Hello everyone,

Please I'd like people from 40 years and above to advice me. I do not know the exact section to post this.

I am not new here. I only opened this to conceal my identity. I know quite well how nairalanders lambast people or each other. I beg you please, I don't need it....cos I'm losing it and I don't want anything that would exacerbate my situation. I'm a very emotional person.

I am a graduate, in my late 30's(almost 40) I do not have money, I do not have a job, I do not have a business, I do not have a wife nor a girl friend, I do not have a child.
I use to have a job some years back but I didn't even last a year before I lost it. The little I saved I used to survive.

This Covid-19 period has been a living hell for me....but I thank God for family members who are also struggling, but still came to my aid with their widow's might.

I have applied for more than 1000 jobs on LinkedIn, Nairaland and some other job sites but all to no avail. I treck long distances in search of jobs....no matter how small. Recently I was at a building site to carry "kponkpon" but I was told they already have the amount of artisans they want.

I have lost all hope in this life. I often pray that God should take me away when I sleep and then I get frustrated when I wake up to realize that I'm still alive. I am so afraid of committing suicide. I don't even have the mind to hurt a fly, let alone take my life. I'm such a coward. I even cry like a baby when I pray.... catarrh rolling down my nose!

I don't need anyone's pity. I don't need anyone's money. All I need is your advice. What do you suggest I do at this stage of my life? What step should I take now, even in this Covid-19 pandemic? Where should I go from here? Is there still hope for strange humans like me?

I wouldn't also mind a job.....even though I see a lot of people coming here to beg for job and still don't get. I have also filled the npower programme, hoping to succeed in it.

Thank you all for reading, as I await your candid advice and submissions. God bless you all and I pray no one of you falls into my situation. Amen.