Anyahuruagu:
Av been abused by my senior in school once in his house, rich boy drove me home and put porn for me in his laptop and immediately my jacuzzi started going up, cos that time i am yet to experience first eruption... was enjoying the feeling until my head started kicking like the Jews Head praying in Wailing Wall and then the eruption came like molten magma and i became so weak and useless, then see brother come behind me begin d comot belt sey em want enter blue sea, i told him i will shout and neighbors will gather here now... Immediately he became sane again and since that time i suffered masturbation till the day NOAH entered the Ark and the Son Set me free from all my worries...

Lesson is Watch ur kids company and be closer to your kids...

Jesus Christ set me free from deadbeat masturbation..

We all must be very careful before people will inflict a pain we will live with forever.... Be it a habit or character or whatever.

no be masturbation thread be this nw. if for xay your senior fvck your hard nyash wella .


eh ehn. e dey legit to carry your matter come here

one wanting I've been wanting to know or cab deduce from op's write up is.



being gay isn't a gene thing or some hormones thing.. it's all boils down to mental abnormality..

I am glad when i see stories like this. Sexuality for a number of us isn't strictly defined, it covers a whole spectrum and even fluctuates from time to time. Despite trying to cover up our needs so as to meet up with societies standards, the body wants what it wants.

I remember my first same sex experience, it happened when i was 5, i spoke out and my family got to know and i was beaten throughly. Afterwards i learnt to keep it secret. There were so many encounters but suprisingly i and the people i had them with dont even mention it when we see.

I was molested a few times by the opposite sex when i was younger and i feel that was what made me seek solace in the same sex. Quite frankly i was scared of the opposite sex.

Through all my encounters i had never actually climaxed till the last partner i had. I told the person that i had never climaxed because i am not gay but i just like to be with someone of the same sex for the comfort and excitement. The person was persistent and kept pushing till the day i came like i had never come in all my life. I became a slave to my partner, nothing had ever felt so good. That was when the realization of my sexuality dawned on me.

However, life got in d way and we went to different schools. I was finally introduced to the wonders of the opposite sex. i enjoy it very much but every now and again i miss the good old days. I am happy when i see that i am not alone in this.

Dexlomo:


I am not out to contest what you feel about my post and if you read it well like you claim, you would get the picture. The essence of the write up is that we should be truthful to who we are as that could help us identify where to get help if need be.

Does your wife know?

funmisticqueen2:
Does your wife know?

Don't bring this?
She should never know.
We don't know her mental and emotional strength.
Besides this is top secret.

funmisticqueen2:
Does your wife know?

No she doesn't fully despite explaining some of my past to her. She feels it was an outcome of me being a boarder and I feel I shouldn't saddle her with information she isn't so interested in.

Yxxx:
The earlier we talk about issues like this, the better.
I escaped been one and I must say it's God's intervention.
My advice to you is to keep trying to remain straight.
Decide that you won't go back to the past.
Pray about it.

Mind sharing how you overcame?

Dexlomo:


I have always found them attractive but my early experience made me feel I am incompetent to have anything to do with a woman. My childhood trait of being effeminate doesn't necessarily translate to anything in terms of sexuality. Guess my neighbor's son took advantage of me coupled with some little bullying in elementary school that made me feel I should be a sissy and it was/is okay. It took a long while to walk out but nonetheless, because I am kind of tuned into it psychologically, I keep friends with my older friends who helped me rediscover myself because they went through a similar past and one of the things I have learnt is that discussing it most times, helps one not to crave for it.

Woooow... I wanna hug you rn... I'm amazed really...

so there actually lots of nigerian men on the downlow
no wonder bob risky some days ago said after his surgery in dubai many nigerian marriages will collapse

I think most times we become who we are as a result of experience in our nominal age. Some were lucky cos they were never exposed to the risk while some weren't.. just like we didn't choose our family background either rich or poor but can work towards been rich. I went to a single sex school, I never had same sex encounter but I had friends who did cos they were pretty funky kids exposed to it at a tender age, some even got suspended...but I never judged them cos I felt d lucky ones where just not exposed... Alot are married now, I wudnt even call them bi-sexuals cos those happened in d past.
My advice is for parents to always educate their children from a tender age, imbibe discipline in them ...fill their memory with good stuff...These things always ring in their head when you are not there..... I still believe in this saying " Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it "...
@Op you are wonderful and thank you for sharing with us...know that there are pple out there who will never judge your past...All the best in this new phase and may God bless your marriage..

Dexlomo:


No she doesn't fully despite explaining some of my past to her. She feels it was an outcome of me being a boarder and I feel I shouldn't saddle her with information she isn't so interested in.

she's smart.

Don't make your past, your present. Hope you continue to have the will to go on.

Yxxx:

Don't bring this?
She should never know.
We don't know her mental and emotional strength.
Besides this is top secret.

she has a right to know, if your wife was a lesbian, wouldn't you want to know?

Dexlomo:


It was a mixed school but in the hostels, it was single sex based on your house.

Oh!, Well you were introduced to it at a young age which you find difficult to say no or probably find fun it buh now you're a grown man just make d right decision coz that shit is disgusting. don't make that urge control u, you're stronger than it.

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[quote author=funmisticqueen2 post=86855330]she has a right to know, if your wife was a lesbian, wouldn't you want
You won't understand.

funmisticqueen2:
she's smart.

Don't make your past, your present. Hope you continue to have the will to go on.

Thank you so much, God has been helping me and my way of staying away is keeping friends with my three older friends who also are no longer involved in it. We encourage ourselves whenever there is need to.

eseh1:
I think most times we become who we are as a result of experience in our nominal age. Some were lucky cos they were never exposed to the risk while some weren't.. just like we didn't choose our family background either rich or poor but can work towards been rich. I went to a single sex school, I never had same sex encounter but I had friends who did cos they were pretty funky kids exposed to it at a tender age, some even got suspended...but I never judged them cos I felt d lucky ones where just not exposed... Alot are married now, I wudnt even call them bi-sexuals cos those happened in d past.
My advice is for parents to always educate their children from a tender age, imbibe discipline in them ...fill their memory with good stuff...These things always ring in their head when you are not there..... I still believe in this saying " Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it "...
@Op you are wonderful and thank you for sharing with us...know that there are pple out there who will never judge your past...All the best in this new phase and may God bless your marriage..

Thank you so much both for your words of encouragement and the prayers. Sincerely, marriage has been fun so far and I am happy I am meeting all my expectations by the grace of God. It took me a while to find someone who was willing to understand me and stay by me and like my friends and relatives know, she is my top priority after God.

Palehair:
This is why Nigeria will always be where it is. Someone decided to share his story and his pain and he even declared he's still struggling with it and at the same time being faithful to his wife and instead of y'all to show a bit of empathy and support his growth and progress, y'all decided to shame him. This is why some women will keep on marrying DL gay men

Bro, same way he has the right to express his feelings on things, same way we're free to criticize it.
Not everyone must like whatever is being dished out to them online.
There are people who find this disgusting, and would always speak out when they see something they don't like.

kingxsamz:


Bro, same way he has the right to express his feelings on things, same way we're free to criticize it.
Not everyone must like whatever is being dished out to them online.
There are people who find this disgusting, and would always speak out when they see something they don't like.

He's relaying his pain to all of us and he's not clamoring for it like did you even read his story to the end? He's trying to change and it's really hard, we are supposed to give him that moral support for even reaching out with it but instead most read halfway and started shaming him

Palehair:

He's relaying his pain to all of us and he's not clamoring for it like did you even read his story to the end? He's trying to change and it's really hard, we are supposed to give him that moral support for even reaching out with it but instead most read halfway and started shaming him

I didn't read till the end.
Seemed to me like this was more like a gay erotica, rather than someone seeking help.
At first I thought it was a female narrating her story untill I had to check and realized it was a dude. Had to stop.

Lamanii22:



Woooow... I wanna hug you rn... I'm amazed really...

You stopped using Twitter or you in for you Doctorate already?

lewis512:
You stopped using Twitter or you in for you Doctorate already?

I uninstalled the app, but I'd be back on there real soon...

kingxsamz:


I didn't read till the end.
Seemed to me like this was more like a gay erotica, rather than someone seeking help.
At first I thought it was a female narrating her story untill I had to check and realized it was a dude. Had to stop.

Well, you shouldn't always judge a book by it's prologue... Lol, the epilogue may change your mind. But in your defense, it really sounded like s gay erotica though

Lamanii22:



I uninstalled the app, but I'd be back on there real soon...

when you back would you let me know or just add me , my username is on my Nairaland profile

kingxsamz:


I didn't read till the end.
Seemed to me like this was more like a gay erotica, rather than someone seeking help.
At first I thought it was a female narrating her story untill I had to check and realized it was a dude. Had to stop.

I am not asking for help from anyone. I am lucky I have overcome something I wanted to and only shared for those who might feel trapped and would want to move past their trap.

Lamanii22:

I uninstalled the app, but I'd be back on there real soon...

You planning on enrolling in a doctorate? This is nice to know. What is your field? Seems we have similar passion.

lewis512:
when you back would you let me know or just add me , my username is on my Nairaland profile

What did you use to learn Python?

Dexlomo:


What did you use to learn Python?

I registered to a academy spent a while there but the udemy video tutorial helped me most and much practice

lewis512:
I registered to a academy spent a while there but the udemy video tutorial helped me most and much practice

Thank you. Which of the udemy videos did you use?

Dexlomo:


Thank you. Which of the udemy videos did you use?

a lot of them I can only remember the last one which is for Flask application

lefulefu:
so there actually lots of nigerian men on the downlow
no wonder bob risky some days ago said after his surgery in dubai many nigerian marriages will collapse

hahahaha lol

Yxxx:
Don't bring this? She should never know. We don't know her mental and emotional strength. Besides this is top secret.

I like you already. YOU ARE MATURED