well i got this from the internet and i think it will be of great help to me and other wankers if i share

http://www.nofap.org/forum/showthread.php?5064-Sick-of-the-brain-fog-time-for-change

I am a 30 year old male. I've been fapping ever since i was probably 14 or 15, usually 5x+ a day.

I should've known that it was having a negative effect on my life. I remember when i was 17/18 i would fap and soon after I'd been very irritable, and it'd last a while. I lost alot of friends during his period because i'd pretty much tell them to Bleep off.

Thinking back now, i didn't know it was the addiction creating my memory problem, but i remember a few times i couldn't remember at all what i have done earlier in the day, which used to be so fine.

I soon developed a weird depression, and visual problems, and stopped being social. I lacked any motivation.

It all got weirder around the time i was 18. For some reason, my body started to become really dry. My eyes developed severe light sensitivity, and also visual snow started. I didn't realize that this could be related to fapping, but i've read many posts on here from people who had it. I suppose all the brain chemicals going funky can cause that.

Soon after that is when i hit deep. Around the time i was 23. My memory and concentration was GONE. I remember one time someone came over, and i could not remember their face. Someone would tell me something, and i couldn't remember what they said, and around that time i also developed a major weeek long headache, that included alot of anxiety and depersonalization.

After this is when the complete and constant fog started, which i have lived with for the last 10 years. The fog would be a slight headache, or more extreme, More visual problems. ear ringing. No memory at all, lack of any concentration, or deep thoughts.

On time when i was around 25 i remember i fapped like 8 times that day, i was sick and its just something i did. I was so extremely fatigued after that. I literally slept for days, and was sitll so tired. I could wake up for about 15 min a ta time, but then fall back to sleep. This pretty much freaked me out, and i forced myself to stay awake, ever since then the tiredness and brain fog has been at least doubled.

I would go to the doctor, they'd always do all the blood work. and end up just saying i was depressed. well, duh

In the last few years i learned about anxiety, and what depersonalization is, so i pretty much got rid of that on my own. I learned to not think too much a bout my brain fog, headaches, and other things. Which has gotten rid of my anxiety.

I always had a feeling it was the fapping doing this. But, every time you read something, it says fapping is good for you, no way anything bad could come from it right? No way porn addiction can affect you like this right?

So i continued my fapping. When my symptoms and brain got worse, it seemed like i'd fap more just for some form of happiness. Even though, I can barely get hard anymore, and i don't even have much of a urge for sex most of these times. Not to mention, that orgasms havent felt good for at least 10 years.

I remember when i was 14 and started it felt so great. Like heaven, i'd sit there for hours afterwards like wow. ha, anymore it i ejaculate, and no major brain reaction happens like the wow factor. I can only assume this is because something is depleted?

I know for sure i don't feel much anymore, as in emotions. Which means i also don't dream, but since my brain is out of wack i don't remember the dreams anyways.

Since i've been in this state i don't feel much love, i don't even feel much hate, and i have no ambitions or goals anymore. I used to be such a caring, imaginative dreamer person back before all this started.

I've tried to stop fapping several times in the past. I could go 20 days and not notice much change. So i then told myself it's not the fapping creating these problems, and went back down the rabbit hole.

Something happen a month ago that opened my eyes to that this is probably my problem.

My new years resolution was to quit fapping. But, i wasn't going to be hard on myself (lol) i was going to just stop doing it so much, and just do it whenever the urge happen. I think i went a few weeks, and then i did it. IMMEDIATELY after i fapped i had this huge headache on the top back of my head, and a deep brain fog that usually only randomly comes and goes.

There is no way that i could deny then that this is having some effect on my brain.
It's time to stop bullshitting myself.

I just turned 30. I'm still a virgin, because i never needed to go out and have sex, i just fapped. Tired of headaches, brain fog, and not being myself. I miss being myself.

I'm not goin to fapp anymore. I can't i had enough of this. That event i just mentioned was an awakener for me. Doctors say there is nothing wrong with me, so it has to be this right?

I havent fapped since my birth day, which was 8 days ago. The fog is still here. Brain fog wasnt as deep, but today its pretty deep, which is weird because today is the first day i even had a tingle down there. Still no erection.

Im wanting to start dating again, and been talking to girls. I seem to be having mood swings and get mad and irritated at things easily. Also a thing that bothers me is my lack of a libido, and i worry that i couldn't even have sex right now if i tried.
There is a special girl that i don't want to chase a way. She is actually the main reason im making all these changes finally in my life. i want to be happy.

So, i started weight lifting, jogging, and no fapping. I know there is alot of hormonal things going on with me. so one day i'll be okay, then the next i'll be a prick. but i hope all this clears up soon.

I hope this brain fog clears up quickly too, but i worry this could take months or even a year. Because i noticed the brain fog 10 years ago, and still kept my constant fapping up, so maybe there is something deep that needs to be repaired. Maybe it'll take some more time.

I do work a full time job, so it kinda keeps me distracted some.
we'll see what happens.

I'll report my progress here.

As of now, there is no urges, no real improvements, or anything. but its only been a week.
I'm NOT going to relapse this time. Not even going to think of looking at porn.

the last 10 years of my life have been wasted. I don't want the next 10 to be as well.

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At safari29

I'm sorry about your story, u might be suffering from depersonalization due to anxiety and thinking too much.... Just stay busy, don't overthink, find new hobbies, be good to ur self.. Be sure to check ur sef if u re suffering from depersonalization or not.. Stay happy

@ safari29

I'm sorry about your story, u might be suffering from depersonalization due to anxiety, thinking too much and too much self analyzing .... Try Stop being an introvert, Just stay busy, don't overthink, find new hobbies, be good to ur self.. Be sure to check ur sef if u re suffering from depersonalization or not.. Stay happy

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