My brother is autistic
My mother died recently after suffering and dying of Cancer
My family is not close how I want it to be
I'm 24 whilst my mates are doing masters I am doing a course that is designed for 16-19 year olds, I have no degree or qualification past secondary school
Very insecure about my appearance and life
Jobless
Poor (on government welfare)
Had issues with emotional and mental health all my life and more

When I left school people thought I would be a big ahog as I was so hard working and determined but then my life went downhill from there.

Where has God got me? I'm a virgin age 24 yet my mum will never see my kids whilst my friend is 24 had a baby out of wedlock living with boyfriend their mother is alive and healthy. My bullies bullied me to the point of me being depressed in school, yet they are all succeeding etc and my life is a mess.

Help me, don't tell me about God because he isn't real I have realised that, I used to be such a strong christian but my life has crashed before my eyes.

At least you have government welfare.
Us here, our welfare is from the Lord.