My Dear Friends,
Many thanks for all you do. I have made 'notes' and jotted down very important points and counsels from all of you. I feel some form of 'empowerment' and a great sense of belonging here.

I have always have the fear that he might want to take the child someday, but i do not trust him enough to afford him that privilege. I have reservations that the child will not be better off with him at least for now. Please, just in case he raise the issue of taking the child with him how to i respond to that?
I have some cockroaches, lizards and all sorts dancing in my belly. Am so scared.

@ Ifyalways:
You 've made such an impact and I so adore you for that. He should be coming all the way from warri delta state for this meeting in lagos. I do not know what plans he has, i do not know either if he has friends/relations in lagos he intends to put up with. sincerely, i would like to be in control of my life. where exactly do you thing would be the best place for this meeting. does it make sense to let him know where we live.

Dear ALL,
Thanks for all you do. It has helped somehow.  What I really need from this man is for him to play a role in contributing to the welfare of this child as the burden is overwhelming for me having done it all by myself to this point.
He is married and doing well for himself now. That's fine by me, but I just need him to take responsibility in providing for my child - his child.
For the very first time in many years, I just called him up and proposed that we need to see to iron out issues about our son, which he has agreed  but when my son misbehaved some few days ago, I couldnt bear it. I called him again amidst anger and told him that time is of essence that i may not be able to wait till the time he is proposing to come. I told him i needed to see him urgently and settle things ones and for all. But, I dont know if my tone was harsh enough for him to make a retreat or refuse to show up.
I am very confused and dont know how best to handle this situation. If he eventually shows up, i dont even know how to approach the discussion or present things as i want them or as best as they should be.

Comrades, I need more of your wise cousels. I feel really empty withing me. If i dont hear from him soon do i need to call him again. another term has started and have not been able to pay for my souls school feels. I need him to help now.
What do you say, ?
A million thanks

Maclatunji, I do not live in Niger State. I live in Lagos - Nigeria. Thanks for all you do.

You all are my sweet angels! And I dearly appreciate your kind thoughts. I am grateful for all your contributions and would be more grateful for even more contributions to overcome this phase of life which has placed me on anti-hypertensive pills on daily basis.

I still maintain that I would be very glad to be linked to an NGO that would provide me with some legal aids and backing. The issue here is very complicated that I cannot face it all by myself, this is judging from all I know about this man and his family.
I love you all and would be needing very much all of your support and assistance.

Dear compatriots on Nairaland, this is cry of help from a 35years old mother of a teenage boy who has gotten to the end strength, courage and will power to go on.
I held a sharp knife to my abdomen last night but my hands trembled greatly that I could not hold firm the knife to strike. I do not have the courage to face the battle of life anymore.
Was abused and abandoned by a man who left me with a child to care for all by myself. Despite all my efforts to raise this child.
He is fifteen years now and I can no longer bear the burden of taking care of all his needs. I cannot control him anymore as he walks out of the house and comes in as he likes even at wee hours. Last term, he did not go to school to write some of his exams including mathematics. He is turning himself to a street boy and i cannot help myself nor him anymore.
Good people of our land I need help. I desire that his father takes responsibility of his affairs and welfare. I cannot handle this any more and do not know how to go about it.
Any help from members of this forum would be highly appreciated.
I desire to be linked to an NGO that can deliver me from the suffocating angle.
Really, I do not know how much longer I can cope with this.