inside life.

I some times miss my ex(es) like tonight for lot of different reasons but that's the emotional me speaking ,the logical me know it was for the better we split up.

but I wished I listened MORE growing up. I listened you know, but i was too eager to make my OWN mistakes, to learn from it.

it almost messed me up - I ended up dating the most manipulative girl I ever met, my 2nd girlfriend. I almost lost my identity but I'm a sharp guy and I catch up quickly. I played her too without her knowing, at the end of the day i hurt her as much as i thought she hurt me!
but i didn't feel any better for it. i ended up a player unable to open up to love. i had a few sexcapades with random girls for like a year, got addicted to porn at that time, had more sexcapades but got bored along the line.

I realized my self destructive behaviour was because I was hurt, I had loved with all I got and had been played. although I played the game too and ate as much as I did, that was never my mission or vision for the relationship.

I went for 2 years sabbatical from relationship and sex. I read books about sex and how to give orgasm, the ugly sides of girls and relationships, to understand all the ups and downs.

I was about clocking my 2 years and 2 months when love came searching for me in form of another beautiful damsel. we spent 3 months getting to know each other, actually by the 1st month she confessed her feelings for me, but I have been so out of the game I wanted to be sure I felt the same way about her and not for the sex.
by the 4th month we were dating, I treated her with insight (my reading paid off), cause I knew a lot about women and how they think, she felt confident telling me ALL (but I found out later it was MOST) of her secret. but I bleeped up. our sex life was great, greater than all the rest I have had subsequently- I thought from the books that knowing how to make a woman orgasm,will make her yours forever. LOL, a big lie.
you see i had learnt again to be faithful, I left her and travelled out for just two weeks- in that space of time she cheated thrice. why? she missed it so much she couldn't help but pleasure herself with the next best thing. we continued dating cause she begged like hell, her sister too. she claimed nobody pleasures her like I do, i thought she was joking until two of her best friend confirmed the gist to me separately about how she brags about my prowess, and they wanted a feel. i gave them both on separate occasions until I ended up dating one of them.
but I was now back to square one and dissatisfied with love and relationship, my sex life with her suffered cause I saw her as a tool to satisfy my own sexual needs and not in any way to please her. it lasted for just 4 months.

I went back to the drawing board, and spent nearly 2 years again on sabbatical before I met the girl I stayed faithful to, till we broke up over some personal issues.
I'm currently seeing someone else though, although a neighbor female friend of mine try to set me up a few months ago with a nude video call, but I dodge...gist sha still dey. share yours lets talk

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ahnie:
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welcome to my pillow talk. tonight I'm like radio without battery, sha bear with me

I dont know about most NL guys or girls but what I like about my current relationship is that we both flow, even when we fight. I think am at that stage that even if she cheats on me (unless she gets a child from it), and we talk it out I dont mind. is anyone at this stage here yet?
cause it's a lonely world folks

Bros you too much

Geewizzy:
Bros you too much

Geewizzy, I humble o. my uncle been be the baddest for street that time. I learnt from them.

but I try to keep our sex life moderate. not to the extreme I took with with my 3rd ex - cause i learnt from experience, when they cross that line there is no coming back.
I try to stay more emotionally afloat with her, it isn't always easy. sorry to any girl reading this but the average girls life and routine is BORING LOL. but things we do for Love

good morning. Nlanders you aren't engaging o

bigmic111:
I dont know about most NL guys or girls but what I like about my current relationship is that we both flow, even when we fight. I think am at that stage that even if she cheats on me (unless she gets a child from it), and we talk it out I dont mind. is anyone at this stage here yet?
cause it's a lonely world folks

Same here. If he cheats whats there. It hurts sometimes tho. Someone making me something im not. Into a cold hearted individual.

Blackivy27:
Same here. If he cheats whats there. It hurts sometimes tho. Someone making me something im not. Into a cold hearted individual.

it's good to know am not on this boat alone, thanks blackivy27.
yeah it hurts but I'm more emotionally mature to look beyond the fault if we have a lot of potential together, than going in search of a new random babe.
I'm still an alpha but past the egocentric stage of alphahood

I'll feel motivated to share more pillow talks HERE , if more NL share theirs too

Ps: especially for those sending me emails on this, for private responses

good evening NL, my babe sometimes stays over for the weekend at my place, when she is not around I usually either frequent my guys place for the weekend or my family house- I hate staying alone, I need companionship.

I'm not also a fan of PDA but she is. A BIG ONE at that!

im thinking of popping the question soon, not entirely my idea- she has been throwing all the hints here and there, inviting me to all her friends weddings, and then they will be like when will they attend her own. she will now reply sarcastically that "it's not in her hands."
she also likes to show me pics of engagement rings like kilode.

you may be thinking that she is getting old but she is not at all, just 23. I guess cause she graduated 2 years ago , before wrapping up her service in April this year.

my only issue is the PDA, i know she loves it- but i hate to admit that proposing to her publicly (even before friends and family)will be the greatest test for me cause it's kinda embarrassing thinking about it.
and i know ladies generally like this type of things, so what should I do?

I learnt to love myself more, so I won't get hurt because most humans are bound to make mistakes. I guess that has made me have a cool and lively lifestyle. If you love her, take that bold step of proposing to her, if you are sure she makes you happy.

rosy1992:
I learnt to love myself more, so I won't get hurt because most humans are bound to make mistakes. I guess that has made me have a cool and lively lifestyle. If you love her, take that bold step of proposing to her, if you are sure she makes you happy.

thank you rosy. I'll make it official soon.

bigmic111:
inside life.

I some times miss my ex(es) like tonight for lot of different reasons but that's the emotional me speaking ,the logical me know it was for the better we split up.

but I wished I listened MORE growing up. I listened you know, but i was too eager to make my OWN mistakes, to learn from it.

it almost messed me up - I ended up dating the most manipulative girl I ever met, my 2nd girlfriend. I almost lost my identity but I'm a sharp guy and I catch up quickly. I played her too without her knowing, at the end of the day i hurt her as much as i thought she hurt me!
but i didn't feel any better for it. i ended up a player unable to open up to love. i had a few sexcapades with random girls for like a year, got addicted to porn at that time, had more sexcapades but got bored along the line.

I realized my self destructive behaviour was because I was hurt, I had loved with all I got and had been played. although I played the game too and ate as much as I did, that was never my mission or vision for the relationship.

I went for 2 years sabbatical from relationship and sex. I read books about sex and how to give orgasm, the ugly sides of girls and relationships, to understand all the ups and downs.

I was about clocking my 2 years and 2 months when love came searching for me in form of another beautiful damsel. we spent 3 months getting to know each other, actually by the 1st month she confessed her feelings for me, but I have been so out of the game I wanted to be sure I felt the same way about her and not for the sex.
by the 4th month we were dating, I treated her with insight (my reading paid off), cause I knew a lot about women and how they think, she felt confident telling me ALL (but I found out later it was MOST) of her secret. but I bleeped up. our sex life was great, greater than all the rest I have had subsequently- I thought from the books that knowing how to make a woman orgasm,will make her yours forever. LOL, a big lie.
you see i had learnt again to be faithful, I left her and travelled out for just two weeks- in that space of time she cheated thrice. why? she missed it so much she couldn't help but pleasure herself with the next best thing. we continued dating cause she begged like hell, her sister too. she claimed nobody pleasures her like I do, i thought she was joking until two of her best friend confirmed the gist to me separately about how she brags about my prowess, and they wanted a feel. i gave them both on separate occasions until I ended up dating one of them.
but I was now back to square one and dissatisfied with love and relationship, my sex life with her suffered cause I saw her as a tool to satisfy my own sexual needs and not in any way to please her. it lasted for just 4 months.

I went back to the drawing board, and spent nearly 2 years again on sabbatical before I met the girl I stayed faithful to, till we broke up over some personal issues.
I'm currently seeing someone else though, although a neighbor female friend of mine try to set me up a few months ago with a nude video call, but I dodge...gist sha still dey. share yours lets talk

You can reach me on dami.ojo@yahoo.com

Poshriel:

You can reach me on dami.ojo@yahoo.com

please check your mail dear

bigmic111:
but I try to keep our sex life moderate. not to the extreme I took with with my 3rd ex - cause i learnt from experience, when they cross that line there is no coming back.
I try to stay more emotionally afloat with her, it isn't always easy. sorry to any girl reading this but the average girls life and routine is BORING LOL. but things we do for Love

I swear.... Sometimes I wonder how dey live with themselves..... Dats y I don't bother trying to impress when am around them.... It's like putting a Mercedes engine in a Kia car.... It won't fit

abelprice:

I swear.... Sometimes I wonder how dey live with themselves..... Dats y I don't bother trying to impress when am around them.... It's like putting a Mercedes engine in a Kia car.... It won't fit

well you are talking about hole size, I'm actually talking about sex drive. trust me a female sex addict is by far worse than a male sex addict. she can bed a 1000 men a day is she wants too, a guy can't bed 1/10th of that number. he will just die.

I brought out the inner sex goddess in her but she couldn't control it. men I have work and stuffs to do, it's not only sex. we saw almost everyday and sex was always on the table, it was great but deep down I knew I couldn't keep up with this for long, what if I travelled for a month, she will screw with all my neighbors, she might even screw at work with such hyper sex drive and she will come back home to give me STI's I know nothing about.

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