In 2017 before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia I used to be a holy ghost filled tongue speaking Christian. Was reading the Bible alot. Praying aloud till my neighbors started complaining that I don't let them sleep at night because I went totally off gear. I believed I was sent to the world by God and various nonsense till I was finally admitted to the psychiatrric hospital and received treatment .

This was a topic I created on nairaland in 2018 during that period I had crisis


https://www.nairaland.com/4813824/jesus-what-mighty-name

Why do I find this funny in a twisted way!!

I no won laugh abeg

Dude397:
In 2017 before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia I used to be a holy ghost filled tongue speaking Christian. Was reading the Bible alot. Praying aloud till my neighbors started complaining that I don't let them sleep at night because I went totally off gear. I believed I was sent to the world by God and various nonsense till I was finally admitted to the psychiatrric hospital and received treatment .

Interesting!

So what were your delusions.... this holy ghost... what did he tell you or get you to do?,

Once you're no longer in control of yourself...everything goes apeshit

It's a rewarding journey, but everything goes south when self control is outta the equation.

Lack of that self control can make one "lose their mind"... Dude397, I can relate...

Dude397:
In 2017 before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia I used to be a holy ghost filled tongue speaking Christian. Was reading the Bible alot. Praying aloud till my neighbors started complaining that I don't let them sleep at night because I went totally off gear. I believed I was sent to the world by God and various nonsense till I was finally admitted to the psychiatrric hospital and received treatment .

Yeah, you were definitely schizophrenic.

Am sure the speaking in tongues was not speaking in another language used in another foreign land but the babbling nonsense seen in most demon possessed "pastors" of today.

And why on earth would you pray so loud to be noticed by people to the point that you did not allow them sleep at night. That's not Christlike. Christ wants his followers to show love to their neighbours. Not allowing your neighbors sleep was very demonic of you.

So yeah, am glad you realised that you were not even a real Christian in the first place. You were just some mentally sick individual possibly possessed by demons.

Yigefengzi:
And why on earth would you pray so loud to be noticed by people to the point that you did not allow them sleep at night. That's not Christlike. Christ wants his followers to show love to their neighbours. Not allowing your neighbors sleep was very demonic of you.

So yeah, am glad you realised that you were not even a real Christian in the first place. You were just some mentally sick individual possibly possessed by demons.

In Matthew 6 vs 6 - 15, Jesus Christ did indeed teach His followers to pray in secret and in silence....

Now, I wouldn't go as far as to say He had a demon, although the speaking in gibberish does lead me to believing in such.

I knew a young man like that some years ago. He was just like that . We thought he was too religious and himself thought the same in Kaduna. The nurses also believed the same. Meanwhile he had to be injected before taking him to the hospital. After some days he was discharged. Later he became uncontrollable and finally...

Dude397:
This was a topic I created on nairaland in 2018 during that period I had crisis


https://www.nairaland.com/4813824/jesus-what-mighty-name

Some people agreed completely with your idea. Might they be schizophrenic as well? Reach out to them and tell them to seek help too abeg.

duro4chang:
I knew a young man like that some years ago. He was just like that . We thought he was too religious and himself thought the same in Kaduna. The nurses also believed the same. Meanwhile he had to be injected before taking him to the hospital. After some days he was discharged. Later he became uncontrollable and finally...

So do you think that desire you have to want to know and understand God was born of your mental illness?

Kobojunkie:
So you think your desire to know and understand God was born of your mental illness?

I no understand you

duro4chang:
I no understand you

My mistake! I thought you were the OP.

Kobojunkie:
In Matthew 6 vs 6 - 15, Jesus Christ did indeed teach His followers to pray in secret and in silence....

Now, I wouldn't go as far as to say He had a demon, although the speaking in gibberish does lead me to believing in such.

You are right bro. I concluded too quickly the moment I saw speaking in tongues and praying aloud to the point of neighbors complaining.

Dude397 hope you're taking your drugs? Please always do okay.

Kobojunkie:
My mistake! I thought you were the OP.

Not at all. I only narrated my observation.

Kobojunkie:
Interesting!

So what were your delusions.... this holy ghost... what did he tell you or get you to do?,

I was irrational thinking the world was ending in few days and that I was special and God sent to speed up the rapture. The Bible had to be taking away from me. I was like this Righteousness2 guy on nairaland on steroids.

Dude397:
I was irrational thinking the world was ending and that I was special. The Bible had to be taking away from me. I was like this Righteousness2 guy on nairaland on steroids.

ROFLMAO


OK, that definitely is irrational !

Glad to know you are finally getting treatment and enjoying a better quality of life. Yep, Mental illness can seriously f0ck a person up especially when one is not even aware of it's presence.

Yigefengzi:


Yeah, you were definitely schizophrenic.

Am sure the speaking in tongues was not speaking in another language used in another foreign land but the babbling nonsense seen in most demon possessed "pastors" of today.

And why on earth would you pray so loud to be noticed by people to the point that you did not allow them sleep at night. That's not Christlike. Christ wants his followers to show love to their neighbours. Not allowing your neighbors sleep was very demonic of you.

So yeah, am glad you realised that you were not even a real Christian in the first place. You were just some mentally sick individual possibly possessed by demons.

I like the fact that you know what it means to really speak I tongues, whenever I point this out to people, they feel I'm saying nonsense

@OP, are you not the same person that started smoking weed back in 2012? Then later knew you had a mental illness while having a girlfriend? Sometimes, you even beg for money on NL. Are you sure you're now fully well, or this is just your moment of soberness?

Perhaps you need to be sent to one spiritual healer that will be giving you 50 lashes of koboko every day, till you're fully well.


https://www.nairaland.com/6839233/girlfriend-doesnt-know-mental-issues

OkCornel:
Once you're no longer in control of yourself...everything goes apeshit

It's a rewarding journey, but everything goes south when self control is outta the equation.

Lack of that self control can make one "lose their mind"... Dude397, I can relate...

I still believe in God but right now my sanity matters more. Everything should be done in moderation. I'm protecting my mental health and mindful of various triggers.

Owopariola1:
@OP, are you not the same person that started smoking weed back in 2012? Then later knew you had a mental illness while having a girlfriend? Sometimes, you even beg for money on NL. Are you sure you're now fully well, or this is just your moment of soberness?

Perhaps you need to be sent to one spiritual healer that will be giving you 50 lashes of koboko every day, till you're fully well.



https://www.nairaland.com/6839233/girlfriend-doesnt-know-mental-issues

Wow!
Anyway, I hope the OP seeks help.
Something is definitely off with him. Am glad he said they took the Bible away from him. I can't Imagine the bad impression he was giving to unbelievers.

Yigefengzi:


Yeah, you were definitely schizophrenic.

Am sure the speaking in tongues was not speaking in another language used in another foreign land but the babbling nonsense seen in most demon possessed "pastors" of today.

And why on earth would you pray so loud to be noticed by people to the point that you did not allow them sleep at night. That's not Christlike. Christ wants his followers to show love to their neighbours. Not allowing your neighbors sleep was very demonic of you.

So yeah, am glad you realised that you were not even a real Christian in the first place. You were just some mentally sick individual possibly possessed by demons.

Bro right now I don't know if I'm an atheist but I've distanced myself from anything that has to do with religion.

Kobojunkie:
ROFLMAO


OK, that definitely is irrational !

Glad to know you are finally getting treatment and enjoying a better quality of life. Yep, Mental illness can seriously f0ck a person up especially when one is not even aware of it's presence.

Definitely. With medication I'm living a normal life. Nobody knows...

emorse:

Some people agreed completely with your idea. Might they be schizophrenic as well? Reach out to them and tell them to seek help too abeg.

I guess so. A lot of Nigerians have mental health issues but they don't know. They think until someone becomes naked on the street before one is termed mad. How ignorant.

Dude397:
I still believe in God but right now my sanity matters more. Everything should be done in moderation. I'm protecting my mental health and mindful of various triggers.

Exactly! The right balance must be attained...if not, the mind implodes.

Takes wisdom and self control. Please avoid religious zealots who are likely to mislead you as well.

Mental health is very key.

OkCornel:


Exactly! The right balance must be attained...if not, the mind implodes.

Takes wisdom and self control. Please avoid religious zealots who are likely to mislead you as well.

Mental health is very key.

True words sir

Spirituality is not for the weak and feeble-minded. Observe my choice of words - SPIRITUALITY.
Once you start approaching the realms that are beyond our 3 dimensional realm, you are in danger if your mind is not guarded. This applies to almost all religions. Ask our traditionalists if you doubt. If you keep digging deep spiritually, a time will come when you will see/hear/experience what the normal human will never experience.
My guess is that in your quest for God, you opened up a portal that was too much for your mind to carry. Your mind is just a gateway between the spiritual and this realm. You would have benefitted from a good spiritual guide.

Nebes:
Spirituality is not for the weak and feeble-minded. Observe my choice of words - SPIRITUALITY.
Once you start approaching the realms that is

You mean Spiritual bullsheet aka religion? It is instead the feebleminded aka The gullible that tend to fall smack into that trap set by men.

Kobojunkie:
You mean Spiritual bullsheet aka religion? It is instead the feebleminded aka The gullible that tend to fall smack into that trap set by men.

Go back and read my full post.

Nebes:
Go back and read my full post.

Changes nothing of what I clearly stated to you.

Dude397:
In 2017 before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia I used to be a holy ghost filled tongue speaking Christian. Was reading the Bible alot. Praying aloud till my neighbors started complaining that I don't let them sleep at night because I went totally off gear. I believed I was sent to the world by God and various nonsense till I was finally admitted to the psychiatrric hospital and received treatment .

Glad you received treatment. Many people especially around our part of the world will not get mental health treatment, either because of the stigma or religious prohibition.

Keep at whatever treatments you need, it gets better.

LordReed:


Glad you received treatment. Many people especially around our part of the world will not get mental health treatment, either because of the stigma or religious prohibition.

Keep at whatever treatments you need, it gets better.

Thank you. I sure will.