Emescot:
Yes I do!

Presh9OO:
Stop worrying your little head... Your pussy is enough to brng to the table, coupled with a good personality , I don't see why you would have a problem ..

BROS WHY NA

deathcomestoall:
Are you a girl?

AnthonioAlsaid:

BROS WHY NA

Mikylopez:
u really shouldn't feel depressed tho

makydebbie:
Happy new year!

deathcomestoall:
The necessity of the post was spurned by the uneasiness in me. I am not depressed, sad or angry surprisingly. I wake up excited like something's out here for me but it's always just the temporary moment of highness which fades into nothingness. I just wonder why I got it all wrong at some point in my life. Was it trusting in the honour of family or my own foolish mistake and uncritical mind.

It's been a couple of years now that I've been without a job and it's kind of impeded my life in a certain aspect. I know this would be a perfect time to leech off a guy(‘power of the pussy’) but I didn't grow up that way. I've grown up as the bread winner of some sort so, it's very difficult to start feeding on people's crumbs at this time of my life, at this age. Some might say I'm young(early twenties) but I've never for once thought about myself like that. I feel stuck in a 30 year old’s body. Anyone who grew up with responsibilities will feel that way.

And for the impeding part, I am too nervous to get into a relationship. If I'm getting into one right now, it would definitely be someone that's better than me in all aspect. This gives me the chills everytime and I want to stay single forever. Why? Right now as we become more like the western world and Imitate their gender equality culture, I know, read and see comments online where most guys don't want to be saddled with the responsibility of a jobless young lady. Many want working class and if I'm definitely going to be in a relationship, I know the kind of specification I would be going for would want a working class lady. I can't phantom the idea of going out everytime and not being responsible for some payments. All my life, I've shared bills equally or paid for my food while you pay for yours when I go out. I know, guys call me crazy but it's just my principle. I've been told to loosen up a bit but it's just something that stuck with me. I've never been on the receiving end all my life, always been on the giving end.

I just wonder why I'm not using my head to think. What can I do? A pastor once told me it's not my destiny to work for anybody but to own my own business. Even I myself know this because I hate a non-dynamic environment and get bored easily on a job. But I don't know why I can't just think of what to do with my life right now. Why can't I think of something, use my head? I don't doubt that I can do something, I just doubt time being on my side. A counsellor once told me at 30, he didn't know what he wanted to do with his life but as time(which I don't have) went by, he discovered. I don't want to be 30 and doing what a 20 year old should be doing.

Sometimes, I want to throw caution to the wind and go with this statement ‘power belongs to the people that take it. Nothing to do with their hard work, strong ambition, or rightful qualifications, no. The actual will to take it is often the only thing that's necessary’. And if I'm to go with that notion, it would be the ‘power of the pussy’ or something people would call bad. I hate the fact that everytime when I look back when I was doing well for my self and look at me now, I hate the fact that I've been reduced to this and ever considering this thought. My belief in diligence, hardwork is fading fast but I know my honour is inbuilt and it's almost impossible for me to damn the consequences and take the bull by the horn.

Sometimes, I think honour is just a word to enslave the ambitious and there's only one way to truly truly be at the toppermost of a career or something which could be by cheating, stepping on toes, planning evil, being dishonorable, sleeping around, etc. I know for a fact that those who are extremely rich don't have clean wealth 100%.

Does any girl feel this way? Not wanting to be a liability to any guy.

#earlymorningthought #justthoughttoshare