Hi dear, I think dis is what u should do, u need to leave the guy cos staying won't help, u've formed so much dependence on him dat u feel u'd die if u leave, but for ur future pls leave because more harm might be done in staying, if u r a Christian I advice u pray a lot nd ask God for ideas of wat to do, for now find a friend to squat with, pls don't be ashamed cos u won't regret ur decison. Remember God loves u nd he always close to d brokenhearted, feel free to talk to God about everything