Home94:
sorry about it a bit busy

Alright. No problem at all.

Home94:
who is ready for an update

I am. But it takes you a long time to update the story.

Akinloye11:
i betrayed myself,life betrayed me and those who were suppose to protect me betrayed me...God please dont forgive me for giving up on my dreams and please dont forgive the betrayals,their punishment should be from first generation to the end of their generation...AMEN

How can you ask God not to forgive you for betraying for yourself or those who betrayed you?

At least, you recognize there is God. That already is a good starting point.

Do you think God doesn't know about all these betrayals you highlighted but still kept you alive till now? If He has kept you alive till now, then He has a plan for you. So, don't be the one to conclude your life when the maker has not concluded with you yet.

You may think your story is the worst, but wait till you hear the stories of others.

Don't let circumstances of life make you conclude on your life whereas you are meant to move higher above the limiting circumstances.

God wants to forgive you and even the betrayals you talked of, but if you don't give Him the chance, I wonder how you want Him to do it.

Do you know God will forgive your betrayals once they acknowledge their faults and ask for His forgiveness?
See, you can't tell God who to forgive or who not to forgive. He owns every life and His nature is such that He forgives all who genuinely turn to Him in repentance for forgiveness.

If I were you, I will forget about those who betrayed you, and cling unto God to help you clean yourself up.

Home94:
nothing happened much in my SS1 the following year my school did her interhouse sports were I participated in javelin,tug of war, hammer throw, football and relay race at the day of the inter house sports I came second and our house ( green house) took second too in the overall result after that event I change to another school bcs my father started struggling financially I was admitted to SS2 in my new school I met some few friends whom I would say help me really well the next I moved to SS3 I was devastated when my father told me that he won't be able to register me because he had no money I cried and cried but have to clean my tears the following year my father discuss with Jamal mother she was surprised that I didn't take my waec last year she agreed to help my father by telling him that I will be admitted to her school which is were I will take the exam ( she was transferred to another where she rise to the position of vice principal) she would carry me in her car to school and after school I will wait for her to go home the registration time came and my father manage to register me he wanted to register for only waec but I pressured him to register both waec and neco a special class was arranged for the SS3 students I was surprised to come to school and meet new faces that was not my classmate I was later told they were external students I met my shock even more during the exam when I saw almost three hundred students in the exam Hall I was later told also that our school is like a center were students come and pass their exam through sorting and expo they told us to come with 1000 for every paper the school was making huge profit ( the principal of the school was the head of all principals in the state I was staying) I might not be the most intelligent or brilliant but I was determined to pass on my own strength

That was a good determination. I hope the determination yielded good outcome?

Home94:
I traveled back to Aba to stay with my brother but to my disappointment my brother has pack out were he was living before I stayed for a month and came back
i started advancing in age and class the following year I entered SSS1 after taking my junior waec it was in that class things started turning up for me life became a missery to me whenever I recall past event with Jamal,Ari and others I became tired more and more I started limiting the number of friends I keep because I never wanted to experience what I experience before with those that wreck me emotionally I became my best friend and never wanted to be with anyone there is this girl that live in our house she did everything to try seducing me in having sex with her but I wasn't interested it was a turn off for me I knew nothing about sex and anything related to the opposite sex only from the small and naive explanation of biology terms that related to female reproductive organs that I know
that same year Jamal was registered in a boarding school why I was in SS1

So, you mean to say that it was at this stage you started to realize the meaning of all that have been happening with those 'kids' before now?

Home94:
I traveled to Aba to go stay with my brother why at Aba my brother instructed not to go around within the street bcs I don't know much of the place the landlady of the house my brother live has 4 children 3 boys and 1 girl my brother would travel to outside work and live me in the house for like 2 days I would clean the house,cook and do other things by myself the last boy of my brothers landlady would assist me do other things the girl would sometimes give me a kind of look I don't understand she would enter inside our room but I will hasting up and come outside bcs I would not want her mother or brothers come back and see her inside the room we only sometimes hug and cuddle each other I really like her so much over my stay there I never have the chance to do anything with her bcs she was always marked her younger brother also was more than good to me he would assist me get food stuffs,help me cook, sweep and fetch water sometimes he brings garri and rice when my money and food stuffs finish before my brother would come back he always play with me him and his sister made me settled very well during my visit there they were the only reason I came back to Aba again but before I would come my brother had pack out there and relocate to another place I stayed there for two months and came back
when I came back I noticed a big change
Jamal room is now a hive of playground and Ari have really taking deep into Jamal or should I say both of them have gone deep that made me limit my visit to the there house
they only thing about Jamal is that he loves me unconditionally and that piss Ari off coupled with what happened before between me and Ari ( I didn't say this earlier on ) it happened before I traveled to Aba Ari came to my house and met me watching movie he started acting funny he would come close and start touching me I noticed that his penis have rising up I knew he wanted something from me he left and claim he wanted to buy something outside when he saw I wasn't interested in what he was doing let me make a confession about Ari I never like him beyond the way I do with Jamal and Ari do sometimes irritate me bcs of his feminine look and appearance the things I shared with Jamal is what I can't understand up till now to make matter worst Ari can not follow us and play ball when almost all the boys in our street are ballers that makes us to Nick name Ari a girl though the name was called in my language and dialet
one day when I came to Jamal house John burst me with the news of the year
you can't believe what happened yesterday he said to me and I answered tell me nah
he said he caught Ari with one boy doing homo ( homo was what we usually reffer and call it back then )I told him to tell me how it happened
he said last night when they waited for me and I didn't come their house ( I wasn't in their house that day ) and many boys was also around and inside their room when other boys went home living Ari and one boy so he was bored and he also left to stay with his daddy in the sitting room about 20 minutes later he decided to go check if they were still there to his greatest surprised he saw and they boy doing it he said Ari was on the ground and the boy was on top he saw the boy penis inside Ari's anus I was shocked he said when he show touch light both of them became static and could not move after that incident Ari stopped coming to Jamal house why traveled back to Aba again which I said earlier on

We're following you.

Home94:
who is ready

We're waiting.

Home94:
what do you think about Jamal and do you think my brother understand what happened

I don't think your brother understood what happened.

Home94:
I need comments and tell me what you think about Jamal and Bike

The attitudes of both are very obvious. Their actions already paint a picture of their personality.

Home94:
pls I need comments and tell me about my new friends Jamal and his brother John

Well, the plot seems to be that both of them had ulterior motives in becoming friends with you.

Secondly, the last scene suggests a planned event.

Home94:
this is not fiction it is the story of my life

Okay. Sorry about that. I hope I didn't sound apathetic?

Home94:
tell me what you learn from the story so far and tell me about my friend Bike

Also, I am yet to understand your friend Mike. So, I can't talk about him yet. Knowing more of what happened will help us understand the whole event.

Home94:
tell me what you learn from the story so far and tell me about my friend Bike

I can write down a lesson yet until I understand everything that happened. Meanwhile, is this fiction or nonfiction?