I have my pains stuck to the heart
I maul my worries deep in the mind
My wish and want seem not right
His will indeed I might have left behind

What wants my Lord that I know not?
His expectation that I give no thought?
Why will He not be pleased
If myself for Him I've not refused?

His Light alone offers me might
But my might's offering He does reject
The cause effect makes me fright
Longing to know what exactly I neglect

Where will you have me go?
The secret place or the mission field?
What needed I yet to show?
My zeal or my obedience to You?

May my will be lost in Thine
Though they stand on separate paths
Reveal Your desire at the cause of time
Suffer not Your way my plan distracts

Poem 1

 SilentVoice

Poem 2

The Lord is the greatest redeemer I could imagine
His patience and resilience is not limited by season
Often he calls out, offering his helping hands
So the helpless and hopeless could yet again stand
Anyone who is thirsty and faint let him have a drink
Anyone who lacks knowledge let him at my feet sit
Though I don't care - he gave his life having no fear
While I was in tears He show me how much he cares

Broken and shattered I brought him my pains
Empty and feeble I brought him no gain
He attended to me nonetheless and healed me
The pains and sorrows left and then he lost me
The broken pieces became a whole
Gladly I forget the healer and left the fold
My troubles disappeared and so do I
From Him who for once close not his eyes

After me he came all again
But this time to the castle of sorrow
Just for me he came down the way
Which leads to the island of horror
Do you care for freedom? he asked
Shooting genuine love and care at my heart
Speechless I shook my head in silence
'I'm not worthy' I muttered with confidence

How long will you keep this stony heart from me?
How long will you rely on your wisdom and ability?
How long will you regret your mistake without a change?
How long will you reject my offer of a life's new page?
I have no idea how great his love for me is
I was ready for destruction but he brought me peace
I realized that his love for me is unconditional
Beyond the soothing hope and care -- his presence works wonders.

silent voice