Sincerely, life can be so unfair @ times& I feel it shud end. I remember 2yrs ago, wen I lost a bank job offer @ d tail end of d recruitment process&it was like I shud commit sucide. Considering I'm d first born&d whole family looked up 2 me & xpected d job 2 be a breakthru 4 our family financially. The pay was very lucrative&my siblings were still in skool. It was like a guarantee dat dere skooling won't stop.

Now screwing up made it look like a curse&I remember telling God one night in dat period, "Father as I sleep, please don't allow me 2 see d dawn of a new day" I felt death was the best optn dat tym&i woke up and again asked God, "why did u wake me up". I didn't want 2 commit sucide cos its a sin&it means double suffering both on earth&in hell. I wanted 2 give God d choice since he giveth&taketh.

But I look back&aldo I got anoda job which wen I calculated d %decrease in salary, it was over 80% wen I started, I still thank God 4 his mercies. Nw I'm able 2 take care of my sibilings, I feel proud of myself cos I feed my family with d little I earn, I ensure dey are very comfortable, but I must confess it comes with a lot of sacrifice&discipline. I sumtyms feel I came 2 dis world for dem becos, dey always came first b4 me.

But sumtimes wen I'm faced with pressures of life again, den I get tired&look up 2 him& he gives me hope. Most ppl think its only during relatnship probs dat ppl want 2 commit sucide, life is way more dan dose issues.

Pls share urs, pardon my epistle.

No I haven't. Nothing will ever make me do that