it so painfull but life goes on

hey is my story i loved this guy for years like 5 years like 5 years now, this is how it started i use to talk to his friend but me and the x was just friends and i wanted to c him so his friend had drove him to my house and when i was him i was like wow but i never act on it cuz he was a Lady's man and he had so much girls calling his phone so i was like whatever his a player so few month past he wrote me on myspace tell oh i should call him and he gave me number i never called him cuz he was a player i didn want to be with someone like that soo a month past he wrote me again say oh y u didn call me im like i didn want too cuz i no how u is, but we call each other we was talkin everything was good one day i find someone else but i didn love him i care for him but not love so i had stop talkin to player guy for new guy i just met, but i was still talkin to the other guy on the side .i got pregnant for the new guy but playa still wanted me even dough i was pregnant for new gut i fill in love with him when he told that .i told him i cant talk to u no more he ask me y i im with someone and i love u and its too much he told me i love u too i just started to cry cuz he fault the same way i fault, so if grow from that . i cheated on my child father 4 times with playa guy aand them 4 times is what i call love makin cuz i didn love my child father i still don but im pregnant again for my first child father but im in love with the other guy but i don want to heart no one cuz i left new guy for playa but i want but to new guy even dough i don love him but im havin his baby again .idk wat to do cuz i have to let playa guy go cuz its not rite for me to hold on t him cuz baby 1 and 2 is nt for him, and he no about baby 1 but not 2