Naofumi:
Am 18 and will be 19 next tomorrow. But am not proud of myself.
I don't have any skill at all, no specialties and no motivation.
I've been filled with hatred that I want to kill each and every one that made me feel bad.
My mother and the rest of the family said alot of things to me for not being able to bring money like my elder brother. Am in HND 2 Currently, Computer engineering..... I have a Good GPA of 3.45 (nearly distinction).
But I still hate it, cause even if I got 4.0 no one is there to be proud of me.

Do other children feel the same? If yes then why can't I endure and be like them? I want to work long ago but I was stoped saying am to finish school first.
My father don't provide at all. And every morning the insults begins with me.
What should I do? I've thought of suicide countless times but I couldn't do it. I don't know why..... Maybe am born not to succeed in anything.

Go seek help at the nearest mental health hospital please. What you are describing is called depression and it hits a handful,some longer than others.

19 years, HND 2...guy you no get talk. Just find something you're passionate about and dedicate yourself to it

Nia69:
Retard.

Copycat

When I was 18, I was working in a pharmaceutical industry where I worked 8 hours daily and it was an experience I would never want in my life. I didn't gain admission until I was 19 and it was just a Diploma programme. I finished 2 years ago and most of my mates are currently running their HND programme while I am struggling to survive in the streets. Life no just balance but I am still grateful for the gift of life.

You are 18 and almost done with tertiary education, you are a lucky lad but yet ungrateful. You are still young, very very young so take things easy and go through life one day at a time.

Failure2019:

Copycat

Why do you reply mails at midnight?

Nia69:
Why do you reply mails at midnight?

I'm a witch FYI I got a beautiful life outside the internet.

Failure2019:

I'm a witch FYI I got a beautiful life outside the internet.

Wizard you mean. What should I do with that information?

Nia69:
Wizard you mean. What should I do with that information?

Use it to kee yourself.

Failure2019:



Use it to kee yourself.

Get well soon love.

Nia69:
Get well soon love.

I need a hug

Failure2019:


I need a hug

Here. 🫂

Naofumi:
Am 18 and will be 19 next tomorrow. But am not proud of myself.
I don't have any skill at all, no specialties and no motivation.
I've been filled with hatred that I want to kill each and every one that made me feel bad.
My mother and the rest of the family said alot of things to me for not being able to bring money like my elder brother. Am in HND 2 Currently, Computer engineering..... I have a Good GPA of 3.45 (nearly distinction).
But I still hate it, cause even if I got 4.0 no one is there to be proud of me.

Do other children feel the same? If yes then why can't I endure and be like them? I want to work long ago but I was stoped saying am to finish school first.
My father don't provide at all. And every morning the insults begins with me.
What should I do? I've thought of suicide countless times but I couldn't do it. I don't know why..... Maybe am born not to succeed in anything.

My dear you are never a born failure you are a divine project. Start thinking positively because having a negative thought about your self will only blindfold you from your potentials and eventually weigh you.

At 19 you can learn about 1 or 2 skills and become a specialist even before you get to 25 which is till ok, haven't you heard they said "life begins at 40?? This is the right time to start planning how your 40 will look like.

Don't over stress your brain with unnecessary thought and may God forgive your family that's putting you through unnecessary depression. Cheers

Naofumi:
Am 18 and will be 19 next tomorrow. But am not proud of myself.
I don't have any skill at all, no specialties and no motivation.
I've been filled with hatred that I want to kill each and every one that made me feel bad.
My mother and the rest of the family said alot of things to me for not being able to bring money like my elder brother. Am in HND 2 Currently, Computer engineering..... I have a Good GPA of 3.45 (nearly distinction).
But I still hate it, cause even if I got 4.0 no one is there to be proud of me.

Do other children feel the same? If yes then why can't I endure and be like them? I want to work long ago but I was stoped saying am to finish school first.
My father don't provide at all. And every morning the insults begins with me.
What should I do? I've thought of suicide countless times but I couldn't do it. I don't know why..... Maybe am born not to succeed in anything.

Don't harm yourself because of what people say to you or about you!

But you need to work on yourself because no matter how good your CGPA, it doesn't guarantee a great life after school.

Examine yourself to know the kinds of skills that interests you. Dedicate time to learn and master one of them and then strategy on how to monetize it (render service or create products for sale). Good luck!

Where precisely?

Kobojunkie:
Go seek help at the nearest mental health hospital please. What you are describing is called depression and it hits a handful,some longer than others.

kinsnazzy:
Where precisely?

Find a mental health hospital and start there.

Neverlookback:
I see. You have an absentee father. That's not fair to you and your siblings.

This may also be the reason for the financial pressure on your mom and siblings, hence the utterances. I hope you can see things from their viewpoint. Things are really hard everywhere, moreso in Nigeria.

I still recommend for you to undertake a craftmanship training, specifically in a tech-related area. Speak to your father first to help pay for it before reaching out to other family members. I understand he has not always been there for you, but it's still his money and your father, so ask with
humility. For the sake of your self respect, don't squander the opportunity if and when you get it.

I did countless times but he always find a mistake in what ever I tell him and forget about my request and complains

Nia69:
You aren't. Don't listen to that guy, he's mentally ill. You aren't a failure, you just need to work on yourself. Let me tell you something, the best motivation you can get is from you. Las las you'll be fine. I'm rooting for you.

It's been long I found any one said they'll like to see what I become or wish me well. Thank you.

MumEmdy:


My dear you are never a born failure you are a divine project. Start thinking positively because having a negative thought about your self will only blindfold you from your potentials and eventually weigh you.

At 19 you can learn about 1 or 2 skills and become a specialist even before you get to 25 which is till ok, haven't you heard they said "life begins at 40?? This is the right time to start planning how your 40 will look like.

Don't over stress your brain with unnecessary thought and may God forgive your family that's putting you through unnecessary depression. Cheers

Amen. Thank you very much

Stevenbright:


Don't harm yourself because of what people say to you or about you!

But you need to work on yourself because no matter how good your CGPA, it doesn't guarantee a great life after school.

Examine yourself to know the kinds of skills that interests you. Dedicate time to learn and master one of them and then strategy on how to monetize it (render service or create products for sale). Good luck!

Ok. I will. Thank you.

This is what happens when we rush kids through school.

OP,
Learn to live it a day at a time, appreciate each day given to live, set your priorities right, and do your best. Whatever you don't achieve, let it be till the next day. Comparing and killing yourself over the mundane things of life changes nothing.

Naofumi:

It's been long I found any one said they'll like to see what I become or wish me well. Thank you.

Sigh. You're welcome. 🤗

Nia69:
Here. 🫂

Fok you 🖕

Failure2019:


Fok you 🖕

🙃 I don't fück fools.

Nia69:
🙃 I don't fück fools.

Rest
Who gives af about bleeping you ?


I don't bleep lesbos .

Nia69:
🙃 I don't fück fools.

Rest

Who gives af about bleeping you?


Besides I don't bleep trans.

Failure2019:



Rest

Who gives af about bleeping you?


Besides I don't bleep trans.

You do. It's obvious. I'm bi. 😙

Nia69:
You do. It's obvious. I'm bi. 😙

STFU

You're a tranny

Failure2019:



STFU

You're a tranny

Yawn, I'm bored already.

GboyegaD:
This is what happens when we rush kids through school.

OP,
Learn to live it a day at a time, appreciate each day given to live, set your priorities right, and do your best. Whatever you don't achieve, let it be till the next day. Comparing and killing yourself over the mundane things of life changes nothing.

I really wanted to go hard on myself. But thank you for this

Naofumi:

I really wanted to go hard on myself. But thank you for this

You don't have to. Instead, channel a new and healthy path for yourself.

Nia69:
Yawn, I'm bored already.

Suc ma diq

Failure2019:


Suc ma diq

🤮