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This ur confusion is even confusing me

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From your post, one can easily conclude that you're suffering from low self-esteem. You know he doesn't have any iota of feeling towards you, yet feel that if you call it quits and leave, no one would love you. That's a negative way of thinking.

You're just 21, work towards achieving your goals and let that guy be. You'll definitely find someone who loves and value you.

Giving him sex would only end up in regrets cos if you get pregnant in the process, he'll further ghost you and leave you all to yourself, give yourself some respect and cut off from him permanently.