This is rather sad,but brace up, God is for you but do you know what, you chose him by yourself and you have to face it but i appreciate one thing about you, you stil have the fear of God, dont go into adultery, it is shortlived,go to God on ur knees and ask him to right every wrong in your marriage and talk at length with our husband, tell him he reduces u to nothing wen he cheats you and also lowers your esteem, tell him how much you love and ask that he considers his lifestyle whether it is pleasing to God, above all, dont make the mistake of leaving your home.

I must tell you, you have disappointed God and ur spouse, the first step is to confess ur sins to God and ask for forgiveness after having realized that u made a mistake, promise never to repeat such,you may need to confess and ask for your wife,s 4givness too because u just failed her and God.