5 years ago I just left school at 19; secondary.There's a girl that was my friend. I had been watching porn since 14 years of age. So we are always talking . We chat naughtily so I assume she was a bad girl. We met up at my place. My parents weren't around that period. So she came with some of our friends.
The guys were busy playing football and the girls gisting. We then started talking then I lured her in and shut the door. I forcefully opened her clothes and pressed her breasts.
I wanted to penetrate but I saw her crying. I felt the pain in my heart. I said this is not me. I left her and walked a long distance crying. They knew me as a good boy but I ruined it.
On getting home I met her parents and mine. It was the end for me. I wasn't beaten. She said I penetrated her Anus but who was I to object?.
Since then everybody just give me a bit of distance. I haven't even gone to school yet. I battled this for three years. It was just 2019 I started tutorials in A different area. I have stop sleeping with girls but I don't date anybody. I have said I won't date any girl or marry incase a rape scandal occur in the future
Anyways stay away from porn.

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Sorry for your case bro.....but still we move

lol I don't know why I find it funny buh Sha guy, it's wise not to focus on the past and future, focus on now bruh it's a gift that's why it's called the present. Always remember this line. I know you might be or might have been depressed but it's wat it is you can't change it. Peace.

Probabl3:

learn to forgive yourself and it shouldn't stop you from dating or getting married, just that you must let your partner know.

Good luck