What did I do to deserve this life?

With tears streaming down my face, I write this-

I was once a young girl with a bright future, whos only plan was to become someone in life and for myself and my family to be alive, healthy and successful

Yet I am 24 today and all my plans have failed

My mother has died of cancer

Not even half a year later, my dad is now ill - i am unsure what but he seems to have symptoms of throat cancer as he keeps coughing and and he needs to always clear his throat, also has some ear pain. He had to have antibiotics for a month, but the problem is still there and he is now going to hospital today

My brother is disabled with autism

My younger brother is fine, thank God

me? I have emotional health problems, but I am mentally/physically healthy. I am a university drop out, I have just got a job but it is low paying and I survive on government assistance. I am poor, I have poor relationships and I am struggling in my education - behind on deadlines. All my goals and dreams have failed and I am angry sad and bitter. I have lost faith in God completely and can not even pray anymore

I look around at people who were athiests, and who called themselves christians but did not follow God at all unlike me who was not perfect, but I was God fearing to the point I am still a virgin age 24

yet i look at their lives and see blessings whereas my life is full of problems

look at kylie jenner, does she know God? yet look at her blessed with a child, her parents alive, her extended family, money, fame and so much more
not only her, many more examples

I look at myself and I sincerely ask...

what did I gain from being a christian?

i feel like the universe is out to destroy me and wants me dead,

what is all this problem?

i am thinking of joining mountain of fire deliverance programme but then i look at others who do not even know God or have nor stepped into mountain of fire church yet their life is fine

what do i do? this is too much

i have stopped going to school for 3 weeks, and i do not like socialising i am so ashamed of myself and my life... my enemies are laughing at me , me who was the one that was most likely to be a success when we left school... it is me who everyone is pitying, i am disgraced.

Hmm!! Sometimes when life gives u lemons, u make lemonade, it's sickening to know that life is not fair a large number of us, but we have 2 options, 1st is succumb to the shit life gives you, and the second is to look at the brighter side of life and make do with the shit to make a positive change.

My dear human, suicide is not the way, it's only a passing phase, it would surely get better or worse, depending on whatever outlook you put to it.

Sell your virginity to Dino Melaye or Otedola


U would be made for life

comparing your self ..with Kylie Jener or what ever ..would break u down the more...go for the deliverance maybe u have a calling ..this problems might just be a stepping stone to your success

I really think it is really stupid for your problem to be you wanting to be like Kylie Jenner, well,you can go ahead and kill yourself if you think it is the best option.

Life is being unfair to everyone no matter how rich or poor u are..#FACT

If I will tell u my whole story, im sure u will say ur life is way better than mine ...
Just don't give up. All u need right now is one friend that will be there for u thru hell & heaven...

Life ain't easy. But once u fight back and aim for ur goal , ONE AT A TIME... i promise u, u will overcome everything...GOOD LUCK.

JULIE1925:
Life is being unfair to everyone no matter how rich or poor u are..#FACT

If I will tell u my whole story, im sure u will say ur life is way better than me ...
Just don't give up. All u need right now is one friend that will be there for u thru hell & heaven...

Life ain't easy. But once u fight back and aim for ur goal , ONE AT A TIME... i promise u, u will overcome everything...GOOD LUCK.

please tell me your story

are your parents alive

Lol, baby we are fücked one way or the other life has fücked us all.
.
if you take your own life then you've successfully fück your kid bro and dad life the more.
Just know when one gets fück one gets pregnant and deliver and you know the shîts one have to go through during pregnancy. so, this is your pregnancy period.

we've all got a fück story to tell, and the greatest of us all are those who endured till the end.
baby only you got the power to rewrite your story, life wasn't a place of pleasure that's why we cry at birth.

stay strong and don't let the successful journey of one makes you end yours. I'm out

Offpoint:
Lol, baby we are fücked one way or the other life has fücked us all.
.
if you take your own life then you've successfully fück your kid bro and dad life the more.
Just know when one gets fück one gets pregnant and deliver and you know the shîts one have to go through during pregnancy. so, this is your pregnancy period.

we've all got a fück story to tell, and the greatest of us all are those who endured till the end.
baby only you got the power to rewrite your story, life wasn't a place of pleasure that's why we cry at birth.

stay strong and don't let the successful journey of one makes you end yours. I'm out

Yours is even better.. It's just fvcked.. Me, life has raped me

OP, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.. It will pass, and u'll be fine.

Muzik then was ma theraphy.. What u need now is some good muzik(motivational songs).. I can help u wit some playlist if u need 'em ..

are your parents still alive?

Davedgr8:


Yours is even better.. It's just fvcked.. Me, life has raped me

OP, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.. It will pass, and u'll be fine.

Muzik then was ma theraphy.. What u need now is some good muzik(motivational songs).. I can help u wit some playlist if u need 'em ..

pyyxxaro:
Sell your virginity to Dino Melaye or Otedola


U would be made for life

When STUPIDITY is greatly INGRAINED in your DNA there is no hope for SENSE.

Sorry About That Dear,
We all go through a lot that we don't Show
You don't know what Kylie Jenner's going through
There's nothing like a Life Better Than YourZ



Bout Yesterday's Church We reflected on the book of Job.
Job went through a lot but he never gave up on GOD Let his Life inspire you. If you are finding a particular burden in life weighing you down, then try to praise and worship GOD anyway.


Give GOD the Glory due his name simply because it is due HIS Name and not because you do or do not feel like doing it. In this, you will find that your heavy burden leads to your strengthening. You will become more faithful by being faithful when it's very difficult to do so. Job did it and so can you!



Just ask GOD to help deepen your faith in HIM when Life is hard and the burden is great. We've come too far to give up on GOD cause he'll never do so even though it seems so.

Listen to Tricia Brock's What I Know Song; No matter what happens/What We Think Good Or Bad won't change the fact God Is Always Good.
GOD got plans for you Dear He Gives He Takes All for Good.

#God'sNotDead

2morogobeta:
are your parents still alive?

If i say [YES], ur reply wud be "that's why u're saying all this" and

If i say [NO], "it'll be why did God all 'em to die"

Now i want to ask you, what is your aim of creating this thread?

You've been spamming this forum with this shiit, must u need people's approval to take ur own life?

Davedgr8:


If i say [YES], ur reply wud be "that's why u're saying all this" and

If i say [NO], "it'll be why did God all 'em to die"

Now i want to ask you, what is your aim of creating this thread?

You've been spamming this forum with this shiit, must u need people's approval to take ur own life?

Be reasonable please, life can fvck you up so bad that you question your reason for existense.

Just advice or don't comment pls.

JULIE1925:
Life is being unfair to everyone no matter how rich or poor u are..#FACT

If I will tell u my whole story, im sure u will say ur life is way better than mine ...
Just don't give up. All u need right now is one friend that will be there for u thru hell & heaven...

Life ain't easy. But once u fight back and aim for ur goal , ONE AT A TIME... i promise u, u will overcome everything...GOOD LUCK.

I respect ur comment. U re so blessed wit wisdom nd intelligence.

pyyxxaro:
Sell your virginity to Dino Melaye or Otedola


U would be made for life

We joke with everything and that's how our lives eventually becomes a joke too.

Seriously continue like this and see

If you feel suicide is the best option go ahead it's what I think I would do

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Mup4life:
When STUPIDITY is greatly INGRAINED in your DNA there is no hope for SENSE.

efesodje:


We joke with everything and that's how our lives eventually becomes a joke too.




Pls you can face the lagooon if u care


Learn to mind your business

Seriously continue like this and see

abeg just find the nearest lagoon and jump down..
or you can use angle 90 nor too cost

I advise you to have a quiet time not to think about your problems but to think on how to solve them.

I don't help nairalanders financially any more if not...

I know someone who buys souls in exchange for wealth.

Are you beautiful with perfect body

What I'm presently going tru is far worse than wat u goin tru n still yet i blv someday it will change.

Death is just too Final!!!

1) Your mum is dead

And so what? Haven't you seen and heard of orphans who has made it big in life? Was she still breastfeeding you?

2) Dad is terribly sick.

That is "Dad" promblem not yours! How should that affect your destiny!!!

MY BRIEF STORY

I became fully responsible, independent and self reliant at the age of 12 (twelve years old). Though my parents aren't dead but by choice, because I realized quite early enough that; "I don't know how to ask anyone for my needs".
Age 13 I was already washing cars for people 4:30am - 6:30am before going to school. And doing helper jobs for brick layers at weekends.

October 22nd 2013 I relocated on my own to Port Harcourt from warri with just N5,000 and slept at Agofure park Waterlines on my first night.

February 6th 2018: I am living in a well furnished one bedroom flat at St. John's area along Iwofe road and doing well for myself working in an oil servicing company.

Summary:

Some of us fail to realize that life is a battle field and simply because u serve God doesn't exempt you from fighting for what you feel you deserve. Life ain't just gonna give you goodies because you need it. Some of us thinks we could just "pray" away all the challenges of life, maybe that's what your pastors tells you. Very funny!!!

Some of us are just to weak to be alive!!! If you can't brace up mentally and psychologically and strive, then die. It is quite simple you just have to make a choice.

Dear op please first of all change your mindset change the way u see and do things go back to God and pray he kills every spirit of mediocrity and low self esteem in you...strife to make it in life everybody has their own story sorry about your parent but your first problem here is lack of patience and low self esteem to the point of comparing yourself to k Jennifer

2morogobeta:
are your parents still alive?

You better start counting your blessings.With or without your parents,life can be sweet for you.
Do you Know that Orji kalu's father sold iron hangars and still do

Do you Know that Osun Gov used to be a fridge technician

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