Pls what is the total score.I will like to know pls.

Well i know how painful it is but have you ever thought of how of how useless your life will be if you kill yourself.Nobody will want to accept the fact that it's because you are positive.Moreover, it is possible for you to have children of your own without them being infected if you are on your prescription.I want you to know that you are not the first person and that you being infected does not mean your world has crumbled down.You can still make the best out of your life and even if you have to die of the disease, many lives would have been saved by you.My advice is that you should go to the maker of your life and ask him to heal you and that's if you are saved and if you are not, you better be before it's to late.I want you to know that you will be purnished eternally if you commit sucide.Finally,try to stay alive for the sake of those that you are destined to save.
And for your girlfriend,the deed is done already and so the best thing to do is not to revenge but to correct the mistake both of you have made.