yungchop:
Salam Alaikum brothers and Sisters.

I'm quite ashamed to say this but I just have to.

For years now due to how much hardship I have faced I derailed from Islam. Not that I stopped believing but i stopped practicing, I don't pray and I lost home in believing I can always run to Allah. I was just living as the day goes by.

I have so much problems that I never excel in anything I do no matter how easy it looks. I've seek for solution but they always tell me I'm being affected by a curse placed on my by people who hate my mother because despite all they did, she still gave birth to me at an old age. If they can't conquer her then they will conquer me. My parents are late now anyway.

I've lost jobs, I've lost help, people often just decide to dislike me for no particular reason after they might have promised to help me, I've lost a chance to travel abroad without me having to pay one naira, my helper just stopped responding to me just like that even after he has done my passport without me paying a dime.
I've passed an interview only for them to call me on Monday that I should not bother to resume just like that.
My relationship keeps getting worse day by day for no good reason.
I left Nigeria and traveled to an African country by road but no improvement in my life yet...
I've got rich and influential family mmbers but none wants to help.

Let me cut the long story short, I did not bother to practice anymore because it seems the more I was praying the more things get bad for me. So I felt what's the use of my God can watch me go through all theses, I've never been genuinely happy for once since I lost my mom in 2013. I'm just 26 and I have experienced all of these, its way too much for me.


I've suffered or I always get depressed almost everyday. As a matter of fact the reason why I have not committed suicide is because I am my mom's only child. If I do so it means I'm ending her bloodline. I can't pay her love back with such. She gave her all and fought till her last breath. But still yet I still have suicidal thoughts because I just want to REST! Dead people have nothing to worry about.

But somehow there's this part of me telling me to seek my creator again.

Does Allah care about me?
Can he ever be pleased with me?
Can he put an end to my struggles?
Will he answer my prayers?


I need help, I'm broken. I'm tired of fighting.

I sympathise with you and hope that you get out of your problems.
However, the sad truth is "praying to any diety including Allah doesn't work" . Just be hard working, be hopeful and try out new approaches to solving your problems.

This thread is for Muslims who have unresolved questions about their faith. Feel free to share your feelings.

LordReed:


Good grief man, you were lucky! Glad you are well and safe. Fuçk all repressive governments.

thanks man

atheistconverta:
There's one with the moniker, xmuslim. If I'm correct, it's the same person that has the moniker, Aaliyu or so.

not the same moniker though. He is Hausa, I am Yoruba

AntiChristian:


Apostasy to an Islamic state is akin to treason!

It's death if the criminal does not repent!

Snap out of this cultist mentality. Religion should be a choice. Apostasy and treason are not the same. Muhammad himself would be surprised that you belief this stuff.

LordReed:


Hey man. Been awhile. Hope you are good.

That's alright these days I am less bothered by the labels people use to describe themselves. That they express themselves without ambiguity or dissembling is more important to me.

What you been up to? Hardly see you around these parts.

Yes mate

Putting it in a better perspective. I'm atheistic towards the god of Islam and other religions that I know of. But I'm agnostic regarding whether the universe and what it contains have originator(s)

I've been fine but busy enjoying life after leaving Islam. Life is better without the restriction of religion.

By the way, I left Islam and created this username while living in Saudi Arabia. I realized the risk was too high because if the authority should noticed me, I won't have my head again. I still went to Makkah for UMMRAH after my apostasy so that colleagues at work won't notice me and I attended prayers.

I am now living in one of the European countries peacefully. It is a relief I left Saudi unscratched after living there for over 5 years

Bacteriologist:



Tell you all you need to know about that silly religion called Islam.

In fact, it's not a religion anymore, Islam is nothing but a death cult created by a blood thirsty paedophile called Mohammed.

Christianity is garbage, but it's already a million times better than Islam because of its less violent stance.

@OP, there are many atheists in Islam as there are in Christianity. The difference is atheist Muslims are less vocal than we their Christian counterparts.

@bolded part. 100% because of the death penalty and other horrible consequences. Islam is a cult

LordReed:


There at least 2 I know of on here, Xmuslim and tintingz.

Long time mate.

I don't know if I can call myself an atheist though. I think agnostic describes me better.

Even though I know with certainty that Allah is fake and the gods in all the religions that I know are imaginaries, I still reserve a space in my mind for the possibility of a superpower or group of superior beings that initiate the existence of the universe and what it contains.

I don't know what that entity or group of entities is though and I'm okay with "I don't know" rather than following any religion and pretending as if I know.

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Putting it in a better perspective. I'm atheistic towards the god of Islam and other religions that I know of. But I'm agnostic regarding whether the universe and what it contains have originator(s)

Sadly but true

Irregular menstruation is a blow from shaitan according to the greatest doctor of all time - Muhammad

..

A woman had to complain before Allah remembered to mention women in the Qur'an

What if

2

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Life reality is hard, but fantasy is easy to accept

Math will be very important in heaven for jihadist

Boobs are very important to Muhammad

NO

So far, two Nigerian Muslims died during this year hajj and Muslims are rejoicing that those victims died in the most honorable way.

What happens to their relatives at home waiting for their return. Can't Allah return them home safely and still grant them paradise?

Allah can't protect his guest. Shame!

Finally, a Muslim scholar unveil the meaning of "no compulsion in religion". The mental gymnastic no be here!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sL9-wWV_FdQ&t=118s

You can imagine the analogy. Even my 10 yr old boy is more logical than this man.

Again. Stop listening to these bias scholars, read Qur'an yourself and you will see the anomalities

Poor woman. Unfortunately, women are the majority in any Muslim society

Freelane33:
I give my heart and soul to Allah
Subhanallah tawallah
I will worship you and serve your forever
Forgive all my short comings and pave ways for me to JANNAH.
I’m trying to learn somethings at the moment ,
How to pray , how to do ablution , how to do cleansing as I’m an adult and other .
Trying to quit smoking too because Islamic doctrine doesn’t allow it and it’s also a personal decision.
May Allah Subhanallah tawallah support and guide me throughout the phase of the self accountability

Don't go too deep in it. My candid advice.

They all welcome you now without asking you

why you join Islam

whether you understand Arabic

whether you have read Qur'an cover to cover

Whether you have read history of Islam and the wars between between companions and Muhammad relatives after his demise

... And so on

Believe me they will ask you all these questions if you realise flaws in Islam and decide to quit. They will all blame you.

Infact, in a sharia country, you will be killed if you attempt to leave after you embraced Islam.

Good luck in your new journey

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Fun fact. Black stone (supposedly from paradise) was stolen and held away from kaaba for 23yrs. Abbasid had to pay huge ransom to get it back to mekkah and it was already shattered.

Allah can't even protect his own house and stone

https://lifeinsaudiarabia.net/how-was-the-black-stone-hajr-e-aswad-stolen-from-makkah/#How_was_Hajr-e-Aswad_recovered

Full breasted women . Mu'min go enjoy for paradise.

Controversial 72 vírgins is graded Hassan sahih

I never saw this when I was practicing and it's graded sahih. This is strange to me

Unveiling what await Muslims in their paradise

I once posted similar stuff here and I even mentioned the number of times that accidents (ranging from fire, flood, crane crash etc) have killed Allah visitors. It's so funny how indoctrination could blind people from reality.

Keep up the good work brother

PAGAN9JA:


Both are useless myths.

don't mind the slave of allah

uthlaw:
can you tell us how the heaven look like according to bible...if Jesus is god as you claimed..
Who sent Mohammed as a prophet...
Why did Mohammed came after the departure of Jesus...
Even Jesus was not a Christian!

You just concluded that anyone that left islam becomes a christain. See how you reason