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| I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by odiij: 10:52am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Good morning, i had to open a new account to tell my story. I feel suicidal. Why? I'm no saint actually. I was in a relationship for 3 years with my ex. He was my first everything. We had sex occasionally and used protection though we were faithful to each other. However, along the line,i noticed he had temper issues and would hit me at every slightest chance, even without me raising my voice at him. At some point, i had to leave because love doesn't solve everything. Few months later, I met someone else who seemed like he loved me. I did the usual 'shakara', but i started having feelings for him. However, on my birthday, i had no plans and he begged to spend time with me. We went out, and I had loads of fun, i drank and ate a lot. At some point, i was so tipsy and wanted to go home but he offered to pay for two rooms in a hotel around, reason being that my hostel was a bit far. I agreed and whether he did, that I do not know. He had his way with me that night, I was so weak and couldn't fight so much. The next morning, he apologised and blamed the drinks for his unruly behaviour. I simply asked if he used protection but he didnt. I havent been the same since then. Its partly my fault, what was I expecting? I thought that mistake would end then, but I'm still paying.I decided to go for a test,because I'm so scared. Now, I've been diagnosed with having the virus 3 months later. I'm really not a wayward girl and now I feel suicidal. I dont know who to talk to. I know some of you will bash me, its normal, but please. I'm so depressed. It feels like everything I've been working towards has crashed. I dont know anymore. Please help me move this to front page. Lalasticlala |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by czarina(f): 11:00am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Don't even think of it ...you have the virus yes, due to your negligence yes, you learnt,yes. HIV is no longer the death sentence it used to be (albeit, from misinformed individuals) I know people living normal lives with the virus. ...go for tests to monitor the viral load, eat well, sleep well and please forgive yourself and the other person.. Avoid the temptation of wanting to get back at the world by distributing the virus.... You just have to take responsibility for your actions and seek closure from from people who truly care...and if you ever feel like you're all alone, remember God's with you on this journey. Peace! Pm me if you don't mind 2 Likes 1 Share |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by sinaj(f): 11:02am On Aug 16, 2017 |
You need a counselor to help you. I believe group counseling will help you dismiss the suicidal thought. You will surely be fine. 1 Like |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 11:02am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Please don't contemplate suicide. You can still live a healthy life, there are many individuals with the virus and are still achieving great things. Visit the centres regularly for counselling, eat healthy and pursue your dreams. 2 Likes 1 Share |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by odiij: 11:07am On Aug 16, 2017 |
I wish it was that easy czarina: |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by odiij: 11:08am On Aug 16, 2017 |
How do i get one? I'm so ashamed of this sinaj: |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by odiij: 11:09am On Aug 16, 2017 |
I haven't registered yet. I dont know if i can, the stigma... Dextology: |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by sinaj(f): 11:15am On Aug 16, 2017 |
odiij:The hospital you ran the test should have one. Upth has one too with lots of members. So there is nothing to be ashamed of. 2 Likes |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by iliyande(m): 11:16am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Suicide is not an option my sister. Moreover, people living with the virus lives longer now. What you need now is counseling. Get yourself enrolled in hospital offering antiretroviral drugs and please don't think of revenge on any innocent guy. 1 Like |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 11:22am On Aug 16, 2017 |
odiij: There's nothing to be ashamed of. Visit government health facilities close to you for counselling, some also give out drugs and professional advise on how to live a normal life. Also endeavour to do the test again after 3 months. 1 Like |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 11:31am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Just, wow!. Nice counsel. czarina: 2 Likes |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by odiij: 11:38am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Thanks a lot. I've sent you a pm czarina: |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by czarina(f): 11:45am On Aug 16, 2017 |
odiij:I replied and thanks for letting me into your world 1 Like |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by thesuave10(m): 11:48am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Why do I feel that you're lying. That somehow you willingly decided to fúck him and now you're disturbing us. So your on NL as well. Pls tell me your other moniker so I can stay away from you. Now the advice, get a good therapist or counsellor and start early to treat. Maintain good hygiene and don't attempt to spread the virus. HIV is nothing. Just be strong |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 11:58am On Aug 16, 2017 |
thesuave10: Why start with gibberish post and ended up with a subtle advise. Stop this infantile behaviour. 3 Likes |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by thesuave10(m): 12:02pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
Dextology: Shut up. The fact that I gave an advise does not change my opinion on the case that she might be lying probably foolish, should tell me her moniker and should not spread the virus. Get the difference block head |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 12:12pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
thesuave10: 1 Like
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| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by odiij: 12:22pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
You are entitled to your own opinion. Thanks for the advice. thesuave10: |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by thesuave10(m): 12:24pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
odiij: Anytime sweetie  . Now tell us that moniker  |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 12:29pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
odiij: Just ignore him dear. You don't need such negativity around you. 1 Like |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 12:45pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
thesuave10:Jezz!, you're so stupid. Even if the sex was consensual and she's hiding, should that be your worries at this point when the victim is seeking for counsel on how to stay away from attempting suicide?. Please, go and return your brother's phone you just borrowed to browse with. thesuave10:If you're worried she'd spread the virus, why don't you tame yourself from sending anything on "F" moniker PMs and having unprotected sex or better still, stay away from sex 'till you're sure you and your partner are tested free of the virus. 1 Like |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by thesuave10(m): 12:47pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
Benita27: Ok
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| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Nobody: 12:49pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
thesuave10:If they call you a dog now you'll cry. Mtchewww!. |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by thesuave10(m): 12:50pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
Benita27:
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| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by jokinexcel(m): 2:34pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
Sorry about that, just enroll for treatment at any teaching hospital near you, pm me I will tell you what to be taking to sour up your CD 4 count and reduce your viral load to the lowest minimum. NB. I don't sell drugs or information, it's free, just wanna be of help. |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Actuarydeji(m): 7:52pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
Sorry dear, please see it as a challenge ok. You really need help. dejiojo1989@gmail.com |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by jokinexcel(m): 1:46pm On Aug 22, 2017 |
jokinexcel:please call me we need to talk 08056190929 |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Lexusgs430: 3:30pm On Aug 22, 2017 |
odiij: The stigma does not heal it away or reduce viral load...... Seek medical help like yesterday (you would be dealt with, and your privacy and dignity maintained)........ |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Caprigal: 3:52pm On Aug 22, 2017 |
So sorry dear, I feel for you, I really do. Pele. Am sure the useless worthless idiot goat know that he had the virus but still went ahead to do it without protection. I had something similar happen between me and a guy, I was stranded far away from home and I almost left his place to book a room but he started swearing with God and promising that I am safe with him and he wouldnt do anything. I was a real mumu then cos I was young and naive and that was before I knew it was impossible for men to spend the night with you without attempting sex. In the middle of the night the idiot started dragging me and trying to remove my clothes, I fought back with everything and we broke so many things in that room. I am sure neighbours heard the noise and everything but nobody did anything. In the end I acted like I was going to cooperate and when he calmed down I gave him head to at least remove the urge from his head. I still feel so used and dirty even though it was just head. Take ARVs dear. HIV isnt a death sentence |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Caprigal: 4:01pm On Aug 22, 2017 |
And another thing; please don't tell anyone in real life about this issue except your doctor. Don't be tempted to confide in family and friends because people talk too much and they might start victimizing you. To avoid stigmatization from ignorant people just take your drugs and keep it to yourself. There are even ways to hook up with a positive partner and live a happy married life. |
| Re: I Feel Suicidal. I Need Help. by Xcelinteriors(f): 12:51am On Aug 23, 2017 |
Have you tried other clinic? I will advice you go for test in another hospital. Even if you have it ehen and so what? Is that why you want to kill yourself. Erase that thought from your mind and think of the way forward. We love you so much and don't want to loose you  |
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