solite3:
yes o brother. A friend of my would say "it is better to walk with Jesus on a dark road than to walk alone on a bright road.

bloodofthelamb:


We can choose our thoughts. We can choose want we think about. Though some thought may come to us through information we see or hear but we have the choice to chew them or spit them out.

bloodofthelamb:


Not so. Even in the midst of life disturbance, I have chosen to blessed the Lord at all times and to see myself the exact way the Father sees me through the finished work of Jesus Christ.

Elsah:



I guess you've trained your mind to see things that way. This my own stubborn mind has refused training. Sometimes the thing is just thinking on its own like a machine (compulsive thinking, funny enough majority suffer from this mental illness and it's very much under diagnosed...I'm a healing sufferer too so I know) without remote control. Me, I'm just here suffering on the inside, smiling on the outside (we are all role playing my dear, na every dey carry facial mask jare). All my life mistakes has led me to this point (If this be true, what led you to making those mistakes). I shouldn't have backslided (what your definition of backsliding). I deserve all these (if you agreed from you statement above that you are role playing, which of the 'I'(s) do you speak of).

I just hope one day i find freedom (where and when), and don't tell me i already have freedom (isn't this the TRUTH, introspect on this 'I AM THAT I AM'), i have all these knowledge (what of understanding ma'am) on God's grace at the back of my head, but my mind has refused to think it (it's no the place of the ego to think what will KILL it). Me, I'm fed up (I don't mean to be rude but I think you're not). The more i fight it, the more i lose (why continue fighting a battle you know is lost). I'm sure God is listening to my impure thoughts. It's me thinking this things, but then again, it's not me (voices in your head, what do they say?) I'm fed up (what do you do when you're fed up with a situation, let it be I guess). I don't think i can make heaven because of my evil thoughts (it's not in your place to think if you can or not but it's your duty to know you either live in your heaven or exist in your hell)

Sometimes i wonder if i was possessed (yes, possessed by your own possession...your mind), but i don't think i was (of course the used cum user wouldn't want the original user to know he/she/he is being used by creating defences, manipulation/control mechanism). I (please be specific, which I? ) wanted (wants leads suffering) to do those things then. Sins i find repulsive rn. But, It was me (there are more than one PERSONality in a man but when one makes a decision every other suffer the consequence. My Yoruba folks will say "tí ęlésè bá ńję ìyà, olódodo máa pín ñńu è" ) doing those things, not the devil ( do you know the devil?). I hate my mind ( naturally you're not supposed to love what makes you fall short of glory but how do you know your enemy by standing totally afar) and i hate myself for all the foolish decisions i made that led me to this point. I should have made better choices in the first place.

kumulus:




Stop feeding you egoic mind Elsah, you give it the strength it needs to grow. There's this saying that the elite and owners of this world feed of the fear, anxiety, suffering.....of the masses, the bible says in Ephesians 6:12 " For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."


All you need is a moment of insight and understanding will come. Sending some love and light your way, good evening.

Elsah:


A lot of what you said was so insightful, i had to jott them down.

1.) Compulsive thinking, when your mind thinks for you.

2.)We are all role playing, carrying facial mask

3.) it's no the place of the ego to think what will KILL it.

4.)You either live in your heaven or exist in your hell.

5.) Wants leads to suffering

6.) There are more than one personality in a man but when one makes a decision every other suffers the consequence.

7.) Naturally you're not supposed to love what makes you fall short of glory but how do you know your enemy by standing totally afar?


You've been very much helpful this past few days. You said which of the 'I' s? I guess i don't know. I don't know myself and i don't know which is the real me. The only me i know is the one typing these words. How do i stop feeding my egoic mind? How do i kill the ego?

kumulus:




Please let it be known that these things I say aren't of my sole authority but clearly they are from my understanding of the authorities of those who've been through this path of enlightenment. I'm happy to have contributed so far in a positive and tangible way, may I say you can't kill the ego literally ( the bible didn't say the devil will be killed rather thrown in the bottomless abyss where he won't rise again ). Would it not suffice that you bother yourself about being aware of the ego instead of making a futile attempt at killing it. Meantime keep practising mindfulness and read up that material. Shalom

Elsah:


So, the ego is the Devil? ( who could be the cause of all the terror, conflicts, starvation, depravity, anger, pain, and suffering in the world today ), The devil lives in my head? ( it's funny how much truth we know but don't understand, so we don't know lol. The devil lives in the head {left hemisphere/centre for logical/linear thinking, intellect; which is prone to lying by defualt} as opposed to the right hemisphere/heart, seat of intuition, home of the self) Wow. This explains why some thoughts i think, i wonder where they come from. I understand now. Okay, wow, so, this means it's not me thinking sometimes, this means i don't have to feel guilty about my thoughts anymore. Since, i can't kill the ego, I'll just ignore him/it observe. ( I won't advise to ignore but to just watch over it like a mother would watch her babe, with keen love. That way you're aware and it can't just sneak up on you ) This means i have to be careful of what i feed the ego. What i read, what i hear. To weaken it or him. But how come the ego is louder than the voice of the holyspirit? How come it's so hard to hear the holyspirit? (The ego speaks in more than one voice, hence "He {man} as become like Us'' i.e like two or more). The solution lies in Psalm 46:10 " Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. "

Elsah:


Hmm, observe. Thanks for the time you put into writing all these. So, is the ego also the holyspirit? I'm confused.

kumulus:



It's the one who contends with the truth, by identifying with it man falls short of glory.

Have you ever been in a situation where you're in a class and the teacher asks a question, you feel like answering cos you have the answer but something inside you says 'what if your answer is incorrect' and almost instantly within split seconds you just decide 'lemme just keep quite jare before they start making jest of me', only for you to find out in the end what you could have spoken is the right answer?

Elsah:
Yes I’m a Christian. Yes I make hypocritical decisions. Yes I fall. I stumble. I struggle. I am a mess. But I’m God’s mess. And he can turn a mess into a masterpiece.

It's never too late to start a new beginning.

Hey you! Guess what? Jesus LOVES YOU..... . Any additional LIKE is a bonus.

We are his workmanship, and Jesus doesn’t make junk .

Hey friend!

Admit it! You need Jesus, i need Jesus, everybody needs some Jesus in their life. Talk to God today! Take those mountains to him love. He cares .....

Elsah:
■Yes I’m a Christian. Yes I make hypocritical decisions. Yes I fall. I stumble. I struggle. I am a mess. But I’m God’s mess. And he can turn a mess into a masterpiece.
It's never too late to start a new beginning.
■Hey you! Guess what? Jesus LOVES YOU..... . Any additional LIKE is a bonus. We are his workmanship, and Jesus doesn’t make junk .
■Hey friend! Admit it! You need Jesus, i need Jesus, everybody needs some Jesus in their life. Talk to God today! Take those mountains to him love. He cares .....

Kobojunkie:
1. You are God's mess? I am afraid you are mistaken. You are instead a result of your ignorance and refusal to accept and obey God. Yes, God can help turn you into the holy/perfect tool which He can then use but it is up to you to decide to, moment by moment, accept/trust/submit and obey His teachings and commandments, else, you remain a mess God has no use of.

2. Jesus Christ said He only loves those who live their lives in continuous submission and obedience of His teachings and commandments - John 15 vs 9 - 11. So not only is it a lie to tell people that Jesus Christ loves them, it is a lie to say that He loves those who claim --- by mouth--- to love Him. Again, it is only those who do as He commands that He loves. They are those who are His friends - John 15 vs 14

3. Also, not everyone needs Jesus Christ. And not everyone can have Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ Himself said it about 2000 years ago that His Father sent Him only to the Lost sheep of Israel - Matthew 15 vs 22 - 24 & Matthew 7 vs 6 . So if He made it clear that not everyone can have what He came to give, why do we lie that He is for everyone?

Elsah:
Lol. Post since how many years ago??. Tooor. Wahala.