I remember when i was younger, full of dreams and shìt. The energy was there and i wanted to become lot of things. But now that i am almost 30, i feel like an old man. I met a beautiful young girl the other day, she is from my place, i remember i used to coordinate them in childrens class at the church teaching them 10 commandments. Now she is all grown up, big and even dating a "senior man" that i know. All this reinforces the fact that i am already getting old and the feeling is getting deeper everyday.

Right now i am sitting at the balcony wondering "what do i want out if life?", and the answer is diff from the way it used to be wayback. When i was in my teen yrs, i wanted to become a president someday, i wanted to change the world, i wanted to impact my generation.
And i used to look down on the old folks esp my dad for not feeling the drive i used to feel, why would sn decide not to push forward and just choose to go to bars, drink and laugh with friends all the time? So i used to think. But after being kicked multiple times in the face into the mud by the boots of life, all i want now is to get a self con, get a TV, buy bitcoin, get a steady girl friend and be happy ever after. I guess all i want now is just to be happy, i dont care about any other shìt anymore, i am not interested in changing the world or some bullshit. But all those things seems to be a lofty dream this days considerin Nigerian daily daily problems.

For instance, you want to get a gf, Big problem as our girls are not helping matters. 2. I starved myself for 3yrs, saved money to start a biz and it crashed on me like fallen sharp knives due to our govt bad policies that doesnt help the poor.
At this stage i dont even know what i want anymore. I guess my dad was right, i might just resign to fate and start winging it, you know..going to bars, laughing with friends and stuff.
Now to put it straight, What do you want out of life?

I want for nothing because ALL my needs are ALWAYS met