Some coworkers and family members believe that I am arrogant and full of myself, but that couldn't be further from reality. If only they could experience a day in my shoes - not just a particularly difficult day, but an average one. Where do I start? My clothes never seem to fit well, and I wasn't blessed with the best genes. The constant reminder that I elicit disgust in most people is hard to bear. I know I don't have a body odor, but the fact that complete strangers who I've never met assume that I do is bewildering. My unique facial features may not be attractive, and my slim build might make me appear taller. Due to my sleep deprivation for the past decade, I may look tired and worn out. The combination of poor sleep, my genetics, aging, and some personal laziness have taken a toll on my appearance. The constant negativity from strangers has shattered my self-confidence and I've become more reserved. I've missed out on many opportunities because of this and I've been left behind as many of my colleagues have moved on to greater things. I feel sad when I am in public and have found solace in my phone where I lose myself in watching movies, reading, and watching YouTube videos. Last year, I started patronizing sex workers through a friend's introduction, as I felt it would be a shame to go through life without having that experience.

There is more ...

Hmmm

Post your picture for defending to know if the people are silly.

myyansh68:
Post your picture for defending to know if the people are silly.

Why would I share my photo in a public forum for everyone to view? Are you planning to turn it into a meme? I don't enjoy taking pictures as it causes me anxiety. My elderly parents are now pressuring me to get married, but how could anyone want to be with someone like me who is not attractive?

Such self loathing 😫😩😫😫

undead:


Why would I share my photo in a public forum for everyone to view? Are you planning to turn it into a meme? I don't enjoy taking pictures as it causes me anxiety. My elderly parents are now pressuring me to get married, but how could anyone want to be with someone like me who is not attractive?

You are good looking, let me see that.

Shocking! 😨😨😨
They said "Women will be attracted to anything with money" why can't you prove that?

Houseofglam7:
Such self loathing 😫😩😫😫

I don't choose to have self-loathing; it stems from real experiences and real hate I've faced. I recall an instance where I attempted to speak with a girl, but she outright called me worwor.

undead:
Some coworkers and family members believe that I am arrogant and full of myself, but that couldn't be further from reality. If only they could experience a day in my shoes - not just a particularly difficult day, but an average one. Where do I start? My clothes never seem to fit well, and I wasn't blessed with the best genes. The constant reminder that I elicit disgust in most people is hard to bear. I know I don't have a body odor, but the fact that complete strangers who I've never met assume that I do is bewildering. My unique facial features may not be attractive, and my slim build might make me appear taller. Due to my sleep deprivation for the past decade, I may look tired and worn out. The combination of poor sleep, my genetics, aging, and some personal laziness have taken a toll on my appearance. The constant negativity from strangers has shattered my self-confidence and I've become more reserved. I've missed out on many opportunities because of this and I've been left behind as many of my colleagues have moved on to greater things. I feel sad when I am in public and have found solace in my phone where I lose myself in watching movies, reading, and watching YouTube videos. Last year, I started patronizing sex workers through a friend's introduction, as I felt it would be a shame to go through life without having that experience.

For u to have noticed this, you must be very self aware. That’s a curse and a blessing

Why do you gv a fvk about what ppl say about you?

Worriedguy6699:


For u to have noticed this, you must be very self aware. That’s a curse and a blessing

If you are repeatedly "hated" by others, eventually you will understand who you are and learn to anticipate similar treatment. At work, I shield myself by staying at my computer all day, but as soon as it's time to leave, I become anxious because I know I will face more animosity on my way home. Both the young and the elderly harass me.

undead:


If you are repeatedly "hated" by others, eventually you will understand who you are and learn to anticipate similar treatment. At work, I shield myself by staying at my computer all day, but as soon as it's time to leave, I become anxious because I know I will face more animosity on my way home. Both the young and the elderly harass me.

As a child, I had nasal obstruction causing me to breath through my mouth for 20 years and also sleep deprivation because I sometimes feel like I’m drowning when I sleep due to the blockage.

The effect of mouth breathing on facial feature is well documented in research. My face is completely different from a normal face because of this. It’s sort of sloped downwards and just a lot of things I can’t describe.

This cause me to look completely different from a normal person and as such, I do get disgust when I talk to new people, except those that have known me for long.

I will never be beautiful or handsome but it forced me to work on other areas of life so I can still make new friends.

Sometimes in my mind, I usually ask people to forgive me for looking abnormal.