There are these days.. days when my strength fail me... days when I arrange my successes - things I fought so hard to achieve - before myself and they don't make any atom of sense.

Days when the emptiness.. take this humanoid form, and glare at me over my shoulders... days in which getting the juice out fails to form any meaning.. no matter the inducement.. and then any effort at it becomes a labour in vain.

Then you wish you had this just one person.. anybody..somebody.. better if it's the person u ever wanted but right there ur standing all by ur self and your successes with not a soul to share memories and moments with.

Then you imagine how others did it.. do it.

Then you want to regret all the sacrifices you made to get here but no you refuse cos they still seem worth it.. if only there was just this one person!

Then u remember that when others were socialising and bonding, you were serving compulsory solitude perfecting what seemed to be the most important then.

Now you want to be like others and you have no idea how it is done and again and again, you make effort at being someone's 'the one' but all they see is desperation, lack of wit and a machine.. yes! The machine you have conditioned yourself to be over the years efficient at everything except love

These lonely, cold and tiring nights make fun at you and enjoy how a well respected personality outside falls like a pack of cards inside especially at those times when u turn to ur body for gratification.

I have pain.. deep.. inner pain.. that I wear this nice smile to cover always or so I thought.. as recently, I have started thinking people see through me and visualise vividly the emptiness that lies inside..hmm the way they look at me.

Then I convince myself that they stare at me cos they're seeing this fine person.. that lame excuse does get me through that moment.

I look hard and wish I could see the future and see someone and be rest assured that it will happen.

Cos I have been like this day after day, week, weeks, month, months, year and years!!

And suddenly I realise how nice I have become to people but I wonder why it doesn't work .. probably cos they're seeing a 'nice machine'

I feel exhausted, and sometimes wonder why with my accomplishments I don't get someone walk up to me and make me feel needed

Ofcourse, i'm macho.. this is where I get to melt like ororo in hot frying pan.

Sometimes I try to settle for someone around the corner but that fighter in me refuses to.. prefering to stick to my 'old glory' of getting the best and what I feel I deserve.

Maybe I deserve the best.. yes.. but not the best 'the one'..

Dairy land - - - - - - - - - - ->>>>>

Men, is this for real? I'm touched; this is why I hate to read anything called diary on this forum .
After reading this, I believe Somebody sure needs help.

Go for 'the one' and, not 'the best'.

Go for the one who consider u to be d best and not the best who consider u to be d one. With love and submission, she will learn to be d best u want. No one will let u lead her if she feels she knows d way as much as u do or even better than u do.

#gloomy eye.
. speaking into state

@Oraculus,

Eyah, how touching.

First things first, upload a profile picture.

Register with dating sites. There's no guarantee you will find your choice there, but you will have the experience of sifting through varied choices which in turn will boost your confidence.

Just be yourself, man. There's someone for everyone. I know this. Even if you're a geeky, anti-social person, there's a geeky anti-social woman somewhere going through what you're experiencing. You just need to be connected.

You can create a thread in the Dating and Meetup section, drop your contact details and let the searching sisters connect with you.

You're a good writer, BTW. I was captured by this line

"when the loneliness takes a humanoid form and glares at me over my shoulders"

It's so poetic and the imagery, startling... at least for me. Absolutely lovely.

success is their only love


mind you, I didn't read it...

Pele

Love your hustle like your wife

They combat it by...

Ohms..

Modified :

Seriously, I was crying like you between 2011 and 2014. I had what over 90% of Nigerian men at my age did not have. I was like, me that women fall over to date when I was poor, now I ride in tinted windows, not even a single smile from any lady anywhere.

It pains when a girl asks you, " Don't you have a girlfriend " and you already know what she will say when you scream NO. So all I will say is you may never have what you feel you deserve, just get the one who believes in you. One that will assist your dreams and build it with you. Don't seek a fancy woman who depletes your financial status. You might be driving past her everyday but you don't notice her.

Put yourself out there is all I can say. Visit relatives, join local or church groups, go to naming parties, burials or whatever party you can find but make sure you surround yourself with the right people and not just anybody.

Hmmmm

Get Paid First Then You going to Turn An Employer - A Lot Of girls will Be Writing Application To fall in love with you

That's the problem an imperfect being expecting to meet that perfect one!!!

Losen up and learn to tolerate people most importantly be yourself there's definitely someone out there that will love you just the way you're.

Financially okay/ emotionally depleted.

That pretty sums up my life now.... The loneliness is real, at times when friends gather round share tales of escapades with SO's I just watch from the sidelines, generally I am happy with my life, I focus more on excelling in my job, becoming a better person is topmost and highly important agenda on my list. When I eventually meet the one I want to be a great guy for her, this hope is the one thing that helps me ease my loneliness some nights.

The post is so on point!

I have already achieved my main goal for this year on 26th May but no love life!

Anyway, there is God sha!

They visit baba!not the president BABALAWO

Ishilove:
@Oraculus,

Eyah, how touching.

First things first, upload a profile picture.

Register with dating sites. There's no guarantee you will find your choice there, but you will have the experience of sifting through varied choices which in turn will boost your confidence.

Just be yourself, man. There's someone for everyone. I know this. Even if you're a geeky, anti-social person, there's a geeky anti-social woman somewhere going through what you're experiencing. You just need to be connected.

You can create a thread in the Dating and Meetup section, drop your contact details and let the searching sisters connect with you.

You're a good writer, BTW. I was captured by this line

"when the loneliness takes a humanoid form and glares at me over my shoulders"

It's so poetic and the imagery, startling... at least for me. Absolutely lovely.

I love that you're being helpful, instead of letting this become a pity party.

Something has to give

Life o life...

Seriously I am beginning to think this way