. . . i am an undergraduate in my final year in a nigerian university. I got pregnant in 2007 by a man whom i never loved(he is married with a boy ). I am not by anyway a loose girl as i barely did not know much about s, x, i got stranded with a cousins ffriend and we had to sleep in the same room over the night . . dont ask me how it happened but he had ''it'' with me. i did'nt know i was pregnant untill 8 weeks. when i knew, it was as if the whole world was crumbling, i contacted the guy but he said he was not a party to it and that i should get rid of the unborn child, i couldnt and he swore he would not take responsibility of the child. . . i just couldnt abort. The 9months of pregnancy was hell for me, a lot of people couldnt pass negative comments ,they have their reaasons.

My parents didnt like the whole situation but i was forgiven,( i told them that the guy responsible is my ''fiancee but he travelled out of the country the month i got pregnant and that he hasnt called me, also that we intended to meet his parents b4 he travelled, bt we couldnt)
i had my baby on the 30th of Dec 2007. a very beautiful girl. i had a very quiet naming, i sent a texxt to the father of my girl but he didnt reply. Though my family had been assisting me for the up-keep of my baby but for how long would i be aasking people for assitance of diapers ,baby formular ,post natal and all.?
Most time i feel so ashamed that i cannot directly care for my baby adequately withoust asking for an external assistance.

My baby is two months old and the fear of the unknown grips my heart. .i cant wait to get out of school this year so that i can fend for my baby and i .Sometimess i wish it didnt ever happen.I called the guy some time ago and he claimed he was not aware i have got a baby. . .smetimes i am so confused.

i beleive in tithes, i pay it to church nd it works for me. other givings i do it according to the grace i have