Lol. Have you told someone you have known for long for the first time that you love them and they went blank. That moment lol.

There is this girl I have been communicating with for 3years. It is an on and off kind of relationship and nothing really serious. Although the babe is very sexy with big behind and hips but I don't see future with her for many reasons. Her character is so opposite With the kind of girl I can coup with. She doesn't stand by her words and her promise doesn't mean anything to me.

I really like this girl like mad but for my sanity and been That the fact I'm very hot tempered not violet type oh it will only show from my actions, and emotional and also a redpiller.

I hide my True emotions from her because I don't want to get myself in a mess. she would never believe i truly love her. I was only protecting my heart and finance from her. Because if I let the feelings i had for her to get hold of me it would be catastrophe.

There was a short period I take the relationship serious with her before I pulled back. And I will explain that here when I first know her the relationship was getting deep as days goes by and valentine day was close. As a redpiller I know other ballers will show up in the picture because this babe too make sense. More like way out of my league intense of other men with money.

She were to come visit me from school and valentine day was just 2 weeks away. but I just test her to know a response like why not just leave it for valentine day. Which she agreed on so easily as I was surprised I never expected it. But meanwhile I am very emotional person and things get to me too deeply. After I think about it deep within myself I realized it will be better she come the week before valentine.

So the next day while we are on phone. I told her that i think it would be better to forget that valentine day. And that She should come the week before valentine I realized it would be cheaper for me and also to avoid disappointment. This babe spark and refused, valentine is valentine, she said after she has already made preparation and reschedule her plans, it also became a big deal. And In other not to make her think that I want to be with someone else I agreed on the valentine and start making my preparation as well, as she already told me the things she will need. I noticed some changes in her during valentine week, our communication has lapsis. She wouldn't pick my calls and not bothered to call me back. Before if I called her and she didn't pick I will chill. After some time she will flash me. But this one she didn't even flash me. I refuse to call her through out that day. Because if she cannot flash me that means she doesn't want to talk.

I was really angry and already suspecting things. The next day was the last day to valentine and I purposely didn't called her all through, and yet she didn't call me and not even a flash unlike before. At least to talk about the valentine agreement we made.

So it was night and many things begin to go through my head. So I called her that last night. she was happy to see my call but she was picking offense against me that I didn't bother to call her. Bla bla bla she was in school doing so so and so, and she was looking for money to buy marriage clothes and running around to sew them. The only thing I want to hear from her is if she will be coming tomorrow that was why I even called. What I heard broke my head. Was that her friend is during marriage on valentine day and she couldn't afford not to go. The marriage is not my problem but issue is how can someone that close to you doing marriage and you didn't know a week to the marriage to have inform me before now.? That hot tempered set in and I ended the call. She called me back but I didn't pick. In fact I didn't call her again for weeks.

Although she upload marriage photo on status. It was not the first time she did something like this but that valentine own pain me because I already she we be with someone that day. I take my mind and finance of her. The relationship was just on and off kind of thing boring there after. nothing really serious. We will not talk for months and each time she remembered me it will be when she needs help. I will just laugh.



So because of her behavior to me. Anytime she went to school I will pulled back. Because of billing as she is not someone I would want to waste money on. Because at that time even when she call or flash me the discussion will lead to needing money.

As a redpiller I know she has many guys and even there in school. So I don't want to get myself inside such mess.

So I will try as much as possible to avoid that close contact.

There was a time I deleted her contact For about a year now and I saw on recently. She was the one who even called me. After we discuss she give me her number. So I have been calling her and she is giving me a kind of attitude. I told her we need to sit and talk. She refused. I have asked her i need to understand something if I should stay off her. She have not really give me a clear answer She was like I never wasted anything serious so what do I what now because she is not ready for anything now. Ok should I stop calling? that is one thing she haven't answered. she is not ready to sit on a date with me. She just want me to tell her on the phone what I want.

I started by saying it was many things that happened that made me to pull back. That She was not someone that say something and do it. Not that I don't truly like her. There were so many things I didn't really understand about her that cause it and the relationship didn't start so well, so those things made me to protect myself not that I don't love her. And I still love her. That was the bombshell.

When I use the word love for the very first time. She was mute and never said anything. I was just fooling myself on the phone. Hello, hello are you there. After about 30 seconds she cut call.

Since then she didn't take my calls again.

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