Hopefulone:
I'm touched by the gesture of Nairalanders who have reached out to me even though I may not be able to respond to some because I cherish my anonymity for now. Meanwhile, I called one of the numbers on the picture shared by pulsatingpen and I have been referred to a centre where I can meet with a psychologist. I have also been added to a support group pending when I visit the centre later in the week.

I should say that I am overwhelmed by the love and concern. May the gift of men never be far away from us all. I hope to come back here in future and look at how far I have come.

Vyzz:




Then there is no reason for u to be afraid na...


You are still quite durable....


Na me sef wey person dream of say En go die suppose the complain sef?

Hopefulone:
I'm touched by the gesture of Nairalanders who have reached out to me even though I may not be able to respond to some because I cherish my anonymity for now. Meanwhile, I called one of the numbers on the picture shared by pulsatingpen and I have been referred to a centre where I can meet with a psychologist. I have also been added to a support group pending when I visit the centre later in the week.

I should say that I am overwhelmed by the love and concern. May the gift of men never be far away from us all. I hope to come back here in future and look at how far I have come.

Hopefulone:
Hello everyone. I’m sorry this is a bit lengthy. I need urgent help and I hope you read through.

I’m a student in one of the universities in the south-west. Ever since I came back home since the corona virus thing started, I cannot point to one single thing that I have achieved in my life. Late last year, I got to know about my HIV-positive status. I am not a loose person at all, my only mistake was trusting a friend. I won’t lie, the whole thing affected me. When I wasn’t drinking, I was sleeping. It was really hard for me to deal with what everything that was going on. Before I knew it, I would have flashes of mixing bleach or sniper with a drink and killing myself. Whenever I was in a bus going somewhere, I created different scenarios of an accident happening that would lead to my death. I started cutting myself at some point because I could not feel anything. I don’t know how to explain the whole thing in detail. I just generally felt like I was floating through life.

The corona ish has made everything worse. Since March that I have been at home, I have cut off friends and just distanced myself from people. I stay with my dad alone and even though we have a relatively good relationship, I can’t bring myself to share stuff with him. Once, he noticed a cut on my wrist and I explained it away as an accident. I have lost faith in people and my dad is the only reason why I haven’t found the strength to end it all. I feel like I am slowly drifting away. I am unable to sleep at nights, I have issues with recollecting things or events and I have a persistent headache that never goes away. I know there is something wrong with me but I don’t know what it is. I hope that someone can know someone or something that can take me out of this very dark place.

It took a whole lot of strength for me to type this. Please, I beg you in the name of God, go easy on me with the insults. I had to create a new account because of the sensitivity of this post.

CAPSLOCKED:


THIS NEVER HELPS, I'M SORRY.