CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE

Will I always be in dilemma when
trying to comprehend the human heart?
As though I've seen a host of angel
I fixed my gaze uninterruptedly hopeful
to be right this time around
But it was this same smile I was welcomed
with yesterday and the opposite was the outcome.

Like a confused rat I searched to find new signs
that will counter that of yesterday and make
me reassured that I am on track, but all efforts
Seemed ineffectual.

Should I always stick to positive assumptions?
if I do, they will say am naive
Should I always stick to negative assumptions?
If I do, they will say am distrustful
Just like a blind man's inability to see the world
I was blind as to what might be going on in the heart

Maybe God would have made the chest a bit
transparent for me to at least have a glimpse
of what's goings-on within.
Who understands the human heart?
Oh! The heart of man
Trying to understand you is a lost cause
Which is why I will forever be caught in the middle