My Expereince With Hiv by melow666: 1:43pm On Feb 11 |
Where do i start.. I am my parents only child, i honestly have lived a very controlled and careful life. I first had intercourse at the age of 27 with a lady i was planning to marry but it didn't click because of certain issues. I wont consider myself a good Christian as i only remember God when i am in serious issues. But anyway, i have been careful all my life. A lot of my friends experimented with drugs, women etc, but i persisted with a clean and honest living. i graduated university at the age of 20, got a job, relatively good job, whilst still serving, so my life so far, had been comfortable. I have never struggled with anything in my life. My parents, both are teachers, would always remind of with a proverb in my place ' A single palm fruit does not get lost in the fire whilst been roasted', literally meaning, if you have a single palm fruit roasting in the fire, you have to carefully monitor it, unlike when you have a lot roasting. Figuratively, i was their only child. Well in march 3rd on the eve of the lagos state gubernatorial election, i met a girl. I had known her from her workplace, although we did not have sexual intercourse, We somehow touched each other. Unfortunately for me, earlier that day, i had injured myself, just a pin prick on my thumb. Whilst touching this lady, there might have been bodily fluid being mixed. Immediately after this incident, when my senses have become less overwhelmed by my sexual desires, i noticed the injury. Instead of going to the hospital for prep, i simply asked God for forgiveness and forgot about it. I got to understand, that actions begot consequences.
In late march, i went on vacation to the UK, i had a lot of alcohol, i came back to work and since then, my life had been miserable, one health issue or the other.
First came, heart pain(Angina), jaw, shoulder and left had pain, i shrugged it off and started exercising, then came Neuropathy, i felt pain in my legs most especially whilst lying down, well, i increase my dosage of exercise. After all, i was young.
There was silence, my health issues were over, i thought, but then at the turn came stomach issues, i had severe diarrhea, bloating, nausea. I shrugged it off, it must be a stomach bug or something i ate whilst on vacation. I ate things that i knew would not sit right in stomach literally.
Whilst i was battling with the questions of my stomach biome, came fever, it was terrible, it wrecked me. I had never been this sick in life. I had malaria before now and knew all the symptoms that came with malaria, but this time around, it was malaria plus something i could not put my hand into. I never had headache and heart pain with malaria, but this time, i had meningitic headache, the centre of my skull was soft, i could push it in and my heart was racing and pacing as if i ran, even while sleeping. My Resting heart rate which i always monitored before now as sometimes above 100 while sleeping. I went to the hospital and after several test, they claimed i had malaria and typhoid. l started treating the malaria first but it was not getting better, i then took amoxillin, the headache seized but my symptoms doubled. I still had malaise, deep within me even though i was feeling better because the pain and headache had stopped, i still felt sick and my heart raced on. Other symptoms speedily appeared, my lymph nodes got swollen on my groin, my neck had multiple swollen lymph nodes, my head also had swollen lymph nodes which were painful. Also i noticed i had severe oral candida, my nightmares began, i had very stupid and weird dreams.
I visited a nurse who did a full blood count and noticed that my lymphocytes were quite high, 58% of my WBC, i was also anemic and speculated that this would most likely be a viral infection. I am not very versed with virology, so first thing i concluded was maybe HIV. I knew my life had changed forever. I delayed the testing because i was afraid, i was due marriage, the pressure was coming from my parents, i also had plans of futhering my studies and relocating abroad, with this virus, these might come to naught, but instead of testing, i festered the thought, i carried this secret alone, i could not tell anybody my fears.
More symtoms then came, my tongue not just went white with candida but terrible cancre sores developed on my tongue, these sores would go and new and more numerous sores would emerge. Also i developed rashes on my laps due to anemia, i took supplements, i visited different hospital praying for a different diagnosis apart from HIV, i literally prayed, God give cancer instead of HIV, i joined various HIV groups on reddit, i spent so much of my salary in the hospital that i had to go back borrowing from my parents, but i couldnt tell them why i suddenly started borrowing.
More symptoms came, my hair started thining, i was going bald, went i comb my hair, clumps of hair just fell off, i felt terrible, every morning, i spent so much time in bed reading peoples experience with the symptoms of HIV, and guess what, i had all the symptoms even HIV Neuropathy, instead of going to work, i spent a lot of times on blogs reading people first symptoms of HIV that i was always late for work. The candida was not going any where.
More symptoms came, i developed a pain at my left back, went for various xrays and ultra sound and they found nothing, i did a kidney function test and it was okay, i did a UTI test and it came back okay, then i did an urethra swab and they found i had staph which like candida is a disease that affects people with poor immune function or immunocompromised people, also i found out, that i suddenly developed ulcer.
More symptoms, because of the heart issues, symptoms and stress of the sickness and the whole mental turbulence i found myself in, i became hypertensive, my blood pressure rose from 128/78 to 167/88, i had random headaches and eye pain, i started burping more tha 70 times in a day.
One day, i woke up after year of this mental torment, i something from a novel i had read in the past hit me, although contained in the bible, but the novel had exposed the true meaning of this to me, "THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE". On my way to the office, i bought a HIV unigold test kit, i also ordered a oraquick from Jumia,
This experience had a good aspect, as i drew me nearer to God, before now, i always thought the power to succeed depended on one's hard work, i would always quote Achebe "no god makes a man prosperous but the strength of his hands and diligence", will your hard work count if you have been bedridden by sickness, i think not.
I prayed like never before, i cried before God and begged everyday for a second chance. I would be better, i will be nicer to my parents and people around me, after all to love another person is to see the face of God. My health further worsened, my skin became sensitive to touch and i would cry out in pain if someone lightly touched my skin.
The French mathematician philosophy called Pascals wager is simple, the benefits of believing in God outweighs the so benefits of not believing in God, simply explained, let say you die and there is no God, what did you lose by keeping his commandments, maybe the luxury and things of the world, but that is little compared to the pain and anguish you would go through in the torments of hell, if God exist and you fail to believe.
John Lennox also points something rational to believing in God, his argument goes like this 'lets say an atheist losses a child, well you can only tell the atheist condolences, nothing more, but a Christian, you would remind that the child would of course be in eternal rest in the bossom of Christ. Thus Christianity is even more humane as it provides hope and faith for the loses we suffer here on earth, and for the evil that happens in the world, where real justice can be perverted, we are reminded that Christ is the true judge and we will get justice at the end of our life, thus as Christ whilst on earth, went through suffering, we might suffer, have faith that we will rise with him and get our reward, So Christianity is even more rational than atheism'.
I also reminded myself that even in the situation that i HIV that God also presents me with a second chance to make a difference by getting treated early since HIV is no longer a death sentence but a chronic illness not worse than diabetes.
I got tested, first using the UNIGOLD blood prick in the office, my heart raced preparing myself for the worst, but hoping for a second change.
It fortunately for me was non reactive to the virus, did another test with the Oraquick device, also non reactive and went to the hospital to confirm, still non reactive.
I still have some of the symptoms and hoping on God to make my healing complete. If you will, give your life to Jesus, he is a better driver than you are and he will take care of you. Just remind him of his words, keep a personal relationship with him, speak to him as you would a friend, if you sin, he will never deny or reject you. Remember, this is another chance for you as you have heard this words a thousand times, i pray that the holy spirit to would speak to you, as i have done my best, he is the great comforter and pray that this would not stand against you on that last day.
In everything, I give glory God. 4 Likes
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Re: My Expereince With Hiv by LoveJesus87(m): 7:08pm On Feb 11 |
Hmmm inspiring Thank God for your life Divine healing is yours in christ Jesus. Pls do well to connect to pastor chris (Christ embassy) global healing stream service online(March 14). You would bless the day you were born if u do. Thank me later 1 Like |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by LIVINGICONREBOR: 7:40pm On Feb 11 |
One of the worst things you can do to yourself is to start googling your symptoms. Most especially when you have not done a comprehensive diagnosis of the ailment in a hospital. You become dead before actually dying. 5 Likes 1 Share |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Lucybabe81: 10:28pm On Feb 11 |
HIV is not a death sentence. It's not even amongst the top 10 killer disease in the world. As long as you know your status on time and are consistent with your medication,eat the right food,fruits and vegetables, exercise and most importantly pray you are good to go and you will live a long and healthy life. Stay safe 1 Like |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Cassandraloius: 10:42pm On Feb 11 |
Hmmm... ![shocked](https://www.nairaland.com/faces/shocked.gif) stay safe out there. |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Kb2gud0077: 4:57pm On Mar 06 |
Can you get in touch with me , because i am going through the same thing ....I can actually help you with some things |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Kb2gud0077: 11:04am On Mar 24 |
melow666: Where do i start.. I am my parents only child, i honestly have lived a very controlled and careful life. I first had intercourse at the age of 27 with a lady i was planning to marry but it didn't click because of certain issues. I wont consider myself a good Christian as i only remember God when i am in serious issues. But anyway, i have been careful all my life. A lot of my friends experimented with drugs, women etc, but i persisted with a clean and honest living. i graduated university at the age of 20, got a job, relatively good job, whilst still serving, so my life so far, had been comfortable. I have never struggled with anything in my life. My parents, both are teachers, would always remind of with a proverb in my place ' A single palm fruit does not get lost in the fire whilst been roasted', literally meaning, if you have a single palm fruit roasting in the fire, you have to carefully monitor it, unlike when you have a lot roasting. Figuratively, i was their only child. Well in march 3rd on the eve of the lagos state gubernatorial election, i met a girl. I had known her from her workplace, although we did not have sexual intercourse, We somehow touched each other. Unfortunately for me, earlier that day, i had injured myself, just a pin prick on my thumb. Whilst touching this lady, there might have been bodily fluid being mixed. Immediately after this incident, when my senses have become less overwhelmed by my sexual desires, i noticed the injury. Instead of going to the hospital for prep, i simply asked God for forgiveness and forgot about it. I got to understand, that actions begot consequences.
In late march, i went on vacation to the UK, i had a lot of alcohol, i came back to work and since then, my life had been miserable, one health issue or the other.
First came, heart pain(Angina), jaw, shoulder and left had pain, i shrugged it off and started exercising, then came Neuropathy, i felt pain in my legs most especially whilst lying down, well, i increase my dosage of exercise. After all, i was young.
There was silence, my health issues were over, i thought, but then at the turn came stomach issues, i had severe diarrhea, bloating, nausea. I shrugged it off, it must be a stomach bug or something i ate whilst on vacation. I ate things that i knew would not sit right in stomach literally.
Whilst i was battling with the questions of my stomach biome, came fever, it was terrible, it wrecked me. I had never been this sick in life. I had malaria before now and knew all the symptoms that came with malaria, but this time around, it was malaria plus something i could not put my hand into. I never had headache and heart pain with malaria, but this time, i had meningitic headache, the centre of my skull was soft, i could push it in and my heart was racing and pacing as if i ran, even while sleeping. My Resting heart rate which i always monitored before now as sometimes above 100 while sleeping. I went to the hospital and after several test, they claimed i had malaria and typhoid. l started treating the malaria first but it was not getting better, i then took amoxillin, the headache seized but my symptoms doubled. I still had malaise, deep within me even though i was feeling better because the pain and headache had stopped, i still felt sick and my heart raced on. Other symptoms speedily appeared, my lymph nodes got swollen on my groin, my neck had multiple swollen lymph nodes, my head also had swollen lymph nodes which were painful. Also i noticed i had severe oral candida, my nightmares began, i had very stupid and weird dreams.
I visited a nurse who did a full blood count and noticed that my lymphocytes were quite high, 58% of my WBC, i was also anemic and speculated that this would most likely be a viral infection. I am not very versed with virology, so first thing i concluded was maybe HIV. I knew my life had changed forever. I delayed the testing because i was afraid, i was due marriage, the pressure was coming from my parents, i also had plans of futhering my studies and relocating abroad, with this virus, these might come to naught, but instead of testing, i festered the thought, i carried this secret alone, i could not tell anybody my fears.
More symtoms then came, my tongue not just went white with candida but terrible cancre sores developed on my tongue, these sores would go and new and more numerous sores would emerge. Also i developed rashes on my laps due to anemia, i took supplements, i visited different hospital praying for a different diagnosis apart from HIV, i literally prayed, God give cancer instead of HIV, i joined various HIV groups on reddit, i spent so much of my salary in the hospital that i had to go back borrowing from my parents, but i couldnt tell them why i suddenly started borrowing.
More symptoms came, my hair started thining, i was going bald, went i comb my hair, clumps of hair just fell off, i felt terrible, every morning, i spent so much time in bed reading peoples experience with the symptoms of HIV, and guess what, i had all the symptoms even HIV Neuropathy, instead of going to work, i spent a lot of times on blogs reading people first symptoms of HIV that i was always late for work. The candida was not going any where.
More symptoms came, i developed a pain at my left back, went for various xrays and ultra sound and they found nothing, i did a kidney function test and it was okay, i did a UTI test and it came back okay, then i did an urethra swab and they found i had staph which like candida is a disease that affects people with poor immune function or immunocompromised people, also i found out, that i suddenly developed ulcer.
More symptoms, because of the heart issues, symptoms and stress of the sickness and the whole mental turbulence i found myself in, i became hypertensive, my blood pressure rose from 128/78 to 167/88, i had random headaches and eye pain, i started burping more tha 70 times in a day.
One day, i woke up after year of this mental torment, i something from a novel i had read in the past hit me, although contained in the bible, but the novel had exposed the true meaning of this to me, "THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE". On my way to the office, i bought a HIV unigold test kit, i also ordered a oraquick from Jumia,
This experience had a good aspect, as i drew me nearer to God, before now, i always thought the power to succeed depended on one's hard work, i would always quote Achebe "no god makes a man prosperous but the strength of his hands and diligence", will your hard work count if you have been bedridden by sickness, i think not.
I prayed like never before, i cried before God and begged everyday for a second chance. I would be better, i will be nicer to my parents and people around me, after all to love another person is to see the face of God. My health further worsened, my skin became sensitive to touch and i would cry out in pain if someone lightly touched my skin.
The French mathematician philosophy called Pascals wager is simple, the benefits of believing in God outweighs the so benefits of not believing in God, simply explained, let say you die and there is no God, what did you lose by keeping his commandments, maybe the luxury and things of the world, but that is little compared to the pain and anguish you would go through in the torments of hell, if God exist and you fail to believe.
John Lennox also points something rational to believing in God, his argument goes like this 'lets say an atheist losses a child, well you can only tell the atheist condolences, nothing more, but a Christian, you would remind that the child would of course be in eternal rest in the bossom of Christ. Thus Christianity is even more humane as it provides hope and faith for the loses we suffer here on earth, and for the evil that happens in the world, where real justice can be perverted, we are reminded that Christ is the true judge and we will get justice at the end of our life, thus as Christ whilst on earth, went through suffering, we might suffer, have faith that we will rise with him and get our reward, So Christianity is even more rational than atheism'.
I also reminded myself that even in the situation that i HIV that God also presents me with a second chance to make a difference by getting treated early since HIV is no longer a death sentence but a chronic illness not worse than diabetes.
I got tested, first using the UNIGOLD blood prick in the office, my heart raced preparing myself for the worst, but hoping for a second change.
It fortunately for me was non reactive to the virus, did another test with the Oraquick device, also non reactive and went to the hospital to confirm, still non reactive.
I still have some of the symptoms and hoping on God to make my healing complete. If you will, give your life to Jesus, he is a better driver than you are and he will take care of you. Just remind him of his words, keep a personal relationship with him, speak to him as you would a friend, if you sin, he will never deny or reject you. Remember, this is another chance for you as you have heard this words a thousand times, i pray that the holy spirit to would speak to you, as i have done my best, he is the great comforter and pray that this would not stand against you on that last day.
In everything, I give glory God.
Hello I have been trying to get in touch with you.....kindly drop your number , so we can talk much better on this, this is candida overgrowth and there are some things you can do about it ....please get in touch with me |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Akposkiz: 5:39pm On Mar 24 |
Thank God for life but hiv is not a death sentence! 1 Like |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Nojoy3030: 7:40pm On Jun 10 |
Kb2gud0077:
Pls I might have candida overgrowth. I've done hiv tests like times. It came out clear.. only yeast.. .. Mt email: inf0@groupmail.com
Please write me...
Hello I have been trying to get in touch with you.....kindly drop your number , so we can talk much better on this, this is candida overgrowth and there are some things you can do about it ....please get in touch with me
1 Like |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Trustme2(m): 1:50am On Jun 14 |
Kb2gud0077: Can you get in touch with me , because i am going through the same thing ....I can actually help you with some things can o talk to you too? |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Trustme2(m): 1:52am On Jun 14 |
melow666: Where do i start.. I am my parents only child, i honestly have lived a very controlled and careful life. I first had intercourse at the age of 27 with a lady i was planning to marry but it didn't click because of certain issues. I wont consider myself a good Christian as i only remember God when i am in serious issues. But anyway, i have been careful all my life. A lot of my friends experimented with drugs, women etc, but i persisted with a clean and honest living. i graduated university at the age of 20, got a job, relatively good job, whilst still serving, so my life so far, had been comfortable. I have never struggled with anything in my life. My parents, both are teachers, would always remind of with a proverb in my place ' A single palm fruit does not get lost in the fire whilst been roasted', literally meaning, if you have a single palm fruit roasting in the fire, you have to carefully monitor it, unlike when you have a lot roasting. Figuratively, i was their only child. Well in march 3rd on the eve of the lagos state gubernatorial election, i met a girl. I had known her from her workplace, although we did not have sexual intercourse, We somehow touched each other. Unfortunately for me, earlier that day, i had injured myself, just a pin prick on my thumb. Whilst touching this lady, there might have been bodily fluid being mixed. Immediately after this incident, when my senses have become less overwhelmed by my sexual desires, i noticed the injury. Instead of going to the hospital for prep, i simply asked God for forgiveness and forgot about it. I got to understand, that actions begot consequences.
In late march, i went on vacation to the UK, i had a lot of alcohol, i came back to work and since then, my life had been miserable, one health issue or the other.
First came, heart pain(Angina), jaw, shoulder and left had pain, i shrugged it off and started exercising, then came Neuropathy, i felt pain in my legs most especially whilst lying down, well, i increase my dosage of exercise. After all, i was young.
There was silence, my health issues were over, i thought, but then at the turn came stomach issues, i had severe diarrhea, bloating, nausea. I shrugged it off, it must be a stomach bug or something i ate whilst on vacation. I ate things that i knew would not sit right in stomach literally.
Whilst i was battling with the questions of my stomach biome, came fever, it was terrible, it wrecked me. I had never been this sick in life. I had malaria before now and knew all the symptoms that came with malaria, but this time around, it was malaria plus something i could not put my hand into. I never had headache and heart pain with malaria, but this time, i had meningitic headache, the centre of my skull was soft, i could push it in and my heart was racing and pacing as if i ran, even while sleeping. My Resting heart rate which i always monitored before now as sometimes above 100 while sleeping. I went to the hospital and after several test, they claimed i had malaria and typhoid. l started treating the malaria first but it was not getting better, i then took amoxillin, the headache seized but my symptoms doubled. I still had malaise, deep within me even though i was feeling better because the pain and headache had stopped, i still felt sick and my heart raced on. Other symptoms speedily appeared, my lymph nodes got swollen on my groin, my neck had multiple swollen lymph nodes, my head also had swollen lymph nodes which were painful. Also i noticed i had severe oral candida, my nightmares began, i had very stupid and weird dreams.
I visited a nurse who did a full blood count and noticed that my lymphocytes were quite high, 58% of my WBC, i was also anemic and speculated that this would most likely be a viral infection. I am not very versed with virology, so first thing i concluded was maybe HIV. I knew my life had changed forever. I delayed the testing because i was afraid, i was due marriage, the pressure was coming from my parents, i also had plans of futhering my studies and relocating abroad, with this virus, these might come to naught, but instead of testing, i festered the thought, i carried this secret alone, i could not tell anybody my fears.
More symtoms then came, my tongue not just went white with candida but terrible cancre sores developed on my tongue, these sores would go and new and more numerous sores would emerge. Also i developed rashes on my laps due to anemia, i took supplements, i visited different hospital praying for a different diagnosis apart from HIV, i literally prayed, God give cancer instead of HIV, i joined various HIV groups on reddit, i spent so much of my salary in the hospital that i had to go back borrowing from my parents, but i couldnt tell them why i suddenly started borrowing.
More symptoms came, my hair started thining, i was going bald, went i comb my hair, clumps of hair just fell off, i felt terrible, every morning, i spent so much time in bed reading peoples experience with the symptoms of HIV, and guess what, i had all the symptoms even HIV Neuropathy, instead of going to work, i spent a lot of times on blogs reading people first symptoms of HIV that i was always late for work. The candida was not going any where.
More symptoms came, i developed a pain at my left back, went for various xrays and ultra sound and they found nothing, i did a kidney function test and it was okay, i did a UTI test and it came back okay, then i did an urethra swab and they found i had staph which like candida is a disease that affects people with poor immune function or immunocompromised people, also i found out, that i suddenly developed ulcer.
More symptoms, because of the heart issues, symptoms and stress of the sickness and the whole mental turbulence i found myself in, i became hypertensive, my blood pressure rose from 128/78 to 167/88, i had random headaches and eye pain, i started burping more tha 70 times in a day.
One day, i woke up after year of this mental torment, i something from a novel i had read in the past hit me, although contained in the bible, but the novel had exposed the true meaning of this to me, "THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE". On my way to the office, i bought a HIV unigold test kit, i also ordered a oraquick from Jumia,
This experience had a good aspect, as i drew me nearer to God, before now, i always thought the power to succeed depended on one's hard work, i would always quote Achebe "no god makes a man prosperous but the strength of his hands and diligence", will your hard work count if you have been bedridden by sickness, i think not.
I prayed like never before, i cried before God and begged everyday for a second chance. I would be better, i will be nicer to my parents and people around me, after all to love another person is to see the face of God. My health further worsened, my skin became sensitive to touch and i would cry out in pain if someone lightly touched my skin.
The French mathematician philosophy called Pascals wager is simple, the benefits of believing in God outweighs the so benefits of not believing in God, simply explained, let say you die and there is no God, what did you lose by keeping his commandments, maybe the luxury and things of the world, but that is little compared to the pain and anguish you would go through in the torments of hell, if God exist and you fail to believe.
John Lennox also points something rational to believing in God, his argument goes like this 'lets say an atheist losses a child, well you can only tell the atheist condolences, nothing more, but a Christian, you would remind that the child would of course be in eternal rest in the bossom of Christ. Thus Christianity is even more humane as it provides hope and faith for the loses we suffer here on earth, and for the evil that happens in the world, where real justice can be perverted, we are reminded that Christ is the true judge and we will get justice at the end of our life, thus as Christ whilst on earth, went through suffering, we might suffer, have faith that we will rise with him and get our reward, So Christianity is even more rational than atheism'.
I also reminded myself that even in the situation that i HIV that God also presents me with a second chance to make a difference by getting treated early since HIV is no longer a death sentence but a chronic illness not worse than diabetes.
I got tested, first using the UNIGOLD blood prick in the office, my heart raced preparing myself for the worst, but hoping for a second change.
It fortunately for me was non reactive to the virus, did another test with the Oraquick device, also non reactive and went to the hospital to confirm, still non reactive.
I still have some of the symptoms and hoping on God to make my healing complete. If you will, give your life to Jesus, he is a better driver than you are and he will take care of you. Just remind him of his words, keep a personal relationship with him, speak to him as you would a friend, if you sin, he will never deny or reject you. Remember, this is another chance for you as you have heard this words a thousand times, i pray that the holy spirit to would speak to you, as i have done my best, he is the great comforter and pray that this would not stand against you on that last day.
In everything, I give glory God.
Can we talk? |
Re: My Expereince With Hiv by Uchenna10(m): 1:19pm On Jun 18 |
GOD IS GOD,I still believe he heals. |