DAY 116

They are getting set for their carnival here. They had to mount a road block. You walk, drive, ride, as far you pass there you must remit lol

had to use the holes to spray the road, i have no money to give them thats the least i can offer

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they have made over 15,000naira from their toll gate collection lol!
the compound is full of leaves again.. I'd sweep it again.

plan this evening is to go in search of a basketball court.. I noticed something about them light skin girls here!! fair face but foot looks like leopard skin!

days are longer when you are idle! Always try to keep the mind busy it aint easy but try!

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Thanks, let's keep grinding.
I pray the pain doesn't make a hustler
a monster.


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ThatsONYI:
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Thanks, let's keep grinding.
I pray the pain doesn't make a hustler
a monster.


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@bolded
thats a battle you will have to fight...
When that tempting YES comes your way i pray God gives you the strength to say NO

I paid for the love i was given... Love went away when i couldnt afford it again. They took ibdljf eqpn me!!

i really need to blaw my brain is on overdrive!

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I love how you are always smiling no matter the situation you are facing.

At the fence, network spot lol. The sky is blank no stars no moon. Had swallow again, they really need to change that girl serving there. When God was giving the Israelites MANNERS this "particular girl" was absent!! Very rude, talks over the food. Today she is lively and calm, 2mao she is something else{bipolar?}

cant remember when last i even saw a kitchen. Even the last time i sat in front of a tv. Thanks to radio and nl man for no dey updated. Damn!!.

boy you didnt fall into the ground! You fell on it. Get up and dust yourself

pastor rang me today, i think he is coming back on friday.. One hell of a christmas. I pray for good health for friends, foes and family.


About to take a walk round the compound.. The mind needs excercise

DAY 117

Had that same dream again! What are you trying to tell me? It been two years now. Yeah you warned me. But I dont know zilch about them, who do i restitute to?
how can i even put the words together. Am yet to forgive myself, do you think they will be merciful on me? You are in a better place why not connect me! I wish we could trade places! I dont deserve this gift of life! Be bold enough to tell me what is it you want! Rather than giving me sleepless nights. Better still sniff out the gift from me, i dont want it anymore.

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Bro,I've been thinking abt u for a while now,I am coming back to Arigbajo next yr (by God's grace) to start a food delivery business,(jan or February) cos me sef still dey source for financial help from some nairalanders)at least you go dey see meal and small change for my side.

I just pray make everything fall in place.

The hikes! There was this particular one i totally gave up lol and you kept saying "we are almost there". Mad man we are "almost there" took us "almost a day" to get to the mountain top lol. Plans we shared, the misunderstandings. Even when the "root of all evil" was trying to put enemity between us, you found a way to calm the storm! When i was approached with that sugarcoated meal, you saw through it, told me not eat, that it was poisoned! Maybe i was blinded by greed, love, maybe i wasnt even doing it for me! You really should see what that poison is doing to my system now! Pursuit of happiness can be really stressful. Would you blame a man who knows a shortcut to what he is pursing, and decided to walk that path?

we'd have alot to catch up on when we see and i pray it is soon!

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Healthrelatedjo:
Bro,I've been thinking abt u for a while now
I am coming back to Arigbajo next yr (by God's grace) to start a food delivery business,(jan or February)

woah that is nice! But what sorta foods if i may ask?

cos me sef still dey source for financial help from some nairalanders)at least you go dey see meal and small change for my side.

I pray God sends you a helper.

When you set up i fit to work for you o Even if it is to do the dishes i gather full ground

Fried rice and chicken,jollof rice and chicken,Ofada rice,Ewa Agonyin and bread...wash plates ke...lol...we go sha work something out broda....Amen o.

azraeljaheel:


woah that is nice! But what sorta foods if i may ask?




I pray God sends you a helper.

When you set up i fit to work for you o Even if it is to do the dishes i gather full ground

I need to go to bed early today

got oil 11litres. The engineer hasnt paid me. Keeps saying "ko si owo nta buhari gan je gbese"(no money outside even buhari is owing).

meal was normal normal. The girl even served me extra meat tonight. Maybe it was a mistake lol

about to take my night walk {the mind needs excercise}

Time to sleep. I should be going to the market 2mao.

God please do not get tired of my "i am sorry"

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Insomnia and paranoia
these pals are really getting the best of me

DAY 118
{christmas eve}

They just restored the light since last night.

the market was crowded today! So many people buying yet too many people say they dont have! {who come get those things that was bought}.

9ja and extortion, had to pay 150naira. 50naira for sanitation, hundred naira for something i dont understand. At first i was forming "i know my rights" .. Bros i no dey sell market for here, i am just helping customers convey their goods to their cars or bus-stop{although he cut me short when i got to "helping customers convey"}. "english lo si sor! Wa sor fu wa beya baba lo ra le sibi"{you are still speaking english, you will tell us if it is your father's land}. Is having a raspy voice a criteria when applying for a position with the agberos{taskforce whatever}. Had to pay, i am dead sure they wouldnt have let me stay! Mad people

I dont think the pastor will be coming back today. Meaning just me and this compound again.

people are really going through alot. There is this pregnant woman at the market. She looks like the baby can pop any second! How can you be that heavy, and still nursing a toddler, be hustling?. Quite unfortunate that most of the women around this environ aint that exposed{dont know if that is the right word}. Really would you blame them?

"dashed" her kid 2h and the food that was given to us by a good samaritan.

i am not wearing what i want but am grateful am not naked, atleast i have a roof over my head, i have water to bathe and quench thirst, some days i feast and some days i dont, but am grateful am not starving

Guy what's the update with the gay man who wanted to help you

IgiveLadiesBj:
Guy what's the update with the gay man who wanted to help you

his call is something i have been avoiding! I Heard he is not around

YESTERDAY

went to get what i will chow tonight i noticed most gens were on. Salons were still active. Dem slay queens fixing dem hairs some dey even run nails!! Someone actually sent them that money i am joking we got hard working women out there. "make i no use my experience tag all women bad. I was just unfortunate, i chose the bad egg

yeah someone gifted the pastor chicken, cant kill it even if i wanted to, lack of utensils to carry out the operation. I cant sell it either because am sure the giver{cant remember his name} will tell him

The pastor just drove in, gave me an envelope!

letters from my niece and aunt!

these two i watched them grow. Would drive them around the estate! I'd drop the first at school then take the last to daycare! I miss you guys rerisimi, marvella, wealth, oba, joeboy.

merry xmas

Breakfast!
merry christmas

azraeljaheel:
Breakfast!

merry christmas

You de enjoy. See mine.


But I go enter my mum's villa soon for a proper Xmas food

Merry christmas to davide470 pattymike budaatum petyprincess telim gokoyer0 vikkypee and all who have contributed to my life and this thread.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

azraeljaheel:
Merry christmas to davide470 pattymike budaatum petyprincess telim gokoyer0 vikkypee and all who have contributed to my life and this thread.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Merry Christmas everyone.

azraeljaheel:
Merry christmas to davide470 pattymike budaatum petyprincess telim gokoyer0 vikkypee and all who have contributed to my life and this thread.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Drop ur aza. Make I send 1k for breakfast n lunch at least.

Am caught in between real or maybe all what i was taught as a deeper lifer were all fictions. How do i balance this belief. Funny how am trying to connect my chi, but doubt won't let me breathe. Is doubting a sin or just me trying to see things differently. People are going through hell compared to what am facing. Although am in debt but my life aint indepted to nobody. Should i compromise? Should i give in to the temptations? My legs have been to places that the eyes cant comprehend. The eyes has seen what the mouth cant say. The mouth has eaten what the body cant hold together. Nobody holy pass we have all sinned. I gave him an unborn kid even the carrier was a bonus but still you werent full. Death kept disturbing

smartr:

Drop ur aza. Make I send 1k for breakfast n lunch at least.

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bless your soul! Merry xmas and happy new year in advance

You have your familia and friends to spend this festive season with please be grateful even if you guys dont have what to eat! They got nothing but the family bond. He use to have everything but wished he had what they have!

no one to talk to! His mind is his bestfriend! When it gets dark even his shadow is nowhere to be found!

i'd answer your mail bit by bit. You asked about if i don't have a family or friend to reach out to? Wont you rather eat akara and be at peace than have pizza or ham hoping your body doesnt catching a bullet?

you said why not take a loan! Wont it be stupid to take a loan just to put food in the stomach. How do i repay?

you have no right to call a truce when you havent walked in my shoes

Won't call you out! Just know am not keeping these records to defraud nobody!

days i dont eat days i eat! But when i dont have i put my mind to work just to find what the body will survive on!

wont respond to your mails again! Am documenting all these stuffs to encourage who i cant. And for question about me "forming strong man". Lemme burst your bubbles am not a strong man! Yesterday was a mess for i cried to a point you'd think a had apollo! Suicide is something that my mind and flesh have to always battle out! Times i wish things were different! Just so you know there are times i wanna connect with my vomits. So dude am not strong! I know you are keeping tab on my updates!

i am positive that situation will change back! I'd eat with spoons! I'd sleep on a comfortable bed! I'd sleep under a shelter that i want!

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Please call the idiot now,some niggas need to be disgrace publicly