Copyright @ 2016 by Princess MBA


No part of this work should be distributed or used without the permission of the writer.


This is a true life story, the names have been changed for reasons best known to the author.


This is going to be a very short story as it is just a phase in the life of the author

I do hope you learn a thing or two from this story.
Thank you.

Date: Wednesday, 21st September 2014

Time : 08:30am

Location : K.E.S Hospital, Owerri, IMO state




As I sat on the cold chair with goosebumps all over my body, I prayed quietly, hoping my prayers would be answered.

I was a 19 year old girl from a fairly comfortable home, and a student in one of the state universities in the country; the name? I wouldn't bore you with the details and it is irrelevant to my tale.

Like I said before I sat on the chair which was cold as a result the fan that worked efficiently, waiting for the result that would change my life.

I took in the room I sat in, there was a flat screen television, one in which I didn't care about the size; and beside it, there was the painting a woman who carried a child on her laps.

I loved the painting immediately I set my eyes on it. but that wasn't where my mind was, and neither was it on the nurse who keep staring at me like I wasn't supposed to be here.

I ignored the nurse and checked my watch, maybe for the one hundredth time, ten minutes had passed and it felt like ten hours.

Just as I raised my head from my watch, I heard a name..

"Princess MBA?"


" I'm here" I answered with nervousness as I wished it wasn't showing on my face.


"Okay, here's your result" she said as she handed me the white envelope that held my fate.

"Thank you" I said.


I closed my eyes and said a quick prayer.

"ASK AND YOU WILL RECEIVE
SEEK AND YOU WILL FIND
KNOCK AND THE DOOR WILL BE OPENED UNTO YOU"

I said an amen before I opened the envelope and unfolded the paper.

The result stared my in the eye; SERUM PT: POSITIVE


And that moment, I died a million times, again I stared at that painting that hung beautifully on the wall, thus time, with eyes full of hate.

Date: same day


Time : 10:00 am


Location : Works layout, owerri.



" So babes, whats the plan, as in what do you want to do with the baby?" she whispered fiercely, as her mum was in the house but not in the same room with us.

That was Leslie, my bestest friend, and roommate and I was in her house looking for solutions.


" I seriously don't know but one thing I'm sure of is I'm not keeping it, I can't be a mother now, it's going to ruin all my plans." I whispered back.


"I know, so you want to have an abortion? pills or surgical?" she asked.


" definitely pills, but babes, I'm scared, I mean I want to do this but its my baby in there, do you understand?" I asked with a little voice which could barely pass for a whisper.

" I understand but you don't have a choice, there's nothing else to do." she said and I saw sadness in her eyes.

I was so disappointed in my self, I couldn't hold it back in as I burst into tears. I kept crying not just for me, but for the fact that it wasn't worth it, ten minutes of pleasure for months of pain, embarrassment, frustration, disappointment.

some months ago, I would have sworn I'd never get pregnant in the university.

Leslie moved to hold me but I didn't want that, so I just stood up and went into the bathroom, I looked myself in the mirror and disappointment stared me back in the face.

The mirror was a huge one as I could see everything on my body. I gradually took off my clothes, I stared at my tummy and cried out, but not without making sure the bathroom door was properly locked.

I was the only one who understood what I was going through, the only one who knew how it felt. only me; nobody else.

And so in that moment, I made a decision, one I'd have to live with all my life.

I gradually wore my clothes, washed my face, and walked out of the bathroom into Leslie's room and met her worried eyes.

I made sure I looked into her eyes when I said these words

"Dress up, we have to get pills for the abortion"

Some minutes later, we walked out of the house, and I knew I just lost a part of me.

A very important part.

Date : same day


Time : 11:15 am


Location : drug line, new market, owerri.



As soon as we left home, Leslie called her friend who told her where we could get the drug we needed.

We got to the shop and we didn't waste time to purchase the tablets. we left the market immediately.

You might start asking yourself why I didn't take time to do everything, like maybe take a day or two to think things through, but I've learnt that delay is dangerous.

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On my way home, I went into four different pharmacies to get sanitary towels in order to avoid suspicion.

By 1:40pm, I was at home, with the drugs in my hands and asking myself for the last time if it was really what I wanted. the answer never changed for once.

You may want to judge me for being so heartless, but this was the hardest decision I'd made in my entire life. I wasn't about to bring in a helpless child who would do nothing but suffer into this world. so I tried to tell my self what I was about to do was the right thing.

I quickly made noodles and ate as it was Leslie's instruction that I eat before taking the drugs.


By 2:00pm, I went into the bathroom, washed up and inserted four tablets of the RU-486 pill vaginally, and drank two tablets.

I left the bathroom and went into my room. I lay on the bed but I had a million questions on my mind.

"what if it doesn't work"

" what if if damages your womb?"

"what if you didn't insert it well?"

All these questions plagued my mind until I fell asleep, forgetting my worries.


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Time : 4:00 pm

I woke up from sleep and went directly to the bathroom where I checked myself for any improvement.

I saw none.

The voices in my head started again

"I knew it was never going to work"

"just take another dose"

" you did this to yourself"

I had heard enough so I shut them off and went back to my room.


30minutes later, I felt a sharp pain, and u immediately took ibuprofen, after a minute, I threw up the pain relief tablet.

That was when I knew I was on my own now. Alone with the pain, with the sorrow. I was on my own.

The pain came again, harder this time, it dawned on me that......


Abortion had started.....

Time : 5:00pm


Location : Home


" babes, I'm dying, I feel like my tummy is getting g ripped open, I'm going. to die please.." I said in pains.


"hello, Shuga I know , I'm sorry but you have to deal with the pain, but you'll be fine." she said with confidence.

" Yeah yeah, says the doctor." I answered in annoyance and hung up.

I was mad at everyone around me, I refused to talk to anyone because I didn't want them to notice anything abnormal.

I don't think that worked on my sis because even though she didn't say a word, she saw me changing pads almost every two hours.

I also didn't want them to notice the pain in my eyes so I always switched off the light in the room every time i came in, that was very suspicious because everyone knows how I like to sleep with the lights on.

In that moment of pain, I was forced to reflect on my life, all the things I'd done, the mistakes I'd made that brought me here.

So I thought of how it all started.


Date : 21st August 2014


Time : Sometime around 1pm


Location : School.


" now I'm making my money
I take care of my mummy
My mummy is my baby
My baby de ball goni"

Ishe by Lil Kesh was playing in the house that day and that was my first time of hearing it and I immediately fell in love with the song.

Now back to the main matter, I wasn't in my house, I'd actually gone to see a friend of mine who had literally been begging me to. come to his house.

I know the look on your face now because you're probably wondering what I look like that a guy would beg me to come see him.

Well, I'm a beautiful girl, maybe not so beautiful with long legs and a little curves in the right places. I was light skinned and had a beautiful smile. but then again you'd never know if that's the truth. or not.

Since it has been established that I was pretty, I'm sure you don't have that look on your face. but looking back now, I don't think that being fine was the reason he asked me to come see him, his third leg probably did the thinking for him, and I've seen ugly girls called pretty in the moment of heat.


So we got talking and one thing led to another, and before I knew it, we were already kissing.


He took of my clothes, and kissed every part of my body, and even if I was reluctant, he kissed the reluctance off me.

we were both naked and well, Hot, so we got down to business.

He touched me everywhere all at once,and I wouldn't lie, it felt really good. Then he slid into my vjay very slowly.

He was a little huge so he wanted me to feel every inch of him slowly; very slowly. it felt so beautiful.

When I'd taken all of his in, he started thrusting slowly, little by little for a while.

And then, as if possessed by a demon, he pulled out, and I had this confused look on my face, but that even last long because before I could talk, he thrust in forcefully, and I have to say it felt really good.

He kept thrusting and I kept pushing back to meet his thrusts, and I stupidly got carried away that I didn't know when he came in me.


When he was dropping me off, he stopped at pharmacy, got in and got something. when he got back into the car, he handed it to me, in the poly bag, there was postinor2 and soda water.

" what's that for? " I asked in a confused voice.

" take those and you'll be fine." he said without even sparing me a look.

That was when I understood what was going on.

And today that silly moment of pleasure led to pain now.

Date : 22nd September 2014.


Time; 10:00 am.


Location : Home.


Day Two

Today, I'm not really in pains like yesterday. I carried on with my duties with an inner anger at myself.


" what if I couldn't get the drugs, what would I say to my mum?" I asked myself.


" how could you be so silly. "

You see, everything I do everyday, is directed at making my mum proud. she's the only one I have, and she'll have an attack if she knew I got pregnant right under her nose, it was like history repeating itself, but that's a story for another day.

Just as I was engrossed in my thoughts, my phone rang, and I was brought back to earth immediately.

" hey Shuga!!!" she screamed.

" babes, why are you screaming?" I asked.

" I can talk any way I want " she replied.

"yeah whatever, scream down the world by all means." I said.

"so have you told him? I mean Kunle ?" she asked.

" I sent him a message and he said he bought me drugs that day and I'm not supposed to be pregnant, like I don't know that. He said I was just after his money." I told Leslie.

" Eh, why didn't you tell me since, babes, you can't suffer alone o, you know what send me his number, now now, I'm hanging up now, send it before the next two minutes." she said and according to her words, she hung up.


I sighed and sent her Kunles number, I can only imagine what she'd tell him, but I wouldn't wait for too long to know.


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Leslie's POV

I dialled the fools number and he answered on second ring.

" hello, am I speaking with Kunle?" I asked in an impatient voice.

" depends on who is asking" he answered.


Typical fool..

" its Leslie. princess's friend." I answered.

" oh you... well if you're calling to tell me that shii about your friend being pregnant, then I think you both are fools trying to scam me with pregnancy. I mean I bought her postinor2 that day, so tell me if its divine conception. " he said.

" you fool, can you listen to yourself? scam you? how much do you even have? you just a silly excuse of a man. I wonder what princess saw in you that made her open her legs for you. shameless fool. you'll suffer for this, I promise you." I said and hung up.

Then I sent princess a message, telling her to be strong, feed well and everything would be fine.

Date : 23rd august 2014


Time : Unknown


Location : Home



It was Saturday morning and I had to do laundry, I quickly got up from the bed and packed up my dirty clothes.


I made my way down the stairs as I got ready to start washing.

You might wonder why in Gods name I'm boring you with laundry details. the thing is that I'd decided to forget the fact that I had an abortion.

I stopped praying as I felt my prayers were an insult to God. I even stopped taking Leslie's calls, I just wanted to be on my own. I wanted to cry every time I remembered that I'd murdered my own child... my flesh and my blood, but I couldn't.

"you did this to yourself" A little voice would remind me.

" You made the choice yourself." another would say.

I was gradually loosing my mind but I promised myself I wouldn't shed tears. it was my cross and I was prepared to carry it.

I had to take my bath almost every two hours because I was heavily bleeding.

I got the water ready and started washing, I had washed a reasonable amount of clothes before I felt pain.

Pain like never before, I felt like my intestines were bring ripped of one by one, the pain I felt should be explained but experienced .

I let out a little scream and I thought it would stop just as it started but I was wrong.

The pain was intense and I just felt I was dying.
I dialed Leslie and she picked on first ring.

"hmmm, thought you had for--" she was saying before I cut her off.


"I'm dying, babe I have to tell my mum so she can take me to the hospital. I can't take it anymore."

" please babe don't do it, just endure please I beg you." she begged.


After much persuasion, I decided to endure. so I went to the bathroom to ease myself and immediately, something huge fell out and I felt free.

I immediately forgot the clothes, went up to my room, knelt down to pray but I couldn't say a word.


I just cried and I knew deep down within me, God understood.

m loving dis.... kudos Cherpret

interesting

nimat158:
interesting

Thank you

Date : 27th August 2014


Location : Home


After that incident, I became a changed person, I realized that I needed to come closer to God and not go far from him. Since I took those pills, I told myself I wasn't worthy to pray to God because I'd failed him. But now, I had changed my way of seeing things.


I carried on with my daily activities with renewed strength and happiness. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't happy that I'd committed a sin as huge as that, but I was happy I'd come to realize that at the end of everything, God was always going to be there.


As days went by, I prayed more but I had this fear at the back of my mind, I kept thinking...


"what if after everything, the abortion didn't work?"

I'd always heard of children who were determined to come into this world and pills couldn't stop them.


" What if I was never going to be able to have children? "


Also, I'd heard about girls and ladies who had abortions in their youth, and when they finally got married, they were unable to hive birth.


"What if someone somewhere found out that I'd had an abortion and spread the news?"


That last question was the least of my worries but it still got into my list of worries.


Actually before I got pregnant, I'd been so scared of getting pregnant, it was my greatest fear, the first being not able to make my mother proud.

All my friends knew that I was so scared of getting pregnant that we never talked about babies, ever. It was like an unspoken rule in our circle.

Looking back now, I'm still surprised at how I'd handled it calmly, yeah I was going crazy in my mind but I'd managed to keep calm. Well I wouldn't have done shii without Leslie.

Its the seventh day and I've used over four pads now and I'm tired of counting.


Did I state that I'd been having mood swings, yeah, like really crazy mood swings, I read about post abortion care online and I found out you'd have mood change.


I'd be really happy now and the next minute I'm mad at myself for killing my baby.

But one thing that never changed was my trust in God.

I chose to stick with him because he stuck with me even when I wasn't sticking with him.

tnx for d update....... story rminds me of someone

Date : 31st August 2014


Location : Leslie's house.


Time : Unknown.


DEDICATED TO Starrylady
and nimat158

I'd gone to Leslie's house to spend a little time with her as I'd been shutting her out for awhile now.


She decided to take me out and boy was I hungry.

Let me drop a little information on Leslie, she's the only child of her parents and she's ebony in complexion.

She has a body like Amber rose and a smile that can change your mind.

And lest I forget she's the laziest person I know. In school, she never has food even when her kitchen is always filled to the brim.

"where should we go to?" she asked with a confused expression on her face.

" I don't know, maybe Kilimanjaro? I replied.

"No oh, there's always someone I know there, its just like everyone goes there now!" she answered.

"fine, then let's just go to excel chicken, me, I want to eat turkey joor." I said.


" hmmmm, where's the place? she asked.

" just around control, its not a place where you'd see someone you know. And the way you're hiding from people, I'm starting to think maybe you're doing something illegal." I answered.

" Biko come let's go, I'm hungry." she said dragging me up.


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Date : same day.


Location : Excel chicken, owerri, IMO state.


Time : Unknown



We stepped in and got a hidden spot while Leslie went to place our orders.

She came back with a tray of fried rice and chicken for her, and turkey for me.

I sat with my back to the door and Leslie sat facing the door, her reason being that she wanted to see people coming in.

Now I really think she's doing illegal things.


We ate in silence until Leslie suddenly stopped and stared at the door, I thought someone she was hiding from had finally caught her.

So I burst out laughing and kept eating. Whoever caught could come and take her, me, I just wanted to consume the turkey.

" oh my God, he's finnnne" I heard Leslie say.

"who?" I asked but when I got no answer I followed her eyes and it stopped at this really cute guy.


Our eyes met and he smiled while I gave a plastic smile and continued eating. I didn't give a rats asss about the cute guy. Look where the last one got me.

I was so engrossed in the turkey that I didn't notice he was beside me.


"you really do have an appetite" he said.


Hello!!! I should, that's what I'm here for, to eat. That was supposed to be my reply, but instead I just smiled.


He was tall and dark, just like Leslie and he was wearing an agbada with Giuseppe Zanotti slippers and a Nokia torch phone in his hand.

"my name is Jay, what s yours? he said to Leslie and I.


" I don't give out my name like that". I replied.

" I'm Leslie and don't mind my friend, she's princess." les said.

"beautiful names for beautiful ladies, can we be friends,just friends, no strings?" he asked.

"okay, no problem." les said and I just ignored the both of them.


"okay, uhmmm can I get your number? if that's okay with you and the tough lady" he asked.

Leslie agreed and they exchanged numbers.

" Leslie biko, I'm done eating can we go?" I finally said.

" but I'm not done now" she said.

" its your business, shebi you've been talking? biko stand up. in fact let me just grab takeaway for you before you'd start crying for me at home." I said and made to stand up.

Jay insisted on going with me, so we got the food and he also insisted on taking us home.

We walked outside and he directed us to a range rover evogue.

Leslie and I exchanged glances, so cute boy way rich too??7

Starrylady:
tnx for d update....... story rminds me of someone

you're welcome Shuga, hope the person is OK now?

thumbs up

nimat158:
thumbs up

thank you

aww.... tnx for d dedication....nd sorry for d late reply... more ink to ur pen.....

More ink to your pen.

Cherpret nice work keep it coming. Pity Princess such a huge risk she took. More updates biko.

Zheemub:
More ink to your pen.

thanks babes

Starrylady:
aww.... tnx for d dedication....nd sorry for d late reply... more ink to ur pen.....

you're welcome

please I'm really sorry I've been unable to update, I've been super busy, I'll try to post something today or tomorrow. thanks again for reading

Nice story line......Following

Still waiting for your update ma.

Sorry I've not been able to update, been too busy, I'll try to post something today

DATE : 2nd SEPTEMBER 2014

LOCATION : MY HOUSE


Id finally stopped bleeding after bleeding for 10days which was getting suspicious in the house.
I was close to God now and I didn't want to spoil that for me so I got far away from guys for moments.


It turned out Jay didn't want anything intimate from me or Les. He just wanted to friends with us and I was cool with that.


I just got off the phone with les and she wanted me to meet up with her in one boutique like that. I've been in a mood since the abortion I just felt like I was a very bad person and I was staying far from everybody.


She wanted to shop and needed to shop for some clothes an shoes and needed me to check them out for her. Did I ever mention that I'm your person if you're ever looking for someone to pick out clothes for you. I'm the modern day fashionista.


DATE : same day


LOCATION : ACE COLLECTIONS


"Hello, I'm outside the boutique, where are you?" I said to les over the phone.

"I'm inside, come to the Ankara section" s replied and hung up.

I entered and walked to the Ankara section and saw her checking some dresses out. She was dressed in a off-white tank top and dark blue jeans and yellow sandals, and her hair wa packed up in a cute ponytail.

I walked up to her an gave a big hug an took in her perfume, she always used brown Orchard. She hugged me back and I knew it was mean to stay away from this girl for so long, it wasn't like she did anything to me.

"I've missed you Babe and I hate you, why haven't you called me for so long, but you came fast fast because it's clothes bah!!!!" she said in an accusing voice.

"I don't get you biko, leaving me alone, which one have you chosen?" I asked with a smile.

" none yet, you know I can't do that without you, are you not my madam, hope you came with ego, me I don't have money" sh said.

"Hmmmmmmm, you're on your own o. I don't even have tfare o." I replied.


"Broke ass sister, don't be scared, we all know you're broke, I'll help your life with 200 Shey e go do for transport" she said.


"Yeye somebody let's check that line biko." I said as u walked toward the jumpsuit line and she followed suit.


We shopped for some time and we got ready to leave after choosing two Ankara tube gowns, two jumpsuits, and three chiffon shirts. We paid and left.

Just as we were waiting for a cab, we spotted Jays car and we waited for him to park his car. He walked to us.

"What are yu guys doing here? He asked

"This silly girl came to shop and told me come with her o but ordinary shoe she didn't buy for me." I said with a little frown.

He laughed and asked me to follow him back into the boutique. When Leslie moved to follow us, I asked her where she was going, she just ignored me and cam with us while Jay was just laughing.

He got me one Ankara gown, a nude high heeled shoe, one nude handbag, and two Nike sneakers an got les two sneakers.

You should have seen the silly girl shining teeth, and after that he took us out for lunch. Could my day get any better

Starrylady Zheemub DonaTee nimat158

it's been a long time.thanks for d update

Keep it coming cherpret, interesting piece.

Missmossy:
Keep it coming cherpret, interesting piece.

Awwwwwwwwnnnn Tnx for reading

nimat158:
it's been a long time.thanks for d update

You're welcome shuga

DATE : unknown

LOCATION : home



I had my headphones blasting to Mr eazi's do mistake. I don't know whether it's me or I just love th way he says " it's your boy easi"


By th music didn't stop me from thinking about the brutal way I murdered my child and If I even worked.

It was two weeks after the abortion and I knew I wa Time to go to th hospital for a test. I knew if I told les, she'd just come with me, but I needed to do this on my own.

So I dressed up in a black gown, black shawl, black shades without makeup
I looked like a funeral.

In some minutes, I was standing outside winners laboratory for the test. I said a little prayer before I walked in.

Once inside, I saw a painting of a kid,"whats it with hospitals and children?" I asked myself.

"I want to run a test" I said to the receptionist.

"Which on in particular?"

"Serum pregnancy test" I replied with a poker face while she just kept staring at me.

Dont young girls com her for pregnancy tests? I thought to myself.

She took th money from me, wrote down my name and I was directed to another room.

The nurse in here was a little better, she asked me to sit down and gently took my blood and I was asked to wait in the bloody waiting room.


Immediately I sat down, my min drifted to about a month ago, when I was sitting in a chair just similar to this waiting for a result that would forever change me.

I decided to check Facebook and the first picture I saw was a picture o triplets with the words " this is your portion this year." I fel the picture was there for me.

I immediately shouted God forbid and th receptionist stared at me again. I apologised in a low tone and logged out immediately.

I said my usual prayer " seek and you will find

Ask and you will receive

Knock and the door will be opened. And said a quick Amen before I heard my name called.

"Princess mba?" she called.

"I'm right here!" I replied.

I murmured a thank you before I proceeded to open the result.

Serum PT. Negative.



Now I have to wait for my period.

I immediately logged back into Facebook and posted "RIP Adele, I would have loved you. "


With a happy heart that the process worked and sad heart that I didn't give my baby the chance to live, I stood up and walked towards th door.

I was finally over with this and right there And then, I promised myself no man was worth it. I was done for good.




Thanks to Missmossy nimat158 Starrylady Zheemub DonaTee and other anonymous readers if any, thanks for patiently waiting for me to update.

God bless y'all and may the Christmas Brin only good tidings.