Divine89:
Hello everybody. I am Nigerian based in France. My English it is not 100% perfect but I will try to make it possible for you to understand me with the help of google french to English translator and my story is also long sorry for that.

When I was 9 years old I joined my uncle, my mum's younger brother in France. He declared me as his daughter. During that time he only had one child, 2 years old. He and the wife were so loving to me. I never lacked anything in their house.

But when I turned 12, I went to secondary school. I met some bad friends there. This is where the problem started.I became a very difficult child. I will go to school come home late. My uncle will beat and beat me but I never listened. I smoked my first cigarette at 12 and had my first sex at 13 and I started running away from home to stay with boyfriends. Sometimes I can go for a week and when uncle reporta me missing, the police will be looking for me, then they will bring me back home.

Then at 14 I went to school and lied to my teacher that my uncle was abusing me. I told them he was beating me with belts, electric wire, they don’t give me foods and I really said a lot of bad things about them doing to me to make my teacher believe my story so they could take me away from them because I wanted freedom and my teacher believed me and reported to the police and child protection, they are people who take away abused children from their parents. They took custody of me and my uncle three children, the youngest was 6 months old to their care and they gave us to this white lady to care for us and my uncle and wife were arrested for child abuse and the police were doing some investigation.

After spending 1yr 9 months in care of the white lady I dropped out school. They found out that I was a difficult child that I lied to get freedom so they have decided to give my uncle his children back to him while I stayed in care of white people but my uncle had sworn because I made him lost his children for 1yr 9 months that I will never found happiness in my life and I will never enjoy the fruit of my labour which it is true as I am typing this.

I have given birth to 6 children by 6 men and none of the children is living with me. The first one was taken away from me at 2 months old because I beat her up and fractured her hands and I also tested positive for heroinn (drugs), so that did not stop me from giving birth second child was removed from my care 4 hours after birth she also tested positive for heroin the same way my other children were removed at birth too so I carry on with my lifestyles. I did not care about my children at that time all I care about was sex, alcohol and drugs this is what I wanted and I have been to prison several times for selling drugs and fraudsters. The longest I have spent in prison was 2 years then after i left prison, I met with this sister who introduced me to this church she attended so I went along with her, the pastor told me to confess my sin to him and promised it will be a secret between I, him and God which I did repented and accepted Jesus as my saviour. To be honest, my life did changed a lot, I fell the peace in my heart , enjoyed going to church every Sunday but this pastor went tell his wife my life story and the wife told everyone in church my life story and started using it against me so it made me so angry that I left the church in November 2017 without looking back. I have decided not to attend any church again. I have stopped alcohol, taking drugs and sleeping with men I no longer do it. I prayed at home, read my bible and behaving good and it's almost 2 years I havnt slept with a man and i went to look for my uncle asking him for forgiveness but he has refused and I send him many text messages begging him to forgive and I still no heard anything from him or the wife even their children I have tried to ask them forgiveness they have blocked me and they all want nothing to do with me even my own parents and siblings in Africa they have rejected me, none of them want to talk to me, my parents said i am dead to them, it is so painful I cry everyday in my prayers, as for my children 4 of them are adopted with new family. I can't see them again maybe until they are 18 years old If they want to know me if they don't want I will have no choice to accept it and my 2 youngest children i am only allowed to see them once a year in a children play centre with someone supervise because they don't let me to be alone with them and soon I will stop visiting them because they are planning to adopt them to a new family too that will mean I will have nobody on this earth.

I regret my mistake so bad I wish I could change it but it will no be impossible. I can't have more children because they will be removed from me like the others and I am only 31years old. I don't know if my repentance was genius because my family has refused to forgive me and my question goes like this if they never forgive me will I ever found happiness again or I will just have to accept it until I died?

Please, advise me in a Christian way maybe if there's more I can do and also prayed for me so my family will be able to forgive me and also pray for my two children that nobody will adopt them so I can get custody of them and i promised to be a good mother to them, please I am begging you in the name of God.

Concentrate on yourself!!! Forget your family, as a matter of fact, u di not have a family again, u lost them when u became foolish and wanted to experience life, good enough you have experienced the life you wanted.
For everything we do, we show a seed, do not think many of the things sown are just a quick fix u can rewrite, for many, they are irrevocable and permanent. This is one of them.
If I were your family I'll do the same...

Concentrate on yourself, and think of how u can become a better person, because you do not have any family, u have killed all of them.

Divine89:

My children are in the custody of the french authorities, according to them I will never have custody of them till they reach 18 years old because I am an unfit mother. only God grace can help me to have them back. Thank you

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Divine89:
Hello everybody. I am Nigerian based in France. My English it is not 100% perfect but I will try to make it possible for you to understand me with the help of google french to English translator and my story is also long sorry for that.

When I was 9 years old I joined my uncle, my mum's younger brother in France. He declared me as his daughter. During that time he only had one child, 2 years old. He and the wife were so loving to me. I never lacked anything in their house.

But when I turned 12, I went to secondary school. I met some bad friends there. This is where the problem started.I became a very difficult child. I will go to school come home late. My uncle will beat and beat me but I never listened. I smoked my first cigarette at 12 and had my first sex at 13 and I started running away from home to stay with boyfriends. Sometimes I can go for a week and when uncle reporta me missing, the police will be looking for me, then they will bring me back home.

Then at 14 I went to school and lied to my teacher that my uncle was abusing me. I told them he was beating me with belts, electric wire, they don’t give me foods and I really said a lot of bad things about them doing to me to make my teacher believe my story so they could take me away from them because I wanted freedom and my teacher believed me and reported to the police and child protection, they are people who take away abused children from their parents. They took custody of me and my uncle three children, the youngest was 6 months old to their care and they gave us to this white lady to care for us and my uncle and wife were arrested for child abuse and the police were doing some investigation.

After spending 1yr 9 months in care of the white lady I dropped out school. They found out that I was a difficult child that I lied to get freedom so they have decided to give my uncle his children back to him while I stayed in care of white people but my uncle had sworn because I made him lost his children for 1yr 9 months that I will never found happiness in my life and I will never enjoy the fruit of my labour which it is true as I am typing this.

I have given birth to 6 children by 6 men and none of the children is living with me. The first one was taken away from me at 2 months old because I beat her up and fractured her hands and I also tested positive for heroinn (drugs), so that did not stop me from giving birth second child was removed from my care 4 hours after birth she also tested positive for heroin the same way my other children were removed at birth too so I carry on with my lifestyles. I did not care about my children at that time all I care about was sex, alcohol and drugs this is what I wanted and I have been to prison several times for selling drugs and fraudsters. The longest I have spent in prison was 2 years then after i left prison, I met with this sister who introduced me to this church she attended so I went along with her, the pastor told me to confess my sin to him and promised it will be a secret between I, him and God which I did repented and accepted Jesus as my saviour. To be honest, my life did changed a lot, I fell the peace in my heart , enjoyed going to church every Sunday but this pastor went tell his wife my life story and the wife told everyone in church my life story and started using it against me so it made me so angry that I left the church in November 2017 without looking back. I have decided not to attend any church again. I have stopped alcohol, taking drugs and sleeping with men I no longer do it. I prayed at home, read my bible and behaving good and it's almost 2 years I havnt slept with a man and i went to look for my uncle asking him for forgiveness but he has refused and I send him many text messages begging him to forgive and I still no heard anything from him or the wife even their children I have tried to ask them forgiveness they have blocked me and they all want nothing to do with me even my own parents and siblings in Africa they have rejected me, none of them want to talk to me, my parents said i am dead to them, it is so painful I cry everyday in my prayers, as for my children 4 of them are adopted with new family. I can't see them again maybe until they are 18 years old If they want to know me if they don't want I will have no choice to accept it and my 2 youngest children i am only allowed to see them once a year in a children play centre with someone supervise because they don't let me to be alone with them and soon I will stop visiting them because they are planning to adopt them to a new family too that will mean I will have nobody on this earth.

I regret my mistake so bad I wish I could change it but it will no be impossible. I can't have more children because they will be removed from me like the others and I am only 31years old. I don't know if my repentance was genius because my family has refused to forgive me and my question goes like this if they never forgive me will I ever found happiness again or I will just have to accept it until I died?

Please, advise me in a Christian way maybe if there's more I can do and also prayed for me so my family will be able to forgive me and also pray for my two children that nobody will adopt them so I can get custody of them and i promised to be a good mother to them, please I am begging you in the name of God.

We all have choices. For whatever we do on earth, we made those choices. I would have prayed that your uncle forgives you. But no. I do not wish for them or any member of your family to forgive you. You deserve whatever you are getting.

I haven’t been married, I do not have kids. But the day I left naija, I cried,not because of anyone but for my younger sister daughter, I love her so much. That apart from my parents, she is the only reason why I would go to naija, just to see her. Now imagine what you did to your uncle and the wife. All they labored for for years, taken away because of your evil heart.

My sister. Whatever you are facing, you deserved it.

Millenniumlady:
Go let them know you're a change person so you can get you children back......Child support is not something to joke about you can build/buy a house from the cheque you'll be receiving from their dad's annually

na this thought enter your brain ?

Ningen:


What a terrible past.
Honestly, you're not fit to raise anyone.

Your ‘kids’ deserve better.
Please don't interfere with their lives.

If you've really changed, then move on.
Forgive yourself and love them from afar.

Sorry but I pray you stay far away from them.

She deserves a second chance and she will get it if she goes about it the right way. She’s definitely not the worst person. Many lost kids have done worse.

She can/has retraced her steps it’s left for her to convince others of this especially her family bt she will need more than a 2 sloppy jobs and a self isolated life. With no single person to vouch for her. She must find a decent partner or join a reputable organization.

She must be seen to have changed to convince anyone more especially her family who want nothing to do with her. She must do something outstanding and positive with her life.

Divine89

jaxxy:


She deserves a second chance and she will get it if she goes about it the right way. She’s definitely not the worst person. Many lost kids have done worse.

She can/has retraced her steps it’s left for her to convince others of this especially her family bt she will need more than a 2 sloppy jobs and a self isolated life. With no single person to vouch for her. She must find a decent partner or join a reputable organization.

She must be seen to have changed to convince anyone more especially her family who want nothing to do with her. She must do something outstanding and positive with her life.

Divine89

For someone who couldn’t forgive the pastor for leaking her secrets? Seeking forgiveness from people she ruined their lives? People that gave her what her birth parents couldn’t give her?

I am only human. But if I knew the family and the uncle, I would advice that they stay far away from this evil girl that broke a 2 months old babies arm.

Divine89:

My children are in the custody of the french authorities, according to them I will never have custody of them till they reach 18 years old because I am an unfit mother. only God grace can help me to have them back. Thank you

Can you start afresh??
Like, have a new baby, prove that you are now a good mother, and you can do it well this time around?

Millenniumlady:
This is deep but i think those men played you for having kids for them try to get custody of the kids so you can start earning from child support.

She was a drug addict.. She was stoned all the time. All she coverted was to take drugs. She only lived to take drugs. No one used her. Many trade sex for drugs. Her children were the unpleaant results of her lifestyle. The poor thing

Medicine After Death!!!

Divine89:

Lol child support money you said ? How much is child support money for 2 children ?because I have made so much money through my life with fraud and drugs money at 21 I was a rich playing with money buying rubbish and cars , I was changing cars like underwear but all that was vanity upon vanity because good life is with God and not money. I work 12 hours a day in the morning 6 am till 2pm and after that I only rest for an hour before I go to my second job 3pm to 7pm
I want my children no because of money because I am not a broke person I make money with my sweat I work hard , I have my flat and responsible, even if I get them back I will still have my jobs and I won’t stay at home waiting for child support money every month because I have touched more money than that.

Hi.... You don't have to pay such bitter people any attention. Focus on what needs be done. I wish we could see your pic

Millenniumlady:
Go let them know you're a change person so you can get you children back......Child support is not something to joke about you can build/buy a house from the cheque you'll be receiving from their dad's annually

Typical entitlement mentality. She should be the one paying child support to those men and also apologize to those children for bringing them into the world without cover. Thank God it's France we are talking about. What if it was Nigeria or some other backwater country with no social protection? That's how the children will turn to almajiri or some other terrible thing would be happening to them. She's just 31. Let her start over and move on.

See below.

Divine89:
Hello everybody. I am Nigerian based in France. My English it is not 100% perfect but I will try to make it possible for you to understand me with the help of google french to English translator and my story is also long sorry for that.

When I was 9 years old I joined my uncle, my mum's younger brother in France. He declared me as his daughter. During that time he only had one child, 2 years old. He and the wife were so loving to me. I never lacked anything in their house.

But when I turned 12, I went to secondary school. I met some bad friends there. This is where the problem started.I became a very difficult child. I will go to school come home late. My uncle will beat and beat me but I never listened. I smoked my first cigarette at 12 and had my first sex at 13 and I started running away from home to stay with boyfriends. Sometimes I can go for a week and when uncle reporta me missing, the police will be looking for me, then they will bring me back home.

Then at 14 I went to school and lied to my teacher that my uncle was abusing me. I told them he was beating me with belts, electric wire, they don’t give me foods and I really said a lot of bad things about them doing to me to make my teacher believe my story so they could take me away from them because I wanted freedom and my teacher believed me and reported to the police and child protection, they are people who take away abused children from their parents. They took custody of me and my uncle three children, the youngest was 6 months old to their care and they gave us to this white lady to care for us and my uncle and wife were arrested for child abuse and the police were doing some investigation.

After spending 1yr 9 months in care of the white lady I dropped out school. They found out that I was a difficult child that I lied to get freedom so they have decided to give my uncle his children back to him while I stayed in care of white people but my uncle had sworn because I made him lost his children for 1yr 9 months that I will never found happiness in my life and I will never enjoy the fruit of my labour which it is true as I am typing this.

I have given birth to 6 children by 6 men and none of the children is living with me. The first one was taken away from me at 2 months old because I beat her up and fractured her hands and I also tested positive for heroinn (drugs), so that did not stop me from giving birth second child was removed from my care 4 hours after birth she also tested positive for heroin the same way my other children were removed at birth too so I carry on with my lifestyles. I did not care about my children at that time all I care about was sex, alcohol and drugs this is what I wanted and I have been to prison several times for selling drugs and fraudsters. The longest I have spent in prison was 2 years then after i left prison, I met with this sister who introduced me to this church she attended so I went along with her, the pastor told me to confess my sin to him and promised it will be a secret between I, him and God which I did repented and accepted Jesus as my saviour. To be honest, my life did changed a lot, I fell the peace in my heart , enjoyed going to church every Sunday but this pastor went tell his wife my life story and the wife told everyone in church my life story and started using it against me so it made me so angry that I left the church in November 2017 without looking back. I have decided not to attend any church again. I have stopped alcohol, taking drugs and sleeping with men I no longer do it. I prayed at home, read my bible and behaving good and it's almost 2 years I havnt slept with a man and i went to look for my uncle asking him for forgiveness but he has refused and I send him many text messages begging him to forgive and I still no heard anything from him or the wife even their children I have tried to ask them forgiveness they have blocked me and they all want nothing to do with me even my own parents and siblings in Africa they have rejected me, none of them want to talk to me, my parents said i am dead to them, it is so painful I cry everyday in my prayers, as for my children 4 of them are adopted with new family. I can't see them again maybe until they are 18 years old If they want to know me if they don't want I will have no choice to accept it and my 2 youngest children i am only allowed to see them once a year in a children play centre with someone supervise because they don't let me to be alone with them and soon I will stop visiting them because they are planning to adopt them to a new family too that will mean I will have nobody on this earth.

I regret my mistake so bad I wish I could change it but it will no be impossible. I can't have more children because they will be removed from me like the others and I am only 31years old. I don't know if my repentance was genius because my family has refused to forgive me and my question goes like this if they never forgive me will I ever found happiness again or I will just have to accept it until I died?

Please, advise me in a Christian way maybe if there's more I can do and also prayed for me so my family will be able to forgive me and also pray for my two children that nobody will adopt them so I can get custody of them and i promised to be a good mother to them, please I am begging you in the name of God.

For you to overcome your anxieties right now I think you need to be closer to God. Yes you have taken some good steps now but you need the accurate knowledge of God.

Where you are in France there are people who can help you to get better and learn about God. They are called Jehovah's Witnesses. Your case is not a strange one to them as many people like you have been helped. They will surely treat you with much love unlike what happened to you in that church you attended. Give it a try.

So if you can reach out to them they will be eager to help you out. You can check online for their closest address to you. You can follow this link

https://www.jw.org/en/jehovahs-witnesses/request-a-visit/

When it opens check the upper part of the page to change the site language to French. I sent you an email message. You can reply for other suggestions and to ask me questions. You can chat me up on +234.81.65.35.97.46. Or email formailsalone(at)gmail (dot)com

Expecting your response.

gessica:
Na wa o, hmmm.. what you put your uncle through is just the height of it. I'll advice you forget about your last two kids and also forget about asking for forgiveness from those you've offended. The pain you caused them will only take the grace of God to forgive. Forget the past and everyone in it and start afresh.

Best advice

stormborn28:
you are joking.. she can never be free or be at peace if those she offended did not forgive her... even God said we should seek the forgiveness of those who we offended.. always tell truth.. don't sweet mouth anybody for them to feel good

Free from what exactly? She has asked for forgiveness and should move on. That her uncle forgives her or not is inconsequential. She is only guilt-tripping by seeking her uncle's forgiveness. She is her own problem. Seeking her Uncle's forgiveness is a bit selfish if you ask me. As a father, what she did is unforgivable but I do not agree that her life well being depends on her Uncle's forgiveness.

dazzlingd:
Animal on the loose,

All these nairaland sympathisers dont know shit....
Shes after child support money.
But u ain't getting anything, go back to your hoeing frustrated life...born again my ass

Tell me about it. I suspect she's mentally ill aswell to do such to a kid and be using.

Millenniumlady:
Go let them know you're a change person so you can get you children back......Child support is not something to joke about you can build/buy a house from the cheque you'll be receiving from their dad's annually

I don't understand this. Should she look for the (not her) children because she has really changed or because they are her meal ticket (via child support)?
Those children are not with their "fathers" but legally adopted.

In my opinion, looking for them so as to get child support is another form of abuse. After they survived her irresponsibility, she shouldn't use them as economic bargaining tools. She should get a job, that is responsible behaviour.

Anyway, in this age of "baby Mama", what do I know?

adebayour26:
Do you have a job?
The past is dark actually but you can't go back to it.
Forgive yourself, am sure God has forgiven you.
Get busy with your job. Study the Bible. You're just 31. Build yourself. You can involve yourself more in humanitarian service. With this, you'd be satisfied with the new life you have.

Do you think God will forgive wen the person you wronged is yet to forgive?

Forgiveness is not among the ten commandments

Divine89:

Lol child support money you said ? How much is child support money for 2 children ?because I have made so much money through my life with fraud and drugs money at 21 I was a rich playing with money buying rubbish and cars , I was changing cars like underwear but all that was vanity upon vanity because good life is with God and not money. I work 12 hours a day in the morning 6 am till 2pm and after that I only rest for an hour before I go to my second job 3pm to 7pm
I want my children no because of money because I am not a broke person I make money with my sweat I work hard , I have my flat and responsible, even if I get them back I will still have my jobs and I won’t stay at home waiting for child support money every month because I have touched more money than that.

The first thing to do is to believe that you have been forgiven by all. Second thing is to change your prayer point from more of forgiveness to pleading with God to reconcile you with your family for them to accept you back. You will not understand the efficacy of sincere prayer to God until you pray one and it start manifesting. It might take time but the result will surely come. Jesus said, pray until your joy is fulfilled, you should relent in praying for what you want in your life, at least, God is always interested in peace and love in every family, He will make it happen to you. God may even give you, as an extra, a good loving family again, I mean, a new loving husband and children, at a time you least expect.

May the peace of the Lord be with you.

You have the Word of God now, believe it and allow the spirit of God to minister life to you

You have a whole lot of forgiving to do starting with yourself, your church members, your mistakes and your past. Let it all go first and let God piece you back together. You have a powerful story, a great testimony and the makings of an even greater witnessing experience but you're still running your own show and you can't save yourself, only Jesus can.

Next thing, seek forgiveness but don't die trying to get it, what you need is peace and reconciliation not penance and self-flagellation.

Take care

NB
This also goes to show that one needs to be very careful before jumping in to judge based reported accounts. Imagine the burden, trauma and stigma her uncle lived under for years. Imagine how everyone must've thought that "yes, he's an abuser, rapist etc" not knowing it was all lies.

Some pple do really make all the sh!t they cryingly report up, may God deliver us from evil trials.

WIPING AWAY YOUR AND TOTAL RESTORATION IS SURE

Please, if you have sincerity confessed and believed God, stand by it. Let it be settled in your heart that God has forgiven you.

In Acts 20, Apostle Paul said that he was free from the blood of ALL men. He forgiveness was complete both to himself and those he offended.
With time, those who refused to welcome him starred doing so. Your actions took some years to hurt your Uncle and immediate family. Just remain a child of God as a new creation, focus on God what He wants from you, that is, total devotion to Him.

If you follow God, with time, your character will begin to bear positive fruits that will testify of your regeneration. Over the years, you have been deceived, now do not allow yourself to deceived anymore with the devil's baits. Change your circle of friends and ungodly characters. Do not go back to them anymore.

Find a gospel Church which believes in the totality of God's word. Start your worship there and prayerfully ask ask the area (department) He wants you to serve Him. While putting your hole focus on God, find a role model, a spiritual woman , as a mother for spiritual guide.

Your testimonies will be loud and clear. Your people, including your children will receive you warmly again.

God bless you, my beloved.

ejanla077:


Do you think God will forgive wen the person you wronged is yet to forgive?

Forgiveness is not among the ten commandments

Aahhh, eleyi gidi gan oooo.
Pls back this up with a biblical fact.

What if the person you offend refuse to forgive, does that mean you will die unforgiven?

Has God's standard suddenly become dependent on human factor.

My dear your story it's so sad and touching.. what you did has a repercussion and like they said karma is a b**ch but that doesn't mean you can't find redemption. It annoys me the most that churches that are meant to server as healer to our wound end up hurts us more, that's why I tell people when you leave religion you find God. but thank God you did loose faith in him and that's a step in right direction. You've done well acknowledging your mistakes and apologizing to but don't expect the road to redemption to be easy as even duo you've repented doesn't mean you won't suffer for your crime. Here are some to help you :1)try do praying and fasting for at least three days straight between 6 am to 12 noon or any length you can go up 6pm max daily. 2) try do some charity in your neighbourhood as in giving arms to the less privileged ( especially kids) try buy things kids would love and give them.3) do some community services in your neighbourhood. Note: do them with pure heart and genuinely, I know it will cost a some money but do it in good faith. Also, know it's a process don't expect it to workout immediately you have done all I have said but surely it will definitely workout with time. God will use massively to save others. Amen keep trusting him

Divine89:
Hello everybody. I am Nigerian based in France. My English it is not 100% perfect but I will try to make it possible for you to understand me with the help of google french to English translator and my story is also long sorry for that.

When I was 9 years old I joined my uncle, my mum's younger brother in France. He declared me as his daughter. During that time he only had one child, 2 years old. He and the wife were so loving to me. I never lacked anything in their house.

But when I turned 12, I went to secondary school. I met some bad friends there. This is where the problem started.I became a very difficult child. I will go to school come home late. My uncle will beat and beat me but I never listened. I smoked my first cigarette at 12 and had my first sex at 13 and I started running away from home to stay with boyfriends. Sometimes I can go for a week and when uncle reporta me missing, the police will be looking for me, then they will bring me back home.

Then at 14 I went to school and lied to my teacher that my uncle was abusing me. I told them he was beating me with belts, electric wire, they don’t give me foods and I really said a lot of bad things about them doing to me to make my teacher believe my story so they could take me away from them because I wanted freedom and my teacher believed me and reported to the police and child protection, they are people who take away abused children from their parents. They took custody of me and my uncle three children, the youngest was 6 months old to their care and they gave us to this white lady to care for us and my uncle and wife were arrested for child abuse and the police were doing some investigation.

After spending 1yr 9 months in care of the white lady I dropped out school. They found out that I was a difficult child that I lied to get freedom so they have decided to give my uncle his children back to him while I stayed in care of white people but my uncle had sworn because I made him lost his children for 1yr 9 months that I will never found happiness in my life and I will never enjoy the fruit of my labour which it is true as I am typing this.

I have given birth to 6 children by 6 men and none of the children is living with me. The first one was taken away from me at 2 months old because I beat her up and fractured her hands and I also tested positive for heroinn (drugs), so that did not stop me from giving birth second child was removed from my care 4 hours after birth she also tested positive for heroin the same way my other children were removed at birth too so I carry on with my lifestyles. I did not care about my children at that time all I care about was sex, alcohol and drugs this is what I wanted and I have been to prison several times for selling drugs and fraudsters. The longest I have spent in prison was 2 years then after i left prison, I met with this sister who introduced me to this church she attended so I went along with her, the pastor told me to confess my sin to him and promised it will be a secret between I, him and God which I did repented and accepted Jesus as my saviour. To be honest, my life did changed a lot, I fell the peace in my heart , enjoyed going to church every Sunday but this pastor went tell his wife my life story and the wife told everyone in church my life story and started using it against me so it made me so angry that I left the church in November 2017 without looking back. I have decided not to attend any church again. I have stopped alcohol, taking drugs and sleeping with men I no longer do it. I prayed at home, read my bible and behaving good and it's almost 2 years I havnt slept with a man and i went to look for my uncle asking him for forgiveness but he has refused and I send him many text messages begging him to forgive and I still no heard anything from him or the wife even their children I have tried to ask them forgiveness they have blocked me and they all want nothing to do with me even my own parents and siblings in Africa they have rejected me, none of them want to talk to me, my parents said i am dead to them, it is so painful I cry everyday in my prayers, as for my children 4 of them are adopted with new family. I can't see them again maybe until they are 18 years old If they want to know me if they don't want I will have no choice to accept it and my 2 youngest children i am only allowed to see them once a year in a children play centre with someone supervise because they don't let me to be alone with them and soon I will stop visiting them because they are planning to adopt them to a new family too that will mean I will have nobody on this earth.

I regret my mistake so bad I wish I could change it but it will no be impossible. I can't have more children because they will be removed from me like the others and I am only 31years old. I don't know if my repentance was genius because my family has refused to forgive me and my question goes like this if they never forgive me will I ever found happiness again or I will just have to accept it until I died?

Please, advise me in a Christian way maybe if there's more I can do and also prayed for me so my family will be able to forgive me and also pray for my two children that nobody will adopt them so I can get custody of them and i promised to be a good mother to them, please I am begging you in the name of God.

Wao, so deep. Straight from the heart.

My dear, you are not all alone, you are currently at the right place is life. Hold on a little, pray more for direction. Pray fervently to avoid making any wrong moves. The less mistakes you make the better you will become.
Very soon you will turn the curve and people will see the new you and come around. Your family might not become your friends but they will forgive you and respect you.

Pick up a skill, learn something, age is very much on your side.

You are not alone, you are on track, God for you cover and you’re headed right up

What is happening to you is karma. Pray for God to forgive you. If God forgives, every other person issue is a minor.
But note, no sin is without punishment. You're reaping the fruit you sowed.

My advice: look for another Church and start attending again while serving God fervently but don't tell anyone your story again. Make Church members your new family, send gifts to those you have offended and continue asking for forgiveness. Wait till your children are 18 before asking them to come to you and read the Bible always for comfort. You can ask people that your Uncle respect alot e.g. his Pastor to help you beg him for forgiveness. You should pray always because prayer changes situations. Look for a very difficult job to do. This will help to occupy your mind and time and help time to pass quickly. God bless you.

gessica:
Na wa o, hmmm.. what you put your uncle through is just the height of it. I'll advice you forget about your last two kids and also forget about asking for forgiveness from those you've offended. The pain you caused them will only take the grace of God to forgive. Forget the past and everyone in it and start afresh.

Believe women they all shouted �� just see what you did to another human... ��

Divine89:

I have been here for 22 years I have no plan to go back to Nigeria the opportunity I have here it’s not the same in Nigeria. , my children my life are here in this country and I can’t go and leave them behind. I have faith that I will have the 2 youngest back

You are from which tribe? And again please don't try to come back to this shit hole country, just plan and upgrade yourself educationally and find something that gives you joy.

The Bible says we "overcame him by the Blood of the Lamb." Revelations 12:11
Are your parents Christians. If they are, they need to know the words of Jesus, else they'll die in their sins.

Please show them this parable story, if you can still access them or your uncle Mathew18:21-35

For a strong church, I recommend to you
CHOSENTVOFFCIAL, on YouTube. Worship days are Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday, 10-11am GMT. You can just try once and you will believe. Remember that the most important virtue in a Christian's life is Holiness. I believe Righteousness89 can also vouch for this.

I pray for your joy and peace in Christ Jesus in Jesus name, Amen.

Your story tells one truth that you have only cared for one thing alone your SELF,
that despite all your uncle did you still could do what you did to him all cos of your SELF,
you could hurt your 2 months old baby because of your SELF,
stop living for your SELF alone and you will soon realise true peace and happiness

MrPRevailer:
The Bible says we "overcame him by the Blood of the Lamb." Revelations 12:11
Are your parents Christians. If they are, they need to know the words of Jesus, else they'll die in their sins.

Please show them this parable story, if you can still access them or your uncle Mathew18:21-35

For a strong church, I recommend to you
CHOSENTVOFFCIAL, on YouTube. Worship days are Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday, 10-11am GMT. You can just try once and you will believe. Remember that the most important thing in a Christian's life is Holiness. I believe Righteousness89 can also vouch for this.

I pray for your joy and peace in Christ Jesus in Jesus name, Amen.

My Sister Divine89 just do as This Brother MrPRevailer says.

I Believe this is a divine arrangement!

Yesterday and through the Night I was disturbed in the spirit about this.

Search for CHOSENTVOFFICIAL ON YouTube.

Follow it Massively!

I am Intrested in Hearing your Testimony

SoNature:


Nobody played her

Didn't you read the part that says she tested positive for banned substances?

Why would the government leave kids in the care of a woman who is a habitual drug peddler?

Just like a poster once said, she has to forget about her past and move on.

She has wronged a lot of people

This! Most things can be forgiven-murder,treason,arson etc,etc but child abuse and FAKE MOLESTATION ALLEGATIONS AGAINST INNOCENT FAMILY!? That's a bridge too far. She could start afresh,rmbr the lessons of drugs and God and build a new life for herself far far away, another world away,somewhere like L America or even New Zealand. Those kids are gone for good.