My heart is racing, my head is confused i feel weird. I was born in the early 90's and i was given a strange name that i know i in this country only i bear. I was very little when i noticed a strange obsession that girls/women had with me. I tried to understand it but i chould never get why they always praised me, complimented me, were very friendly to me, flirted with me, had crushes on me and all the things other guys dreamed about came so easily to me. I became a teenager and this strange obsession continued, i began to worry because i just wanted to understand why i was "special" to all these girls. Personally i was a very gentle and cool kid and this followed me into my teens, i get that people love gentle respectful people but there was something that made the love people had for me extreme which i couldnt figure out, it was like they saw something beautiful that i couldnt ever see. When i left secondary school and began approaching my youth (early 20's) i didnt find all the love flattering and complimenting anymore as i began to rebel against it. First i stopped being polite with people, i stopped flirting back with the numerous girls that had crushes on me, i got razz tattoos, made weird haircuts, dressed arrogantly, all these i did just to scare people away from me, especially girls who naturally are always drawn to me. Alas!, it worked! I noticed most girls were not as attracted to me as they used to, but i still see the admiration in their eyes and they dont fail to make subtle jokes like "ni*** why did you change, what happened to you?" * While touching my face with admiration and passion* i just sit there and think "what do these girls really want from me". I have ganared so much feminine enemies since my rebellious move, as i now seem stuck up and arrogant but even from a distance these girls still love me. It shows in their countenances. Here i am today feeling the need to share the deep thoughts in my head to the world, as i keep wondering even till date why people think i am special (if i am even special), i dont regret anything but i just wish i knew why i am loved so much maybe it would have made me a better person and not a rebellious one. Sigh. Do you feel the same about yourself?

That awkward moment when u have no idea of what OP is saying... So u just roll your eyes and leave, and cussing him for wasting your mb

^^^Damn.


The OP is a gonner

No i dont

ni*** puleaseee..whatchu talkin' bout

Op morale of ur story or ...

what is this one saying...

:/:|Have you been smoking again?

Its not a story, its one of those things that happen that people dont talk about. Like when u know a girl likes u but she never said she does, and u cant talk about it because u cant prove it but its true. U wont get my write up except u are deep in thinking. No offense guys its psychological.

I won't say much....let's just say most people will see this as self-aggrandizement. But these things come easy to some people. I know all about it.

This is one thing I hate about Romance section. So many SICK DICKKS calling themselves guys.

Op you're still suffering from niavity buh don't worry by the time you start hustling those sick thoughts will fly out of your head.

I can perfectly relate to what you're talking about. You once felt the way you did, you got all the love. You changed (deliberately), you got less of the love and attention. You're not far from getting the answers you so much crave. There is something about you people love which is just the way you were. If it's not too late, retrace your steps, revel in the showers of love and affection (should they come back). Only then can you ask why. You can't ask why you had what you don't have anymore. Live well within the present.

Some people are just gluttons for bashing.

*yawns and walks out of thread.....

jorlons:
This is one thing I hate about Romance section. So many SICK DICKKS calling themselves guys.
Op you're still suffering from niavity buh don't worry by the time you start hustling those sick thoughts will fly out of your head.

. Very cold and harsh. but also true. No fine boy on the streets. enjoy it while it lasts.

I understand exactly what you ar talking about. This almost fit to my own life well except for the tattoo an piercing
It was so bad that in my junior school days girls will write letters and put it in my bag hehe when my mom found out let me not even try to remember that day I got so much attention that whenever am not in school my teachers wld come over to ask y. the same thin happened to my mom even till date she has not lost the attention but I have. I wanted to but now I just can't get it back cuz av changed so much dat I can't go back to who I was I don't smile except on naira land I don't even know how to relate with people again tho av always loved been alone but what I got from my change was somfin bad not that people don't want to be with me they want to like before but my attitude keeps them afar I want to chang but I don't know how to