CeoMYN:
Words can't tell how angry I am right now for haven believed in God , I'm mad at myself for believing a lie for almost two decades till this year.
Right now I want a sane environment! I'm fvcking looking for the slightest chance to tell my parents who Clinton is. I'm a teen and that's going to be hard because they have become more religious recently.
I'm getting mad! No one to share my feelings with! I'm hiding it!
I don't want to die with depression and loneliness! I need a sane place!
To all those evangelists out there TFU!

CeoMYN:
Words can't tell how angry I am right now for haven believed in God , I'm mad at myself for believing a lie for almost two decades till this year.
Right now I want a sane environment! I'm fvcking looking for the slightest chance to tell my parents who Clinton is. I'm a teen and that's going to be hard because they have become more religious recently.
I'm getting mad! No one to share my feelings with! I'm hiding it!
I don't want to die with depression and loneliness! I need a sane place!
To all those evangelists out there TFU!

CeoMYN:
Words can't tell how angry I am right now for haven believed in God , I'm mad at myself for believing a lie for almost two decades till this year.
Right now I want a sane environment! I'm fvcking looking for the slightest chance to tell my parents who Clinton is. I'm a teen and that's going to be hard because they have become more religious recently.
I'm getting mad! No one to share my feelings with! I'm hiding it!
I don't want to die with depression and loneliness! I need a sane place!
To all those evangelists out there TFU!

olagbemi118:
There is no God but there is devil abi? Mumu.

damogul:



So you are a Teen and you are angry and your anger is at who?

1. Your parents?

2. Your parents for becoming more religious lately

3. For believing in God for almost 2 decades

You only have one diagnosis and that is emotional tantrum and chronic depression. Atheism tends to lead one to loneliness and depression and isnt the fault of your parents, neither is it Gods fault.

Its a choice you made. You chose loneliness and depression when you chose Atheism so be a man, suck it up and enjoy or endure it. You cannot keep painting a wall with black paint and expect it to become a white wall. You choose what you become so get with the program.

Or

You can be like your Parents and enjoy warmth and affection and communion as a family thereby eschewing depression. Ultimately the choice is yours. If you wish to be angry at God for another 200yrs how would that affect God? Can you punch Him? Can you spit on Him? Can you shoot Him?

He is way beyond your reach and you would only end up hurting yourself and become suicidal. I could be your friend if you like. Even though i know you dread and detest me but i am still open to being your friend.

Surrounding yourself with so much anger and bile isnt even medically advisable and is spiritually destructive. What do you say?

felixomor:
No wonder, so you are a teen?

No wonder the behavior you demonstrated the other day.
Even explaining things to you, will be a little difficult sef.

Eiya.

CeoMYN:


I just need to be in a sane environment, I dnt dread or detest you. I'm angry at myself, true am lonely. But atheism didn't cause that.

olagbemi118:
hear the words of a fool. It is only a fool that says there is no God. There is no God but there is devil abi? Mumu.

CeoMYN:


I just need to be in a sane environment, I dnt dread or detest you. I'm angry at myself, true am lonely. But atheism didn't cause that.

CeoMYN:
Words can't tell how angry I am right now for haven believed in God , I'm mad at myself for believing a lie for almost two decades till this year.
Right now I want a sane environment! I'm fvcking looking for the slightest chance to tell my parents who Clinton is. I'm a teen and that's going to be hard because they have become more religious recently.
I'm getting mad! No one to share my feelings with! I'm hiding it!
I don't want to die with depression and loneliness! I need a sane place!
To all those evangelists out there TFU!

KingEbukasBlog:


Ah a teen ?

Atheism is a transitive state in individuals especially teens

hopefulLandlord:


I admire this guy's ability to spill trash with boldness

very sincere admiration

hopefulLandlord:

this piqued my interest, I thought atheism was responsible for your loneliness because it's very understandable especially in Nigeria but you just said its not

care to share the cause of your loneliness?

damogul:


I deliberately put "dread" there as i knew that would get your attention and it did

Listen...We create our world and unmake them. You cannot have a sane environment without first wanting to be sane yourself. Its like taking a wild animal into an organized house and setting it free...You can imagine the chaos..However when you make a conscious effort to first train and condition the animal to the environment then it would help keep it sane.

You need to first organise yourself internally which was why i said what i said in my first comment. I am offering friendship. At least let me see if i can help bring some sanity into your environment. A listening ear, an idea sharer etc

Being angry at yourself is normal and you are not the first who has been but making a choice to do something about it is the crux of the matter.

Can we be friends?

CeoMYN:

No one knows about me being an Atheist, the stuff is that am 24/7 7/7 30/7 alone. I hardly interact with anybody.
I don't see atheism as the cause because I have always been lonely. Atheism added it's part recently but that's not the main cause. The main cause is that no one shares the same views with me social wise and others.

hopefulLandlord:


I admire this guy's ability to spill trash with boldness

very sincere admiration

KingEbukasBlog:


Ah a teen ?

Atheism is a transitive state in individuals especially teens , so you'll get over it when you are exposed to knowledge or other worldviews when you get older . You know too little to reject the existence of God .

CeoMYN:

Deep down you know it's all fake

CeoMYN:

Which day?

CeoMYN:

You should have mentioned them but I knew where you were arriving to.

KingEbukasBlog:




I don't respond to feelings , I really don't know what it means to reach conclusions based on feelings as an INTP - this is my personality type .

I reach conclusions based on logic and rational observation .

Saying "deep down" means based on feelings which apparently I can't relate to .

So through logic and rational observation , God exists .

CeoMYN:

I tried organising myself but the environment is not sane.

jonbellion:
Aaaaah those teenage years
Lol
I started questioning my beliefs at 17
I told my parents I was an athiest
They were shocked anyway but that didn't make then withdraw from me or anything
They always say they pray for me and all that religpud stuff
I'm in my mid twenties now
You should open up to your parents
You don't have to be lonely shoo
My patents and my religious friends know my views towards religion

jonbellion:
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hopefulLandlord:


I disagree with this

when it comes to coming out as an atheist, there's no glove-fits-all

some parents can be CRAZY!! (I'm not implying CeoMYN's parents are crazy) some parents are so extremely religious that you dare not imply you've chosen atheism even if you have good grades or whatnot

some parents even kill or stop supporting you (financially etc) if you dare tell them you're an atheist

skeendyke:
What lies? Get this fact, God will always reveal Himself and make Himself real to that person who is truly and sincerely searching for Him but He will always remain hidden to the science researchers of His existence, to those who never take a step to draw nearer to Him, to those who were and are never sincere in seeking Him, to those who have made up their minds that He does not exist, to the impatient who think God will reveal Himself at their command. You definitely fall under one of these categories of people.

felixomor:
No wonder, so you are a teen?

No wonder the behavior you demonstrated the other day.
Even explaining things to you, will be a little difficult sef.

Eiya.

hopefulLandlord:


care to share your social views?