In a clearer undstanding i wish i cud love n set my heart to be loved,i was in my blue mood n stuctured n taken away by imagination as i've already vowed to kiss dating goodbye.....kasim came up in the evening and gave me a hot kiss on my cheeks...to me it was an unexpected action,i frowned up n put up a fake smile atleast to justify my peace,kasim looked at me with a smile and i believe i love him so much but i wonder how much i do....u don't seem to love me do you?kasim asked me...i puzzled up my thought and managed my words with him''yea i love you so much but i av a dream i wish to workhard for to get if i shld continue with you kissing my lips and taking me sensational i will never achieve those dreams'" i said boldly to him,he looked at me speechless,i have no other option than to leave him n same to him,because he wanted a full relationship that will av him kiss n touch me sensationally,but that could cause me my future u know...i cried for him like a dead man but my reason of letting go which is my future gave me consolations that hard work n concentration can give me a man that will respect me for who i am because@20 years of age i've got better future ahead of me to fix up....though i love n cherished kasim but not to the detriment of my own future i believe if he truly loves me he will respect my wish but contrary to my wish 2weeks later kasim got himself another girl friend to me it was painful because i loved him but i encouraged my self with the dreams i av...