Hello guys,

I just joined this forum to let this out my chest and seek help (just in case there's any possibility of finding one here). I am going through what I don't like to call (but I have to anyways) the darkest days of my life yet. I am going through severe depression. I am overburdened and overwhelmed by the human I have become

I'm a 14 years old, male, and I am attracted to the same sex. I found out about my attraction to the same sex when I was 6 after I grew very fond of one of my classmates that it went beyond what I knew everyone would call a bromantic relationship. It was confusing for me at that very young age to be experiencing that kind of feeling because I knew it wasn't morally or ethically right. I assumed my feeling an attraction for the same sex was one I would outgrow, so I didn't take it very seriously until I became a teenager and watched it surge.

I find that my attractions to the same sex is getting stronger like a raging storm. I have been to many church programs with hopes that my illness gets cured. Needless to say I always come back disappointed. This has left me feeling forsaken and too filthy to be redeemed

I am nothing but an outlier among my peers. Most of them have hit and are hitting puberty and are always talking about the opposite sex or fantasizing out loud about them while I am constantly feeling like the odd one. I'm constantly being called a Jew at school because I don't know how to woo girls nor am I seen rolling with them.

For the first time since forever, my grades have started suffering. I'm no longer interested in the things I used to be interested in. It seems the older I become, the more depressed I get. My parents think I am being rebellious and wicked failing at school because they know my IQ is at genius range. To them, I don't have any excuse to do poorly at school. But they don't understand the pain I endure being what I am. I cry myself to sleep most nights because I feel like a mistake, a filth, an abomination, a curse in human manifestation.

I am feeling suicidal but I can't leave my parents alone in this world; I am the only child. My mum waited 7 years before she had me due to infertility related issues. I was the miracle baby.
It is sad to see this is how I repay my parents. They have been my greatest supporters. I love them very much but I am losing my mind.

My faith is being shaken. I have asking God questions but I feel all alone, forlorn and abandon and left to carry this burden on my own. I had a normal childhood. I'm from a typical Nigerian home where morals and values of the bible are taught from childhood. I have been a devout Christian but my faith is trembling

And I have never being sexually abused at a young age. I don't attend an all boys school either nor have I ever attended one in the past. I was lucky to have a pretty normal childhood.

I just want to be like everyone else. I want to be like my friends. I want to be normal.

If there is anyone out there within or outside of space and time who's capable of rendering a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on please come to my aid right away.

Stopped reading at" 14 years old....."
Dear parents... Limit these ones phone usage. Monitor their data know their page history. I wonder what a 14 year old is looking for here. If he can access here he can access porn sites where he can feed his fantasy.

Wonder why Men like us are hardly gay? That's because at his age we had hobbies. We dey play ball for afternoon. Fly kite. Interstreet match. Do buggle bom buggle bom. Do catcher. Do Pepsi cola. We were engaged. Please find them hobbies....

You are 14 years old now and your tenses are over 24 years old.

Bro, grow up and stop writing for attention...

I didn't know you noticed this as well

Shibaraba:
Stopped reading at 14 years old

I'm 14. I turn 15 in Novemeber. Maybe I should add that I started reading at 2 years old according to my parents and teachers.
I have always been ahead of my peers. My IQ, 168, is in the gifted range.
I am a voracious reader.
Thank you

Shibaraba:
Stopped reading at" 14 years old....."
Dear parents... Limit these ones phone usage. Monitor their data know their page history. I wonder what a 14 year old is looking for here. If he can access here he can access porn sites where he can feed his fantasy.

Wonder why Men like us are hardly gay? That's because at his age we had hobbies. We dey play ball for afternoon. Fly kite. Interstreet match. Do buggle bom buggle bom. Do catcher. Do Pepsi cola. We were engaged. Please find them hobbies....

I had hobbies too. I play basketball, soccer and table tennis. I am also in my school science club. At church I am in the in choir

PlayerMeji:
You are 14 years old now and your tenses are over 24 years old.

Bro, grow up and stop writing for attention...

Thank you

Sadteen:

I had hobbies too. I play basketball, soccer and table tennis. I am also in my school science club. At church I am in the in choir

Bros go and get a job. you're not 14

old man claiming 14,i feel for your situation though but stop lying about your age.

Freestainworld:
old man claiming 14,i feel for your situation though but stop lying about your age.

I'm used to people doubting my age when they find out about my intellectual ability so it doesn't come as a surprise to me anymore. It is even adds to my depression when I am not understood or treated differently.

My teachers hate me -- not all though, I don't have many friends because everyone thinks I am arrogant which I know I am not. In school apart from being called a Jew, I am also known as the ITK boy. I learned a long time ago that people hate it when they think someone is insulting their intelligence, even when the person they think is insulting their intelligence is unknowingly doing it. No one likes to be reminded that they are less intelligent than others.

I can't help it but my intellectual prowess is congenital. I spoke my first words at 6 months, I started making complex sentences at 2 and started reading at 3. At 6 I was reading my mum and dads Stephen King, James Patterson, Agatha Christie etc. Even though I was warned not to read them, I'd sneak into their room to lift them off the shelf.

I was doing very well in primary school that my teachers asked my parents to promote me to a senior class. My mum suggested I got my IQ tested and on the two test I took I scored 168 and 175 respectively. My parents didn't tell me about my scores until last year. The school psychologist warned them not to tell me at the time I got tested. My parents just wanted me to to have a normal childhood but I went to a traditional primary school which I found extremely easy. School was dragging me back. I used to be called into senior classes to solve tough math problems. My parents are both gifted so its no surprise to me why I am like this

My mum and dad's friends love having me around because they believe I am well read above my age. They like to call me precocious. My friends don't understand me, I have to dumb myself down to be understood by my friends, relatives and teachers. I could write a book on how isolated and depressed I feel not because of my sexuality but my intelligence however I have put that on the back burner for now and am now focused on dealing with my sexuality.

I have also been asked which university I got my degree from several times both on and offline when I make contributions to topics most kids my age know nothing about...but I am just in SS3.

Sadteen:

I'm used to people doubting my age when they find out about my intellectual ability so it doesn't come as a surprise to me anymore. It is even adds to my depression when I am not understood or treated differently.

My teachers hate me -- not all though, I don't have many friends because everyone thinks I am arrogant which I know I am not. In school apart from being called a Jew, I am also known as the ITK boy. I learned a long time ago that people hate it when they think someone is insulting their intelligence, even when the person they think is insulting their intelligence is unknowingly doing it. No one likes to be reminded that they are less intelligent than others.

I can't help it but my intellectual prowess is congenital. I spoke my first words at 6 months, I started making complex sentences at 2 and started reading at 3. At 6 I was reading my mum and dads Stephen King, James Patterson, Agatha Christie etc. Even though I was warned not to read them, I'd sneak into their room to lift them off the shelf.

I was doing very well in primary school that my teachers asked my parents to promote me to a senior class. My mum suggested I got my IQ tested and on the two test I took I scored 168 and 175 respectively. My parents didn't tell me about my scores until last year. The school psychologist warned them not to tell me at the time I got tested. My parents just wanted me to to have a normal childhood but I went to a traditional primary school which I found extremely easy. School was dragging me back. I used to be called into senior classes to solve tough math problems. My parents are both gifted so its no surprise to me why I am like this

My mum and dad's friends love having me around because they believe I am well read above my age. They like to call me precocious. My friends don't understand me, I have to dumb myself down to be understood by my friends, relatives and teachers. I could write a book on how isolated and depressed I feel not because of my sexuality but my intelligence however I have put that on the back burner for now and am now focused on dealing with my sexuality.

I have also been asked which university I got my degree from several times both on and offline when I make contributions to topics most kids my age know nothing about...but I am just in SS3.

if that is your age, sorry but try and spend more time with ladies, with time you will get used to them and vice visal, I use to be very shy among ladies which I still have hidden inside me till date but as time went by, i started mingling with them by force and today, here I am talking to as a married man, try and grow some balls about ladies or you will keep feeling the other way round, depression won't solve your problem, prayer alone won't either unless you start rubbing minds with them.

You are alright.
Get it out of your head first that something is wrong with you, nothing is wrong.
Be open minded. Less judgemental.
And just love who you wanna love
Be safe

The evil gay spirit will surely leave you alone at once if I give you a collection of my Ebony porn library.

If you are really 14, then I must say you are really a genius because your English grammar is superb.

Although, I seriously and strongly doubt that.

On a final note, your sexuality is what you just have to live with.

I doubt if you can actually change it or wish it away.

My advice for you is to accept yourself as a gay.

And then try as much as possible to remain in the closet... most especially if you domiciled in Naija full time!

Because you won't like the homophobic backlash you will definitely receive should you try to 'come out' for sure!

Ndo.

bluefilm:
The evil gay spirit will surely leave you alone at once if I give you a collection of my Ebony porn library.

If you are really 14, then I must say you are really a genius because your English grammar is superb.

Although, I seriously and strongly doubt that.

On a final note, your sexuality is what you just have to live with.

I doubt if you can actually change it or wish it away.

My advice for you is to accept yourself as a gay.

And then try as much as possible to remain in the closet... most especially if you domiciled in Naija full time!

Because you won't like the homophobic backlash you will definitely receive should you try to 'come out' for sure!

Ndo.

Are you recommending porn to a 14 year old? You should be locked up and have the keys thrown away lol

Yes I'm 14 lol...I have met other 14 year olds with better grammar. They are everywhere but most of them are very humble that you will barely notice until you engage them in a conversation.

I have actually accepted myself. I made the post 3 months ago and I am proud to say that I have grown tremendously in my acceptance over the last few months. And I plan to come out of the closet once I turn 18. I'm growing a thick skin to handle all the homophobia and negatives that will be hurled at me after I come out.

Thanks

Freestainworld:
if that is your age, sorry but try and spend more time with ladies, with time you will get used to them and vice visal, I use to be very shy among ladies which I still have hidden inside me till date but as time went by, i started mingling with them by force and today, here I am talking to as a married man, try and grow some balls about ladies or you will keep feeling the other way round, depression won't solve your problem, prayer alone won't either unless you start rubbing minds with them.

Thanks but I have tried this and doesn't work. It actually get me more depressed when I watch my friends do it so effortlessly while I have to struggle with pretending to be who am not.
I think I'd rather be on my own now for the sake of my sanity

uncle stop the trash 14 years with such a writeup bros calm down and stop seeking for likes and comments, am out

massalati:
uncle stop the trash 14 years with such a writeup bros calm down and stop seeking for likes and comments, am out

He called me uncle

Person go. just come on social media come dey lie so that he go get likes. You better go find work...you can fool some people at some times but you can't fool all the people all the time

Sadteen:

Are you recommending porn to a 14 year old? You should be locked up and have the keys thrown away lol

Yes I'm 14 lol...I have met other 14 year olds with better grammar. They are everywhere but most of them are very humble that you will barely notice until you engage them in a conversation.

I have actually accepted myself. I made the post 3 months ago and I am proud to say that I have grown tremendously in my acceptance over the last few months. And I plan to come out of the closet once I turn 18. I'm growing a thick skin to handle all the homophobia and negatives that will be hurled at me after I come out.

Thanks

What you actually need is deliverance cos dats a demon troubling u. You want to come out as what Bro seek help from God.....open up to ur parents and get d needed help. Homosexuality is a sin to God and humanity. Flee from it before it consumes u. Suicide is not an option and don't allow d devil to steal ur joy by being depressed. GO FOR A SERIOUS DELIVERANCE COS U ARE A STAR. Remember that all homosexuals are hell bound #Thebittertruth. Accept Jesus Christ and be free from demonic bondage.

Gforce2019:
Person go. just come on social media come dey lie so that he go get likes. You better go find work...you can fool some people at some times but you can't fool all the people all the time

OK you've been noticed. Now you can crawl back into your hole

If truly your claim of being a Christian is true,then you should know that homosexuality is a sin and demonic.you would agree with me that d only solution u have is 2 open up 2 ur parents so that they can take you 2 a Godly church for SERIOUS DELIVERANCE that's d only way out..after which you should improve your relationship with God and be dedicated to rendering services to God in ur church u can jOin prayer warriors,choir and cleaners just keep urself busy and genuinely involved with God..he will heal you completely and u will become a survivor

Sadteen:
I'm 14. I turn 15 in Novemeber. Maybe I should add that I started reading at 3 years old according to my parents and teachers.
I have always been ahead of my peers. My IQ, 168, is in the gifted range.
I am a voracious reader.
Thank you

I feel your pain and totally understand your plight but I'd advice you to seek spiritual help in the form of deliverance from MFM church or simply get this book written by Dr DK olukoya.

The name of the book is PRAYER RAIN

Pray against the demons of sexual perversions .The Bible says in the book of Matthew 17vs21 that "Howbeit this kind goeth not out except by prayer and fasting"

Please do not give in to the whims and caprices of Satan.You need to pray seriously and completely surrender your life to Christ.

Am telling you that after 1 month of prayer and regularly studying God's word you'd see yourself hating anything homo.

May the Good Lord see you through .

Go and taste pussy .u will never run after nigas all in the name of bromatic relationship

Sadteen:
Hello guys,

I just joined this forum to let this out my chest and seek help (just in case there's any possibility of finding one here). I am going through what I don't like to call (but I have to anyways) the darkest days of my life yet. I am going through severe depression. I am overburdened and overwhelmed by the human I have become

I'm a 14 years old, male, and I am attracted to the same sex. I found out about my attraction to the same sex when I was 6 after I grew very fond of one of my classmates that it went beyond what I knew everyone would call a bromantic relationship. It was confusing for me at that very young age to be experiencing that kind of feeling because I knew it wasn't morally or ethically right. I assumed my feeling an attraction for the same sex was one I would outgrow, so I didn't take it very seriously until I became a teenager and watched it surge.

I find that my attractions to the same sex is getting stronger like a raging storm. I have been to many church programs with hopes that my illness gets cured. Needless to say I always come back disappointed. This has left me feeling forsaken and too filthy to be redeemed

I am nothing but an outlier among my peers. Most of them have hit and are hitting puberty and are always talking about the opposite sex or fantasizing out loud about them while I am constantly feeling like the odd one. I'm constantly being called a Jew at school because I don't know how to woo girls nor am I seen rolling with them.

For the first time since forever, my grades have started suffering. I'm no longer interested in the things I used to be interested in. It seems the older I become, the more depressed I get. My parents think I am being rebellious and wicked failing at school because they know my IQ is at genius range. To them, I don't have any excuse to do poorly at school. But they don't understand the pain I endure being what I am. I cry myself to sleep most nights because I feel like a mistake, a filth, an abomination, a curse in human manifestation.

I am feeling suicidal but I can't leave my parents alone in this world; I am the only child. My mum waited 7 years before she had me due to infertility related issues. I was the miracle baby.
It is sad to see this is how I repay my parents. They have been my greatest supporters. I love them very much but I am losing my mind.

My faith is being shaken. I have asking God questions but I feel all alone, forlorn and abandon and left to carry this burden on my own. I had a normal childhood. I'm from a typical Nigerian home where morals and values of the bible are taught from childhood. I have been a devout Christian but my faith is trembling

And I have never being sexually abused at a young age. I don't attend an all boys school either nor have I ever attended one in the past. I was lucky to have a pretty normal childhood.

I just want to be like everyone else. I want to be like my friends. I want to be normal.

If there is anyone out there within or outside of space and time who's capable of rendering a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on please come to my aid right away.

Don't mind people trying to tell you how to change who you are. You are born a homosexual, it is not learnt. The same way a heterosexual, all of a sudden start feeling attraction to the opposite sex at early stage of life is the same way your own is opposite. Nigeria is full of hypocrites and I don't think you will ever find true happiness in a society like Nigeria. Try to learn to be strong, you will surely overcome, God still loves you the way you. Work towards leaving Nigeria after secondary school or latest after first degree and move to a country where people don't judge you because of your sexual orientation. You are going to pull through

Hey just came across your post now... Do you mind if I reach out?

You're an exceptionally bright lad.

Sadteen:
Hello guys,

I just joined this forum to let this out my chest and seek help (just in case there's any possibility of finding one here). I am going through what I don't like to call (but I have to anyways) the darkest days of my life yet. I am going through severe depression. I am overburdened and overwhelmed by the human I have become

I'm a 14 years old, male, and I am attracted to the same sex. I found out about my attraction to the same sex when I was 6 after I grew very fond of one of my classmates that it went beyond what I knew everyone would call a bromantic relationship. It was confusing for me at that very young age to be experiencing that kind of feeling because I knew it wasn't morally or ethically right. I assumed my feeling an attraction for the same sex was one I would outgrow, so I didn't take it very seriously until I became a teenager and watched it surge.

I find that my attractions to the same sex is getting stronger like a raging storm. I have been to many church programs with hopes that my illness gets cured. Needless to say I always come back disappointed. This has left me feeling forsaken and too filthy to be redeemed

I am nothing but an outlier among my peers. Most of them have hit and are hitting puberty and are always talking about the opposite sex or fantasizing out loud about them while I am constantly feeling like the odd one. I'm constantly being called a Jew at school because I don't know how to woo girls nor am I seen rolling with them.

For the first time since forever, my grades have started suffering. I'm no longer interested in the things I used to be interested in. It seems the older I become, the more depressed I get. My parents think I am being rebellious and wicked failing at school because they know my IQ is at genius range. To them, I don't have any excuse to do poorly at school. But they don't understand the pain I endure being what I am. I cry myself to sleep most nights because I feel like a mistake, a filth, an abomination, a curse in human manifestation.

I am feeling suicidal but I can't leave my parents alone in this world; I am the only child. My mum waited 7 years before she had me due to infertility related issues. I was the miracle baby.
It is sad to see this is how I repay my parents. They have been my greatest supporters. I love them very much but I am losing my mind.

My faith is being shaken. I have asking God questions but I feel all alone, forlorn and abandon and left to carry this burden on my own. I had a normal childhood. I'm from a typical Nigerian home where morals and values of the bible are taught from childhood. I have been a devout Christian but my faith is trembling

And I have never being sexually abused at a young age. I don't attend an all boys school either nor have I ever attended one in the past. I was lucky to have a pretty normal childhood.

I just want to be like everyone else. I want to be like my friends. I want to be normal.

If there is anyone out there within or outside of space and time who's capable of rendering a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on please come to my aid right away.

You are too young to be on this forum

You are too young to understand what your sexual urges are

You are watching way too many liberal leftist pandering talkshows Ellen for your own good

You should be focused in your life and studies at this age

In four years time you would be 18 if at that age you post this then we can take you seriously...

Sexual orientation thinking for a 14 year old is a NoPe

Go on a holiday stay off pornography, start filling your head with good stuff

Lastly we all know this is likely a fake post for likes

GROW UP MAN

Ferdinandu:
Don't mind people trying to tell you how to change who you are. You are born a homosexual, it is not learnt. The same way a heterosexual, all of a sudden start feeling attraction to the opposite sex at early stage of life is the same way your own is opposite. Nigeria is full of hypocrites and I don't think you will ever find true happiness in a society like Nigeria. Try to learn to be strong, you will surely overcome, God still loves you the way you. Work towards leaving Nigeria after secondary school or latest after first degree and move to a country where people don't judge you because of your sexual orientation. You are going to pull through

No one is born gay

livebyday:


You are too young to be on this forum

no I'm not, this forum is a good place to read the news

livebyday:


You are too young to understand what your sexual urges are

My sexual urges started as far back as 7. I understand myself more then you who knows nothing about me

livebyday:

you are watching way too many liberal leftist pandering talkshows Ellen for your own good

I don't watch Ellen. I rather watch cartoons, Aljazeerah or read a book

livebyday:


You should be focused in your life and studies at this age

I am. If I wasn't, I'll be on the news for drinking sniper. We can't runaway or hide from ourselves and that is what I have come to understand recently.

livebyday:

In four years time you would be 18 if at that age you post this then we can take you seriously...

so just because I am below 18 means I can't be taken seriously no matter if I say something reasonable? This is not the ideal society we shld be raising children in. A society that looks down on you cos of your age regard less of whether you are saying something reasonable. Very very sad

livebyday:

Sexual orientation thinking for a 14 year old is a NoPe

It wouldn't be an issue of concern to me if the society didn't constantly have to remind me that I am an outlier.

livebyday:

Go on a holiday stay off pornography, start filling your head with good stuff

I don't see how this is suppose to help but thank you

livebyday:

Lastly we all know this is likely a fake post for likes


GROW UP MAN

but you wasted your time and energy composing a comment to a fake post. Why didn't you just ignore it or simply went straight to the point in calling out the post as fake? Smh

FuckHomophobes:
Hey just came across your post now... Do you mind if I reach out?

You're an exceptionally bright lad.

Thanks dear. Send me an inbox!!!

livebyday:
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No one is born gay

I knew I was gay since I was 2! But I didn't know what I was feeling, I thought that was how everybody felt lol

tegini:
Go and taste pussy .u will never run after nigas all in the name of bromatic relationship

it's on my bucket list. I'll try this. Hoping it will reset me to heterosexual!!

Ferdinandu:
Don't mind people trying to tell you how to change who you are. You are born a homosexual, it is not learnt. The same way a heterosexual, all of a sudden start feeling attraction to the opposite sex at early stage of life is the same way your own is opposite. Nigeria is full of hypocrites and I don't think you will ever find true happiness in a society like Nigeria. Try to learn to be strong, you will surely overcome, God still loves you the way you. Work towards leaving Nigeria after secondary school or latest after first degree and move to a country where people don't judge you because of your sexual orientation. You are going to pull through

Thanks for your kind words. I actually like my country despite all the hate that is constantly hurled at people like me by my country mates. I want to change the country for good so leaving would only serve to benefit me but not the entire Nigeria population