I hate making threads like this.. Ffs I know a whole lot of things about how this things work you know psychological stuffs and mindset bla bla but I'm an impatient type.

I hate to admit it, sometime I feel like giving it all up, like stop interacting with humans, coddled up in myself and don't open my eyes forever kind of.

Wha happened to me ffs. I have got big dreams, got the right attitude. Yeah can be all over the place sometimes, but I got the memo of what it takes to get shiit done. Maybe I don't quite understand the demands of time, maybe that's why I get hard done by this things and which puts me back to this moode (mood+mode).

Fecck me I am an adult male, should be on my way to some sort of freedom like feck it but **hello reality** I still stay with an uncle whose married with kids which makes me a liability and a burden. Got the wife complaining about "space"!!! Today Yeah I know, I know I gotta leave.

Humans are fecking boring and predictable. Remember I said humans, my uncle and the wife are no exception, my dad too. Ffs he pissed me off with same " space" shit in our home that's what got me squatting with an uncle in the first place.

I hate it in life.. Hate death too. I don't even like nothing, maybe someone (an 'f' preferably) to talk to. Can I really get an 'f' to talk with after the first convo. Sorry, I am still bad at that. I try to be..

Wish this stuff doesn't get published