amaraedec:
I have not spoken to anyone about my ordeal but I sincerely hope your advice will go a long way towards healing me and restoring back my sanity.

I started dating this lady whom I still love so much February 2013, few months before I lost my mummy. I was so cautious of the affair at first, knowing that it was the first time I am getting so emotionally entangled to a lady, but after I lost my mum, I was so hurt and the fact that she was the only person very close to me then, I threw caution to the wind and fell helplessly in love with her, hoping that it would help alleviate the pains of losing My mum and praying deep inside my heart that the relationship will lead to marriage. It did to a reasonable extent alleviated the pains of losing my mum.

Even while I was in school, I gave her everything that I somehow lived in deprivation. Her friends were complaining to me that I spend a lot on her and it might backfire one day. I ignored their advice. I buy her handouts, clothes, Mobile gadgets and even give her certain amount of money on monthly basis to add up to her feeding money, I made sure she lived above her peers in school .

The whole problem started late 2014, when I was about leaving for my NYSC. she started acting quite strange, I respected her privacy that I don't even touch her phones, even though I give her the freedom to handle my phones and answer my calls. I noticed she wouldn't pick up her calls while with me. Like I said, I respected her privacy that I never gave so much thoughts into her actions, I loved and gave her my all believing that she will never cheat on me. Then on her birthday, I had got lots of surprising gifts for her and even arranged a little get together without her knowledge. To my greatest surprise, she surfaced at the venue of the party with the excuse that she was going on an errand for her parents. I handed over to her the gifts I got for her, she collected them and left the venue. Little did I know she had gone to see her erstwhile lover. Depression had started creeping in and I was losing my sanity apparently.

To cut the whole story short, when her girlfriend opened up to me that my girl was having affairs elsewhere, I never believed her at first, but after I confronted her, then I was looking so sick and pale, completely lost in thoughts and pains. She eventually opened up and was really sorry to the best of my knowledge . I couldn't help the pains, I. Started taking anti depressants, I have already vowed never to cheat in my life, knowing that prosperity has a way of rewarding Fidelity.

After I was mobilized for NYSC, I left for my Camp, but the ghost of a failed relationship was already hunting me, I had lost interest in living. Shortly after I returned back from my Orientation camp, everyone knew something was wrong with me, I only told them that it was the stress from Camp. Well, I was battered emotionally, that on 31st December 2014, I hit the rock button and decided to end my life and end the pains, I took insecticides and collection of anti depressants in over dose and battery acid, I cheated on death as I was in Coma for 4 days, I was referred to a psychologist for rehabilitation after I was discharged on the 12th of January 2015. I spent 6 months in rehabilitation Center here in Lagos State, where I was also serving then.

After the whole incident, I made up my mind to forgive her and give her a second chance since she was really sorry. The whole scenario started replaying itself, that she started acting strange again, already my friend had told me that she was seeing someone else. My family knew I was slipping into depression again and had wanted to fly me out of the country, but I was denied Visa when I least expected it. I had to leave Enugu for Lagos so as to keep away from her and the environment. but she still calls me on phone, saying that she still loves me, I truly love her so much. Am totally lost of words, lost of ideas. Am terrified to say the least. Am losing my sanity again. Please friends, depression is getting better of me at the moment.. I need a sincere advise

LadyAimy:
Some ladies are truly lucky

Smellymouth:
Realize that everything happens for a reason and the outcome is always good.

It's a battle with yourself.

You would have to be okay, somewhere in your mind.(I wouldn't say your heart simply because I do know it is hard).

Memories are dear, and you don't want to lose them. Alas, you need to know the bounderies of keeping memories dear, and clinging to them.

Take the good from the past relationships, reflect on it.
Take the bad from the past relationships, reflect on it.

Then make the perfect relationship with your past ones as your building blocks.

Nasri100:
I stopped reading when you wanted to kill yourself? For what? A woman? Blood, ass and legs? Are you s tupid?

SirAweezy:
Change your Phone Number
Move closer to God
Concentrate on your vision for life
Impacting lives is the best legacy you can live for and not some lover's issues.
Note when you die... she will still live and you will just be a tale.(that if she will even remember you for 1week)

Finally: Never love with your heart... Love with your head.

You will be Good again... don't allow that girl to destroy your existence, there is more to love.

ebbybest:
My first advice to you is Never kill your self for something that will never make you make heaven at last.
I was inside a keke nepep reading your story and when i read you drank insecticide i shouted Jesus!, and every one in the keke looked at me.
Guy am a lady and i knw wat it takes for a lady to hurt a guy that loves her so much.
The same way a lady feels when a guy she loves so much hurts her.
Move on with your life, life is too beautifull to be cut short that way.
Many have died without expecting it, some died in accident, some died in a bomb balst and God gave you the previllage of been counted amoung the living you should be greatfull to God.
Your family expect so much from you in future.
Know this: " when the wrong people leave your life the right things start happening".
I knw its hard, but please move on and you will be glad you did.
Thank you.

ErnieSmallzz:
hmmm this is why its not good to love wid all ur heart



op, just like what [color=#006600]our Oga smellymout.h said "BE STRONG"

the right woman for you would surely come. Dnt eva try to kill urself cos of her again, she doesn't worth ur death!


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Babaly, na me greet you pass oo

lol, babaly ke? Me is a girl na so it should be Mamaly

Smellymouth:


Babaly, na me greet you pass oo

cruzita:
what is wrong with some girls these days ?



oga LEAVE before u run mad for someone that isn't worth it .





Occupy yourself with something u love doing and concentrate on your future more





she will later come crying when she realises she left a gold for bronze

ErnieSmallzz:
lol, babaly ke? Me is a girl na so it should be Mamaly

Mamaly ke? If I bite you ehn

amaraedec:
I have not spoken to anyone about my ordeal but I sincerely hope your advice will go a long way towards healing me and restoring back my sanity.

I started dating this lady whom I still love so much February 2013, few months before I lost my mummy. I was so cautious of the affair at first, knowing that it was the first time I am getting so emotionally entangled to a lady, but after I lost my mum, I was so hurt and the fact that she was the only person very close to me then, I threw caution to the wind and fell helplessly in love with her, hoping that it would help alleviate the pains of losing My mum and praying deep inside my heart that the relationship will lead to marriage. It did to a reasonable extent alleviated the pains of losing my mum.

Even while I was in school, I gave her everything that I somehow lived in deprivation. Her friends were complaining to me that I spend a lot on her and it might backfire one day. I ignored their advice. I buy her handouts, clothes, Mobile gadgets and even give her certain amount of money on monthly basis to add up to her feeding money, I made sure she lived above her peers in school .

The whole problem started late 2014, when I was about leaving for my NYSC. she started acting quite strange, I respected her privacy that I don't even touch her phones, even though I give her the freedom to handle my phones and answer my calls. I noticed she wouldn't pick up her calls while with me. Like I said, I respected her privacy that I never gave so much thoughts into her actions, I loved and gave her my all believing that she will never cheat on me. Then on her birthday, I had got lots of surprising gifts for her and even arranged a little get together without her knowledge. To my greatest surprise, she surfaced at the venue of the party with the excuse that she was going on an errand for her parents. I handed over to her the gifts I got for her, she collected them and left the venue. Little did I know she had gone to see her erstwhile lover. Depression had started creeping in and I was losing my sanity apparently.

To cut the whole story short, when her girlfriend opened up to me that my girl was having affairs elsewhere, I never believed her at first, but after I confronted her, then I was looking so sick and pale, completely lost in thoughts and pains. She eventually opened up and was really sorry to the best of my knowledge . I couldn't help the pains, I. Started taking anti depressants, I have already vowed never to cheat in my life, knowing that prosperity has a way of rewarding Fidelity.

After I was mobilized for NYSC, I left for my Camp, but the ghost of a failed relationship was already hunting me, I had lost interest in living. Shortly after I returned back from my Orientation camp, everyone knew something was wrong with me, I only told them that it was the stress from Camp. Well, I was battered emotionally, that on 31st December 2014, I hit the rock button and decided to end my life and end the pains, I took insecticides and collection of anti depressants in over dose and battery acid, I cheated on death as I was in Coma for 4 days, I was referred to a psychologist for rehabilitation after I was discharged on the 12th of January 2015. I spent 6 months in rehabilitation Center here in Lagos State, where I was also serving then.

After the whole incident, I made up my mind to forgive her and give her a second chance since she was really sorry. The whole scenario started replaying itself, that she started acting strange again, already my friend had told me that she was seeing someone else. My family knew I was slipping into depression again and had wanted to fly me out of the country, but I was denied Visa when I least expected it. I had to leave Enugu for Lagos so as to keep away from her and the environment. but she still calls me on phone, saying that she still loves me, I truly love her so much. Am totally lost of words, lost of ideas. Am terrified to say the least. Am losing my sanity again. Please friends, depression is getting better of me at the moment.. I need a sincere advise

amaraedec:
Thanks dear, thanks for your encouragement and advice, I appreciate

iPopAlomo:
Depression is real, depression is a dark place... Sank into one last month for 0.01 second and vowed never to return... I now understand depression better... Be strong OP... Live life and be hopeful... Optimism has its perks... They keep you afloat... Keep your chin up and don't drink as alcohol is a temporary fix... Yeah i pop alomo but i haven't popped one in six months... All in all... Stay safe...

Yeah... Shag a few girls... You spread your emotions everywhere and become a Yoruba Demon... Like me... ... I crack joke... Haha...

bite me ke? Is you suarez

Smellymouth:


Mamaly ke? If I bite you ehn

dobys:


PLEASE DONT EVER TRY DIS SHIT OF KILLING YOURSLF 4 SOME1. I KNW LOSSING SOME1 IS VERY HARD NOT TO TLK MORE OF A MOTHER.I PRAY GOD WILL GIVE YOU THE STRENGHT TO BEAR THIS HUGE LOSS. PLS FORGET ABT DT GIRL CUS ACCORDING TO UR STORY U DID NOTHING WRONG TO HER SOO SHES EVIL AND WICKED. U DID ALL A HUSBAND IS 2 DOO ESPECIALLY D PRIVACY STUFFS MEN DISREGARD DAT AND U GUYS ARE JST DATING. I KNW GOD WULD GIUE U SOME1 BETTER. TRY FOCUS ON GOD, BE WITH TRUE FRIENDS AND FAMILY DAT LOVE U, FOCUS ON UR JOB, BE CAREFUL DNT THINK ANY GIRL U CEE CAN REPLACE UR MUMS SPACE IN UR HEART.