You are entitled to your own opinion. Thanks for the advice.

thesuave10:
Why do I feel that you're lying. That somehow you willingly decided to fúck him and now you're disturbing us. So your on NL as well. Pls tell me your other moniker so I can stay away from you.

Now the advice, get a good therapist or counsellor and start early to treat. Maintain good hygiene and don't attempt to spread the virus. HIV is nothing. Just be strong

Thanks a lot. I've sent you a pm

czarina:
Don't even think of it ...you have the virus yes, due to your negligence yes, you learnt,yes. HIV is no longer the death sentence it used to be (albeit, from misinformed individuals) I know people living normal lives with the virus. ...go for tests to monitor the viral load, eat well, sleep well and please forgive yourself and the other person.. Avoid the temptation of wanting to get back at the world by distributing the virus.... You just have to take responsibility for your actions and seek closure from from people who truly care...and if you ever feel like you're all alone, remember God's with you on this journey. Peace! Pm me if you don't mind

I haven't registered yet. I dont know if i can, the stigma...

Dextology:
Please don't contemplate suicide. You can still live a healthy life, there are many individuals with the virus and are still achieving great things. Visit the centres regularly for counselling, eat healthy and pursue your dreams.

How do i get one? I'm so ashamed of this

sinaj:
You need a counselor to help you. I believe group counseling will help you dismiss the suicidal thought.

You will surely be fine.

I wish it was that easy

czarina:
Don't even think of it

Good morning, i had to open a new account to tell my story. I feel suicidal. Why? I'm no saint actually. I was in a relationship for 3 years with my ex. He was my first everything. We had sex occasionally and used protection though we were faithful to each other. However, along the line,i noticed he had temper issues and would hit me at every slightest chance, even without me raising my voice at him. At some point, i had to leave because love doesn't solve everything. Few months later, I met someone else who seemed like he loved me. I did the usual 'shakara', but i started having feelings for him. However, on my birthday, i had no plans and he begged to spend time with me. We went out, and I had loads of fun, i drank and ate a lot. At some point, i was so tipsy and wanted to go home but he offered to pay for two rooms in a hotel around, reason being that my hostel was a bit far. I agreed and whether he did, that I do not know. He had his way with me that night, I was so weak and couldn't fight so much. The next morning, he apologised and blamed the drinks for his unruly behaviour. I simply asked if he used protection but he didnt. I havent been the same since then. Its partly my fault, what was I expecting? I thought that mistake would end then, but I'm still paying.I decided to go for a test,because I'm so scared. Now, I've been diagnosed with having the virus 3 months later. I'm really not a wayward girl and now I feel suicidal. I dont know who to talk to. I know some of you will bash me, its normal, but please. I'm so depressed. It feels like everything I've been working towards has crashed. I dont know anymore. Please help me move this to front page. Lalasticlala