Bro, I feel your pain and i know how real it is. A lot of people here speak of depression as a joke. Most have not really lost something or someone precious to them. They are unable to understand the pain and hoplessness that comes with it.
I have been there. I have lost one that i loved so much, It was as if my heart was removed physically, then crushed underneath, then removed again and crushed. Over and over and over again. I became hypertensive, lost my very lucrative job, at times, i could not breath again.I wanted to stay with her at the grave, keep her company, protect her.... life lost its meaning.
But I survived and how?
I bid her good bye. Stopped going to the grave- it opens fresh wonds.
I gave away everything that she had. They reminded me of her, clothes, shoes, pictures etc.
I moved away from the home. I couldnt bear stepping into the room anymore. Couldn't bear passing the hospital which was close to the house, where she lay...dead.
I continued to believe in God, gradually, i started recovering and restoration followed.
I never forgot, i wont forget her, but ive learnt to think only good of her and trust God. Im no longer lonely, God indeed restored.
Be strong bro, and keep your head up, there is still a life out there and she wants the best for you.

LiveByNight:


These words ... I don't know what to type right now or why my hand is shaking so much

I don't know why my eyes are hurting so much or why these words have made my heart bleed so much

But thank you for your kind words , they carry much more weight than you could ever know

Thank you indeed

Yagazie2016:
Bro, I feel your pain and i know how real it is. A lot of people here speak of depression as a joke. Most have not really lost something or someone precious to them. They are unable to understand the pain and hoplessness that comes with it.
I have been there. I have lost one that i loved so much, It was as if my heart was removed physically, then crushed underneath, then removed again and crushed. Over and over and over again. I became hypertensive, lost my very lucrative job, at times, i could not breath again.I wanted to stay with her at the grave, keep her company, protect her.... life lost its meaning.
But I survived and how?
I bid her good bye. Stopped going to the grave- it opens fresh wonds.
I gave away everything that she had. They reminded me of her, clothes, shoes, pictures etc.
I moved away from the home. I couldnt bear stepping into the room anymore. Couldn't bear passing the hospital which was close to the house, where she lay...dead.
I continued to believe in God, gradually, i started recovering and restoration followed.
I never forgot, i wont forget her, but ive learnt to think only good of her and trust God. Im no longer lonely, God indeed restored.
Be strong bro, and keep your head up, there is still a life out there and she wants the best for you.

You know the pains and it feels good reading this and knowing someone else went through this

I lost three jobs in the beginning, couldn't keep a job in the first two years of her passing

She was the one who handled negotiations and related with artisans when pricing services I was never good at it

I degenerated into talking to myself visibly at one point so I took some time off working to travel returned last feeling better , I contemplated suicide alot more times than I would like to admit

While I respect your strength bro I can't stop celebrating her birthday yearly or delete her WhatsApp contact or her pictures in my cloud folders

I still have her some of her voice notes and I listen to them.. it's been 5 yeses plus but feels like yesterday...too soon , we always had big plans for my 40th birthday and I am turning 40 in June so that's going to be a boomer

Like feels less colorful but at times i get through with three packs of cigarette and focus on work related stuff

I have lost the need for human intimacy and just watch dog shows whenever I get a chance

I stopped honoring child dedication and child naming ceremony invites because I don't want to be reminded of what could.have been

I don't fear lung cancer or some illness cause anything that curs short this existence would only be showing me a mercy so I just coast through each day

I won't cut my life myself, no I am.past that but death doesn't scare me anymore because she already took what mattered so what more can I loose ?

There goes the cheer for today, this is looking to be another bitter day

Smh

Ogun must kill hin Yeye soul again and again...
A disgrace to Mankind.

Zero sense found.

AngelicBeing:
My bad, I just cross checked now, you could have corrected me instead of the rubbish you typed up there, now buzz off, scallywag, nonsense

trapQ:
Zero sense found.

Fúçk off, keep fúçkiñg off, continue to fúçk off and fúçk off to the lagoon, you frustrated miscreant and son of belial

Bro,
Its like a viscious cycle, the best way to be stronger is to give yourself a break from what reminds you of her, at least till you heal a bit. Thats the way it works. For me,the mortician that performed the final rites on her told me this. It saved my life then. She told me she lost her hubby very earlyin marriage, with little children. He was the breadwinner and her everything. She would go to his grave every evening, crying and hoping to join him.
She told me that one day, she stopped going to ghe grave etc. It worked for her, it worked for me, it will work for you.
You are not abandoning her-thats the way you will want to feel at first. My story happened more than 4 years ago, but i still get emotional when i think about her. Its impossible to forget what happened, but its possible to continue with life. What i did was to move out of the country. I have not forgiven Nigeria for its inability to provide primary health care to its citizens.
Do yourself a favor by preserving your life. Eat well, try and hang out with friends and trust God. You can still be a father and have a happy family. God wants to use you to help so many people hurting. I wish you the best.

LiveByNight:


You know the pains and it feels good reading this and knowing someone else went through this

I lost three jobs in the beginning, couldn't keep a job in the first two years of her passing

She was the one who handled negotiations and related with artisans when pricing services I was never good at it

I degenerated into talking to myself visibly at one point so I took some time off working to travel returned last feeling better , I contemplated suicide alot more times than I would like to admit

While I respect your strength bro I can't stop celebrating her birthday yearly or delete her WhatsApp contact or her pictures in my cloud folders

I still have her some of her voice notes and I listen to them.. it's been 5 yeses plus but feels like yesterday...too soon , we always had big plans for my 40th birthday and I am turning 40 in June so that's going to be a boomer

Like feels less colorful but at times i get through with three packs of cigarette and focus on work related stuff

I have lost the need for human intimacy and just watch dog shows whenever I get a chance

I stopped honoring child dedication and child naming ceremony invites because I don't want to be reminded of what could.have been

I don't fear lung cancer or some illness cause anything that curs short this existence would only be showing me a mercy so I just coast through each day

I won't cut my life myself, no I am.past that but death doesn't scare me anymore because she already took what mattered so what more can I loose ?

There goes the cheer for today, this is looking to be another bitter day

Smh

Yagazie2016:
Bro,
Its like a viscious cycle, the best way to be stronger is to give yourself a break from what reminds you of her, at least till you heal a bit. Thats the way it works. For me,the mortician that performed the final rites on her told me this. It saved my life then. She told me she lost her hubby very earlyin marriage, with little children. He was the breadwinner and her everything. She would go to his grave every evening, crying and hoping to join him.
She told me that one day, she stopped going to ghe grave etc. It worked for her, it worked for me, it will work for you.
You are not abandoning her-thats the way you will want to feel at first. My story happened more than 4 years ago, but i still get emotional when i think about her. Its impossible to forget what happened, but its possible to continue with life. What i did was to move out of the country. I have not forgiven Nigeria for its inability to provide primary health care to its citizens.
Do yourself a favor by preserving your life. Eat well, try and hang out with friends and trust God. You can still be a father and have a happy family. God wants to use you to help so many people hurting. I wish you the best.

You are very strong bro

Bless you .. leaving Nigeria again too but this time not back

Got a new job taking me to asia for the next five years

bless your heart for your words they fill a soul

it was really good connecting with someone who went through this too

Someday in future I may let go but as weak as this makes me.pook it's holding onto her memory that keeps me still attached to this Earth , it's what keeps me grounded or I may have ploughed my car at 80mph into a concrete wall long ago

I can't express my gratitude enough for this pleasant exchange

Nigeria can never be good and doesn't deserve any good for all the deaths her poor health care provider services have caused

Be well brother

Cheers

kense88:
hi dear, is that ur pics on ur profile ? Are u married ?

yes I'm married

ngwababe:


She don find another person tey tey na, mumu boy! Him wan trend inshort

Ngwa babe. Which part are you from?

mrtc:
i hope this dead is not stage managed, doesnt look real to me.

I noticed that too.

Donald95:


Ngwa babe. Which part are you from?

Isiala ngwa South

ngwababe:

Isiala ngwa South

Wow. My mum is from Isi Ala Ngwa North.
Nice to meet you

Fake news

Donald95:


Wow. My mum is from Isi Ala Ngwa North.

Nice to meet you

Okay. Nice to meet you too!