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Religion / Re: What I Did In California: I Could Not Help Myself. by PureBlood: 2:39pm On Jul 25, 2016 |
Thank you so much. I will be sure to take all your words of wisdom in my mind. Stay Blessed! waice6571: |
Religion / Re: What I Did In California: I Could Not Help Myself. by PureBlood: 8:30pm On Jul 24, 2016 |
Thank you for your advise. I feel like I have betrayed my God, God has been so Good to me, the only reason I am in California in the first place is because of God, God has been so faithful to me, He has lifted me up above my peers, and is using me to bless my family, My Mum is so proud of me, but she has no idea what I am struggling with...I just feel so afraid right now.. Do u also struggle with inordinate urges? How do you overcome them? sobastical: |
Religion / What I Did In California: I Could Not Help Myself. by PureBlood: 7:56pm On Jul 24, 2016 |
I am gonna keep this short and straight to the point, Please just advice me and don't judge me. I grew up in a conservative Xtian family, my father died while I was still young, but my mum single handedly put us all through college. While I was a kid I was always fascinated with girls cloth and my mums wigs, so many times I would dress up in womens clothing, and was even called a girls name in my JS1. But as I got older, I developed broader shoulders, grew tall and became quite mascular and acted less feminine, but something failed to change inside me, I am sexually attracted to men. As a Chriatian raised up in a Conservative Catholic family, and having a mum in Charismatic, I have always subdued my sexual desire, but today I did something Inhave never done and I am ashamed and afraid...yet I felt good doing it. At the Airport I got talking with this white American, who also turned out to be gay, one thing led to another and before I knew it, we were in the Bathroom of the airport kissing and caressing. He wanted to have MouthAction, but I stopped it, First because I am Christian, and Second because I am well aware of the possible sexual and even spiritual implications. I feel so guilty right now, and I am even more afraid because as a Christian, I have seen first hand the Power of God in prayers. I am afraid that God could reveal what I did in a vision to my mum, because God has revealed things in the past to my Mum about me which came to pass. But I did not choose to be gay, I am 24 and this is the first time I have ever kissed someone, and it is a man...I am even more afraid of STDs, even tho I only kissed the man, but we kissed deeply until we were out of breadth... I want to ask gay men in the house, who are Christians how they manage to subdue their sexual urges, because I am loosing it, and I know I serve a Jealous God...pls advise me. MODs pls move this to the right section if it is not supposed to be here. |
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