GRUDGES AGAINST HER! SIN IS LIKE VIRUS. YOU CONTACT IT BY ALLOWING THE PERSON WITH THE VIRUS SPREAD IT TO YOU. BUT IF YOU PUT ON YOUR NOSE MASK AND SANITIZE YOUR HANDS, YOU’RE SURE OF A SPIRITUAL HEALTHY LIFE. GOD’S WORD IS YOUR SANITIZER”.

I bowed myself to the ground in worship and began to sing praises to God.

To be continued…….

Our God is awesome
He wants us to forgive so that we can receive his forgiveness.

Can you imagine?

So why are we wasting our time in bitterness and grudges. Instead of forgiving and moving on to enjoy our relationship with God.

And how many of you learnt something from the prayer life of Jesus. Fervent prayers are so powerful and unique. Please let’s wave our gentility prayers goodbye. We are warriors in the realm of the spirit.

Please share with me one or two things you learnt from this episode. Don’t just pass without saying anything.

Please don’t be a Ghost reader

Episode 12

I sat down on the bed all smiles as I awaited my husband to join me for the night. We had an amazing time as a family in God’s presence. Everyone felt the Lord’s hand heavily. God came down for us, to circumcise our hearts. It was awesome.

Soon the door opened and the man of my dreams walked in.

I stood up smiling and spread my arms to give him a hug. He returned the smile and walked into my waiting arms. I hugged him so tightly and gave him a kss on the lips before releasing him.

“My Julie angel is getting stronger oooo!” He said, wincing playfully.

“You almost broke my back!”

I giggled and gave him a punch on his arm.

“You were amazing today. I couldn’t believe this was the convert I discipled!” I replied.

“Hey! That wasn’t me. That was God speaking! So save those thanks for the right person”. He said grinning.

He sat down and on the bed and I quickly took my place beside him. He took up his phone and went to the gallery, scrolling through the pictures.

I leaned my head on his shoulder and watched what he was up to. My Roberto is full of surprises. Soon he arrived at a picture and handed the phone to me. I took my head off his shoulder and took a look at the phone.

It was a picture of Cris and I.

“Why are you showing me this?” I asked.

“I needed to ask you what’s your next line of action? What’s the plan?” He asked.

“Plan? What plan?”

“Don’t tell me you don’t have anything in mind for her. Of course you ought to know the next step to take”.

I sighed and returned the phone to him.

“You’re right! I did have plans for her but she ruined everything. She’s not picking my calls anymore. I wouldn’t be shocked to find out she barred my number. She already made herself clear, no more mentorship. I understand English and I know what that means. I’m not going to force her to do what she doesn’t want to do. She’s free to do whatever she wants to do”.

“Juliana!” My husband called.

“Yes, my sweet Roberto!” I replied grinning.

He chuckled and then replied.

“You’re her mum!”

“Not anymore!” I interrupted.

“I don’t understand! I thought you forgave her?”

“Yes I did! But we can’t be friends like before. I mean she doesn’t want me around her anymore. So why are you still calling me her mother? Do I look like her mother?” I asked frowning.

My Roberto looked at me with shock written all over his face. I was also surprised at my turbulent emotions. Did I say something wrong? I’m not her mentor anymore. The relationship is over. So why was he calling her my daughter? And funny enough, why was I feeling like I did something wrong. What’s going on.

My Roberto stood up and dropped the phone on the table. Climbed the bed and covered himself with the duvet.

“Good night!” He said.

“Aah! You can’t leave me like this! Come back here!” I said and took the duvet off him.

He didn’t turn, he remained still. I gave him a hard pinch on the back and he turned immediately.

“Please I need to sleep!” He said.

“Sleep? When I have not slept!” I saw the look in his eyes. I knew my Roberto well enough to understand that what I had said weighed heavily on his heart.

God what have I done?

“Roberto! Please talk to me! I know what I said hurt you. But I don’t understand what was wrong in those words I said. Please, help your Julie angel understand”, I said, leaning over him.

He didn’t say a word. His eyes looked blurry. He was close to tears.

“Jesus! Please help me! Is this the gravity of what I had just done? My husband is almost going to cry over a statement I made. Lord please help me”.

I brought my face closer to his and whispered.

“Come on!”

He sat up and pointed at the spot beside him. I quickly sat down.

“Humanly speaking, what you said wasn’t wrong. But as children of God it was wrong. That girl is your child Spiritually. And in reality, whether the parents disown the child or the child disowns the parents. It doesn’t change the fact that they are still his parents and that the child is still theirs.

So the fact that Cris doesn’t want you anymore doesn’t change anything. You’re still her spiritual mum and will always be. That’s the first thing you must never forget”.

I looked at him and nodded.

“So are you saying I should keep communicating with her and try to reach out to her?”

“That’s no what I want you to do. What you are to do is to do the job of a mother! And what’s that? Intercession!”

“Hmmm!”

“Women are intercessors! They are born intercessors. Any man who’s an intercessors was only granted that privilege. Intercession has alway been the spiritual office of the Christian lady. Now as a mother, your job is to stand for her in the spirit realm and call her from the realm of the spirit.

Do you think what’s happening to Cris is ordinary? There are powers fighting her glory. There are raging powers fighting her destiny from manifesting. They know that thousands of people are counting on her to feed them with the bread. So stop her, and the thousands that she’s meant to feed with the bread would starve to death.

Satan is manipulating her mind. He’s taking advantage of her weakness and using the spiritual weapon of self destruction, which is encapsulated in a demonic dimension called Rebellion. And through this mechanism, he wields authority over her mind, thereby subjecting her to carnality.

She’s in a spiritual realm called metamorphosis. It’s a realm where the spirit of the new born baby Christian is still taking shape. So any demon that succeeds in engaging her in this period, will successfully sustain it’s dimensions in her. And that’s what the demonic personality called Rebellion, is achieving”.

Oh men! My head don scatter! Na wetin be this? I no understand wetin my guy dey talk oooo!

“Emmmm! Roberto! Can you please come again?” I requested.

“Oh! I’m sorry! I got carried away!”

“Yes! Please carry yourself come back! This guy is loaded! I no fit carry am!” I replied within me.

“What I was saying is that, Satan is using rebellion as a tool to cause her to self destruct. To destroy her destiny by herself. And that her spiritual stage is a stage of childhood. Remember what you always taught us back then. You always said that the child is an empty container. If you put milk in it, it becomes a container of milk. But if you put urine in it, it becomes a container of urine. The child is subject to the information and ideas that was fed to him as an infant. Do if you want your child to know God, start early. Because if you don’t fill that child with milk, Satan is ready to fill him with urine and cause his attitude to smell terribly.
If you neglect your children, Satan will not neglect them for you.

This is what I was trying to explain. She’s at a stage where the spirit of rebellion is trying to influence her and make that seed to grow in her till it becomes a character that cannot change. Because, old habits just as they say, never die. Do you get it now?”

“I do know! Please, be careful with the Rhema ooooo. No wonder why?”

“Why what?” He asked.

“Nevermind! It’s an aside!”

“No say on!”

“Okay! Remember in the Bible, Apostle Paul called himself a custodian of the mysteries of God? A Steward of the mysteries of God”.

“Yes!” He answered.

“That means if you’re looking for mysteries, go and meet Paul!”

“Okay! Go on!”

“I was like, no wonder why that Roman official told Paul he was mad! Too much mysteries!” I said and he burst into laughter.

“Actually, I was only trying to explain the situation on ground”.

“Yes, by turning my head upside down!”

He chuckled.

“So my Julie angel! Will you stand in the gap for this lady and pray for her? Stand for her and call her destiny from the hands of those who hijacked it from her. Stand in the gap and call back her Spirit from the prisons where she had been chained. Are you ready?”

I was silent for a while. I knew what my hubby expected to hear, but I didn’t know how the struggle started again. Does Cris deserve my prayers? Does she deserve it at all? I have so many things to pray about. No spare time for a rebellious mentee. Why waste prayers on a girl who doesn’t respect her elders in Christ?

How many times did Moses pray for those Israelite rebels? A rebel will always do what they know how to do best, rebel. Moses pleaded and pleaded, yet they never changed.

I have forgiven her ooo. But, I don’t want her trouble anymore. We can do better if we stay on our own. I don’t have anything to do with her again. So why waste prayers on her?

This was what I wanted to say, but my eyes saw the clock on the wall. It was 11: 30 pm. I knew if I gave that reply, that would mean another one hour of unveiling the mysteries of God, with my Roberto the Apostle. I better save some time for my sleep, since my quiet time was starting by 2am. I only had two hours, thirty minutes to sleep.

“I’ll pray for her!” I answered.

He smiled and gave me a hug.

“I’m so proud of you! My mentor and my Julie angel!”

“Roberto! The first shall be the last ooo! You’re now the one mentoring me and my children ooo! Infact turn small oil on my head na. I want to dey open mysteries too”.

“Go meet Apostle Paul jare! Tell am say make he do impartation on you!”

“Na you be my Apostle Paul na!” I said and gave him thumbs up.

“Sleep dey your eye! That’s what makes you think I’m your Apostle Paul”.

To be continued……

When Satan is seriously at work, that’s the best time to pray hard.

This lady wants to repent, but Satan keeps bringing occasions to keep her locked up in her sins.

Brethren, the body of Christ has lost the ministry of intercession. We have replaced it with the ministry of criticism.

All that is happening around Cris is beyond the physical. But who’s standing for her in the spiritual realm?

Every person that served God here on earth or fulfilled destiny had someone who interceded for them, including Jesus.

Luke 2:36. And there was one Anna, a prophetess, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Aser: she was of a great age, and had lived with an husband seven years from her virginity;

2:37 And she was a widow of about fourscore and four years, which departed not from the temple, but served God with fastings and prayers night and day.

She prayed the destiny of Jesus into manifestation. Many of us thought that woman wasted her time. But the success of Jesus ministry here on earth, was part of her groanings in the secret.

Let’s pick up our mantles of intercession. Satan is seriously wrecking lives. Pray for the perishing!

Episode 13

I woke up at the sound of my alarm. It was time to observe my quiet time. I sat on the bed as sleep was gradually clearing off my eyes. I stood up and looked at the bed very well. I discovered my hubby was not in bed. It was a shock to me.

His quiet time was by 3am, so why wasn’t he in bed? I began to search for my Apostle and found him in the sitting room on his knees.

I smiled and turned to leave when I noticed something in his hand. It was a picture of me. He was using it to pray for me.

“Father! Juliet is my Eve! She’s my mother of many nations! If Satan wants to access this family, he has to go through her. He has to seduce the woman to eat the forbidden fruit. He has to seduce the mother of many nations to give her maid to her husband.

Lord! She’s my backup! My destiny helper and the embodiment of grace and favour you bestowed on me. If a woman goes down? Oh God! When a woman goes down! She never crashes alone! She takes her man down with her. Because she’s a combination of WOMB & MAN. That’s why she’s called a WO-MAN.

Eve fell and her husband fell with her. Sarah fell for Satan’s deception and Abraham went down with her. Lot’s daughters fell and Lot went down with them. He had intercourse with his two daughters and got them pregnant.

Lord! A woman never falls alone. That’s why I’m bringing my Eve before you. If she goes down, I go down! She’s my gatekeeper. Lord, please help her. Last night, when we talked about Cris, I knew she was still holding on to the hurt. She’s still not completely ready to do your will concerning Cris.

She’s standing at the edge of the cliff. One wrong move she goes down into bitterness and unforgiveness. Lord! Please help her. Help her stand firm! Help her overcome the whispers of the the enchanter. The voice of the master seductress. Satan will not penetrate my home in Jesus name!

Lord you told me to be spiritually sensitive. That you’ll always alert me with signals whenever Satan came for my family. And I have gotten the signal. Lord! Here’s a picture of my Julie angel!”

He said and covered my picture with his palm.

“I’m using it as a point of contact. Wherever you are right now Juliana hear me! I command your spirit man to receive strength. You will not fall to the seductress! Recieve grace to overcome the whispers of the enchanter!”

At this point, I couldn’t explain how I was feeling. I felt some kind of heat all over my body. What was happening to me? I had to leave quietly so as not to distract him.

A part of me was excited he was praying for me, but the other part hated the prayer point. Was he saying I still had bitterness in me? I had already told God I was ready to forgive Cris which of course I did. I felt peace as I released her from my heart. Why was he telling God I was listening to the whispers of the enchanter?

He’s just praying out of fear. He’s praying amiss. He should stop wasting his prayers, I have already forgiven Cris.

I returned to the room and began my quiet time. Our rule was one of us could use the sitting room, the bedroom or the study room. We don’t observe our personal time with God in the same room so as not to distract the other person.

So I started worshipping God with songs and later, switched to prayers of thanksgiving. Soon I was praying in tongues and walking around the room.

“START PRAYING FOR CRIS!” Cane the gentle whisper.

Why should I? We have both gone our separate ways. She’s no longer interested in my mentorship program. She’s moved on and I’ve moved on also. I have forgiven her and I’m not holding any grudges against her. So let’s maintain it that way.

“ARE YOU SURE YOU HAVE FORGIVEN HER?”

“Yes! Why not?” I replied.

Matthew 5:43 – 48. Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?
And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?
Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.”

I paused in my tracks and tried to continue praying, but the tongues stopped in my mouth. I started praying in words, I knew this prayers were not connecting.

I sighed and sat down on the bed. I knew what it meant. God was calling my attention to something I was neglecting.

“Lord! What is it?” I asked and immediately, my eyes spotted my Bible. It was a language we both understood.

I stood up and went for the study table in our bedroom, taking my Bible along. I sat down and opened the passage that had popped up in my heart. Matthew 5: 43.

I read it and I realized how much I deceived myself that I had forgiven Cris.

“But Lord! You knew I did during our family prayers!” I said within me.

“YES YOU DID, BUT AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE, YOU LISTENED TO THE WHISPERS OF THE ENCHANTER. WITHOUT YOU KNOWING, BITTERNESS CREPT IN AGAIN. BY REFUSING TO TREAT CRIS WITH THE SAME LOVE YOU HAD FOR HEE BEFORE HER BETRAYAL, YOU GAVE IN TO THE VOICE OF THE SEDUCTRESS”.

I bowed my head and sighed.

“Lord! I’m sorry. I messed up badly. I was busy thinking about how Cris betrayed you. Unknowingly, I was also betraying you. I was judging her actions and just as the bible says that whenever I judged someone, I would be judged. I was judging her actions, but I didn’t know you were also judging mine. I was condemning her and received condemnation as well. I saw her as my enemy and ended up becoming your enemy”.

“JULIET, CAN I TEACH YOU SOMETHING?”

“Yes sir!” I replied within me.

“IS A HUMAN BEING YOUR ENEMY? I WANT TO SHOW YOU THE MYSTERY BEHIND THE WORD, ENEMY”.

I quickly brought out my quiet time jotter and took out my pen and began to write.

“WHO IS YOUR ENEMY? IT’S EASY TO SAY ITS THE DEVIL, BUT WE STILL FIND OURSELVES FIGHTING EACH OTHER AND HATING ONE ANOTHER. THE TRUTH IS THAT SATAN IS OUR ENEMY, BUT, HE’S DOING SOMETHING TRICKY WE HAVEN’T NOTICED.

THE EARTH IS OPERATED BY DEVILS. AND THEY ARE ALWAYS POWERLESS WITHOUT THE HELP OF A HUMAN AGENT. THAT’S WHY MEN ARE IMPORTANT TO BOTH GOD AND DEMONS. IN ORDER FOR SATAN TO ESTABLISH SIN ON EARTH, HE NEEDS MEN. IN ORDER FOR GOD TO ESTABLISH RIGHTEOUSNESS ON EARTH, HE NEEDS MEN.

AND THE GREATEST WAY TO INFLUENCE A MAN IS THROUGH WORDS, WHISPERS, SEDUCTION. SO WHEN THE SPIRIT OF IMMORALITY WANTS SOMEONE TO COMMIT IMMORALITY, HE STARTS BRINGING SUGGESTIONS TO THE MIND OF HIS VICTIM.

WHEN THE SPIRIT OF HATRED WANTS TO DESTROY A MAN, THIS IS HIS STARTING POINT. HE KEEPS ENGAGING THE MAN IN A CONVERSATION. LOOK AT HOW WICKED THAT MENTOR IS! SHE’S STANDING AS AN ENEMY OF PROGRESS TO YOUR HAPPY MARRIED LIFE! AND EVEN WHEN CRIS TRIES TO SAY NO, IT COUNTERS HER CLAIMS. IF SHE’S NOT AN ENEMY OF PROGRESS, WHY CAN’T SHE ALLOW YOU MARRY THE MAN OF YOUR DREAMS? YOU’RE NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER.

AND THIS SPIRIT STARTS CONVINCING HER AND CONTINUES TO GAIN MORE GROUNDS. AND THE MORE A SPIRIT SUCCEEDS IN CONVINCING A MAN, THE MORE THE MAN WILL BE ENSLAVED TO THE WHISPERS OF THAT SPIRIT.

SO WHEN CRIS PICKS UP THE PHONE, THE SPIRIT TELLS HER TO CURSE HER MENTOR. SHE KEEPS TRYING TO RESIST, BUT SHE HAD GIVEN THE DEVIL A LISTENING EAR THAT, AHE HAS BECOME A VICTIM OF HER THOUGHTS. SO SHE CAN ONLY RESIST FOR A WHILE.

THIS WORLD IS A GAME OF SPIRITS. EVERY THOUGHT THAT APPEARS IN YOUR HEART ARE JUST WHISPERS FROM A SPIRIT. EITHER THE SPIRIT OF GOD OR AN UNCLEAN SPIRIT. THESE ARE THE TWO SOURCES.

SO MANY PEOPLE THINK THAT WHENEVER THEY START THINKING IT WAS ALL THEIR IDEA, ITS NOT. A SPIRIT WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR THE THOUGHTS THAT CAME TO THEIR MINDS. FOR EXAMPLE, WHEN A HALF NAKED LADY PASSES AND A YOUNG MAN SEES HER. IN ORDER TO STAY PURE, HE LOOKS THE OTHER WAY. THAT THOUGHT THAT USUALLY COMES AND ENCOURAGES HIM TO TAKE A SECOND GLANCE, ISN’T THAT THE WHISPERS OF AN UNCLEAN SPIRIT? DO YOU THINK HE’S JUST THE ONE THINKING?

SO THE MAN TAKES A LOOK AND LUSTS AFTER THE LADY IN HIS HEART. CRIS GO AHEAD AND CALLS HER MENTOR A CRAZY WOMAN. BUT SHE’S ONLY A VICTIM, ENSLAVED TO THE WHISPERS OF THE ENCHANTER. SHE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND WHY AHE SAID IT. AFTER SAYING IT, SHE MAY START REGRETTING IT. BUT WHAT DO WE HUMANS DO?

WE PICK ON THAT STATEMENT! OH! SHE INSULTED ME! I’M NEVER GOING TO PRAY FOR HER AGAIN. SHE CALLED ME A CRAZY WOMAN! I DON’T WANT TO EVER SEE HER AGAIN! UNKNOWING TO YOU THAT YOUR ENEMY IS NOT THE PERSON WHO SAID THOSE WORDS, BUT THE SPIRIT THAT WAS BEHIND THE PERSON THAT SAID IT. THE SPIRIT THAT MANIPULATED THE PERSON TO SAY IT.

FOR THOUGH WE WALK IN THE FLESH, WE DO NOT WAR AFTER THE FLESH. FOR THE WEAPONS OF OUR WARFARE ARE NOT CARNAL. BUT THEY ARE MIGHTY THROUGH GOD TO THE PULLING DOWN OF STRONGHOLDS.

JULIET, WE DO NOT FIGHT A PHYSICAL ENEMY, BUT A SPIRITUAL ONE. AND THOSE DEMONS OF REBELLION THAT ENSLAVED CRIS WEAK MIND. TOOK ADVANTAGE OF HER IGNORANCE AND TURNED HER AGAINST YOU, ARE MORE ENEMIES TO YOU THAN CRIS. CRIS IS ONLY A PUPPET UN THIS GAME. SHE’S ONLY ACTING THE SCRIPT THEY GAVE TO HER.

JULIET, GO INTO THE SPIRIT REALM AND GET YOUR DAUGHTER OUT OF THEIR FILTHY HANDS AND STOP THINKING SHE’S YOUR ENEMY”.

To be continued………

How many of you loved the prayer Roberto was praying for his wife?

It’s absolutely true brethren. A woman who falls spiritually is going to be disastrous to the entire family.

Lot’s daughters fell for the deception of the devil and took Lot down with them. After standing for God as virgins in an immoral place like Sodom and Gomorrah, they fell and lost their standing with God.

Brethren, please stop the criticism. Learn to pray for each other. Stop the character assessment, start learning how to fight in the spirit and watch your prayers controlling the physical.

How many of you know that unforgiveness is a very deceptive spirit? You keep telling yourself you have forgiven the person, but you’re still keeping the issue in your heart.

The class continues tomorrow. So come with your pen and jotter.

Please share with me what you have learnt in this episode. Don’t walk away please.

Episode 14

I was completely amazed by what I was learning this morning. It was so wonderful to watch God’s word destroy the strongholds of the Enemy in your mind.

“Lord! Thank you so much!” I said as I wrote a few more lines and placed a full stop.

“JULIET, LET’S TAKE APOSTLE PAUL AS A CASE STUDY. THE MAN PERSECUTED BELIEVERS SO MUCH THAT EVERYONE DREADED HIM. ONCE YOU HEAR HIS NAME AND YOU ARE A CHRISTIAN, START RUNNING. OH! HE’S OUR ENEMY! HE’S A KILLER! HE’S AN EVIL MAN. LOOK AT WHAT HE DID TO ME. HE KILLED MY UNCLE AND BEAT MY TWELVE YEAR OLD SON SO BADLY. HE DIDN’T OVERLOOK THE FACT THAT HE WAS A LITTLE CHILD. I’LL NEVER FORGIVE HIM FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE.

BUT YEARS LATER THE SAME PAUL STOOD AND SAID, I DID IT OUT OF IGNORANCE. I THOUGHT I WAS WORKING FOR GOD BUT UNKNOWINGLY, I WAS DOING THE DEVIL’S BIDDING”.

“Hmmmmm! This is awesome!”

“SO THE PROBLEM IS NOT THE MAN, BUT THE SPIRIT USING THE MAN AGAINST US. LEAVE THE MAN ALONE, GO AFTER THE SPIRIT. FOR WE WRESTLE NOT AGAINST FLESH AND BLOOD BUT AGAINST PRINCIPALITIES, AGAINST POWERS, AGAINST RULERS OF THE DARKNESS OF THIS WORLD, AGAINST SPIRITUAL WICKEDNESS IN HEAVENLY PLACES.

THAT’S OUR OPPONENT, NOT THE CONFUSED PERSON WHO FAILED TO KEEP HIS HEART WITH ALL DILIGENCE AND ALLOWED THE DEVIL OVERCOME HIS MIND AND ENSLAVE HIM.

THAT’S WHY I TOLD YOU TO LOVE YOUR ENEMIES. IF A CHRISTIAN OPENS HIS MOUTH AND SAYS YOU ARE CRAZY, IT’S A SIGN THAT THE PERSON NEEDS YOUR HELP. MANY PEOPLE WOULD CALL YOU A FOOL IN THEIR HEARTS AND SMILE WHEN THEY SEE YOU. BUT THE MAN WHO OPENS HIS MOUTH TO REVEAL THE STATE OF HIS DARK HEART IS MORE HONEST THAN THE HYPOCRITE THAT HIDES HIS CURSES WITH A FRIENDLY SMILE.

SO PRAY FOR THOSE WHO PERSECUTE YOU. IF THE BELIEVERS NEVER PRAYED FOR PAUL JUST AS I COMMANDED THEM IN SCRIPTURE, THEY WOULD HAVE LOST A GENERAL IN THE FAITH. BUT MATTHEW AND THE APOSTLES ENCOURAGED THEM THAT IT WAS GOD’S WILL TO PRAY FOR OUR PERSECUTORS AND THEY ALL COMPLIED. THEIR PRAYERS CAME TO HEAVEN AND I HAD TO GO AFTER PAUL.

SO CAN YOU SEE THE REASON WHY YOU HAVE TO PRAY FOR YOUR ENEMIES? THEY ARE NOT ACTUALLY ENEMIES, BUT SATAN’S PUPPETS. THE REAL ENEMY IS THE ONE CONFUSING THEIR MINDS WITH LIES. THAT’S THE ONE YOU SHOULD GO AFTER.

“Lord! But the bible says, do not suffer the witch to live. That means we are to destroy them. What do you have to say about that”.

“GOOD QUESTION! I NEED TO OPEN YOUR HEART TO THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE OLD TESTAMENT AND THE NEW TESTAMENT. BUT THE ONLY THING I WANT TO POINT OUT IS THIS. IN THE OLD TESTAMENT, THE ENEMY WAS NOT THE DEVIL.TRUE OR FALSE?”

“True!” I answered.

“SECONDLY, IN THE OLD TESTAMENT, THE WEAPONS OF THEIR WARFARE WERE CARNAL. TRUE OR FALSE?”

“True!”

“OPEN TO DEUTERONOMY 18:10”

I quickly opened my Bible and read.

“There shall not be found among you any one that maketh his son or his daughter to pass through the fire, or that useth divination, or an observer of times, or an enchanter, or a witch”.

“SO CAN YOU SEE THE DIFFERENCE? IN THOSE DAYS, WITCHES WERE IDOLATERS WHO BROUGHT IN FALSE WORSHIP AMONG MY PEOPLE. OPEN TO CHAPTER 13 OF DEUTERONOMY AND START FROM VERSE ONE”.

I quickly flipped my Bible and read.

“If there arise among you a prophet, or a dreamer of dreams, and giveth thee a sign or a wonder.

Verse 2. And the sign or the wonder come to pass, whereof he spake unto thee, saying, Let us go after other gods, which thou hast not known, and let us serve them.

Verse 3. Thou shalt not hearken unto the words of that prophet, or that dreamer of dreams: for the LORD your God proveth you, to know whether ye love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul.

Verse 4. Ye shall walk after the LORD your God, and fear him, and keep his commandments, and obey his voice, and ye shall serve him, and cleave unto him.

Verse 5. And that prophet, or that dreamer of dreams, shall be put to death; because he hath spoken to turn you away from the LORD your God, which brought you out of the land of Egypt, and redeemed you out of the house of bondage, to thrust thee out of the way which the LORD thy God commanded thee to walk in. So shalt thou put the evil away from the midst of thee.

Verse 6. If thy brother, the son of thy mother, or thy son, or thy daughter, or the wife of thy bosom, or thy friend, which is as thine own soul, entice thee secretly, saying, Let us go and serve other gods, which thou hast not known, thou, nor thy fathers;

Verse 7. Namely, of the gods of the people which are round about you, nigh unto thee, or far off from thee, from the one end of the earth even unto the other end of the earth;

Verse 8. Thou shalt not consent unto him, nor hearken unto him; neither shall thine eye pity him, neither shalt thou spare, neither shalt thou conceal him:

Verse 9. But thou shalt surely kill him; thine hand shall be first upon him to put him to death, and afterwards the hand of all the people.

Verse 10. And thou shalt stone him with stones, that he die; because he hath sought to thrust thee away from the LORD thy God, which brought thee out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage”.

“ANY PERSON WHO TRIED TO STOP MY PEOPLE FROM WORSHIPPING ME, WAS TO BE KILLED AND THE WITCH WAS IN THIS CATEGORY. I GAVE THE LAWS AND PUT THE SWORD IN THR HANDS OF MY PEOPLE AND COMMANDED THE DEATH OF ANYONE WHO TRIED TO PROMOTE THE WORSHIP OF FALSE GODS.

SO IN THE NEW TESTAMENT, PEOPLE HAVE USED THIS SCRIPTURE WRONGLY TO THINK I HAVE PLEASURE IN THE DEATH OF A SINNER. NO! JESUS DIED FOR THOSE ENSLAVED IN OCCULTISM. WIZARDS AND WITCHES WERE ALSO PART OF MY PLAN. THEY ARE PART OF THE PEOPLE JESUS CAME TO REDEEM.

“So what do we do with them?” I asked.

“THEY ARE NOTHING BUT LOST SOULS. INTERCEDE FOR THEM. PRAY FOR THEM. DON’T ALLOW SATAN USE THEM AND WASTE THEM IN HELL. MANY OF THEM ARE THE APOSTLE PAULS THE BODY OF CHRIST ARE WAITING FOR. BUT SATAN SNATCHED THEM FROM US AND LABELLED THEM WITCHES. SO WE STAY AWAY FROM THEM AND HATE THEM,. NOT KNOWING THAT IF YOU CAST OUT THE UNCLEAN SPIRIT IN HER, SHE BECOMES A VESSEL FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT TO DWELL.

NEVER FORGET THIS JULIET! I HAVE NO PLEASURE IN THE DEATH OF A SINNER. DON’T FORGET THIS!”

I smiled as I wrote them down.

“IN THE OLD TESTAMENT, MY PEOPLE FOUGHT AMALAKITIES, HITITES, AMORITIES, PHILISTINES, SYRIANS AND MUCH MORE. BUT IN THE NEW TESTAMENT, WE HAVE A DIFFERENT KIND OF COMBAT AND WEAPONS. SO STOP THINKING WITCHES ARE PART OF THEM. PAUL CLEARLY STATED WHO WE WERE FIGHTING. PRINCIPALITIES, POWERS, RULERS OF DARKNESS AND SPIRITUAL WICKEDNESS IN HEAVENLY PLACES. WITCHES WERE NOT INCLUDED.

“But Lord! Sometimes we pray against witches during warfare prayers and sometimes we see them confessing and dying. Aren’t you the one who killed them?” I asked.

“YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND HOW THE JUDGMENT OF GOD OPERATES. IT’S LIKE WITH CAIN AND ABEL. REMEMBER HOW I TRIED TO WARN CAIN OF WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN BEFORE THE CALAMITY THAT BEFELL HIM. EVEN WHEN I WAS ANGRY WITH CAIN AND WANTED TO JUDGE HIM, I GAVE HIM AN OPPORTUNITY TO CONFESS HIS SINS.

I ASKED CAIN, WHERE IS YOUR BROTHER ABEL? IS IT BECAUSE I DIDN’T SEE HIM WHEN HE KILLED HIM? I WANTED HIM TO KNEEL DOWN AND TELL ME HOW SORRY HE WAS FOR KILLING HIM. I WANTED HIM TO WEEP AND BEG FOR MERCY. BUT HE HARDENED HIS HEART AND OPENED HIS MOUTH TO TELL ME, I DON’T KNOW, AM I MY BROTHER’S KEEPER?

THAT’S HOW HIS DOOM CAME ON HIM. THE SAME GOES TO ANANIAS AND SAPPHIRA. YES, I GAVE THEM ROOM TO REPENT AND SAVE THEIR LIVES. PETER ASKED THEM, DID YOU SELL THE LAND FOR THIS AMOUNT?

IT WAS AN OPPORTUNITY TO CONFESS AND SAY, ACTUALLY, WE KEPT PART OF THE MONEY FOR OUR FINANCIAL UPKEEP. PETER WOULD HAVE PRAYED FOR THEM AND SENT THEM AWAY. BUT THEY HARDENED THEIR HEARTS AND WENT AHEAD WITH THEIR CALCULATED LIES. THAT WAS HOW THEIR DESTRUCTION CAME.

I AM A GOD OF LOVE, MAKE NO MISTAKE ABOUT THAT. BUT I AM ALSO A GOD OF JUDGMENT. THE LIVING WATER, BUT ALSO THE CONSUMING FIRE. THAT’S WHAT HAPPENED TO THOSE WITCHES WHO CONFESSED AND DIED. YES I KILL AND MAKE ALIVE. I GAVE THEM ROOM TO REPENT BUT THEY PERSISTED IN WICKEDNESS. JULIET, EVERY HUMAN BEING ON EARTH HAS A SPECIFIC TIME GIVEN TO THEM FOR REPENTANCE. OPEN TO REVELATION 2:20”.

I quickly opened my Bible and read it out.

“Notwithstanding I have a few things against thee, because thou sufferest that woman Jezebel, which calleth herself a prophetess, to teach and to seduce my servants to commit fornication, and to eat things sacrificed unto idols.

Verse 21. And I gave her space to repent of her fornication; and she repented not.

Verse 22. Behold, I will cast her into a bed, and them that commit adultery with her into great tribulation, except they repent of their deeds.

Verse 23. And I will kill her children with death; and all the churches shall know that I am he which searcheth the reins and hearts: and I will give unto every one of you according to your works”.

I smiled, awed by the revelations from these scriptures.

“THAT DOESN’T MEAN IT WAS ACTUALLY YOUR PRAYERS THAT CAUSED THAT CALAMITY TO BEFALL THEM. THAT’S WHY SOMETIMES YOU PRAY FOR WITCHES TO DIE AND ITS AS IF GOD DIDN’T HEAR YOU. HES ONLY FOLLOWING HIS CALENDAR. YOU CAN’T RUSH HIM. AND YOU ALL KNOW THAT ONCE JUDGMENT HAS ARRIVED, GOD STIRS UP HIS PEOPLE AND USES THEM TO UNLEASH VENGEANCE ON THE UNREPENTANT. JUST LIKE HE WOULD TELL SAUL TO GO AND DESTROY ALL THE AMALAKITIES. BECAUSE OF THE SWORD OF AGAG THAT HAD BEEN MAKING WOMEN CHILDLESS.

AND SAUL WENT THERE ONLY TO MESS THINGS UP. HE DIDN’T KNOW THAT IT WAS JUDGEMENT THAT WAS TAKING PLACE. GOD WANTED TO PUNISH AGAG FOR HIS WICKEDNESS, BUT HE MESSED IT UP.

SO WHENEVER IT IS TIME FOR GOD TO UNLEASH HIS JUDGEMENT ON THE UNREPENTANT WITCH. HE USES THE INSTRUMENTALITY OF MEN’S WARFARE PRAYERS TO DO SO. SO IT WOULD LOOK AS IF IT WAS YOUR PRAYERS THAT ACTUALLY KILLED THEM, BUT IT WAS GOD TELLING THE WITCH YOUR TIME IS UP. THAT’S WHY SOMETIMES YOU PRAY THEY SHOULD DIE BUT NOTHING HAPPENS. AND SOMETIMES, YOU ARE JUST PRAYING SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT AND ONE UNCLE IN THE VILLAGE DIES”.

To be continued…….

Episode 15

I knelt down and began to worship God.

“Lord I thank you! I bless your name with all my heart! Thank you so much for these wonderful revelation. You have freed me from the hands of the enemy. Hmmmmm! They meant business. They came for me. But you didn’t deliver your Julie angel into the hands of the enemies. You guarded me jealously. Oh sweet Jesus! Thank you so much!”

I was still praying when I heard my hubby’s voice, all the way from the sitting room.

“Lord! Don’t allow the enemy tamper with my Eve! Lord go after her! Her back must not touch the ground in defeat!”

I could hear the passion in his voice. He was groaning fervently. A smile escaped my lips.

“GO AND MEET HIM AND SHARE YOUR TESTIMONY!” Came the gentle whisper.

I stood up immediately and walked into the sitting room. He was sweating in prayers. My heart was filled with awe and respect for this destiny helper. Who gave his time and energy to see to it that a succeed in my ministry.

I walked up to meet him and threw my arms around him in a warm embrace.

“Thank you so much! My sweet Roberto!” I said, close to tears.

“You don’t have to thank me. I cannot answer prayers. Save those thanks for the one who answers prayers”.

Chai! This my Roberto is so humble. We won’t accept a thank you for praying for me. God bless this man for me. Cause him to rise above his equals.

“Roberto! While I was observing my quiet time, the ancient of days confronted me. He taught me alot of things about forgiveness. He showed me the reason why I must pray for Cris and let go of the hurt I have towards her completely.
Hmmm, sweet Roberto! It was a wonderful time with the ancient of days!” I said all smiles.

“Wow! God was so merciful!” He said as I stretched my hands to him to pull him to his feet.

He took them and rose up. I hugged him again and gave him a peck on the cheek.

“Hope you’re not kissing me because you saw me praying for you?” He asked grinning.

“I’ll kiss you no matter what! But for one thing! That you not only loved me but loved my God so much. And served him with such zeal I’ve never seen before. You’re just the perfect man for me! My better half! My one in a million! My sweet Roberto!”

He smiled and took my hands.

“And I’ve never found a woman so perfect. Her beauty fascinates me everyday. Her chubby cheeks and her, oh my God! She keeps getting prettier everyday”.

Chai this my Roberto go take sweet mouth kill me ooo. I was seriously blushing already.

“Would you love to see the revelations I wrote down?” I asked.

“Why not! Na my food be that na! Rhema!” He replied and we both laughed.

“My one special Apostle Paul!” I teased.

“See the way sleep full your eyes! That’s why you’re mistaking me for Apostle Paul!” He replied.

I chuckled.

“No I am fully awake!”

“No ooo! Spiritual identity are not hidden from those who are widely awake. You don sleep teh teh!”

We got to the room, but I quickly took my book and closed it.

“Agree with me that you are my Apostle Paul and you would be allowed to read this book!”

“Ha! What kind of temptation is this?”

“The temptation no man can overcome! The woman!” I said laughing.

“Ha! Give me book na!” He said and tried to reach for it, but I pressed it to my chest and folded my arms.

“Are you ready to accept my deal or not?”

“Thou shalt not tempt thy husband! Stop putting me in a tight corner. Just as Delilah put Samson in a tight corner!”He said laughing.

“I’m Julilah! Infact my job is to break the head of any fool that dares to try and shave off my hubby’s anointing!”

“Wow! Julilah! Looks like you’ve got a new pet name!” He said grinning.

“I’ll only accept that pet name, if you accept mine! Deal?”

“Anyway, why am I wasting time. From the days of John the Baptist till now in my room, the kingdom of God suffers violence and the violent Roberto will take the kingdom by force!” He replied and grabbed me.

We laughed as we struggled.

“Roberto! If you tear my book! You will buy me three books, and copy everything back into the new book!” I warned.

“Then I’ll change battle formation!” He said and began to tickle me. I ran, but he was just too faster than me. He grabbed me and we both fell on the bed, laughing. I fought to hold on with all my strength, but it was futile. He tickled me till I lost grip completely.

“Victory, victory, Hallelujah! Roberto conquered Julilah!” He said raising the book in the air.

I just lay on the bed laughing.

“You’re not a gentleman jare. You can’t respect a lady at all!” I said sitting up.

“Don’t distract me jare. Just accept that as the stronger vessel, I have prevailed.

“Stronger vessel ke? Whether you agree or not, you’re my Apostle Paul!” I said and stood up leaned my head on his shoulder while he read through.

“I don’t know why I’m falling in love afresh with this my Apostle!” I said still leaning on his shoulder.

He chuckled.

“Every single minute, I find myself falling in love with you more and more! I’m so happy God brought you into my life and gave me the most wonderful children in the world through you. Joseph and Tina are such adorable children”.

“Woman of God! God gave us those children. Stop seeing me as your superman”.

“Of course you are my Superman! My hero in the place of intercession. A man who fought for me on his knees deserves to be called a hero!”

“Why is Julilah bent on looking for my trouble this morning! Look it’s almost time for family devotion”, he said pointing at the clock.

“You’re still owing me ooo! You haven’t agreed with me on your new nickname!” I said and pulled his ear.

“Ouch! I’m trying to feed on some revelation here! I’m trying to catch some Rhema! This baby girl would not allow me concentrate!”

“I’m just too excited and in love to be calm!” I said giggling and pulled his ear again.

He jerked and turned to face me. Moving towards me slowly, with a smirk on his face.

“What are you going to do?” I asked as I moved backwards.

“Don’t tickle me ooo, because I will bite you!” I threatened.

Suddenly, he pushed me and I fell on the bed. I didn’t know he was only trying to get me close enough to the bed so that when he pushed, I would fall there. He took the book and ran out.

I got up immediately and chased him out of our room into the sitting room

“Juliana stop na! Allow me read this book!” He said as I chased him around a sofa.

“Until you accept the new nickname I gave you. Are you my Apostle Paul or not?” I asked, still running around to catch him at the other end.

“Oh! Sweet Julie angel! Julie baby! Juliana my Queen! Julilah my Darling wife!”

“Awnnnnn! You almost got me but no! No sugarcoated words. Accept it or not!” I said admist laughter.

“Okay! I accept!” He said and raised his hands in surrender.

I clapped my hands and laughed.

“I won! Wow!

“I’m still the stronger vessel jare!” He said as he sat down.

“Stronger vessel ke? I just got you to agree with something you didn’t want in the first place. No wonder Delilah could get the secret to Samson’s strength.

He looked at me and raised an eyebrow.

“Don’t worry, I’m Julilah! I don’t shave your hair, I make it longer. Also, I’m your gatekeeper. I’ll make sure any Delilah that comes after my Apostle Paul, gets crushed.

He smiled and pulled me close and pecked me on the forehead. I quickly returned it and pecked him on the cheek.

“So go ahead and read. You have my full permission”.

“Thanks alot! My Julilah!” He said and turned to the book.

For the next five minutes, we were both silent. I sat beside him, admiring him all over.

“Lord I’m so grateful for this gift you have given me! He’s such a blessing to me”, I said within me.

“Hmmm! This is awesome!” He said.

“I love the part that talked about praying to rescue our loved ones from the enemies that enslaved them”,

“Me too!” I concurred.

“So have you prayed for Cris?” He asked.

“No! I was supposed to, but….”

“Can we do that right now?” He requested.

“How could I deny my sweet Roberto such a request? Your wish is my command, my Apostle Paul!”

He chuckled and took my hands as we knelt down together.

“Lord! We are presenting Cristina Kolapo, sorry Christiana Kolapo into your hands of mercy. I know she has a bright future and the devil is bent on destroying it. He wants to destroy her so he can stop those souls from eating the bread she’s carrying for her generation.

Lord! We ask that your mercy prevails in her case in the name of Jesus!”

“Amen!” I replied.

“Continue the prayers!” He whispered into my ears.

I had to open my eyes to look at him. He confirmed with a nod.

I should pray for Cris? Why should I? I can pray later, let him do the prayers first. I’m not ready to pray for her yet.

“JULIET!” Came the gentle whisper.

Just hearing that voice alone brought back everything I was taught in a flash.

“I’m sorry Jesus!” I whispered.

“Lord! I lift up my daughter before you! She’s so precious to you and to me! You know her struggles oh Lord! Please show her mercy in the name of Jesus”,

“Amen!” My Roberto replied.

I squeezed his hands and smiled.

“Thank you Jesus!” I said within me and continued the prayers.

“Lord you said in your word in Ezekiel 22:30. And I sought for a man among them, that should make up the hedge, and stand in the gap before me for the land, that I should not destroy it: but I found none.

Lord! You have found us! My husband and I!”

“And your children!” Tina interrupted.

I opened my eyes and found my kids kneeling down with us. It was already time for family devotion and they came to join us.

To be continued……..

Hmmmmm! Wonderful family!
🤗🤗🤗🤗♥️♥️♥️

I wonder who will be praying for bro Isaac during their quiet time like this couple.

Any volunteers 😁😁😁

Who noticed Satan was still trying to trap her despite the word of God she had heard?

Satan doesn’t respect the information you are armed with. He would still do everything in his power to stop you from being a doer of the word.

It’s our prayers and obedience to God that stamps his defeat on his face.

The story is now officially handed over to Cris.

She’ll be the one telling the story from the next episode.

Episode 16

CHRISTIANA’S POV

I sat beside my boyfriend’s bed. It’s been 3 days since he had been in the hospital. The day they brought him here, the doctor said he suffered from high blood pressure. That was why Chris collapsed. His driver told me that he was looking devastated when he came back that day. He decided to tell the maid to check on him when she came announcing Chris was unconscious.

He had been unconscious for a whole day. When he awoke, I was there to hear everything he had to say. I saw the smile on his face when he saw me.

“Cris! You came back for me! I thought you said it was over between the two of us?” He asked.

“Yes it was, but that doesn’t mean we’re enemies. We are still friends and friends look after each other”, I replied.

“I know you are just saying this to help me feel better. You hate me for no reason. I tried my best to plead with you, but your mind was completely made up to hate me for the rest of your life. Now look at what you have done to me?” He said and began to cry.

I was shocked by his display.
Why would Chris cry just to make me feel guilty? But to be honest, I felt it. All these wouldn’t have happened if it weren’t for me.

Why me? Why can’t I just have what I want without all these struggle?

The doctor came in quickly and asked me to leave. After sedating him, he came back to me and asked what the problem was.

“He’s going through a lot lately!” I tried to save the details, but the guy was smarter than I thought.

“A break up to be precise, right?” He asked.

Impulsively, I responded with a nod and waited to see his reaction.

“What did he do? I mean what would make you abandon a man who loved you so much?” He asked.

I looked at him and was like. Did Chris send you to make me feel guilty?

“I’m sorry if I offended you!” He apologized in a jiffy.

“But I really don’t know what he did to deserve all these. His girlfriend became a Christian and suddenly, she hated him. She decided to abandon him because he is not born again. This is nothing but wickedness. How can you suddenly become born again and dump him?”

I looked at him with a frown and he got the message.

“I’m sorry ma! But once again, I believe you have the keys to his survival. You can chose to kill him with depression, or chose to go back to the way things had been between the two of you. You are free to choose”

He left me in the common room with those condemning words.

I was confused on what to do at first, but I knew what must be done. I had gone too far to turn back now. I had insulted my mentor on the phone. That meant no more mentorship. Secondly, I had so much to confess to her. My atrocities were too much to comprehend. I had committed immorality with Chris, lied, decieved and insulted her. So there’s no going back.

I have started a journey I must complete. I’m going to finally get married to the man of my dreams. This is what I’ve always wanted.

I was happy about it and sad at the same time. I was happy we were finally getting married, but sad I had hurt my mentor so badly. At least, I owe her an apology. I need to apologize to her as an elderly person. But how do I bring myself to do so was the problem.

After much deliberation on that, I decided to forget about her and move on. I cannot apologize to her and that was final.

When Chris woke up, I was going to tell him I was ready to return to the relationship. I was going to watch him smile and give me a warm hug. I have missed those hugs and those pecks. No! No more pecks till after our wedding. I must not allow what happened that day to repeat itself.

I have to prove to God that despite my desire to marry Chris, I was going to love him by staying away from immorality. I will honour God with my body. Yes! I will!

I was still lost in my world of thoughts, when my mentor’s hand tapped my shoulder.

I jerked and moved back in fright.

“Jesus!” I gasped.

“Cris! What happened? What are you doing here in the hospital?” She asked.

Was I dreaming? I was thinking about her and here she was. Perhaps if I closed my eyes and opened them, she would fizzle out. I blinked severally, she was still standing there.

This was more than a dream. It was real. So what was she doing here? How did she find me?

These were the questions in my heart when Tina joined us and squealed in excitement as she saw me.

“Aunty Rhema!” She screamed and ran to hug me.That was what she usually called me.

“Aunty Rhema! I’ve missed you so much. What happened? Why did you chose to abandon us? Aren’t we friends anymore? What happened between you and mummy? Why have you stopped visiting us?”

Wow! This girl was a box of questions. Where do I start from?

“I’m sorry baby girl! I’ve been so busy lately!” I managed to answer.

“That’s not it Rhema! You are not in good terms with my mother. I’m going to leave the two of you to settle your differences. I’ll be back after you’re through settling your misunderstanding”, she said and gave me another hug.

Without waiting for my response, she left immediately.

I watched her go and kept my eyes on the exit door even when she was completely out of sight. Frankly speaking, she was the only person I could look at. I was doing all I can to avoid my mentor’s eyes and she happened to be the perfect distraction.

“Cris!” My mentor called when the silence lasted up to 3 minutes.

Slowly, I turned and stole a glance at her and quickly lowered my eyes.

“Was that a mistake? Did I see well?” I asked myself, because I caught her smiling.

I had to steal another glance at her and met the same motherly smile on her face.

“Cris! It’s okay! You don’t need to say anything. I forgive you!” She said.

I was not sure if I heard her correctly. So I looked up and gave her that look that meant come again.

“Yes! I forgive you and I’ve forgotten about everything you said. You are still my daughter and will always remain your mother”. She stepped forward and spread out her arms for a hug.

Impulsively, I responded and hugged her.

“It’s okay dear! I understand you have been through alot! Sometimes it’s natural to get angry and vent your anger on someone you didn’t mean to. It’s alright! I understand completely”, she said patting me on the back.

Why was she making all these excuses on my behalf? I should be the one begging for her forgiveness. Why is she the one forgiving me without my asking for it? This was confusing, but I was happy I had reconciled with my mentor.

But the only problem that stood between the two of us was still there. Chris and I were to get married and she doesn’t want that.

“Cris, you’re free to marry whoever you want!” My mentor said, as though she heard my thoughts.

I was shocked by that. She was the one who always told me to choose between God and my boyfriend. She was the one who always told me to leave my boyfriend and focus on my destiny. Now she’s telling me I was free to marry whoever I wanted. Hmmm! This must be a dream. Yes! I was seriously in a dream that needed a slap to get me back to reality.

“Cris! As humans, God doesn’t force us to obey him, neither will I. I want you to gather your own convictions and obey God based on those convictions. I’m not going to mount pressure on you anymore.

If you’re convinced Chris is the right man for you according to God’s will for your life, go ahead. If you don’t and you still want him as your husband, I’m not going to stop you. I want you to be the boss of your own destiny. I’ll always love you and pray for you as your mother. I will never stop doing that. If you chose to marry Chris, I’ll be at your wedding to rejoice with you. Don’t think anything is going to stop me from loving you”.

This was too much. Why was she saying all these? She knew I was going to marry Chris and she was not going to try and stop me anymore. What happened to my mentor? Can someone help me? She’s entirely different from the woman I called a dictator. A boss lady! This looked like a different version of her.

“Cris! I’m going to keep praying for you! I’ll never stop doing that. I love you and I’ll continue to do so!” She said and pulled out of our embrace.

Tears rolled down my cheeks.

“Come on don’t cry baby girl!” She said and wiped them off with the back of her palms.

“So why are you here in the hospital?” She asked.

“Chris collapsed and was rushed here!” I answered.

“Oh no!” She said with sincere concern.

“I’m sorry about that!”

I nodded in affirmation.

“I came here to pray for a friend of mine who was also admitted here. I never expected I would meet you here. It was a divine coincidence”, she said smiling.

“So can I see him? I want to pray for him before I leave”, she requested.

I was dumbfounded. My mentor wants to pray for Chris. This was beyond my imagination. What would make my mentor wake up and announce she wanted to pray for Chris?

I took her to the ward, but we were told we couldn’t see him until 3 hours. I expected my mentor to go home and probably come the next day but to my surprise, she decided to wait for the 3 hours.

What had possessed this woman? Which Apostle is responsible for this? Her change in nature. Who is responsible please?

She sat down with me and told jokes to make me laugh. I was not in the mood to laugh because of the shock in her change of attitude. But when she began to notice I wasn’t responding well to her jokes, she began to ask if I was okay. In order to take away her curiousity, I had to force myself to laugh at her jokes.

Tina also kept us company. She stayed with us till the 3 hours were completed.

We all entered Chris ward to pray for him and met him awake.

He was smiling when he saw me, but his smiles disappeared when my mentor entered.

“What is this evil woman doing here?” He asked pointing at her.

To be continued……..

Cris is back 😊😊😊

Just imagine the drama Chris is doing to fill his girlfriend with guilt?

I’m so happy for the reconciliation between Mrs Juliet Thompson and her mentee.

I guess our prayers have started working.

Let’s see what happens in the next episode.

Please who is responsible for Mrs Thompson’s change of attitude?

Episode 17

I was completely shocked by how Chris recognized my mentor immediately he saw her. I was only planning to introduce her as a friend of mine who was concerned about him and wanted to pray for him. I remembered when I told him about Mrs Juliet Thompson. Despite all my attempts to describe her, still, he didn’t know her.

So how was he finally able to recognize her without any introduction. I was still asking myself these questions, when Chris asked me a question.

“I guess she must have told you by now? She must have painted a terrible image of me just to turn you against me. She must have told you to make you quit the relationship!” He said and I was completely lost in the conversation.

What’s going on here? Who’s keeping a secret from me?

I turned to my mentor and found a warm smile on her face. What’s going on here?

“Chris, what did you do that she’s not telling me?”

Chris paused and looked like a defeated lamb. First, he looked at me and confirmed my ignorance. Then he turned to my mentor and met a friendly smile. To him, he saw it as a threatening one. It appeared she held an information that could lead to the end of our relationship.

“You mean she didn’t tell you anything about me?” He asked.

“No! She didn’t! Please tell me! What happened?” I asked.

He lowered his head and tried to hide his remorse from me.

“So who’s the evil woman? Who’s evil between the two of us?” I heard him say in whispers.

I turned to my mentor and met the same smiles I saw earlier.

“What happened?” I asked.

“Forget about it Cris! It’s nothing serious!” My boyfriend said and tried to pull me from getting close to my mentor.

I shook off his hand and walked up to her.

“Mummy! Please tell me? What is Chris hiding from me?” I asked.

She smiled and turned to look at Chris.

“Chris! What’s wrong with you? Why are you overreacting?” She asked grinning.

I turned to look at Chris and saw the confusion on his face. He looked like he had no clue to what my mentor was talking about. It seemed our relationship anchored on whatever she was about to say.

“If you can’t tell your true love about the visit you paid me and my family, then I would do so myself”, she said and his shoulders went up.

“Cris! She turned to me.

“Three days ago, we had a visitor. It was your boyfriend. He came to persuade me to allow you marry him. He’s such a lover boy”, she said grinning.

“Why were you so ashamed to tell her yourself?” She asked looking at Cris.

The shock had not left Chris’ face. I looked at him and almost laughed at how funny he looked.

“You mean you went to persuade my mentor to allow our marriage?” I asked smiling.

“Ye….ye….yes!” He stammered.

Chris is such a baby! Can you imagine he did that? What did he offer her? Money I guess.

I turned and looked at my mentor.

“Was that the reason why you agreed to allow me wed Chris?” I asked.

“Definitely not!” Came her response.

“So, what made you change your mind?” I asked.

I knew I was bound to ask that question sooner or later. I was just glad I had the opportunity to do so and it came so early.

She smiled and took my hands in hers.

“Cris, you’re not anybody’s puppet. You’re not anybody’s slave. You should be given the complete freedom to chose what you want and decide for yourself. You’re the master of your own destiny. You are to decide who to follow. You are to decide that for yourself.

And whether you chose God or your own path, it wouldn’t change my love for you. I’ll always love you no matter what. I’ll never hate you or abandon you. I’ll keep praying for you”.

She gave me a hug and patted me gently on the back.

“You’ll always be my baby girl!” She whispered into my ears and loosened from the hug.

“So, we were here to pray for a dying man. A man so in love and almost dying because of it!” She said grinning.

“I’m not a dying man!” Chris replied with a frown.

“I’m sorry about that. It was just a joke”.

She gave me a nudge on my stomach.

“Cris! Didn’t you tell your boyfriend I’m so good at making jokes?” She asked.

“I’m sorry about that! I didn’t do an introduction in the first place. Chris, meet my mentor, Mrs Thompson. Over here is her daughter, Tina Thompson”.

“Nice meeting you both! Though I would say this is not the first time!” He said and forced out a smile.

I knew that smile wasn’t genuine, but I pretended not to notice.

“So can we pray for him now?” My mentor asked.

“Of course!” I said, taking Chris’ hand and placing it on hers. I saw a negative reaction. He almost took off his hand immediately, but managed to stop when he saw I was watching.

“Lord! I commit your son into your hands. First I want to thank you for the salvation of his soul. I thank you for that dream he dreamt that led to his salvation. I thank you for using your daughter Cris to win back this lost sheep. I thank you for making Chris one of your beloved children. I thank you for reaching out to him through your daughter Cris”.

The prayers were still going on, but my eyes were already opened. If this woman knew all the lies she was telling God right now, she would stop the prayers. I can’t believe I lied to a soul that trusted me completely. Now, she’s making prayers to god with the lies I gave her. It was not supposed to be so. It was time I told her the truth.

I opened my eyes and looked at Chris. He was also staring at my mentor while the prayers were going on. We both knew these prayers were lies. We decieved her and she believed us.

As soon as she was done praying, she patted him on the shoulder.

“I’ll be praying for you Chris!” She said and turned to leave. I wanted to call her back and confess to her, but fear engulfed me.

I was too scared of how she would react to the news. Hmmm! Was this how I was going to continue struggling with everything God wanted me to do? This is so frustrating. I’m tired of living this way, but the more I wanted freedom, the more I was entangled.

I kept watching her till she was out of the ward. I ran after her.

“Cris you can’t miss this opportunity!” I said as I ran.

“Mummy! Please wait! I said as I ran.

“What is it?” She asked and I didn’t know where the fear I started feeling came from.

For 2 minutes I was unable to say anything.

” Is there anything you want to tell me?” She asked.

“Yes ma! I mean, no ma! I just wanted to say thank you for being there for Chris and I. I’m so glad you sacrificed your time and sweat for us!”

“Am I sweating?” She asked looking herself all over.

“No!” I replied giggling.

“Then why are you thanking me for sweat?”

“No! I meant your labour of love!”

“Oh! But I’m not coming from the labour room ooo!”

Even Tina started laughing.

“It’s alright Cris!” She said, when we were done laughing.

“That’s why I’m here for you! Feel free to call for my help when you need it. I’ll be right here to help you. That’s what mothers are meant for”, she said and gave me a hug.

I wanted to say it, but I just couldn’t say it. She turned and left.

I stood for a few seconds watching the exit door. My thoughts took me out of the hospital to the scene where Chris and I lost control and ate the forbidden fruit. Then the scene of me on the phone lying to my mentor came up next.

“I’ll always love you!”

Those words echoed in my head. It was a nurse who brushed pass me that brought me back to the hospital.

I turned and returned to Chris’ ward.

“I was getting worried already! What took you so long?” He asked.

“Are you afraid she told me everything?” I threatened.

I had the feeling my mentor was covering up for Chris. Why would she have an information that could lead to the end of our relationship and refuse to use it. Isn’t that what she always wanted? She was the one who kept resounding it in my ears that Chris wasn’t my man. Why was she protecting him now? I was confused.

Chris looked at me and bowed his head.

“Whatever I did was out of love for you!”

“Oh stop that trash! How could you do something like that?” I threatened as if I knew what he did. I was playing my cards very well to force out the information I needed out of him.

“I didn’t do anything!” He replied.

“Stop pretending! You went there and disgraced me in front of her!”

“What did she tell you?”

“Non of your business! Are you going to defend yourself by telling me your own side of the story or not?”

He was silent for a while. I kept watching him until I saw tears dropping out of his eyes.

I felt for him and quickly sat beside him.

“Chris why are you doing this to me? Stop all these”.

“It’s alright! No matter what I do! You’re going to leave me. It doesn’t matter if I die now. You’re just here because you feel it’s going to make you a good person. Soon or later you are still going to leave me!”

“Oh Chris! Why are you saying that? I’m here for you!” I replied.

My eyes were getting blurry at each ticking second.

“No you’re not! You’ve already made up your mind to leave me. All you’re doing right now is looking for the right offence to pick on so you can use it as a good reason to leave me”.

“Chris stop! I’m here because I love you. I’m here because I care about you. And I’m here because no matter what, I’m going to be your wife!”

Wait, did I just say that? Someone help me rewind the tape. Did I just tell him all these or something else did?

“Thank you so much!” He said smiling and pulled me into a hug.

I remembered how my mentor defended Chris and remained baffled. I was stuck with Chris. I was no longer the happy person I once was. I wanted Chris and here I was, free to marry him. My mentor had given her consent. What was the reason for these strange feelings and signals?

Why wasn’t I feeling the usual excitement I expected? I wanted Chris and here he was! Why am I not happy? Everyone who stood in my way had concurred. Even pastor Kunle said he was ready to go ahead with the wedding plans. Now my mentor promised to be present at my wedding.

But why was I feeling sad about everything? What’s wrong with me? Wasn’t this what I’ve always wanted?

To be continued…….

Never marry a man out of pity for him.

You’re going to end up regretting you did.

Mrs Thompson had the information to pay Chris back for the evil he did to her, but choose not to revenge.

Proverbs 25:21 If thine enemy be hungry, give him bread to eat; and if he be thirsty, give him water to drink:

25:22 For thou shalt heap coals of fire upon his head, and the LORD shall reward thee.

Episode 18

I rolled from one end of the bed to the other as the sound of my ringing phone couldn’t be ignored. I had put off my quiet time alarm when it was too noisy. I needed my precious sleep so badly. I can’t allow anything disturb my beauty sleep.

I picked up the phone to put it off when my sleepy eyes noticed the caller’s ID. It was my mentor. My sleepy eyes in a jiffy, lost its wireless connection with the spirit of slumber.

I sat up immediately and looked at the clock to be sure I wasn’t dreaming. It was 4:30am. She had never called me this early before. What was going on? Was there something really important to tell me? Had she seen a revelation or a dream about me? Why was she call at this early hours of the morning.

I quickly swiped the green bar and placed the phone close to my ear.

“Hello ma!” I greeted.

“Hello! How’s it going?” She asked.

I was lost. What was she referring to?

“I’m sorry ma! How’s what going?”

“Your quiet time! How’s it going?”

I had not been observing it for days now. It was the topic our previous discussion last week. She called and asked how I was doing spiritually. I had to at least give her some of the little happenings that had the element of truth. Yes! Informations that had the element of truth, because Cris was now a full time liar.

I told her I wasn’t observing my quiet time anymore.

“Why?” She asked.

“I don’t know! I’ve been so busy lately. I return home completely tired and exhausted. I don’t have time to pray and read my Bible anymore. Infact, reading my Bible is a difficult thing to do. Even prayers are becoming too difficult. I don’t know why”, I answered.

“Cris! You need to understand that building your relationship with God or a spiritual life is war. And whenever a battle is going on, you don’t accept the losing position. You don’t accept to be the loser. Your spiritual life is under attack and you’re not doing anything about it”.

“Mummy! It’s my work. I go to bed by 11pm and wake up by 6am for work. I don’t have enough time to sleep. My work is consuming all the time”, I replied.

“Really? Is that what you would tell the devil when he comes to attack you. You’re getting cold Spiritually and you’re giving excuses. You have time for everything except God. Cris! Whatever is important to you, you always create time for it. Whatever you love so much you would always have time to do it.

If your spiritual life is important to you, you would have time to take care of it. So those excuses are only proofs that every other thing is important except your prayer life”.

Why was this woman accusing me? Doesn’t she understands what it means to be tired? Haba! I can’t kill myself na. I stand up to pray sleep is making me stagger like an acholic. Is it until I fall and break my head she would understand? What’s her problem. Body no be firewood.

“Cris!” Came my mentor’s voice.

“Do you remember Apostle Peter was with Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane for an alnight? Truth be told, Peter was tired. The day has been long and hectic for him. He preached that morning. Escorted Jesus to the temple. Went shopping for Passover, carried heavy bags of grain all the way from the market to the upper room where the Last supper held.That’s truly exhausting.

Then instead of a nap, Jesus had them walk for hours into a garden and told them to start praying that temptation was coming.

Didn’t Jesus know he was very tired?”
Peter slept off and Jesus who saw the danger in what he was doing, interupted his own personal prayers to go and wake him. Peter please pray.

Even Jesus confirmed he wanted to pray. Your Spirit is willing to pray, but your flesh is so weak.But can I ask you a question?”

“Yes ma!” I replied.

“Did temptation look at Peter, confirmed he was tired and postponed his coming till another day?

Chai! Peter you are so tired that’s why you are not able to pray. Let me come again another day, little Peter wants to sleep.

Cris! I know we are in a very busy world today. We have so much work to do. We barely have time for ourselves. We go out to work and come back late.

We are so tired that we can’t prepare a healthy dinner. Sometimes you have to eat indomie. Sometimes you are forced to buy from a food a restaurant and before we are able to find sleep, it’s already 12:30.

You have a very good reason why you have not been observing your quiet time and studying your Bible but will temptation listen to that excuse? Will the enemy that swore you must accompany him to hell fire listen to that excuse?”

I sighed.

“No ma!”

“Jesus said we should pray, so that you do not fall into temptation. He was teaching us how to avoid temptation in that scripture. Cris open to Psalms 132:4”.

I came down from the bed and took my Bible. In a jiffy , I arrived at the verse.

“I’ve found it ma!”

“Read verse 4 and 5 let’s hear”.

“I will not give sleep to mine eyes, or slumber to mine eyelids.
Verse 5. Until I find out a place for the LORD, an habitation for the mighty God of Jacob”.

I bowed my head in frustration.

“Why does everything have to be so difficult? Why is it so hard, especially everything about God?” I asked within me.

“It’s left for you. Take care of your spiritual life. Stop all these I’m tired! It’s not helping! Stop it! Satan doesn’t care to know whether you are tired or not.

Cris, there was a movie I watched lately where the two swordsmen in a combat. One of them was so powerful and skillful with his sword that he broke the sword of his opponent. They had to continue the battle another day.

When the battle was going on. The man who sword was broken, kicked the right thigh of his opponent and the performance of his opponent in that battle dwindled. As the battle went on, the he kept kicking that same leg. A point came, the other man was limping. That was how the powerful sword breaker lost the battle.

Would he tell his opponent that it was because I had pains in my leg that I couldn’t fight very well?

Understand this Cris. In warfare, your excuses are your enemy’s advantages. Your tiredness is the key to your enemy’s victory. The more you excuse your failure to engage the enemy in combat, the more you give him access to win.

Don’t forget the Christian proverb. A prayerless Christian is a powerless Christian. Satan knows this and he wants you to stay powerless. Because he’ll always be the winner, as long as he can successfully keep you prayerless.

Cris! This is war! And I’m not happy you’re allowing the enemy win. Rise up girl! Rise up and rebuild your prayer life. Shake off the dust from your bible. Pick up your bible study jotter and pen.

You don’t build your prayer life by wishing. You build it by discipline. If students can dip their legs into bowls of water, drink caffeine, wash their faces just to stay awake and study for their exams. What makes the Christian too lazy to stay awake in the night and study his Spiritual text book, the Bible and pass his Spiritual exams and be promoted to spiritual levels or higher dimensions?

Why have we chosen to be lazy? Why? We take everything serious except our spiritual lives? We don’t joke with our business. We don’t miss our meetings with officials. But we miss our appointment with God, the greatest of all officuals. When our alarm reminds us it’s time to wake up and allow God speak to us, we shut it down. But if it’s a call from our boss at the place of work, the sleep disappears immediately. Why? We don’t want to get fired. We don’t want our salaries to be cut down.

Who are we decieving? Cris, we stay online on social media chatting till twelve midnight. But as soon as it’s time for prayers, we start feeling sleepy and retire for the night. Cris how long will our spiritual life mean nothing to us? How long shall we continue to give excuses to God?

When are we going to grow up spiritually? For the past two years, you have been in one spiritual level. Grow! You don’t want to! But everyday, you cry that it is your desire to grow. I don’t understand you at all. Oya read your Bible and pray everyday so you can grow, you’re too tired. I don’t know what to do anymore.

Discipline yourself Cris! Your body is the biggest enemy to your spiritual growth. If you are not ready to watch it suffer? If you’re not ready to discomfort it by cutting down your nap time. Selecting one hour out of your 5 hours sleep. Staying awake to read the Bible. Don’t ever cry that you want to grow Spiritually”.

I didn’t know how I started crying.

“Why is it so difficult to obey God?”

To be continued…….

Yes it would always be difficult to the man who wants to serve God with his human strength.

Not by might
Not by power
But by my Holy Spirit says the Lord of hosts.

Brethren, God will not come and drag you out of your bed. It’s true God through his Holy Spirit will empower you to pray. But you’re the one who would get up and begin to kabash. You’re the one who would discipline yourself and study your bible.

Spiritual life will never grow at the comfort of your flesh. If you’re afraid of disciplining your body, then don’t be sad when you see others who started yesterday and getting ahead of you

Episode 19

“So Cris how’s it going?” My mentor asked.


“Yes it’s going fine!” I replied.

“Oh! You mean you’re actually observing your quiet time right now?” She asked.

I paused for a few minutes. Was I lying again? Why don’t I just tell her the truth and let her know I was sleeping when she called.

“Hello!” Are you there?” She asked.

“Yes! I was reading Mark chapter 17 verse 16”, I answered.

“Really?”



“Yes!” I replied.

“But Mark only has 16 chapters. Where did you get your chapter 17 from?” She asked.

“Sorry it’s Mark 15 verse 18. It says, go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature”.

“But that’s Mark 16 verse 15!” She replied.


“What was I saying?” I chuckled as a cover up.

“Thanks for correcting me!” I replied.

“You’re welcome!”

“Thanks alot for checking on me!”

“It’s alright sweetie! I love you and I’ll always check up on you. Your spiritual life is very important to me. Keep the fire burning. More grace darling!” She said and hung up.

I sighed and threw the phone on the bed.

Why didn’t God just reveal I was a liar to her? Why didn’t he expose me and allow me be ridiculed?

I laid down on the bed not knowing what else to do. Gradually depression was setting in. I was losing my mind. Sometimes I had to call Chris and listen to all the jokes he had to tell, just to get me out of my mood. He was the only distraction I had for now.

I laid on my bed unable to sleep till it was sunrise. It was my maid that came to inform me that Maggie one of my friends, was asking to see me.

I told her that I would be joining her in the next 20 minutes.

I quickly got myself prepared. Took my bath, wore my clothes and joined her as soon as I was through.

“Babe! How far na! You abandoned us completely! Sheybi it’s because we are not born again?” She asked.

I smiled and hugged her.

“You better calm down jare. You know how busy I’ve been lately!”

“Busy ke! You have been going about shaking tables. The wedding is taking place in two weeks time. To me, you guys are taking things too fast ooo!”

“Keep your mouth shut! Chris and I had been dating for the past two years. What’s the need for waiting another year in the name of courtship. We are in love and good to go”, I replied grinning.

“Okay ooo! So what about your uncle?” She asked.

“What happened to him?”

“He said he’s not in support of you marrying Chris. He said he doesn’t like him!”

“Mtchewwww! Rubbish! Who gave him the right to tell me who to marry? That old fool should know his boundaries oh!”

“Of course!” Maggie chuckled.

“Right from the beginning, I knew my uncle has eyes on my father’s properties. If not that I stood up and fought for what was rightfully mine and my sister’s, he would have moved away with our inheritance. That guy is so jealous of my success. I’m a rich babe!”

“Yes ooo! Jealousi wan finish am!”

“Na jealousi go kill am jare! Nothing will stop me. I’m moving on!” I said all smiles.

“But as your only surviving relative, he has the upper hand oh. If you don’t look for a way to befriend him and make him reason with you, he can cause trouble ooo. My advice is that you don’t ignore his rants”.

“Maggie, you know me very well! My second name na stubbornness. I can be very good at being stubborn. Tell him that if he’s not ready to be at the wedding, he would be replaced by an hired uncle. I’ll hire someone to act as my uncle. Who needs that idiot!”

“Chai! Bad girl!” Maggie hailed.

The name ‘Bad girl’, didn’t sound pleasing to my ears. Of all the names she could call me, why call me a bad girl? I was a child of God. At least she should have used a more suitable name. I didn’t like it, but I had to flow with her, so I smiled.

“So are you off to work?” She asked.

“Yes I am”, I answered.

“Let’s be on our way. You can be assured your message will definitely reach your jealous uncle”.

“I trust you na!” I replied as I stood up and took my purse with me.

“I’ll be going with you to the company. I took a cab here. My car is parked at the company”.

“Don’t tell me you’re still managing that scrab. Tell me it didn’t break down!”

She smiled and turned around to leave.

“Maggie when are you going to change that rubbish you call a car. You’re embarrassing me ooo!” I said grinning.

“I’ve been saving towards it. So far, I’ve been able to save a million naira! Not enough for a good ride”.

“I’m slapping your account with 3 million. I don’t want to see that trash around my company building anymore”, I said and gave her a punch on the arm.

“Oh my goodness!” She squealed and hugged me.

“Don’t worry! I will soon give my life to Christ because of you!” She teased.

“You’re not serious. Weren’t you part of those who laughed at me for giving my life to Christ?”

“No ooo! I swear!” She said and held up a finger in the air.

“E don do! Let’s be going abeg!” I said and pulled her along.

My driver drove into the company a few minutes later. I told him to stop in order to greet Oga Silas.

“Oga Silas! How are you?” I asked.

“I’m fine ma! How was your night?” He asked.

“Lovely lovely!”

I quickly tapped my friend.

“Say hi to Oga Silas na!”

“Who is he to you?” She asked with disdain.

“My gateman and a brother in Christ! A fervent believer!” I answered.

“Cris nawa for you ooo! Na gateman you con dey greet as if na one beta person! This Christianity dey turn person to mumu oh! See the way dem dey greet gateman like one governor?”


“Are you mad?” I retorted.

She looked at me with surprise in her eyes. The Christiana I originally was would never say that. It’s Cristina that’s in charge now. My old self.

“The next time you ever insult me again, I’ll make life miserable for you! Do you hear me?”

She didn’t reply audibly, but her body language said it all.

“Idiot! Mtchewwww!” I hissed and told the driver to continue.

Maggie didn’t say anything till we came out of the car.

My P.A. came to meet us as we approached the entrance.

“Good morning ma!” He greeted.

“Transfer 3 million to this idiot and meet me in my office when you’re through”, I said with a frown.

“Okay ma!”

I turned to look at Maggie. She was standing like a sacrificial lamb, completely at my mercy.

“Yes! My days of being insulted because I’m a Christian are over. If you try to insult me, I’ll pay you back in your coins. I can do whatever I like now. There’s no Holy Ghost stopping me”, I said within me, satisfied by how I treated her.

I turned around and stepped into the elevator. I punched the numbers and waited as it took me to the floor where my office was.

“Cris, this is not freedom! This is bondage. This is slavery to sin and the Devil. From one sin to the other. Aren’t you tired?” Came the gentle whisper.

A pang of remorse sprang up within me, but I was not ready to allow it.

“I’ll repent. I just need to marry Chris first. All these lies and everything would end after I do so.

“Cris! Satan is a master seductress. He knows how to keep his slaves comfortable in slavery. That’s why after the Israelites left Egypt, they still preferred slavery to freedom, because of the rewards of unrighteousness. Cris, unrighteousness has rewards. Just like you dealt with your friend and earn respect. But how long will that respect last?

You lied to your mentor about your quiet time this morning. How long will your lies last? Satan gives a lady 5 minutes of pleasure on the bed of immorality and at the end sends her home with HIV. How is that a gain? The rewards of unrighteousness makes someone think they are smart by disobeying God, but actually, they are so stupid.

Balaam collected money from the king of Moab to destroy God’s people in Numbers chapter 22. He enjoyed the money and the promotion the unrighteous act he committed brought to him. But later in Numbers 31 verse 8, his name was mentioned among those who were killed when Israel attacked the Midianites. How long did he live to enjoy the rewards of his disobedience to God?

All these things you are chasing after that made you willingly sin against God, will lead to a big regret one day. This Chris you are so desperate to get married to, might be the end for you”.

“Stop that rubbish Christiana!” I rebuked myself.

“Why are you thinking negative thoughts?” I breathe in and walked out of the elevator.

My phone started ringing. I picked it up and checked the caller’s ID. It was Chris’ dad.

“Daddy! Ekaro sir!” I said and lowered my knees slightly.

“How are you my angel?” He asked.

“Your baby is fine ooo!”

“Hope you are looking after my son very well?”

“Yes ooo! He’s doing fine by the grace of God!”

“Eshe my dear! I’ve always known my son for selecting quality materials. His fabric business produces quality materials. Why wouldn’t he select a quality wife?”

I smiled, happy those negative thoughts about Balaam and the rewards of unrighteousness were gone for good.

“When are you coming to see me? I want to see your angelic face again. To behold your beauty and tell my son what a lucky man he is!”

Oh my gosh! I was blushing already. If not that he was Chris’ father, I would have married him already.

“Daddy! I would love to come but my work is so demanding”.

“Yes! I know that’s going to be your excuse and that is why I want to see you today, by 12 noon”.

I was shocked. I thought he didn’t hear me correctly.

“Sir! I said I have!”

“My baby! Please na! It’s very important! I need to discuss something really really really serious!” He said.

That almost made my heart skip. What was he going to tell me? Was he going to disagree with the wedding plans? I’ve worked so hard to get the wedding to this level. Was I going to lose my man after all my sacrifice?

“Sweet heart! Don’t worry! Just come and we’ll talk, okay?”

“Okay sir!” I replied and he hung up.

What’s happening? What was so important that he wanted to discuss with me?

To be continued…….

Hmmmmm 🤔

Please who has a microphone should lend me. Ordinary mouth no dey work for this girl ear.
😁😁😁😁

Brethren, sin has pleasure, no doubts about it

Hebrews 11:24 By faith Moses, when he was come to years, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter;

25 Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season;

It’s only for a season oooo. As you are eating it, you’re wondering how the punishment on the way would look like.

Brethren, is that one enjoyment?

Proverbs 10:22 The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it.

Which is better?

Judas sold Jesus and was paid handsomely. But the rewards of his unrighteous act, didn’t last more than one day. He never spent a one naira out of the profit he made before he paid for his sins.

What are we struggling for? Husband? Wife? Money? Fame?

And we dip our hands into sin to get it done. It’s not going to last. Trust me!

Job 9:4 He is wise in heart, and mighty in strength: who hath hardened himself against him, and hath prospered?

Who? Is it Balaam? Maybe Judas? Is it Nebuchadnezzar he turned into an animal for seven years? Who is that person that will willfully disobey God and live a prosperous life?

Episode 20

As I drove out of the company, I stopped to greet Oga Silas.

“Oga Silas how are you?” I asked.

“I’m fine!” He answered.

“But sis, what happened in the car this morning? You were with someone in the car and I heard you ask the person are you mad? I was shocked. It really got me worried. I was like, why would a born again sister use such language on a friend? Please, what happened?” He asked.

I respected Silas so much and I knew he had a role to play in my company. He was a devout child of God and a preacher.

I didn’t know what to tell him. He was worried about my spiritual life too, just like my mentor. But he’s still a gateman. He should know his place. He’s to open my gate and mind his business.

“Cris! Your heart is getting dark every minute. This is someone you respected so much and he’s reciprocating it. Why must everyone be victims of your compromised lifestyle? At least there should be a little bit of kindness in you”.

This melted my pride and destroyed my well of insults.

“Silas, I’m so sorry! I’m inexcusable. I let my flesh overpower me. I’m so sorry!” I apologized.

“It’s alright sis! I’ll be praying for you! I know God has great plans for you and he’ll surely bring them to pass. I’ll never stop praying for my sister in Christ!” She replied smiling.

“Thank you so much! Please pray harder ooo! Your sister needs alot of prayers now”, I said.

“It is well! God be with you in Jesus name!”

“Amen!” I replied and with that, I bid him farewell.

The drive to my father-in-law’s house was quite. I didn’t go with anyone and obviously I wanted to be the only one to hear what he had to say.

I was still driving when my ringing phone called my attention. I was almost at my destination so I connected my phone to my car player and answered the call. The car speakers helped me hear what the person calling was saying.

It was my uncle, Chief Akinyele Gabriel.

“Hello old man!” I greeted.

“Is that how you greet your father?” He asked.

“You are not my father!” I replied.

“But at least, I’m the one who would represent your stupid late father at your wedding. Don’t I deserve some respect?”

“You old goat! Die and go to hell!” I replied and he laughed.

Secrets are meant to remain hidden, but I knew very well that my uncle was responsible for my parents demise. As Christians, I and my sister Sharon were advised to forgive him. We did, but the man’s unrepentant attitude pisses me off.

I hated him and I’ll continue to do so. I just wanted him dead but I can’t do that myself. I wanted God to destroy him as fast as he could.

“If that is your desire, then maybe he would start with destroying you first”, came the inner voice.

I quickly waved the thought aside as my uncle’s voice came back.

“Cris! I was told you got born again. I thought born again people are good people. You’re just the spoilt brat you’ve always been!”

“Shut up! You and I who’s the evil person?” I replied with angry tears in my eyes.

“Calm down baby girl! I’m not here to make trouble”.

“Then get off my phone, you cheat!” I replied.

“Cris! You sent me a message. That’s why I called. I just wanted to tell you that as long as I remain your uncle, you’ll never get married. I’ll do everything in my power to stop you!” He said with a serious tone.

I knew this was not a joke. There was a battle going on and he’s not joking about it.

“Listen to me! Right now you’re about to meet your father -in- law. He’s going to help me get rid of the marriage. Ensure you listen to him very well and be a good girl”.

I got enraged immediately and almost ended the call. So this was all his handwork? Then there’s no need to see my father-in-law. Oops! I just arrived. His gateman was already opening the gate for me. I drove in and packed the car.

“I guess you have arrived at his compound? Be a good girl and follow the advice of the elderly. See ya!” He said and the call ended.

I was dumbfounded. I didn’t know if I was to turn around and leave or face him and tell him I was going back. I stepped out of my car and headed for the building

I knocked and was ushered in by the housekeeper. What I met in the house was a complete shock to me. Is this my father-in-law’s house or am I in the wrong place?

The reason I had to ask myself that question was because I met a chicken in the sitting room. Had someone turned my father-in-law into a chicken?

The housekeeper behaved as if the chicken was the owner of the house. She didn’t pay the chicken any attention, but allowed it to roam the house freely.
The house was almost a poultry as chicken feed, littered the sitting room. The chicken had something to eat wherever it went. And worst of all, it made a mess out of the sitting room. You know what I mean. It defecated wherever it wanted and nobody challenge it.

I was still watching the creature, when my father-in-law cane to join me.

“My pretty daughter!” He said and spread his arms for a hug.

As I walked to meet him to hug him, I stepped on something I wished I never did. Chicken excrement. Gross!

“I see you have met my new friend. Kuku the chicken!” He said smiling.

I looked at him with blazing eyes added with a slight confused expression. This was not ordinary. What was he trying to pull? Get me angry and insult him so he can capitalize on that and end the relationship? What kind of game was going on here?

“Please don’t be angry with me! I haven’t seen my friend for a long time so I decided to invite him to join me in the sitting room. Kuku is such a friendly chicken!” He said grinning.

Hmmm! Definitely he was up to something. I just don’t know what he wanted, but if this was meant to get me angry and disrespect him, I won’t fall for it.

Thanks for my kitten heels, I didn’t step on the chicken excrement bare footed. I went ahead and hugged him and we both sat down together.

“So how’s work?”

“Work is so demanding! I had to cancel two appointments to be here with you. I haven’t gotten the time to call Chris or hear from him all morning. Time is so important in everything we do”, I replied smiling.

I could see a little bit of disappointment in his expression. Of a truth, he wanted me to flare up and insult him so he can major on that to end the relationship. Sir! You’re picking on the wrong person.

He didn’t have anything important to say. I was surprised he started talking about movies and comedy shows he watched. He shared some of the jokes with me which was so humorous that my stomach tightened as I laughed.

We were still laughing when the door opened and Chris walked in. He paused in his tracks and looked around.

“What’s the meaning of this nonsense?” He asked with blazing eyes.

“Christopher, how are you! Look who’s here! Your wife to be!” His father said.

“Just take a look at my shoes! Ema!” He yelled for the house help.

“Ema!” He shouted.

I’ve never seen him this furious and was afraid for him.

“Where is this house help?”

“Son calm down! That’s my friend kuku! He’s here for a visit. I just needed to make him comfortable!”

“Dad you’re crazy! He said.

I was shocked to hear that. I looked at my father-in-law and was surprised to meet a smile on his face.

“You’re turning my house into a poultry and you sit down comfortably! You must be out of your mind!” He said and took off his suit and threw it on the sofa.

He went for the chicken who was too robust to make any move. I screamed out of pity for the poor creature as my so called husband to be displayed his rage.

He grabbed the bird by the neck and began to twist it around. It’s feathers filled the living room as it struggled to break free. It splattered excrement on Chris’ trousers and breathe its last.

He threw the lifeless creature on the ground, chest heaving.

There was silence in the room for about 3 minutes.

I looked at the man I was about to marry and was filled with fear.

Soon, I could hear my father-in-law clapping. I turned to look at him and met him smiling.

“Why was he smiling?” I asked within me.

He stood up and snapped his fingers. Ema the housekeeper, came out immediately.
I guess she had been told not to come out when Chris was angry.

“Congratulations Chris! That’s how one day you would return from work and strangle your wife to death. Good job son!” He said.

I looked at him and then at Chris and saw the shocked expression on his face.

“Chris! I told you to work on your temper but you ignored me. You thought falling in love was all marriage was all about. If you could lose your temper and kill a chicken instantly. That’s how you would one day lose your temper and finish your wife before you realize it”, he turned to Ema.

“Make this place look like a palace again. I promise to pay you the sum of two hundred thousand for today’s clean up. I just needed to mess up this place for today’s experiment. Get to work!” He said and with that, went for the staircase.

“Cristina! If you love your short life very well! Use your head to do your thinking and not your feelings. If after what you’ve seen you still want to marry my son, you have my blessings. You can go back to work”, he said and left.

I stood up, took my purse and strapped it around my shoulder.

Chris had tears in his eyes and gave me that look that he was sorry. But I needed to run for my life at the moment. I was not ready for any round of apologies. I quickly took my steps carefully to avoid stepping on chicken excrement and headed for the door.

Chris tried to follow me but I turned and gave him a sharp look that kept him rooted to his spot.

With tears in my eyes I drove out of my father-in-law’s compound, devastated and broken.

To be continued……..

Cris! Please go ahead and marry your so called man of your dreams, you have my blessings.

Don’t worry, bro Isaac will take care of all the expenses.
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Who loved the chicken test?

They should not throw the chicken away oooo. I have a stomach with space that needs tenant.

Episode 21

I sat in the floor of my room in tears. I had been crying ever since I came back from my father-in-law’s house.

I remembered my conversation with my uncle. I quickly picked up my phone and dialed his number.

“Why did you do that?”

“Do what?” He asked.

“Why did you encourage Chris’ father to go against the wedding?”

“That wasn’t me. It was all his doing. I only called him to explain to him I wasn’t ready to give out my precious daughter in marriage. Suddenly, he started telling me that he wasn’t ready to allow his son get married either. He started telling me about his hot temper and everything.

I only had to enjoy the conversation. So I asked him what he intended to do and that was how I got to know that he invited you to the house. He told me he had something to tell you to convince you that marrying Chris would be a disaster. I had no idea about what it was. I only worked with the information he gave me and played a little omniscient game on you”.

“Chris may have anger issues, that doesn’t change the fact that I love him. I’ll always love him no matter what happens”, I said in protest.

“Wait! So you knew he’s not good enough for you?” He asked.

“Says who?”

“Then why are you forcing yourself into something you would regret? Cristina! This is a gamble. What if he gets too angry and strangles you without realizing it? Only to regret his actions when you’re already six feet in the grave. You know I will gladly bury you with a smile”.

“Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!” I yelled consistently and hung up.

Even my uncle who hated me so much could advice me to choose the right man. Who would tell me God didn’t warn me enough?

“God why? Why do this to me? Why ask for the one thing I love so much and when I refused to give you, you started destroying everything in my life just to frustrate me!”

“Really?” Came that gentle voice.

“Yes! You’re making life hell for me!” I replied.

“Well, you’re not the first person to say that!”

“Who else said that?” I asked.

“Get your bible!” Came the gentle whisper.

Was I talking to someone? Who was this person talking to me like a completely different person, but still inside me?

The feeling to get the Bible was still strong on me so I decided to go and do as my mind was instructing me.

“Open to the book of Jonah chapter 2 and read verse 2.

I began to flip open the pages until I arrived at the passage.

“Jonah 2:2 And said, I cried by reason of mine affliction unto the LORD, and he heard me; out of the belly of hell cried I, and thou heardest my voice”.

“So you’re not the first person to willingly disobey God and find your life miserable. Do you know what it means to live inside a fish for 3 days?

Have you ever smelt the body odour of fish? Then imagine if you had to live inside that kind of smell. Jonah was suffocating, yet he could not die. The heat the smell and the wetness. The gross, the digestion and blood of whatever the animal ate. He cried he was in hell.

“But why do you have to frustrate me like Jonah? I was free to chose who I wanted to follow? Why impose your will on my life?”

“Cris! The day you got born again, do you remember what you told me?”

“I don’t understand? What did I tell you?” I asked.

“Can you remember the sinner’s prayer?”

“Yes I do!”

“Good! Repeat them let’s hear”.

Was I talking to myself? Where was all these coming from?

“Lord Jesus!” I began.

“I am a wretched sinner! Forgive me of all my sins. Come into my life and be my Lord and personal saviour!”

“And be your what?” Came the gentle whisper.

“My Lord and personal saviour!” I repeated.

“You asked me to be two things to you. Lord and saviour. But you only needed a saviour not a Lord. You only wanted a saviour to protect you and keep you, but not a Lord.
Christiana! What’s the meaning of Lord?”

“Boss! Someone in charge. Someone in position of authority and commands obedience”, I replied.

“Good! So you actually asked me to be in charge and that was simply what I was doing. And all these while what you have been doing was rebelling against the established authority. So the authority decided to punish you for disobeying the rules and regulations of the new government.

That’s the problem with alot of Christians today. When they asked Jesus to come into their lives, they didn’t know they were asking for a Lord. They were asking for a new Boss to take over the affairs of their lives. They signed the contract and made God the man in charge, but still follow instructions from their former boss, the devil.

They still go behind and do his bidding and claim they are loyal to their new boss. Well, when the management could not put up with their actions, they decided that they must be punished. So they seized his salary and cut off the allowances. Took the official car and house and alot of benefits. In your exact words, frustrated the life of the unfaithful servant”.

I bowed my head and sighed.

“What do you want me to do?”

“What I’ve always wanted you to do. I want Chris! Surrender or do you still want to go ahead with the marriage plans? I’ll be in attendance”.

“Lord! You know I love him so much!”

“I’m not forcing you!”

“Please change him and allow me marry him!”

“You don’t tell me what to do. Feel free to marry him if you want to, I’m not forcing you!”

I went down on my knees, tears streaking down my cheeks. Then a scripture came to my heart.

“MY SPIRIT WILL NOT STRIVE WITH MAN, FOR HE IS FLESH AND BLOOD”.

I was shocked by that revelation. I had read that scripture without understanding it. But today, my heart was completely opened to what it meant.

I understood what God was saying in that scripture. I knew God was stepping out of my way to give me the
freedom I was seeking. But I was scared. What would life look like without God? How
would I survive, with the knowledge that I intentionally disobeyed his instruction?

If Satan were to attack me tomorrow, would God listen if I cried to him for help?

“And when ye spread forth your hands, I will hide mine eyes from you. Yea, when ye make many prayers, I will not hear: your hands are full of blood.” Came another scripture.

I quivered in fear. What would it look like to have it at the back of your mind that God is not with you in the journey you embarked on. A boat without Jesus on board would sink when the storms of life come on its full force. That scripture kindled uneasiness in my heart.

“Lord why are you doing this to me?” I asked and waited for a response, but there was none.

“Lord! Please don’t leave me!” I wept.

“What do you want me to do? I’ve already told you what to do and you told you can’t do it. You’re free to do whatever you like!” Came the gentle whisper.

I quickly took her Bible and began flipping. I didn’t know what I was looking for but kept flipping the pages. I paused when I caught sight of an highlighted verse.

“Psalms 81:11 But my people would not hearken to my voice; and Israel would none of me.
12 So I gave them up unto their own hearts’ lust: and they walked in their own counsels.
13 Oh that my people had hearkened unto me, and Israel had walked in my ways!
14 I should soon have subdued their enemies, and turned my hand against their adversaries.
15 The haters of the LORD should have submitted themselves unto him: but their time should have endured for ever.
16 He should have fed them also with the finest of the wheat: and with honey out of the rock should I have satisfied thee.”

I bowed my head and wept bitterly.

Soon another scripture popped up in my heart.

“I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. To give you your expectations at the end”.

I believed my tears could fill a bucket. I laid flat on the floor before the King that can never be challenged

The scripture I had read kept repeating itself in my heart but in a different way.

“But Christiana would not listen to me, neither would she surrender to my will for her life.
So I gave her up to the lust of her heart and permitted her to do what she desperately wanted to do.

Oh! Oh that Christiana would listen to me. How I wish she could obey me?
I should soon have subdued her enemies, and turned my hand against her adversaries.
All those who hates her God should have submitted themselves and given their lives to Christ.
I should have fed you with the finest of the wheat: and with honey out of the rock
should I have satisfied you”.

I wept like a baby. My tears were endless.

“Cris! Surrender! Why fight against a God too powerful for you?”

“Lord it’s so hard!” I wailed.

“I know it’s hard! That’s why the bible says the road is narrow. Only few people follow this path. But I promise you, you would never regret it”.

At this point, I knew I had no choice. It’s now or never.

I braced myself up, leaning on my hands and knees.
It was time to make that decision that would change my life forever. It was time to give up the one thing that held me bound.

“Lord I’m so sorry. I can see the pain you feel, when men refuse to allow you take the wheel of
their lives. With my Imagination, I can see the HOLY SPIRIT grieving in that scripture I just read.

If your plans for my life is better than what I am planning for myself, then why am I so stupid? Why am I fighting for something less, when you have bigger plans for me?

You can have my life Lord. It is yours. You can have my marriage. I am ready to accept your will for my life. You only know what is best for me.”

To be continued……

Congratulations Cris!

At last the stubborn rat has been caught.

Ha! She stubborn Sha. Let’s see if she means business this time. Let’s see if she wouldn’t fall for the next drama Chris would act.

How many of you accepted Jesus as your saviour and not as your Lord?
How many of you asked him to come into your heart, but only wanted him to protect you and not take charge of your life?

Luke 6:46 And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say?

It’s time to say yes Lord and surrender to his will. You don’t need to enter the belly of the whale before accepting his will.

2 Corinthians 6:17 Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you, 6:18 And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.

Episode 22

“Lord I commit your daughter Christiana into your hands! Lord I pray you’ll bring her back into your plan for her life. Don’t let her go! Don’t give her rest! Holy Spirit trouble her! Take away her peace. Cause everything around her to start working to restore her back to your path in Jesus name!”

I woke up. It was all a dream. I met my mentor on her knees in her bedroom, praying for me. Hmmmmm! That reminds me, I have so much to confess to her. Lord! Please give me the strength to do so in Jesus name!” I prayed.

My phone was ringing again. I hissed because I knew the caller.

“Cris! It’s time to answer him! Give him a piece of your mind!” Came the gentle whisper.

“I’m scared! I don’t want to end up going back to him. You know I have a soft spot for him”.

“Don’t worry! It’ll be alright!”

I swiped the green bar and placed the phone on my ear.

“Hello!”

“Chris! 53 missed calls! What is the meaning of that? Don’t you know I have work to do?”

“I’m sorry about what happened. My father is an evil man. How could he set me up like that?”

“Why wouldn’t he! When he wants to saved my life from a man who could kill instantly with his bare hands!” I replied.

“Stop it! That was a chicken! I can’t do that to a human being! You know me very well! You know I can’t hurt you!”

“Chris! Please! You know I’ve been trying to end this relationship a long time ago. You’re the one holding me back. My heart is no longer with you anymore. You should understand that you don’t manipulate people into doing what they don’t want to do. Chris! Whether you like it or not, this relationship is finally over. I’m leaving and there’s nothing you can do to stop me”.

“I’m not going to stop you, but I want to explain something to you. I may not be good enough for you, but that’s not the summary of my life. I’m ready to work on myself. I’m ready to do anything for you. Please, Cris don’t leave me. You’re killing me by doing so!”

“Chris! Hear me clearly!” I said angrily.

“If you want to die because I broke up with you, please do that quickly. I will personally sponsor your burial! Rubbish!” I said and ended the call.

I threw the phone on the bed and hissed.

“Look at how he’s behaving like a kid? Go and die na! As grave dey hungry you! Rubbish! As if losing a woman is the end of life. I don’t know what animal house they raised him from. Am I oxygen that you cannot love without me? I should marry you so that you will twist my neck and kill me then tell my lifeless body that you’re sorry! God forbid!”

I was still monologuing when his call came again. I picked the phone and swiped the green bar.

“Hello!”

“So you could say that to me? After all I did for you! Despite all I did for you? You threw my love in my face and decided to abandon me right?”

“Please stop all these! A break up will not kill you! Behave like a man and stop all these tatariffic attitude!”

“Oh! You’re calling me a tata! It’s completely clear you hate me. You hate me, but all I did was love you. I wasn’t told love could hurt like this!”

“Hey stop that rubbish!” I cut in.

“I’m not going to listen to your nusery rhymes. I have better things to do with my time. So let’s reach an agreement. Go your way and I’ll go mine. We’re two different people!”

“Cris! This marriage can work. You just don’t want to work with me to build this relationship”, he said, close to tears.

I laughed and shook my head in pity. This is his strategy. This is how he always makes me break down and return to him.

“Chris! You’re out of tricks! Please find a better one. And if you like collapse and be taken to the hospital. I’ll never show up! Do you hear me! Chicken killer!”

“What did you just call me?” He asked angrily.

“You heard me!”

“You’re an idiot you know that! A big! Big idiot! You allowed your stupid mentor to boss you around. Why are you this stupid? I had to go to her house and warn her to leave you alone. That’s why she started behaving like a good woman in the hospital. She knew I wasn’t joking that day. Very useless woman.

And you’re also a useless girl. I paid the doctor to pretend I was sick and slept in the hospital all because of you when I had better things to do with my time. You this ungrateful soul. Yet you never recovered from your stupidity. I remember you were a mentally retarded lady before. Maybe your mental sickness is starting to come afresh”.

I had to check the caller’s ID to be sure if it was Chris or someone else. I checked and confirmed it was him. Wait oooo! Am I dreaming? Chris told me he told my mentor that he loved me so much and pleaded with her to allow us get married. Did he just say he threatened her? And did he fake the hospital incident? Do you mean I had been fooled all these while?

Both of us were fighting for a relationship that would never work. We had to lie to each other in order to keep the relationship working. What exactly were we fighting for? Just take a look at how we both wasted our time. This is devastating. And to think about that Chris could call me all the those names? Wow! That was love indeed! I’m done with this useless relationship

“Chris! Thanks alot! I guess there are so many sane ladies out there. Why waste your 53 missed calls on an insane lady?” I asked trying to keep my voice calm.

“I was wondering what was wrong with me. It looks like the spell you cast on me just fell off my eyes. I had wasted two years of my life on a mad woman who roams the street bare footed and ate from the garbage cans”.

Wow! Chris was reminding me of the horrible things I did when I ran mad and broke out of the house. Something, he promised never to talk about. Wow! I’m so enjoying this hidden version of my so called man of my dreams.

“Chris! Is that all you have to say?”

“No! I’m just starting! You’re an empty container. An orange with no juice in it. I’ve tasted your body several times. I don’t think I’ll love to continue drinking the same drink everyday of my life. You were so cheap to give me your body”.

“Chris! You can say all these to me?” I asked, tears streaking down my cheeks.

“Why not! Who do you think you are? Mentally retarded lady!”

“Enough!” I yelled.

“Do you know my only happiness!”

“No!”

“Is that I haven’t married you before you started this episode of your character. From killing a chicken with your bare hands, to killing me with your words!”

“I’ll gladly sponsor your burial ceremony!” He interrupted.

“Shut up! I thought you loved me!” I said weeping.

“Love! Ha ha! You were just my ticket to wealth and power. Marrying you was a way to become the owner of your father’s company. In no time, my game would spread and I’ll have more than enough to go into politics and get busy counting money. Your mentor was right though. I was not the man for you. But foolish you would not listen.

It’s completely clear if we had gotten married, I would gain alot. You’re such a bag of money. I would have made a fortune out of you. You should be thanking your God you escaped”.

Honestly, I can’t remember how the call ended because I passed out. Those were the last words I heard before everywhere was suddenly dark.

I saw thousands of people holding my dress, pleading with me, tears in their eyes.

“Give us the bread! We are dying of starvation!” They cried out.

“What bread?” I asked.

“The bread! The bread! You have the bread! Don’t keep us in hunger! Give us the bread!” They kept repeating those words.

“Give us the bread! We’re starving! Help us! Why have you refused to surrender completely to God? We are all starving here and all you do is chasing shadows!” Give us the bread!” A lady screamed among the crowd.

“How can someone be this wicked? You have the bread, yet you have chosen to let us starve?” Another cried.

This time, I noticed something about this crowd in my dream. This was the third time this dream was repeating itself but I never noticed this untill now.

I noticed that all the people in this crowd were ladies. Especially ladies in their 20’s, 30’s and 40’s. I tried looking for a male among this crowd but couldn’t find any.

I turned around and saw my mentor on her knees praying. She was at a distance, sweating and groaning fervently in prayers.

“Lord! I commit your daughter Christiana into your hands! Her destiny would not be hijacked by the devil. Even if you have already signed a contract with the kingdom of darkness? Lord I know human beings have a free will and I’m not denying it.

We are free to choose what we want for ourselves. But you said in your word in John 14:14. If I ask any thing in your name, you will do it. Anything at all! For with God nothing is impossible.

Lord I break protocols and stand upon your word which says that I shall decree a thing and it shall be established. Christiana Kolapo! Wherever your spirit is, I call you and I command you! Obey Jesus in the name of Jesus!

Listen! You are a child of destiny and no power will stop you! I release you from the chains of darkness that has held you bound to your emotions in the name of Jesus!

I break every soul tie between you and that boy, Chris and I release a hunger to chase God into your spirit man, in the name of Jesus.

Hahaha! If there’s a man to pray there’s a God to answer. Christiana you don’t have a choice oooo! As your mother in the realm of the spirit I have chosen what you will become without your permission. You will become what God sent you to become here on earth!

You will feed your starving generation with the bread of life! The gates of hell will not prevail against your purpose in Jesus name!”

I opened my eyes and looked around.

“Lord! Touch your daughter in the name of Jesus!” My mentor prayed.

“Amen!” Tina, Evelyn my maid and Sharon my younger sister chorused.

Was I dreaming or what? I didn’t see these people in the crowd. I was watching my mentor praying and here she was.

“Mummy! Aunty Rhema is back!” Tina announced.

“Praise God! Cris is back!” Evelyn said with a broad smile on her face.

“Thank you Jesus!” My mentor said, waving her hands in the air.

Still feeling dizzy, I asked.

“What happened?”

“Evelyn found you on the floor unconscious! She had to call us”, Sharon answered.

To be continued……

I so much love the power in intercessory prayers.

Satan keeps distracting us and makes us keep complaining about the person’s attitude instead of praying for the person.

We keep seeing the faults and failures of the person. Forgetting that the destiny of that person is under attack. Instead of helping the person by interceding, we keep grudges and bitterness in our hearts.

Did Christopher shock anybody?
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Do you think he would expose himself like that if not for the prayers of Mrs Thompson?

Brethren let’s pick up our mantles of intercession. This is a call to pray for our perishing loved ones.

Episode 23

I sat down at the balcony. I loved to look at the pool and the trees around my estate. Also, the natural air felt good on my skin. It was much better than all the air conditioning I was used to. Once in a while, here was a taste of nature without human manipulation.

“Cris! I thought you might love some tea, so I made one for you!” Evelyn said as she joined me on the balcony, holding a tray in her hands.

I didn’t love being called madam and I told her to call me by my name. So don’t be shocked my maid calls me by my name.

“Thanks!” I said with a feigned smile, just to encourage her. I was taken her kind gesture.

She returned the smile and left.

I took a few sips and dropped the mug. I was still trying to get over the hurt from the previous day. My mentor and her daughter left last night, but promised to be paying a visit this morning. My younger sister stayed with me.

Tunde Akintola, her husband was coming to get her this morning. I really wished she could stay longer. I’ve missed her so much.

She joined me on the balcony and sat beside me.

“How are you feeling now!” She asked.

“How should I feel? I’m not different from you!” I replied.

Her eyes widened in surprise and then a smile followed.

“It’s in our blood!” She replied grinning.

My sister dated a guy who also tried to access my father’s wealth through the relationship. I threw alot of blame on her when his plans were exposed. It’s a long story that would take the entire year to explain.

I had always been the perfect big sister. She was the one bringing all the trouble home. I had to handle all her mess. I threw all the blames on her and never accepted a fault.

Now here I was, repeating what my sister did a few years ago. Sounds great to say it’s in our blood.

“So how are you feeling?” She asked and I replied with a shrug.

“I feel like an idiot! I was fooled for two years. Gave my money thinking I was investing in my future. Helped his crashing company to where it is now thinking I was loved. Hmmm! This life!”

“I can relate to that! Mine was much worse! The trouble I brought on this family was too big. Our lives almost went for it. God came to the rescue, even when we were so undeserving” Sharon said and chuckled.

“That’s why till tomorrow, untill God points that this is your husband, don’t go into any relationship with anybody. Because the bible says in Jeremiah 17:9. The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

Except God, no one knows the heart of man. Chris was a fake lover and for two solid years no one could catch him. How did he achieve it? This guy is a professional. Hmmm! He came prepared to ruin your life.

Just one thing saved you. The prayers of Mrs Thompson! That was your escape route. You were ready to die for him. You even sacrificed your relationship with God just to be his wife. This was too much! His Adacadabra really worked beyond human comprehension”.

“Sharon! You’re not comforting me at all! You’re only reminding me of how I wasted 2years of precious life on a fraudster”, I said as my eyes were getting blurry.

Sharon noticed and quickly changed the topic.

“Tun would soon be here!”

“Tun! Who’s Tun?” I asked, flowing with the distraction.

“Tunde!” She answered.

“Oh!” I feigned surprise.

I knew she was referring to her husband. I only needed something to help me get Chris off my mind, anything! The hurtful words he used on me still played subconsciously in my head.

Then my mentor. What a gift she had been to me. She loved me unconditionally and stood in the gap for me. How did I repay her? I called her a crazy woman, lied to her without feeling bad about it. How do I fix my broken life? I don’t know where to start from. I don’t think I can get a fresh start after all the things that happened.

“Sharona!” I called my younger sister.

“Yes!”

“What do you think I should do now? Where do I go from here? I’m in such a big mess that I can’t get out of it all by myself. I don’t know what to do. Two years of my precious life wasted. Where do I get a husband now?”

Sharon chuckled and I raised an eye brow to show it was a serious conversation.

“Sorry! But the last statement you made was so funny! Where do I get a husband? Let’s go shopping sis!” She replied and started giggling.

“Please be serious. I really want to settle down maritally. I want to put an end to my singlehood days and move on with life. I’m tired of being a single lady. All my friends are getting married or about to. I’m the only one left”.

“And who said being a single lady is a bad thing?” She asked.

I exhaled and looked at her intently.

“It’s easy to say that when you’re 23 and married. You don’t know what it looks like for me, I’m 32 and not married. Very soon, I’ll be 33. I’m losing time. I’ve lost 2 years already. I want a quick route to a blissful marriage”.

Normally, I wouldn’t be sharing this with my younger sister. The age gap between the two of us always made me see her as a kid. But how she got married so fast with God’s approval and everything, baffles me. What was the secret? I’ve always believed Christian ladies took so long to get married. Hers was entirely different. What’s the secret to getting married speedily as a Christian lady?

She smiled and looked at me.

“Sis! I was already crushing on Tunde before I got born again. So it became worse for me seeing how much God used him for me and this family. My love for him grew stronger and ever before. But I knew I was threading a dangerous ground. So I decided to seek the face of God in a 3 days marathon fasting.

I asked him to take the feelings I had for him away. Those 3 days of fasting was an intense journey into the realm of the spirit. God took me through the scriptures and gave me alot of revelations. There I knew what was wrong with me”.

“And what was that!” I asked, completely curious.

“I always thought I needed a man in my life. I needed Tunde to love me the way I did. I needed him so much that I couldn’t sleep, all because I was thinking about him. He was like the air I breathe. I just wanted to always hear his voice and be around him. He was the center of my world and happiness.

But God showed me in a scripture in Matthew 4:3. And when the tempter came to him, he said, If thou be the Son of God, command that these stones be made bread.

But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.

I was asking myself how was this a solution to my problem? Then God opened that scripture for me and there came my deliverance.

Sis, there’s this hunger in man that can never be satisfied. It’s more than a physical hunger. It’s just like a man that is thirsty. What he needs is water and you’re giving him a bottle of coke. He will drink it but he’ll still be thirsty. You give him honey, he may eat it, but still be thirsty.

Satan asked Jesus to turn stones to bread. Make bread out of stones. Jesus needed the bread of life and here was Satan suggesting he forgets the bread of life and make do with a stone. Satan was giving Jesus an alternative to the bread of life and was giving Jesus a kind of bread that has no life in it. A bread made out of stone.

That’s the problem sis. The problem is not that you need a man in your life. Truth be told you’re hungry, but going after a husband is like turning stones to bread. What you truly need is not the stony bread, but the real bread”.

“I don’t understand!”

“Hmmmmm! Sister! There’s this hunger in man that only God can satisfy. All Satan does is to provide temporary pleasure. Temporary satisfaction! He tries to channel your focus from the bread of life which is God, to the bread of stone which are your carnal appetites.

That’s why the man goes after immorality. There’s this hunger in man that only God can fill. But he doesn’t understand it is only God that can satisfy that yearning, so he turns to immorality, from one woman to the other. Yet, he’s not satisfied.

That was what the woman of Samaria was looking for. She was hungry for the living water. But Satan decieved her and made her think that a new husband was the solution to her depression. He made her believe getting a new husband was the only solution to her problems. So she left her first husband and married another man. Yet, that hunger was not quenched.

Satan deceived her further into trying another man. She kept moving from one man to another, untill they were now 5 in number. Yet, she wasn’t satisfied.

That’s the same thing today. A lot of people are so depressed and hungry that they turn to Facebook for satisfaction. They turn to porn sites to satisfy them. But all it can do is 5 minutes pleasure of masturbating and leave them hungrier. No satisfaction. So they become addicted to men, like the Samaritan woman. They become addicted to pornography, trying to quench their thirst.

They are only trying to quench their hunger with bread made out of stones. But it’s not the bread of life. That’s why the more they get married, the more they want to get married. That’s why couples are not satisfied with themselves. They want a divorce and go for a new man they think would be the solution. But after getting married, they still aren’t satisfied.

So man keeps searching for water, just as the woman did. And there was our Lord. The living water. The water that if you drink, you’ll lose interest in pornography. If you drink, you’ll lose your obsession to get married. Yes, the woman of Samaria drank of this water and she was too busy inviting all the Samaritans to come and have a drink, that she forgot her empty jar at Jacob’s well.

When you drink of this water, you’ll lose your obsession to get married and be so busy inviting people to come and drink. You’ll forget about yourself that you’re not married. Because marriage would be the last thing on your mind. Because you have drank from the water of life. Your satisfaction has been met. You no longer turn to masturbation when depressed, but to God”.

I was completely shocked by the revelation in that scripture.

To be continued…….

Jesus is the answer for the world today. Above him there’s no other.
Jesus is the way.

Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Come! All you that have been labouring for the attention of that guy you’re crushing on. Come!

Come! All you that are fed up with the attacks of the enemy on your life and family. Come!

Come! All you that have been struggling to live a holy life! Come!

Come! All you that have been scared of when would the right man come? I’m 30! I’m 35! I’m 38! I’m 40! God when am I getting married? Come!

And I will give you rest

The lecture continues tomorrow
What is the secret to getting married speedily as a Christian lady?

Episode 24

“So that’s the problem humans face. We turn to bread made out of stones to quench our hunger, when what we really need is the bread of life. Nothing in this world can satisfy. Some people think getting a new car would make them happy. Right now they have seven cars and are planning on buying a new car very soon. Some think a boyfriend would bring satisfaction. They’re out of three relationships and are planning on a 4th one. Only God can fill that vacuum. Stop wasting your time jumping from one place to another. Go for the bread that truly satisfies.

“Sharon!” I interrupted.

“Yes!”

“So how can we get this bread of life?” I asked.

“That’s simple! By spending quality time with God everyday. Just like the woman at the well, you take your soul to God. He does the feeding. He answers your questions. He calms your troubled soul. He gives you his peace.

David said in Psalms 16:11. Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

That’s the source of our happiness. The presence of God. That’s the only solution to our obsession. To our worries, to our unending passions and to our search for satisfaction.

It’s only a lady that has tasted of this water in the secret place that can stand in public with a smile on her face. She’s approaching 40, no husband, yet, not a single worry plagues her mind. She’s completely certain that God would settle her when the time comes.

Others who are yet to taste of this water are surprised at her peace of mind. They are asking out of curiosity. What is her problem? Can’t she see she’s getting old? At 38, she has the guts to reject a proposal. You know how difficult it is to get a husband in the market these days.

They don’t understand. She’s so lost in the pleasures of God’s presence, that she cannot sacrifice it for a wrong relationship with a mere man. She’s lives in the presence of God, dwells in the secret place of the most high and abides under his shadow.

Jesus said in John 14:27. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
He calms your troubled soul and gives grace to the weak heart.

It’s in your secret place. Your quiet time. That’s where you draw from the river of life. That’s were your emotions are subdued and your spirit man is charged and empowered. That’s the secret sis”.

I looked at my sister with a somber expression on my face. This was something I never thought to be possible.

“But is there a quick route? Is there anything that can make me get married faster as a Christian lady? I mean does it mean because I’m a Christian, I must marry late?” I asked.

She smiled and patted me on the shoulder.

“Sis! That’s what a lot of Christian ladies think. That’s the reason why many of them are in a hurry to get married and not lose the man in their lives right now. They don’t understand that there are principles in the kingdom.

God is a God of principles. Everything in him has a pattern you must follow in other to achieve what you want. Who told you Christian ladies can’t marry early? Ha ha ha ha ha ha!

Let me tell you how to hasten God’s hand concerning your marriage.

In the school we have primary, secondary and tertiary institution. The primary I’d the basics of all the levels of education. Without the primary, the secondary or the tertiary education would never be balanced. What am I driving at?

God is a God of priority! If you understand God Ehn, you would go and sleep very well and stop worrying yourself. God is a God of priority. He never puts at the front what ought to be last in the queue. He arranges everything according to their significance. What am I saying?

God sent us with 3 assignments on earth. Three definite assignment. I know alot of things fall under it, but these 3 are the most significant of them all.

Number one! He sent you to this earth to have a relationship with him. You were created to know God. To worship him and have fellowship with him. Man was created for God to dwell in and interact with. That’s the first.

Number two! He sent you to this earth to fulfill a purpose. There was a need in the earth. Israel needed a deliverer to break them out of the bondage of Pharaoh. So God sent Moses to the Earth. God knew a famine was approaching. A famine that would last for seven years. The whole world was in trouble. A lot of people would die. So he sent Joseph into the world to preserve lives.

No human being shows up on earth without a purpose to fulfill. It doesn’t matter how the child was born. What matters is what the child came to fulfill. That’s why abortion is completely devilish. According to God’s programming and calculation, during intercourse. Once the man sends his seed into the woman, a child is formed.

God having sat down as a principled King, plans for the future. He programed nature and gave them instructions to follow. So immediately, God calls a meeting and looks into the future. A child has been released into the earth by the act of intercourse. God immediately looks into the future and see a particular need to be met and gives the mandate to that child.

He sends the child into the earth to fulfill that mandate, only for the mother to say she wants him dead. How horrible is that? And that’s how the innocent child is killed and sent back to God without fulfilling his destiny.

Can I tell you something?”

“Yes please!” I answered.

“Do you know that the children in heaven do not own mansions?”

I was amazed. Could that be true? I believe God wouldn’t allow them to be homeless.

“Yes! Children in heaven do not own mansions. You build your mansion in heaven by your labour for God here on earth. So every aborted baby doesn’t own a personal mansion.

Jesus made us to understand that he would reward us on the last day. Part of the reward he was giving us is a mansion in the kingdom. Those aborted babies never had the opportunity to labour for the kingdom. Whether God is going to give them one later, that, I cannot tell”.

“Wow!” I nodded.

“Number 3! He sent you here to help spread his kingdom here on earth. He sent you here to represent him. To win souls to the kingdom for him. To help in reaching out to the lost and perishing world. He sent you here to help those who do not know him to do so. He sent you here so that darkness would not dominate the world.
These are the three reasons why you were sent to this world”

I was awe struck. I didn’t know what else to say. I knew I was so borders with what was not important to God right from the onset. What was I going to do now?

“Can I ask a question?”

“Please do!” I replied.

“So where is marriage among these three?”

I shook my head in regret. I wasn’t sent to this world to get married. I was sent to have a relationship with God, fulfil my destiny and spread his knowledge across the world by winning souls.

“Sis! You really want to get married faster? You really want to tell God that you mean business with him? Get busy with these three! Go and build your relationship with God. Your quiet time! Your prayer altar and personal bible study. Get busy with a consistent prayer life and study of God’s word. You have been called to know God. And you don’t know him yet, then forget about marriage.

As you consistently fellowship in the presence. God begins to reveal things to you and one of them is who you are meant to be. What he destined you to become. He opens your eyes to specific things and pushes you into your divine calling and assignment. This he does and in no time, you find yourself busy in the work of the kingdom.

It’s not compulsory that you must be a preacher. You may be a kingdom financier. Pulling people to the kingdom through your wealth. You may be a kingdom musician, pulling souls to Jesus through your songs. You may be a kingdom writer, winning souls for God through your write ups.

One way or the other, you find yourself busy in God’s work. That’s your garden of Eden. Taking care of what God has placed in your hands. You wouldn’t have time to think about your marital status. You’ll be too busy calling people to come and drink from the water of life.

And in that garden of fulfilling purpose, lies your partner. That’s where you get to meet the one that was created to partner with you in God’s work.

Listen to me. Not every Christian is your husband. A destiny helper is what God said he was giving Adam first. Not even a wife.

Genesis 2:18 And the LORD God said, It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him.

God was sending someone to help him first. That was the primary assignment Eve came to play in the life of Adam. What was Adam’s assignment on earth? Take care of the garden. Eve was only there to help him do his assignment better.

Today, you ask a lady, what is your assignment here on Earth? She would tell you she doesn’t know yet, but she’s asking God to give her husband.

Ask her about her relationship with God. She cannot fast. She’s still struggling with 30 minutes prayer everyday, if at all not once in a week. She never opens her bible to read it except when she goes to church on Sunday. And she’s asking God for a husband.

How can a family and the destiny of 3 great children on earth survive under the care of a woman who cannot pray more than 30 minutes? Quiet time, she’s still struggling with it. Personal bible study, no time, too busy. How can she defend her husband in the place of prayer? How can she pray the destiny of her children into manifestation?

Have you forgotten Satan attacks godly families? How can you build a strong relationship with God spending only 30 minutes with him everyday? Before God starts talking or opens a Bible scripture and revelations start coming, you have closed the bible. Time up!

And the next time you come back, that window in the realm of the spirit has been closed. A lot of Christian ladies have left their relationship with God unbuilt, their purpose undiscovered, the spreading of the gospel abandoned and are busy looking for a man to marry them.

The Bible says, he that findeth a wife. Now , it’s she that findeth a husband. Remember that scripture that says, but seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness, and all these things, including your husband, shall be added unto you.

Let’s go back! Retrace your steps back to God. We have really majored on the minor and minored on the major. What ought to be number one, is now the last thing on the list. And what ought to be the last thing on the list is the number one thing we’re pursuing”.

I went down on my knees immediately and poured out my heart to God. Indeed, I was so guilty.

To be continued……

Christian singles!

I want to get married! I want to get married!

Have you used this period of being a single to know God? To build your relationship with him? Have you discovered your purpose and calling in life?

So many of us are still very young and Satan is bringing boys to distract us and we think it’s because we’re so beautiful?

You’ll chat with them till late in the night and when you’re supposed to be reading Bible, you’re listening to the sugar coated words they have to say.

You hardly read your Bible. You can’t even pray because the distraction is too much on you. You give excuses of work and tiredness.

The enemies ready to wreck your destiny and push you into a wrong relationship are not tired.

Don’t forget, time is going!

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Episode 25

“Tunde seems to be taking so long!” I said as I brought the tray in my hand to my sister.

“Yeah! I know how to deal with him. Trust me! He can’t keep his Rose of Sharon waiting and go Scot free”, my sister replied, taking a cup of tea in her hand. We were having breakfast together that morning and awaited her husband’s arrival.

“Who is Rose of Sharon?” My mentor asked. She and Tina had returned just as promised.

“Oh! That’s my pet name ma!” Sharon chuckled.

“Ha! That’s Jesus ooo! How can you give your wife a name that belongs to Jesus in the name of pet name?” She said jokingly and we all burst into laughter.

“Thank God he will meet me here! I’ll make sure he is punished for trespassing and stealing from Jesus!”

We laughed so hard. Though I laughed, I still felt the pang of guilt in me. I had joy within me, but it seemed it wasn’t complete. I was yet to apologize to my mentor and reveal all my secrets to her. I had sold lies to her and she bought them. I can’t have a solid relationship with God built on lies.

Every now and then, I looked at her when she wasn’t looking and saw her trust for me in her eyes. It only she knew I was so full of lies. But after confessing to her, would she ever trust me like she did now? What would happen if I open up and she begins to struggle with trusting me? Whenever I tell her something, would she always want to be sure if it was the truth or a lie?

That would be serious. Imagine everytime I tell her something, she would always try to confirm if I was lying or not? That would be awkward. I don’t think I can continue with this mentorship program anymore.

“Cris! Stop wasting time! You have to apologize to her no matter the consequences that might follow. It’s the right thing to do. Do it and be completely free from all these guilt you’re feeling in your heart. It’s the only way. Don’t you want to o be free?” Came the gentle whisper.

“Hmm Cris! You have started again?” I replied.

“Started what?”

“Talking to yourself! Why am I always talking to myself as if I am two personalities?”

There was no response to my question.

I sat down beside my sister.

“So how’s married life?” I whispered into her ears.

She smiled and looked at me.

“That’s a topic on its own. But married life is wonderful when Jesus is in that family. God taught me something recently. I got a powerful revelation from a scripture. It’s like the logos disappeared completely and the rhema took over!”

“Chai! I love mysteries! Hit me jare!” My mentor said smiling.

“Ha! I better close my mouth then!” Sharon said and held her lips together.

“No! I’m serious! Please share it with me!” She replied.

“How would I be talking about rhema when the wife of Apostle Paul is in our midst?” Sharon replied.

We all burst into laughter.

“Ha! We learn everyday na! Infact! I’m still growing in the Lord! You know I’m still a spiritual teenager!”

“Ha! Mummy!” I almost called you a liar!” I said admist laughter.

“No na! A child of God is not a liar except he or she is a child of the devil. The devil is the father of all lies”, my mentor replied and I gulped.

That means I was a child of the devil automatically. I’m so full of lies. I’m not supposed to be sitting here with these people. Hmmmmm! Cris is not yet a child of God.

“This is serious! How do I break out of all these now?” I asked myself.

“Confess and be free! Why are you so adamant?”

“Cris stop it! How can I confess to her and expect her to forgive me? First, the fornication! Oh! If she hears that one, she won’t recover from it for weeks. Whenever she sees me, she would always remember I slept with my boyfriend.

Next, the lies about Chris getting born again! Next, the lies about my quiet time which I had not been observing for some days now. This is so difficult!” I said within me.

“With God all things are possible!” Came the gentle response.

“Yes I know, but this one is difficult.

“Is anything too hard for God?”

“Nothing is hard for him, but”

“Why are you using but? So you think God cannot touch your mentor’s heart and soften it towards you?”

“He can, but”

“Stop the but! Stop it! Why are you making the devil look so powerful by your lack of faith in God?”

I sighed and lowered my face. I lifted my head slowly and met my mentor staring at me.

“What I’m trying to say is that, I gave my life to Christ 18 years ago. So I’m still a spiritual teenager”, she said grinning, her eyes still locked in mine.

I quickly smiled at her to take away her curiousity and she fell for it. She returned the smile and looked elsewhere.

“So I’m still growing and it’s not a crime if you become the spiritual cook to prepare me spiritual breakfast this morning!” She added.

“Hmmm spiritual cook, spiritual breakfast! Everything is spiritual!”

“Yes ooooo! The spirit controls the physical”, I said all smiles.

“That’s Aunty Rhema talking!” Tina! Aunty Rhema is talking ooo!” She said aloud.

There was no sign of Tina around so she looked at me.

“Where’s Tina?” She asked and looked around.

“She’s with the gateman at the gate. She told me she wanted to share the word of God with him. She wants to win him by all means!” I answered.

“That’s true! I’m tired of seeing him smoking each time I come in. Aren’t you tired of it?” She asked.

“I am, but the best thing I can do is to tell him to stop smoking outside the house. But from time to time, he comes outside to smoke. Mostly when I don’t have people around”, I said.

“Cris! I don’t want you to fire him at all. I just want you to be so bordered about his soul and do everything you can to win him. We are to teach out to the lost through whatever means. So I expect the salvation of his soul to be your number one priority”.

“Yes ma! I should have but!”

“I understand Cris! You have not been in good terms with God for a while now. Thank God for restoring you completely!”

“Not completely!” I said within me. I dared not say that to her hearing.

“So now that you have been fully restored, that gateman is your new assignment. God is only using Tina to sow the seeds. He’s your responsibility”.

“Yes ma!” I said and nodded.

She turned and looked at Sharon. Immediately their eyes met. They started laughing. I also joined them to laugh, even when I didn’t know what caused the laughter.

“Why are you laughing?” My mentor asked.

“Ma! Why are you laughing?” My sister asked.

“It’s because you’re laughing that I’m laughing oooo. Your laughter was contagious!” She replied and we all laughed the more.

“I was laughing because, I knew the moment you looked at me you were going to ask for the Rhema”, she said grinning.

“Why not? That’s my food ooo! I enjoy it from my husband every time I’m hungry”.

“Exactly! I know you are having the best part of his ministration. I used to follow him on YouTube and Instagram. I love listening to his messages. But please, tell him to change his name from pastor Robert to Apostle Robert. That name suits him better”,

“Sharon, we’re not after titles, we’re after souls. Titles and fame are not the main thing. Though God has nothing against it, but to us, it’s not necessary. As long as the souls keep getting blessed and are won into the kingdom. So whether he’s called a pastor or an Apostle or bro Robert, it’s not important”.

I smiled and nodded.

“That’s true!” Sharon said.

“So back to what you were going to share with us?”

“Oh yes! She replied and adjusted herself on the sofa.

“Actually, I was reading
1 John 4:16. And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.

I asked myself what was God saying through this passage. Then God made me to understand. That you cannot love without having God in you. The love a couple have for each other is as strong as the love they have for God. That means for a couple to love themselves so much and enjoy their marriage, they must love God first.

And how do you love God? 1 John 3:18 My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in our actions and in truth.

So we tell God we love him by our obedience to his word and as long as we do that, I discovered something. My love for my husband became so strong and intense. My husband loved me so much that I cannot explain. Everyday in our house, we smile endlessly. We laugh, we play around like little kids. But once it’s time to be with God, we don’t joke with it.

We show God by our obedience that we love him and in return, we discovered he filled our hearts with love. There I knew love is actually more than a feeling. Love is spiritual, because it is a fruit of the spirit.

When I first got married to my husband, could you believe that I cannot dip his tooth brush in my mouth? But recently, he was brushing his mouth and I met him and just made a joke that he was brushing and couldn’t invite me. Thinking I wasn’t serious, he told me to join him. I took the brush out of his mouth and started brushing mine with it.

I don’t know what exactly was wrong with me, but I’ve lost irritation completely. I was asking myself how could I take someone’s brush out of his mouth while he was still brushing and start brushing with it? I’m not saying it’s healthy to try but, I completely lost my irritation. Should I say, love dey shak me!”

“Wow!” My mentor’s jaw dropped.

I was also surprised.

“Love is spiritual. The power of God in us can stir up love. But it’s first towards him. First towards God, then others and lastly, you. I call it JOY
J is for Jesus. O – means others and the Y – means you. That’s why when you love, you have joy in your soul. You don’t just know how to explain what is getting you excited. You are just so excited.

But you can only love people, when you love God. So the more you love God by obeying his word, the more your love for your spouse increases”.

“Wow! I just attended a marriage seminar!” My mentor said as she reached for her bag and brought out her jotter and pen.

Everyone burst into laughter. Sharon bowed her head blushing.

“As I was saying! The opposite of Love is not hate!” She continued.

“In English language, hate is the opposite for love. But according to the language of the spirit, love has a different word as an opposite”.

We were shocked to hear that. If the opposite of Love is not hate then what was the opposite then?

And please can someone teach me the language of the spirit?

To be continued…..

Please grab your pen and jotter oooo

We want to learn the language of the spirit 😂🤣😂🤣🤣

Please be praying for Cris oooo

I don’t like what I’m seeing oooo. She is still wavering according to my observations.

Satan is not yet ready to believe he has lost this soul.

The class continues tomorrow
What is the opposite of Love according to the language of the spirit?

Please share with me what you learned in this episode

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Episode 26


“Be looking at me ooo! Do you think you must have one big title before God can use you?” My mentor asked me as I watched her writing down some of the things my younger sister said.

“Because me and my husband teach alot of people doesn’t mean we are Mr and Mrs know it all. I’m not ashamed to learn from anyone. Pride is not a character in Jesus. It must never be found in us”

I nodded in affirmation and stood up to go and get something to write with. I came back and sat down.

“Please this information is not something to throw away. God is opening my eyes right now to how to make my marriage more sweeter. Please Sharon, go ahead and tell us. What is the opposite of Love according to the language of the spirit?”

After a brief silence, my sister looked at us and answered.

“Lust!”



I was surprised. How does lust have anything to do with the opposite of Love? At least if you don’t love someone, you hate the person. That’s how the world operates.

“Listen! Lust is a bigger opposite because it is a combination of both love and hate mixed together”.

“Wow!” My mentor exclaimed and wrote down a few words.

“When there’s no love in the family, what replaces it is lust. Lust is what will make a woman marry a man she doesn’t love and call it love. She doesn’t know that what’s going on there is she’s taking advantage of the man.


The same goes for a lot of boyfriend and girlfriend relationship. The guy wants to sleep with the girl and that’s all he cares about. He doesn’t love her, but lusts after her beauty. So everything he does to her, the sugar coated words, the night calls, the declaration of how much he loves her and the spending of money is all with one purpose. To get her on his bed. Once that is achieved, you discover a different character in the boy. Mission accomplished.

That’s the same thing with a lot of Christians today. They give their lives to Christ, but they don’t love him. They don’t obey whatever he tells them to do. And God being merciful doesn’t cast them away. He still shows his love to them by granting them their requests whenever they pray. Such people whenever they need something from God, the first thing they do is to confess their sins. Because they believe it would be an hindrance to their prayers or request from God.

They sometimes make promises to God which the Bible call flattery. They flatter God with a lot of promises to live better lives once God gives them what they want. Maybe they need money or a job or a promotion at the place of work or they want to go to school. They start telling God a lot of things about how they would live once they get what they’re asking from him.

Psalms 78:36 to 37. Nevertheless they did flatter him with their mouth, and they lied unto him with their tongues.

For their heart was not right with him, neither were they stedfast in his covenant.

They lust after God because of the benefits he offers. They don’t love him by their actions of obedience to his word. They disobey his command and whenever they repent, it’s only to be a good boy and get chocolate from daddy.

Their repentance doesn’t last. They don’t surrender completely to God. Half of them wants what the world has to offer, while the other half wants God. So instead of surrendering to one master, they want both masters.

So they don’t actually love God.
They only want he has to offer. That’s the same thing a marriage where God isn’t looks like. The husband and the wife are just together because of one benefit the relationship has to offer. Maybe the man needs financial support and the woman offers it perfectly. So he had to pretend to love her when he knows fully well he doesn’t. Or the woman needs the man for the influential name he bears. The wife of a popular man. So she pretends to respect him, all for the benefits the relationship has to offer.

Without God in us, all we have is a counterfeit of what God had to offer.. Lust is not all about emotions for the opposite gender. Lust is more of selfishness. It is note focused on self satisfaction than satisfying the need of others. If at all lust would do anything that would benefit others, it’s because of the benefits it would bring on him.

That’s why Jesus said when you give, don’t give expecting something in return as a lot of people do. They give to the rich so that they can get something bigger from him when the time comes.

Take for example the politicians. When they are about to go for election, you’ll see how they start acting nice. They buy things and distribute them to the people. They supply the people in rural areas with social amenities. Electricity, water, Education and good roads. All these to convince them into voting them into power. But as soon as they enter the seat of power, they turn back to doing what was on their minds at the beginning. That’s how Lust operates.

It is selfish and it’s all about taking advantage of someone else. Nobody really hates God. Deep within us, we want him in our lives. This just that some lust for him and others love him genuinely”, my sister said.

I felt guilty of this. My relationship with God has been more of exploiting him. I was mentally ill and went to him for the healing he offers. All I wanted was for him to heal me so I can be on my way. Return to my old life and continue with the way things were before. But when I discovered he wanted something more than a mere transaction. When I saw he wanted a relationship with me, I got rebellious. That was not what I wanted. I saw his demands as a burden. If I truly loved him, I would have given him everything he wanted like a woman in love is supposed to. I would have said yes to everything he asked me to surrender.


I only needed God in my life for what he could give or do for me. While I remained the boss of my life, telling him what I wanted and at the snap of my fingers, he gives me.

“Lord! I’m so sorry!” I said within me.

“Don’t tell me you’re sorry! Do what I asked you to do! That’s when you’re truly sorry!” Came the gentle whisper.

“Cris! You have started talking to yourself again!” I said in whispers.

“That’s the end of the class friends!” My sister announced.

“God bless you sister Sharon!” My mentor said.

“Amen!”

Just then my mentor’s phone started ringing. She picked it up and placed it on her ear.

“Yes! What! ” She asked with a broad grin on her face.

“You mean she’s here with her son? I’m coming right now!” She said and stood up.

“Girls! I need to be on my way now. I have someone I need to meet right now!” She announced and took her bag.

“Cris!” She called me.

“Please can you come with me?” She asked.

I looked at my sister and then back to her.

“I haven’t seen Tunde in a while now. I am also waiting for him”, I replied.

Going with her on a ride wouldn’t be such a good idea.

“My baby girl! Please!” She said and made those puppy eyes.

Why was she begging me to go with her? If she wanted me to follow her all she needed was order me to do so. Or does she have something else in mind? I remembered when my eyes met with hers during our discussion. I noticed she saw my mood swing. Or did she played along and made me think I fooled her?

Something tells me this ride home is more than just a ride.

“Even if it is, wouldn’t that be a perfect opportunity to open up to her? Came the gentle whisper.

I sighed and looked up.

“Please baby girl!” She pleaded with an American intonation.

“Okay!”

“Yay!” She shouted and punched the air with her fists.

“I really want you to meet this woman. That’s why I needed to drag you along. Sorry I was too demanding!” She apologized.

“Oh! A woman!”

“Yes! A great woman of God! She’s a …. I don’t want to go into details. Please hurry up let’s go!” She said and headed for the door

I turned to my sister.

“Say hi to Tunde for me. I’m going to meet this woman of God!” I told her and followed my mentor.

“Why are you walking behind me?” She asked and pulled me to her side.

“Let’s walk together!” She said and placed her left arm around my shoulders.

I felt loved, but each time I wanted to enjoy the feeling, guilt sprang up. I had to release these secrets I had locked up in my heart and be free. Yes, I would confess to my mentor on the way.

Tina was still lost in her conversation with the gateman.

My mentor opened the car and told me to take my seat. I opened the back door and sat at the back. I knew Tina would join us and that meant one thing. My confession had to wait.

My mentor met Tina and spoke with her. For the sake of distance, I couldn’t hear what she was saying but by the time she was done, she came back alone, leaving her with the gateman.

The gateman quickly rose up to his duty and opened the gate, but Tina remained on her seat.

My mentor sat down at the driver’s seat and turned to me.

“Get over here Cris! I told Tina that your driver would bring her to the house when she was ready, so he can also take you back. She told me she’s not done talking with your gateman”.

I was amazed. That means I had not lost my opportunity. I came out of the vehicle and sat with my mentor at the front.

She turned on the ignition and drove out of the garage. We waved at Tina and the gateman as we left the building.

Soon we were on the streets, on our way to my mentor’s house.

“So Cris! Are you ready to tell me that thing bordering you?” She asked.

My heart started pounding heavily.

Do I tell her the truth or tell her something else?

To be continued……

You people should tell Cris to stop this nonsense ooo!

I don’t know if they would flog her 39 strokes of the cane if she tells the truth.

Satan is not ready to lose the battle. He still believes he can get her.

How many of us today follow God because of the benefits he has to offer?

Have you truly surrendered to his Lordship? Do your actions show to him how much you love him? Or is it only your mouth that announces to the world ‘I love Jesus?’

Do you Love him or lust after him?

I want to really appreciate you all for your prayers.

Someone asked me recently, how are you able to write all these? Do you see them on a dream or what.

Honestly, I don’t know how. But these stories come as I pray, observing my quiet time.

Sometimes I don’t know what to write, but as soon as I pick up my phone and start, a door just opens and the whole episode drops

Since I began this story last month I’ve been typing every single day non-stop.

Please, I want to solicit for your prayers for me. And your comments also.

Please be praying for me! I thank God for some of you who have been doing that, but please do more.

Everyday I type and type with my phone. It’s not been easy for me. Please support me with your prayers and comments

Don’t be a Ghost reader! Please!

God bless you

This write up blessed me.
God will bless you and enlarge your capacity.

Episode 27

“Mummy! First of all I want to apologize to you. I’m deeply sorry for all the struggles I’ve put you through! I’m not what you think I am. I am a filthy bag, filled with lies. I have so many cockroaches hidden in my cupboard. So many secrets I’ve kept from you”, I began.

She sighed and looked at me.

“Go on! I’m listening!”

I began my story from how I committed the sin against the body with Chris. How I lied he was born again and cooked up the dream that formed his convictions.

I had to pause to see the expression on her face. She wasn’t looking angry or sad either. Maybe she’s hiding her feelings.

I continued and narrated how I lied to her about my quiet time and proceeded to how she believed my lies.

For 35 seconds, she said nothing which got me scared.

“Is that all?” She asked.

“Yes! All ma! I’m truly sorry I decieved you!” I apologized.

“Cris! I had already forgiven you before you asked. I’m your mother for goodness sake. You are my daughter. Just because the child fell in the mud and got herself messed up doesn’t mean she’s going to lose her mother. A good Mom would get a bucket of water and clean up her child. She would wash her and change her clothes.

Just because the child got messed up in mid is not the end the the mother and daughter relationship! It’s even a great opportunity to show how much the mother cares for the child.

So knock it off Cris! I just don’t want to be a mother to you. I want to be the best mum in the world. I love you no matter what and I’ll always trust you! I know you’re thinking I’ll start suspecting every information you give me, whether it’s true or not! Rubbish!

Cris, you need to know what the bible calls unconditional love. I mean love that doesn’t have condition. You don’t need to be a good girl to receive it. You don’t need to lie to get a false impression and receive it. You receive it because the lover has chosen to love you no matter what”.

I bowed my head and wept. My mentor pulled out of the street and parked beside the road. Unbuckling her seat belt, she turned and faced me.

“Cris! You don’t earn unconditional love. You don’t behave yourself to receive it. You don’t have to be a good girl to have it. It’s grace! Unconditional love is well displayed when the person being loved goes astray. Cris! I didn’t love you because you are a good mentee. A faithful mentee or a mentee so easy to talk to. I love you because it is first a command from God and I must obey God whether my flesh likes it or not.

It’s just as your sister says. Love is spiritual! Love is more than emotions. Love is all about sacrifice”, she said and placed her hand on my shoulder tenderly.

“I’m so sorry!” I said admist tears.

“You never owed me an apology! Cris I have forgiven you long before now. So whatever confession you have is just to free your conscience. You don’t have to impress me with false quiet time reports to earn my love. I chose to love you no matter what”.

She pulled me to herself and leaned my head on her chest. She patted my back gently as I wept.

“It’s okay dear! I have one goal in my heart. One vision! One dream! And that is to see you feeding that crowd in your dream with the bread of life. I want to be there watching as you dish out that bread of life to your hungry generation. I want to be there watching you as you fulfill your destiny. I will never give up on you until God accomplish that in your life”.

Was this the woman I had been scared of opening up to? Was this what I had been scared of doing all these while? Look at how the Devil had enslaved me through fear? No this was purely wickedness. Satan had seriously wrecked my life. What was my offence? What did I do to the devil to deserve all these series of attacks?

“Your mission here on earth is enough to provoke him. Every person with a bright future on earth faced the same thing. Ask Moses what was his offence that Pharaoh was ready to kill all the Hebrew babies”.

“Hmmm! Cris you have started talking to yourself again!” I replied.

I drew out of my mentor’s grip and looked into her eyes.

“Mummy! I promise you one thing. You’ll be there to see it!” I said, eyes aglow with determination.

She smiled and nodded.

“Do you know how to achieve what you’ve just said?” She asked.

“I may not know how, but I won’t stop until what God had shown me becomes a reality”, I replied.

She smiled and nodded.

“I hope you’re not trying to impress me, because beginning from tomorrow you’ll start a 3 days marathon fast!”

I raised my eye brows in surprise.

“I was only joking!” She replied and burst into laughter.

I heaved a sigh of relief and smiled. But why did the word fasting, frighten me? Wasn’t I the one telling my mentor I was going to fulfill my destiny? Fasting to seek the face of God was one of the ways of accomplishing it. Why wasn’t I ready to do what it takes and fulfill my destiny as I had promised? Hmmm! When am l going to surrender to God completely?

She turned on the ignition and drove. I was completely silent all through the ride home. My mentor was also silent but soon, we arrived at the house.

We entered the house and met a lady seated comfortably on the sofa, a boy beside her. He should be in his early twenties. I saw their resemblance and noticed he was her son. He was a male version of his mother.

My mentor ran and hugged her. They started talking aloud, cheerfully. From they way they talked, I knew they had known each other from childhood.

“Oh before I forget! Please meet my daughter! One of my mentees! Christiana Kolapo!” She turned and pulled me closer.

“Cris! This is Mrs Susan George Oluwagbade. This is her son Anthony Oluwagbade!”

“Hi! Miss Cristina!” Anthony said and waved at me.

I wanted to respond but I quickly paused as I realized something. My mentor introduced me to them as Christiana. How did he know my real name? Or was that a mistake?

“Cristina! Is something wrong?” Mrs Oluwagbade asked as my expression wasn’t hidden.

“Nothing ma!” I quickly replied and looked at her, still wearing the same expression.

She also called me Cristina. Did I hear her wrongly or what? Who was this Susan of a woman? And who was her son?

“Come on girl! I know what nothing means. You have something to say but you can’t say it, so you say it’s nothing. But don’t worry, you are free to keep it to yourself!” She replied and turned to my mentor.

“I would love to see Sharona Tunde as well before I leave!” She said.

My mentor looked at her with the same shock on my face. Now it was clear what I was seeing was not made up. Who are these people?

“Who’s Sharona?” My mentor asked her.

“The lady who taught you those things you wrote down in your jotter some minutes ago”, she answered.

“Oh! You mean Sharon! Her name is Sharon!” My mentor answered.

“Ask her big sis!” She said and turned to resume her seat on the sofa.

My mentor turned to me with a questioning look.

“That’s her full name”, I answered.

She smiled and looked at her friend.

I looked at the boy and gave him the questioning look too.

He smiled and shrugged.

“How did you know my real name?” I asked.

“It’s on your forehead!” He said and turned to join his mother on the sofa.

I quickly touched my forehead to be sure I would find stains of chalk or marker on my hands.

My mentor started laughing at me.

“What?” I asked.

“I expect you to understand what is going on right now!” She replied.

“What is going on?” I asked.

She shook her head and turned to her friend.

“Tony, let’s go say hi to Joseph in his room. Susan! She’s all yours!” She said and took the boy by the hand and they both left.

I stood, eyes fixed on this strange woman. She looked at me and smiled.

“Please sit!” She said.

I quickly sat down, not taking my eyes off her.

“Did my mentor tell you about me?” I asked.

I was curious to know what was going on. How did she get to know about my sister and my real name.

“No! She only told me she was bringing one of her mentees to see me. And I told her to go ahead. That was all”, she answered.

Now I was more confused. Who is this woman? Was she a Prophetess or something?

“Cris! You’re sitting before a great general of the faith. A woman that conquered battles and won territories for God!” The inner voice said.

“Cris you have started again!” I said within me.

“Started what?”

“Talking to yourself!”

“Who told you that you are talking to yourself?” Came the gentle whisper.

“Please! I know I’m a great thinker. So don’t try to trick me!” I replied myself.

“Cris! That dream you spoke to your mentor about in the car is a great and demanding one”, she said.

My heart almost flew out of my chest. What’s going on here? Is this another Jesus telling me like the Samaritan woman everything I ever did? Please can someone help me? Who is Susan?

“Stop being scared! I know Sharona would be going back today so whatever message I have for her, I’ll send through you”, she said to my utmost surprise.

“Ma! Please don’t be offended. Who are you? Are you a prophet or something?” I asked.

She smiled and adjusted herself on the sofa.

“I’m Susan Oluwagbade. I’m a friend of your mentor. I guess that’s enough introduction”.

“Please ma! Are you a minister? Like a woman of God?” I asked.

“Cris! Whatever you think about me is yours. All you need to do is to ask God who I am!” She replied.

I looked at her with a confused look on my face.

“I don’t know how to hear from God!” I replied.

“I don’t understand! Don’t you speak with God one on one, chat with him like a friend chatting his or her bestie?” She asked.

“No!” I said and shook my head.

“Cris! But the Holy Spirit lives in you. You know that right?” She asked.

“Yes! Please ma! How do I hear the voice of God? I want to be talking with God the way you just said. Please help me! How can I hear the voice of God and know it is God talking?” I asked.

Susan smiled.

“I’ll teach you”.

To be continued………

Hmmm! Susan is back guys!

Honestly I wasn’t sure she would be back this early. I was expecting her to be back in THE GATEKEEPER, but the Lord instructed me to bring her into this story 😁😁😁😁

If you remember, Juliet and Robert, were among those who visited Susan after she gave birth to Anthony in the story SUSAN’S REVENGE.

That was in the last episode of the story

The question has been coming to my table alot.

How can I hear the voice of God?

Can God truely interact with man just like it happens in your stories?

Yes he can! Because that’s my daily experience.

So I brought Susan to teach us how to achieve this.

I really want that kind of relationship with God Susan has. I want to be interacting with God in a conversation.

Get ready
Grab your pen and jotter!

Episode 28

Susan smiled and looked at me without saying anything for about 3 minutes. I wondered what was happening.

Suddenly she clasped her hands and spoke.

“Hearing God’s voice is a topic that you cannot finish in one single day. But what I’ll do is to teach you the basics. I’ll teach you the principles to activating the voice of God. What are the first things to note about the voice of God?

Before we touch that, we want to talk about the human mind. That’s the place where all the hearing from God must first be addressed.

There are two powerful organs in your spirit man. The hearing organ and the speaking organ. That’s why from time to time, you would hear Jesus say. He that hath an ear let him hear what the spirit is saying. Note, he didn’t say ears, he said and ear.

That’s why it is written in Psalms 62:11. God hath spoken once; twice have I heard this; that power belongeth unto God.

Your spirit hears and talks. Now that’s for the spirit of man. That’s not where we are heading. But I want you to have that information at the back of your mind. Your spirit hears and your spirit talks.

Now the human mind is the center of all the work. The world and everything in it is the product of the ideas in a human mind. But can I shock you?” She asked.

I looked at her and gave a nod. I had no idea where she was headed.

“You are not a thinker! You are a listener! Do you understand what I just said?” She asked.

Of course I don’t understand. I don’t understand everything she’s saying.

“Listen! Every thought that comes to the heart of a human being is a product of the whispers of a spirit. You can never have a thought in your heart except it is being dropped in your heart by a spirit. No thought ever come to the heart of a man until a spirit being approached and begins to engage the man in a discussion”.

I was looking at her with shock written all over my face.

“Let me cite an example. A young man sits down here, probably waiting for a friend to come pick him up. Suddenly, a girl looking so seductive passes. As a Christian, he quickly turns his face or shuts his eyes to prevent his mind from registering her image in his heart. Suddenly, a thought comes telling him to turn and take a look at the seductive lady. Come on its just a glance. It won’t hurt. Just look at her one last time.

Excuse me! Who is whispering that thought into his heart?”

“The devil!” I answered. Shocked by the revelation I was finally getting.

“Good! There are only two sources of information in the realm of the spirit. It’s either you’re listening to the spirit of God or an unclean spirit. If the spirit giving you thoughts is not the Holy Spirit. Then, it is an unclean spirit. There are no two ways about it. It’s either one of them. Because while the young man is considering taking a look at the seductive lady. Another thought comes tell him that he’s a temple of the Holy Spirit. That he shouldn’t give the devil a chance. Excuse me, who is feeding his mind with that thought?”

“The Holy Spirit!” I answered smiling.

“That’s wonderful! So your thoughts are not a product of your mind. They are only a product of why your mind hears from a spirit. You don’t know this and that is why when God is talking we don’t realize it.

Have you ever experienced something like this? You were worried, you were thinking on what to do then one mind or something suddenly told me to do it like this! Have you ever made such a statement in your life before?” She asked.

“Yes!” I answered.

“You keep telling yourself that you’re the one thinking. You conclude you’re giving yourself a lecture or something. No! You’re actually listening to the voice of either God or the devil. Your thoughts are only whispers. Your spirit only listens to whatever they are saying.

Have you ever experienced this? A thought suddenly drops in your heart that your sister would soon be here! While you are still arguing with that thought God gave you, your sister walks in. That’s how it operates. But one thing I want you to know is this, you’re not a thinker, you’re only a listener.

When this is at the back of your mind, you wouldn’t joke with your thoughts. You would pay close attention to it. Your job I’d to identify who is speaking and trust me, the speaker is not always difficult to be identified.

You would know when you’re listening to Satan and you would also know when God is the one talking. How? God always have this kind of peace that follows whatever he says. You would not be able to deny it’s his voice. There’s this knowing in your spirit that cannot be explained. You don’t know how, but you know.

That’s why you can be deep in thoughts and then, the Holy Spirit would tell you to open a particular bible verse. Was that your own doing. Remember this scripture.
John 15:5b, for without me ye can do nothing.

That’s true with your thoughts. Even the sinner needs to listen to the Holy Spirit to get convicted of his sins and repent. And all these communication take place in the inner man. That’s the inner voice sis.

It looks as if someone is there speaking to you, but not with an audible voice. You can’t hear it with your ears, but you hear with your mind. You don’t hear this voice with your ears. Although it grows from that realm to a realm where you can hear it physically, but that’s the starting point.

How do you hear the voice of God? You start by asking questions. Rebecca was pregnant with twins and every time the babies fought with each other in her womb. The bible said, she asked God what was going on. And God gave her a response. The best way to hear from God is to ask him questions.

As you read the bible, you don’t understand what you read. Just use your spiritual vocal cords to ask within you. What is the meaning of this passage? Immediately, you start hearing a response from within. It’s not you talking to yourself. It’s the Holy Spirit talking to you. Through that inner voice. All you have to do is listen.

Sometimes you ask and you don’t get a response. There are two reasons behind it. One is that you’re scared. Fear is a powerful weapon in the hands of the devil. He uses it to defeat his victim even before the battle starts. Don’t be scared. Am I sure this is God? Looks like Susan is decieving me. Or probably I’m listening to the voice of a demon?

You don’t need to entertain that thought. They are Satan’s schemes to block you from hearing from God. Whenever you don’t do anything with faith backing it up, God is not happy. Because the bible says, without faith, it is impossible to make God happy. That’s in the book of Hebrews.

Do you remember how you got baptized in the Holy Ghost? I always desired to be baptized in the Holy Ghost, but I never knew I was the one blocking it from happening.

Why? I was expecting the Holy Spirit to descend on me as I prayed. I was expecting him to suddenly force my mouth open and I’ll start speaking in tongues. I was expecting him to suddenly push me on the floor so I’ll start rolling and blasting in tongues.

I would kneel down and ask God to baptize me with the Holy Spirit. I would keep praying and praying and nothing happens. Why? As I was praying, I was hearing in my spirit, ‘open your mouth and speak!’. I was wondering what I was going to say. As I prayed, I could hear tongues in my spirit. That inner voice was already speaking in tongues within me. The Holy Spirit wanted it to pass from my spirit to the physical. I was scared that was not how it’s supposed to be. I’m making it up myself. Those tongues are probably something I’ve heard somewhere and was only reciting them. I could hear the tongues within me, but I thought it was my mind playing tricks on me.

I continued to struggle untill one day, a scripture confronted me. Open thy mouth and I will fill it. I decided to give it a try and began the lines. I never knew all I needed to do was to start. He took over completely.

I don’t know how the lines kept coming. As I’m done with what I’m saying, another line of spiritual vocabulary pops up in my mind. That’s how I discovered I had been the one doubting God when he had been there all along. God had been communicating with me, but I didn’t understand. That’s exactly what you have been doing.

He has been speaking with you, but you have not been paying attention. And why? You conclude it’s your mind doing the thinking. I want us to try something right now. Are you ready?” She asked me.

“I’m ready!” I said and nodded.

“I want you to do a little practical right now. Ask the Holy Spirit a question using that inner voice. Ask him, do you love me? Immediately, you’ll hear him replying you. Stop thinking it’s your mind talking. A man cannot receive anything on earth except it is been give from above. So go ahead and say it. Do you love me? Tell me whatever he tells you “, she said and bowed her head.

I looked at her and knew she meant what she was saying. She shut my eyes also and asked within myself.

“Lord! Do you love me?”

Instantly, I could hear that gentle whisper. That whisper I had always heard and called my imagination. That voice that whispered peace onto my soul. That voice that made me know when I was doing something wrong. That voice that gave me instructions several times and I ignored, thinking it was all my imagination.

“Cris! I’ve always loved you. I love you so much that I didn’t give up on you all these while. You wanted your own way and chose the path to destruction, but I rescued you out of love. You don’t know how much you mean to me! I love you Cris and I’m ready to teach you all you need to know to fulfill your purpose.

Walk with me! Obey me! Don’t run away from me because of the rigours that confronts you. I’ll give you grace, sufficient grace to overcome all the hardships. I’ll give you the grace to deny yourself and carry your cross. You’re not the worst Christin on earth! You’re my one and only Cristina! And I love you so much!”

I couldn’t explain what I was feeling. I felt peace and joy within me. I knew this was not my mind consoling me. It was the person of the Holy Spirit communicating with me through my spirit within me.

“So what did he say?” Susan asked.

I smiled.

To be continued……

Romans 8:16 The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God:

That’s the communication channel between your spirit and the spirit of God.

This was one of my greatest desire when I got born again. I want God to speak to me audibly. I kept telling those around to show me how. Untill a particular brother taught me how to listen to the inaudible voice of the Holy Spirit.

We would be learning alot through the life of Christiana, so get ready to put everything you learn into practice.

Episode 29

Susan stood up and started leaving.

“Ma where are you going?” I asked.

“He says he wants to be with you alone. He wants me to excuse you!” She said with a warm smile and left.

“Lord! What is it?” I asked the inner voice.

“GET YOUR BIBLE!”

“Hmmmmm! Cris! You’re speaking to yourself!” The thought came. But this time I understood the speaker.

Wow! So was this how the Devil had been cheating me? Each time I heard God, I concluded it was my mind talking. Thank God for this woman.

“Cris! Susan decieved you! you’re listening to the voice of a demon!” Came that arrogant and fearful voice.

“Are you telling me a demon would tell me to carry my Bible? You demon of doubt, I rebuke you in the name of Jesus!” I said authoritatively and the voice went off.

I was wowed by the act. If it was a thought, how could I address it as a demon, command it and it obeyed me? I’ve seriously received a life transforming teaching today.

I opened my Bible and was listening to any instruction from the spirit within. Non came, so I continued flipping the pages.

I didn’t hear a voice, but as soon as I arrived at a particular passage. I felt strongly in my spirit that it was the place I am to read.

So I began.

“Numbers 14:1. And all the congregation lifted up their voice, and cried; and the people wept that night.

Verse 2. And all the children of Israel murmured against Moses and against Aaron: and the whole congregation said unto them, Would God that we had died in the land of Egypt! or would God we had died in this wilderness!

Verse 3. And wherefore hath the LORD brought us unto this land, to fall by the sword, that our wives and our children should be a prey? were it not better for us to return into Egypt?

Verse 4. And they said one to another, Let us make a captain, and let us return into Egypt.

Verse 5. Then Moses and Aaron fell on their faces before all the assembly of the congregation of the children of Israel.

Verse 6. And Joshua the son of Nun, and Caleb the son of Jephunneh, which were of them that searched the land, rent their clothes:

Verse 7. And they spake unto all the company of the children of Israel, saying, The land, which we passed through to search it, is an exceeding good land.

Verse 8. If the LORD delight in us, then he will bring us into this land, and give it us; a land which floweth with milk and honey.

Verse 9. Only rebel not ye against the LORD, neither fear ye the people of the land; for they are bread for us: their defence is departed from them, and the LORD is with us: fear them not.

Verse 10. But all the congregation bade stone them with stones. And the glory of the LORD appeared in the tabernacle of the congregation before all the children of Israel”,

“STOP!” I heard from within my spirit.

I paused and asked.

“Lord! What are you saying?”

“CRIS! THE ENTIRE NATION OF ISRAEL WERE READY TO KILL MOSES AND AARON AND APPOINT A NEW LEADER. THEY WERE READY TO STONE THEM TO DEATH. OVER 6 HUNDRED THOUSAND MEN LEFT EGYPT FOR THE PROMISED LAND. ONLY TWO GOT THERE”.

“Hmmmmm! Lord what does that mean?” I asked as I brought out my jotter and began to jot down those words.

“IT MEANS WHEN IT COMES TO FULFILLING DESTINY AND PURPOSE, ONLY SO FEW IN NUMBER ACTUALLY PAY THE PRICE. CRIS! JUST LOOK AT THE AUDIENCE THAT DECIDED TO SPECTATORS? SIX HUNDRED THOUSAND MEN BESIDES WOMEN AND CHILDREN SAID THEY CANNOT FULFILL PURPOSE. ONLY TWO MEN OUT OF THE THOUSANDS OF MEN ON EARTH PAIR THE PRICE AND FULFILLED THEIR PURPOSE”.

I bowed my head and sighed. I remembered how I got scared when my mentor threatened I was going on a marathon fast for 3 days. And I knew very well that fasting to seek God’s face concerning my destiny is very important. Why was I scared of doing it? This thing would help my spiritual life, but that was what I dreaded the most. God why is it so difficult?

“THE ROAD TO HEAVEN WILL ALWAYS REMAIN A NARROW ROAD. I BELIEVE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT THE WORD NARROW MEANS. IF YOU’RE NOT READY TO GO THE NARROW WAY, PLEASE ENJOY THE BROADWAY. ITS NOT A PLACE FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT READY TO TAKE GOD SERIOUS. CRIS! THAT’S WHY THE BIBLE SAYS YOU DON’T FIND A CROWD THERE. YOU ONLY FIND A FEW DETERMINED PEOPLE THERE. PEOPLE WHO ARE READY TO GO THE EXTRA MILE. PEOPLE WHO ARE LIKE CALEB.

“Lord! What made Caleb so different? What made Joshua and Caleb completely different from the crowd. Is it just their determination or was there something more to it?” I asked.

“CONTINUE FROM VERSE 20!”

“Numbers 14:20. And the LORD said, I have pardoned according to thy word:

Verse 21. But as truly as I live, all the earth shall be filled with the glory of the LORD.

Verse 22. Because all those men which have seen my glory, and my miracles, which I did in Egypt and in the wilderness, and have tempted me now these ten times, and have not hearkened to my voice;

Verse 23. Surely they shall not see the land which I sware unto their fathers, neither shall any of them that provoked me see it:

Verse 24. But my servant Caleb, because he had another spirit with him, and hath followed me fully, him will I bring into the land whereinto he went; and his seed shall possess it”.

I stopped and sighed. Then a scripture I had once read started replaying in my mind.

“Ezekiel 36:26. A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.

Verse 27. And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.

Verse 28. And ye shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and ye shall be my people, and I will be your God.

“CRIS! THERE WAS A DIFFERENT SPIRIT IN CALEB AND UNTIL THERE IS A DIFFERENT SPIRIT IN YOU! YOU WILL CONTINUE TO STRUGGLE TO DO MY WILL. BUT THERE’S A SECOND THING TO TAKE NOTE OF. BECAUSE YOU ALREADY HAVE A DIFFERENT SPIRIT IN YOU, WHICH IS MY HOLY SPIRIT. BUT DO YOU NOTICE THE SECOND INGREDIENT?”

“No sir!” I replied.

“READ VERSE 24!”

“But my servant Caleb, because he had another spirit with him, and hath followed me fully……”

“STOP!”

I quickly paused.

“HE FOLLOWED ME HOW?”

“He followed you fully!”

“CRIS! HE FOLLOWED ME HOW?”

“He followed you fully!”

“CRIS! CALEB FOLLOWED ME HOW?”

Tears prickled my eyes.

“Lord! He followed you with all his heart!”

“THAT WAS WHAT MADE THE DIFFERENCE. CRIS, MANY YEARS AGO, THERE WAS A SONG YOUR FATHERS IN THE FAITH USED TO SING.

I SURRENDER ALL
I SURRENDER ALL
ALL TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOUR
I SURRENDER ALL!

TODAY, YOUR GENERATION BY THEIR ATTITUDE TOWARDS ME, HAVE CONVERTED THAT SONG TO THIS!

I SURRENDER SOME
I SURRENDER SOME
SOME TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOUR
I SURRENDER SOME!”

I couldn’t control my tears anymore.

“Lord we are sorry! Lord! We give you everything!” I said.

“STOP GIVING ME EVERYTHING! THERE’S A BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GIVING AND SURRENDER. A SOLDIER CAN GIVE YOU HIS WEAPON. BUT WHEN A SOLDIER SURRENDER HIS WEAPONS, THERE’S A BIG DIFFERENCE.

A SOLDIER CAN GIVE YOU HIS GUN, BUT HIDE A PISTOL IN HIS TROUSERS. BUT WHEN A SOLDIER SURRENDERS, HE WILLINGLY DROPS EVERY SINGLE WEAPON HE CARRYS

CRIS! A SOLDIER SURRENDERS WHEN HE KNOWS FULLY WELL THAT HE CANNOT DEFEAT THE PERSON HE’S FIGHTING AGAINST. HA! CRIS! FOR HOW LONG WILL YOU CONTINUE TO FIGHT AGAINST THE MIGHTY MAN OF WAR?”

I broke into tears and dropped to my knees.

“Lord I’m sorry!”

“SURRENDER CRIS! SURRENDER! DROP EVERY SINGLE WEAPON IN YOUR HANDS. I WANT EVERYTHING! DROP THAT DESIRE TO DO YOUR OWN WILL! DROP THAT LOVE FOR THE PLEASURES OF SIN! DROP THAT LYING TO GET WHAT YOU NEED! DROP THAT IMMORALITY! I WANT EVERYTHING!”

I laid prostrate on the floor and wept with all my strength.

“I never knew I was fighting against the God that has never lost a battle. I am so sorry Lord! I was a fool! Lord I surrender! Yes Lord! Pick anything you want in my life! Demand for anything you want from me! I’ll drop it in a jiffy! I want to be like Caleb, who followed you with all his heart. I don’t want to follow you because of the manna I eat everyday and the water I drink from the rock.

Please Lord! Give me a new heart and a new spirit. Uproot the heart of stone from within me and give me the heart of flesh. Give me the heart that cannot be hardened towards you. A heart that loves you genuinely!” I prayed and began to blast in tongues.

As I prayed, I sense goose bumps on my skin. I noticed a strong presence in the sitting room. My legs and hands began to shake on their own. They shook so violently that I found myself screaming. I rolled from one end of the to the other.

Soon, everyone in the house was with me in the sitting room.

“Yes Lord! Change her heart! This heart is too strong for you! Change her heart and make her just like you! Change her heart!” My mentor prayed.

I kept screaming as I felt a sharp pain in my chest. What was going on? The pain got so intense that I was becoming violent.

“Yes Lord! Circumcise her heart. Cut off the foreskin of her heart. Let there be a total transformation in her life today!” She prayed.

I didn’t know when I passed out.

To be continued…….

Lord I give you my heart
I give you my soul
I live for you alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I’m awake
Lord have your way in me!

Can you go ahead and tell Jesus to have his way.

Enough struggling with this God! Surrender! Drop your weapons.

Sister, he has a better plan for you! Throw away your plans and follow him completely.

No man that ever gave his all to Jesus stood and announced to the world that he regretted it.

What makes you think you are going to regret it?

I wrote this episode with tears in my eyes.

It’s time for total surrender. Drop everything!

Episode 30

My alarm rang but I wasn’t ready to answer it. I rolled on the bed and reached for it. I quickly put it off and covered myself with the blanket very well.

“Look at this girl oooo!” That was what I heard before a painful slap greeted me on my thighs.

“Jesus!” I shouted and sat up.

Susan was giving me a stern look. I had to call my driver to bring Tina when I woke up. But I wasn’t ready to leave this great woman of God, so I spent the night at my mentor’s house.

We talked and talked about alot of things till it became late. Joseph and Anthony shared the same room while I was so privileged to share the visitor’s room with Susan.

I was still looking at Susan when suddenly, it was getting dark. I drifted into another round of sleep while sitting up on the bed.

What woke me up was a hot slap on my thighs.

“Jesus!” I screamed.

“Call that name very well oooo! You have the guts to sleep abi?” Susan said angrily.

“Mummy! I’m sorry! I’m so tired right now!” I said, rubbing my hurting thighs to ease the pain.

“So tired? If this house was on fire, would you remain in bed claiming you’re tired? Won’t you jump out of your beauty sleep and look for a way out of the fire?” She asked.

I didn’t know if I answered her. All I knew was that I heard the question, but my heavy eyes did not allow me remember to give her an answer.

It was another slap on the same place on my thighs that brought me back.

“Mummy Susan!” I shouted as it landed on me.

“By the time I’m done with you! You’ll be shouting grandma Susan!” She said sarcastically and made to hit me again. I quickly ran out of the bed but fell on the floor.

“Get up!” She shouted as she rushed to meet me.

I quickly rose to my feet. My eyes were completely alert right now.

” I said, If this house was on fire, would you remain in bed claiming you’re tired? Won’t you jump out of your beauty sleep and look for a way out of the fire?” She asked.

“Yes ma! I would get up and escape from the fire!” I replied, still rubbing my thighs.

“Cris! Your destiny is under attack and you’re busy sleeping, telling yourself you’re tired! Cris! You’re lucky I’m in a good mood. Your mentor is very gentle! I would have beaten you so much that, anytime your alarm rings and you’re still in bed, it’s my face you’ll remember.

“I’m sorry mummy!” I apologized and bent my knees slightly.

“Where will the strength to get up and run for your life come from?” She asked.

“I’m sorry ma!”

“Listen to me! Tiredness is a thing of the mind! What did I say?”

“Tiredness is a thing of the mind!” I answered.

“If you allow the devil tell you that you’re tired, then you’ll be crippled by tiredness. But if you refused to agree with him and rise up to pray, then you’ll discover that those feelings were demonic schemes to keep you prayer less. Satan will always and never stop trying to make believers prayerless. Your destiny is under attack and you’re here sleeping. There’s a battle for your soul in the realm of the spirit and you’re sleeping.

What kind of demonic sleep is that? Who told you that you’re tired. An evil spirit is busy whispering into your ears to go back to sleep and you’re nodding in agreement. Cris! This is 3:30am. I want to come back here and meet you praying or studying the Bible or else! I will beat spiritual lukewarmness out of you this morning. You don’t want to be hot abi? We’ll force you to be hot! For your information, you cannot be cold! So start consoling your lukewarm nature. She’s in the wrong hands”, she said and walked out of the room.

I stood watching. Did Mummy Susan beat me up like a kid? At least, as a woman of God, she’s not supposed to cause me physical pain.

“I WOULD HAVE DONE MORE THAN THAT IF SHE HADN’T INTERVENED”.

“Ha! Lord I’m sorry! But she’s a woman of God na! She’s not supposed to treat me like this!”

“FOR THE LORD CHASTISES WHOM HE LOVES AND CORRECTS THEM THAT ARE SO DEAR TO HIM! DOES THAT ANSWER YOUR QUESTION?”

I nodded.

“SO CAN WE START?”

“Yes sir!” I replied still rubbing my thighs.

“Nawa ooo! This woman of God slap dey pain ooo!” I said within me.

“NA HIM GOOD FOR YOU! SLEEPI SLEEPI!”

I wanted to laugh but witheld myself from doing so. I knew God as a God that meant complete business. I don’t think he has the time to watch me laugh when it was time for serious prayers. I need to act very serious if I must spend quality time with him or get his attention.

“CRIS! YOU CAN PRETEND WITH ANYONE OUT THERE, BUT NEVER TRY IT WITH ME! I CAN SEE YOUR THOUGHTS VERY WELL! WHO DO YOU WANT TO IMPRESS BY BONNING YOUR FACE?”

“Would you prefer me laughing when I’m in a battlefield?”I asked.

“STOP PRETENDING TO BE SPIRITUAL! LAUGHING, SMILING AND TALKING WHEN YOU’RE IN THE PRESENCE OF YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER IS NOT CARNALITY”.

Immediately, a scripture popped up in my mind.

“Psalms 16:11. Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fullness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore”.

“SO STOP THE PRETENCE AND HAVE FUN IN MY PRESENCE! SMILE LIKE YOU WOULD WHEN A FRIEND SAYS SOMETHING FUNNY. LAUGH WHEN SOMETHING TICKLES YOUR SENSE OF HUMOUR. AND EXPRESS YOUR EXCITEMENT WHEN YOU’RE HAPPY!”

“Okay sir!” I replied and began with worship songs. Soon I found myself praying in tongues.

“NOW CARRY YOUR BIBLE!” Came the gentle whisper.

“Yes Lord!” I said and rounded up the prayers.

I looked at the clock on the wall and realized I had prayed for one hour. I was surprised. It had been long I was able to do so.

I sat down and opened the bible.

“Where Lord?” I asked, flipping the pages.

“OPEN TO SONGS OF SOLOMON! START FROM CHAPTER TWO”

I opened and arrived at the place and started reading.

“I am the rose of Sharon, and the lily of the valleys.

Verse 2. As the lily among thorns, so is my love among the daughters.

Verse 3. As the apple tree among the trees of the wood, so is my beloved among the sons. I sat down under his shadow with great delight, and his fruit was sweet to my taste.

Verse 4. He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love.

Verse 5. Stay me with flagons, comfort me with apples: for I am sick of love.

Verse 6. His left hand is under my head, and his right hand doth embrace me”.

“CRIS YOUR ARE RUSHING THIS BIBLE! ARE YOU LATE FOR WORK?”

“No! I answered.

“THEN WHY ARE YOU RUSHING ME? CALM DOWN AND LET’S ENJOY THIS BREAD OF LIFE TOGETHER!”

“I’m sorry Lord!”

“I NEED YOU TO READ JUST TWO VERSES. FIRST, READ VERSE ONE!”

“I am the rose of Sharon, and the lily of the valleys”.

“SOLOMON CALLED ME THE ROSE OF SHARON. WHAT NAME ARE YOU GOING TO CALL ME?”

I was dumbfounded. What was he referring to?

“CRIS! EVERY PERSON ON EARTH WHO SERVED ME HAD A SPECIAL NAME THEY CALLED ME. ABRAHAM CALLED ME JEHOVAH JIREH. JACOB CALLED ME EL ELOHE ISRAEL. SO WHAT ABOUT YOU? WHERE’S MY PET NAME?”

I was almost laughing, but held it again.

“WHO ARE YOU BONNING FACE FOR? WHY ARE YOU ACTING SPIRITUAL? WAIT OH! CRIS ARE YOU MORE SPIRITUAL THAN ME?”

“No ooo! How can I be more spiritual than God? God forbid!”

“SO WHERE’S MY PET NAME?”

“I don’t have any pet name in mind. I don’t have pet name for you! You are the Lord of the universe. Henceforth, I’ll call you Lord. Because you are the Lord of my life”, I replied.

“THAT’S TOO FORMAL! I WANT SOMETHING INTIMATE AND STIMULATING. SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME SMILE ONCE YOU MENTION IT”.

I was completely shocked by everything that was going on. Am I sure it’s God that is talking like a lover boy or is my mind playing tricks on me?

“SO YOU ARE STILL DOUBTING ME? YOU’RE STILL THINKING IT’S YOUR MIND THAT’S PLAYING TRICKS ON YOU? HA! CRIS KNEEL DOWN!”

I was more confused. Do you mean God was playing like this or what?

“I’M WAITING FOR YOU!”

“Lord I’m sorry!” I replied with a smile on my face.

“WOW! IS THAT MY BABY GIRL SMILING? YOU’RE LOOKING SO BEAUTIFUL! MY PRETTY EBONY!”

Oh my goodness! I was blushing right now. I have heard single ladies call God their boyfriend. I never knew it was real. I was feeling loved and on top of the world. No wonder he’s called a father to the fatherless, mother to the motherless and husband to the single lady.

Chai! Quiet time had never been this sweet before. I’m never going to miss it again.

“SO, DO YOU HAVE A PET NAME FOR ME?”

“Emmmm! Can I call you my Sweet Dad!”

“WHAT?” I heard and felt my stomach vibrating within me.

I could hear him laughing. They vibration in my stomach was so overwhelming. Wait do you mean God laughs? Hmmm! You cannot know all about him in one day. This is strange, but so exciting. I was just smiling like a girl in love.

“Do you like the name?” I asked within me.

“LIKE IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT! I LOVE THE NAME!”

I started giggling.

“MUMMY SUSAN WOULD SOON BE HERE!”

“Really?”

“YES! SHE ONLY WANTS TO CHECK ON YOU!”

“I’m not sure she’s coming. I don’t think anyone is coming here anytime soon!’ I was still trying to agree with that thought when the door flung open and Susan walked in.

I looked at her with a smile on my face. She smiled at me and nodded.

“You’ve started your love gist! Let me not interrupt your nice time”, she said and turned to leave.

“Mummy! I don’t understand! He’s talking to me as if he’s my boyfriend! Can God talk like that?”

“If that’s against his nature then why are you reading the songs of Solomon?”

I was shocked and looked at the bible on my laps. It was closed. So how did she know what I was reading?”

The shock was still on my face when she said,

“Rose of Sharon!”

“Mummy! How did you know what I was reading this morning?”

She smiled and turned to leave.

I stood up and ran after her. I knelt down and held her night gown.

“Mummy please! I need this anointing! I want to carry a double portion of your super powers and abilities!”

I had not finished talking but something told me I was going to be turned down. Actually, not something but my new boyfriend.

To be continued…..

One day in school, I was charging my phone and discovered my phone charger got bad. I was so unhappy because I knew I didn’t have money for a new one.

I was so worried, but daddy told me not to worry that he was going to get me a new charger.

This inner voice asked me how much I had left? I was left with 600 naira. He told me not to worry that I should go to the place where electronic devices were sold.

As I got there, he told me to enter a particular shop. I got there and asked for a charger. The one that was brought was one thousand, five hundred.

I was like, what should I do? He said I should give the lady the money with me and tell her that’s all I have. That was how I left with the charger

I was surprised beyond words. From that day on, I nicknamed him My invisible Daddy!

So what’s your nickname for God?

Abraham called him Jehovah Jireh when he provided a lamb for the burnt offering.

David called him the Lord of hosts, when he faced Goliath.

What about you?

Anyway Sha! By the time I’m done with Cris! She would be shouting grandma Susan.

Tiredness is a thing of the mind

Hmmm! I learnt that from my mentor. Believe me! Once you agree you’re tired. You’ll be tired.

But if you hump out of that blanket and tell yourself,

“Let the weak say I am strong!”

Numbers 14:28 Say unto them, As truly as I live, saith the LORD, as ye have spoken in mine ears, so will I do to you: