I just need a place to rant. The words that kept ringing in my head since yesterday was "I'm finished" though I tried to fight that I'm not. It's barely 24 hours since my mother's death. Who could have imagined that the person I was teasing and joking with barely 24 hours ago is no more.

PS:Moderators I don't want this on FP please

orphaned:
I just need a place to rant. The words that kept ringing in my head since yesterday was "I'm finished" though I tried to fight that I'm not. It's barely 24 hours since my mother's death. Who could have imagined that the person I was teasing and joking with barely 24 hours ago is no more.

PS:Moderators I don't want this on FP please

Life is what it is..
Take heart and be strong.
God will help you.

Most of the emotions I felt yesterday was just anger. The tears started to flow in this morning and I can't cry in front of my two younger siblings. They were the ones crying yesterday, and they appear stronger than I am this morning. I just decided to come here and just let the emotions out.

My anger was mainly due to the fact that I've always told her about taking care of her health - she was hypertensive. She suddenly slumped yesterday morning, she was to go to a wedding. It felt like I was doing too much and I was restricting her. In truth, she had a point, its been 3 years since my dad's death, and just being idle would probably compound her problems. She engaged in different activities to keep herself busy.

I'm at this point of not believing in any higher power no more. My mum was super prayerful damn. She still led the home prayers less than 24 hours ago! She's always in church for one activity or the other. We've had a lot of prayers, a lot of them. My belief in relegion is probably at 1% right now. Trust me, I've heard a lot, Ive prayed a lot but it's just me everyday with my own problems to contend with in a seemingly never ending cycle
I can't believe I am doing this again.

My dad's death took me apart, but I was composed all through to his burial, because he taught me to be strong. (We had earlier lost my immediate brother many years back to an accident) which I was fortunate to come out of, alive but in pieces.

The crowd of mourners I've started to troop in, and it's the Greetings that makes it worse, I really didn't imagine this week would turn out like this

Unfortunately time can't be reversed. It feels unreal. Like a terrible dream. Like a really terrible dream. Im barely holding myself together. I feared this moment, I really did wtf

Take heart, bro.
Such is life.

Sorry my dear, take heart

I'm sorry for your loss dear
I can't imagine losing my mother now, especially as there are still dependants with her. Are your siblings over 18?

God is real my dear, and he doesn't give us more than what we can handle. It was just your mother's time. God has His reasons for everything, and being carnally-minded can sometimes make it hard for people to see those reasons.

One can never really get over the death of one's parents. One can only learn to live with it. Be strong okay

Ebonygeek:
I'm sorry for your loss dear
I can't imagine losing my mother now, especially as there are still dependants with her. Are your siblings over 18?

God is real my dear, and he doesn't give us more than what we can handle. It was just your mother's time. God has His reasons for everything, and being carnally-minded can sometimes make it hard for people to see those reasons.

One can never really get over the death of one's parents. One can only learn to live with it. Be strong okay

One is 18, the other 20. Both female

The emotional stress I went through during my Dad's burial, its just unfortunate I have to go through it again. She told me to buy a gift for her last week and fortunately I did and she was so grateful. Now I here I am, wishing I did more. Everyone is in a state of shock, it will soon start sinking in.

My siblings are the one encouraging me to eat when it's meant to be the other way round.

orphaned:
I just need a place to rant. The words that kept ringing in my head since yesterday was "I'm finished" though I tried to fight that I'm not. It's barely 24 hours since my mother's death. Who could have imagined that the person I was teasing and joking with barely 24 hours ago is no more.

PS:Moderators I don't want this on FP please

it is never easy hard times make us strong, good times give us memory. Sorry for your loss i feel ur pain but you have to be strong and continue life with ur siblings

annayawchee:
Life is what it is..
Take heart and be strong.
God will help you.

ChybuzzDD:
Take heart, bro.
Such is life.

Foreverme5221:
Sorry my dear, take heart

izonborn098:
it is never easy hard times make us strong, good times give us memory. Sorry for your loss i feel ur pain but you have to be strong and continue life with ur siblings

Sincerely appreciate

Be strong bro and look after your kid sisters

I don’t know what to say, what does one say in this situation?

I hated the “I’m sorry for your loss” mantra when I was in your shoes. I felt better when I was told that the pain never goes but you become stronger to bear the weight of it. You do become stronger and you will find a way to keep going.

May God console you and grand your mother eternal rest in the Bossom of the Lord. Pls don't dwell too much on the pains of transition because it's impossible to get over the death of a parent. I pray God gives you the strength to live with it. My condolence and please be strong.

VTJN:
Be strong bro and look after your kid sisters

Amen

Brandiebird:
I don’t know what to say, what does one say in this situation?

I hated the “I’m sorry for your loss” mantra when I was in your shoes. I felt better when I was told that the pain never goes but you become stronger to bear the weight of it. You do become stronger and you will find a way to keep going.

It's crazy really, I don't even know how to feel but sympathy makes me more emotional. Thank you

Talk2Suzan:
May God console you and grand your mother eternal rest in the Bossom of the Lord. Pls don't dwell too much on the pains of transition because it's impossible to get over the death of a parent. I pray God gives you the strength to live with it. My condolence and please be strong.
I'll love to have a conversation with, if you may connect with T2S in the link in my bio.

Amen thanks

orphaned:

It's crazy really, I don't even know how to feel but sympathy makes me more emotional. Thank you

The fact that you’re not in shock and that you’re trying to process your emotions is so incredible. Everything you feel is normal and healthy, so keep at it.

orphaned:

One is 18, the other 20. Both female

Still very young
Please make them understand the need to be careful so that guys won't take advantage of them.

They need a role model that they can look up to my dear. And now the mantle has fallen on you. You need to show them how to live. Otherwise, they'll get themselves into bad situations. There's darkness in this world

It is well...may God rest your departed folks well and give you guys the fortitude to bear the loss. Meanwhile, please it's ok to cry. It will help ease your heart. It is well.

Ebonygeek:

Still very young
Please make them understand the need to be careful so that guys won't take advantage of them.

They need a role model that they can look up to my dear. And now the mantle has fallen on you. You need to show them how to live. Otherwise, they'll get themselves into bad situations. There's darkness in this world

Yeah I'll try they got a lot of pep talk after Dad's own - from myself and also Mum. The older one was the one even forcing me to eat this morning. Once I cry enough I guess I'll fair better. I'm just trying to bottle everything with people flocking around me

sisisioge:
It is well...may God rest your departed folks well and give you guys the fortitude to bear the loss. Meanwhile, please it's ok to cry. It will help ease your heart. It is well.

Thank you

orphaned:


Thank you

Hey, how are you doing today?

Brandiebird:


Hey, how are you doing today?

Thanks for the concern. Today I think I'm better emotionally I just spent time doing other things so I won't be caught idle. My siblings however, one of them almost got sick but she's had to rest now and she's better. Still feels unreal though but I'm taking each day as it comes

orphaned:

Thanks for the concern. Today I think I'm better emotionally I just spent time doing other things so I won't be caught idle. My siblings however, one of them almost got sick but she's had to rest now and she's better. Still feels unreal though but I'm taking each day as it comes

I’m glad to hear that. The feelings might hit you in waves so use this thread when you’re feeling overwhelmed and let it out. I wish you and your siblings peace and comfort.

May God comfort you and your siblings. It is well with you 🙏

You will be fine. Let the cry come out... At least you have some experience with Dads own..

Makeorbreak:
You will be fine. Let the cry come out... At least you have some experience with Dads own..

Thank you

ecolime:
May God comfort you and your siblings. It is well with you 🙏

Amen

Brandiebird:


I’m glad to hear that. The feelings might hit you in waves so use this thread when you’re feeling overwhelmed and let it out. I wish you and your siblings peace and comfort.

I appreciate

Life indeed is unpredictable. It is like a vapour. Please take heart and be strong for your sisters.

Pls accept my condolences.

Desire18:
Life indeed is unpredictable. It is like a vapour. Please take heart and be strong for your sisters.

Pls accept my condolences.

I have no choice right now. I just feel pity for everyone that has to go through this. Its not a good thing at all

orphaned:

I have no choice right now. I just feel pity for everyone that has to go through this. Its not a good thing at all

Time heals. You'll be fine.
God will see as many that are presently passing such.

I have been there and I know how it feels. At last, everybody will be fine.